A/N: I'm sorry this took so long, but Finals are here, and i was stressing, but hey its finally here ! yay i hope you all enjoy and review thankk you :]

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or Feeling Sorry for Celia.

No phone calls, no decisions, no crying, no stress. Just waking up.

The morning hours being my least favorite hours of the day, brought me happiness when I woke in Alice's little bed. The sun was just rising, I could tell by the dim light shining in Alice's room. Her tiny body was rolled up beside me, the covers piling on top of her. She was one to be freezing cold during the night.

Last night I had let Alice cry to me and she cried harder than I had ever seen her, looking like she would break any moment. I shuddered at the memory, praying I would only see her happy and chirpy as she always is. It was meant for her to be like that. It was so .. Alice.

I felt oddly relaxed this morning, shamelessly relieved. I couldn't help the big sigh I let out, as I stared out Alice's window. And the first coherent thought I could think of was Edward. It was like a yell in my ear, an attack to my heart. Edward. Everything seemed to be connected, or led me to Edward.

Like all the puzzle pieces finally were put together and the world suddenly made so much sense. It was absolutely ridiculous, yet incredibly true.

"We are keeping the baby." Edward's words repeated in my head about a million times, till I could finally grasp what he was saying. He wanted the baby, he wanted his baby. And I don't care if me being pregnant made him love me or if he always did, the point was, he wants to keep the baby, and I love him all that more for just saying it. Edward made me hate him, love him, like him all at the same time.

Dear Bella,

Could you shut up for just one moment? 'I love Edward I love being pregnant, I love everything la blah blah.' You're happiness doesn't satisfy us. What happened to 'oh my life its so terrible!' That! That there was absolutely entertaining. Where is the suspense? Where is the drama! We cant make a Hollywood film out of this love nonsense! You are ruining everything.

Suspense Builders.

Now I knew where I stood. I would keep this baby, and hopefully with Edward's support we still will. I would do absolutely anything. I rested my hand on the tiny bump on my stomach, watching the sun rise through Alice's curtained window.

Things would just get more difficult from here, and being pregnant was still a pain just like it has been from the beginning but now I was better. I could face all of it better, I could be strong for everyone. For the baby and I. I could do all of that. I felt hope again, I felt some kind of faith, but most of all I felt sadness.

I wouldn't pretend I was happy with this, I wouldn't act like now that Edward loved me things would be absolutely fine, because they wont. I would still feel all the regrets and pains. I would still want to cry every now and then for the death of a life I could have had. I would still feel miserable some days. That's what happens when you're stuck in this situation. That's how it happens. I let my tears flow down my cheek silently.

Ring

Ring

Ring.

I hurried to the phone set on Alice's nightstand, hoping it was just a bill collector. I didn't want to wake Alice or Katherine.

"Hello." I breathed.

"Bella?" The voice was familiar, it was light and warm. I froze my hands stayed wrapped tightly around the phone, and I could feel my heart racing. Why was she calling? Why would she call? What did she want? I didn't want to talk to her, I don't want anything to do with her. Even though I thought about her every day of the week, never once forgetting that I missed her greatly.

"Bella is that you? I know you're there." She spoke hurriedly, almost panicked. My heart broke just a little more at the sound of her voice, and I wasn't able to hold back any tears.

"Mom?" I whispered, not trusting my voice.

"Bella." Renee breathed into the phone. "I missed your voice."

"I miss you Bella. So much."

"I miss you too." The tears were in my voice now, my shaky voice.

"How have you been Bella?" She cried.

"I've been alright." I sighed weekly. "And you?"

"I've been okay Bells." She was sobbing quietly now. "I miss you so much. I miss my baby."

"I miss you too mom." It was hard hearing her like this, and comparing it to the broken Mrs. Masen I saw the other night. Her green eyes dead and hurting.

"Bella, I wish you could come home." She said.

Bella?

Did you hear that ? Did you hear what your mother just said?

Let us replay that for you.

"Bella, I wish you could come home."

Did you get that?

How about a little slower?

"Bella.. I … Wish .. You … Could …. Come … Home."

Alright well have fun figuring that one out.

Yours Truly,

INSTANT REPLY INC.

"Does that mean I can come home?" I asked, my voice filled with hope, hope that maybe I shouldn't have.

"You cant dear." She sighed. I back tracked and the phone went silent for about 3 minutes. Was this a joke, was she really serious. I felt my heart drop into my stomach, it mine as well have dropped right out of my chest and broke to pieces on the ground.

"I cant come home." I stated slowly. The anger was slowly building just as quickly as the tears and sobs.

"I'm sorry Bell-" I cut her off.

"Why are you calling?" My tone was harsh.

"Don't act like that Bella-" I cut her off again.

"Don't act like what mom? Don't act like I don't have a home? Don't act like you aren't helping me? Don't act like I feel disowned? Don't act like I want to come home? Why are you doing this to me?" "I didn't do anything Bella. You did this to yourself." She was fighting me now, the anger was there in her voice.

"You could have helped, you could have loved me like you were suppose to." I spat.

"I cant Bella. I just cant deal with that. You shouldn't have expected me to."

"You think I fucking wanted this? You think I want to deal with this bull shit on my own?" I cried.

"Watch your mouth." She barked.

"Fuck off." I spat.

"You listen Bella, you listen to me now! You know I love you, and you know I wish you were here, but we just cant have that here."

"You are full of shit!" I laughed. "Why are you calling Renee, what do you want? How may I help you?"

"I called to speak to Katherine hoping to reach you Bella, because I truly miss you."

"That's all fine and dandy Renee, I missed you."

"Bella stop that!" Renee almost screamed.

"No you stop that! You just keep lying to me."

"Bella!"

"I'm going to hang up, I cant stress, its bad for the baby." I began to take deep breaths.

"Please Bella, don't tell me you are keeping it." She begged and I stabbed the end button.

"Bella calm down." Alice's voice startled me, and I turned to see her watching me with concern.

"I'm fine." I breathed and wiped away the tears with my thumb.

"You don't sound fine." Alice sat up and put a hand on my back.

"I just talked to my mom." I sighed. "Its okay."

"And then what did she say?" Edward squeezed my hand as we walked down the empty road, the dark taking over the once bright sky and the pale moon replacing the sun. It didn't rain today and the sky had stayed absolutely clear. After my phone call with my mom, I didn't go to school, worrying Edward who came right when school let out.

And now here we are, walking on the silent road, holding hands. He kicked rocks while I stared up at the sky that was becoming dark. Every now and then I would look over at him, and our eyes would meet, and one of us would stop talking with out realizing it. He would play with my charm bracelet every now and then, and ask what each one was for.

He shared a lot with me with out knowing it, like how much he loved his mom.

"She taught me everything." He had sighed, and squeezed on my hands.

"And when she told me I would have to stay with my aunt Esme for a while-" He stopped to sigh, and I didn't push him any further. I knew what it felt like, I too had a deep connection with my mother that I am very convinced I will ever have again. I could see the pain in Edward's green eyes every time he mentioned his mother. She really was his everything. I wouldn't understand to much about that.

"She wouldn't even stay in the same room as me." Edward ducked his head and I felt like crying myself.

"Its going to be okay." I tried to look deep into his green eyes but it was getting darker by the second.

"She still loves you." I smiled assuring, and I could se his slight smile even in the dark. Then we would talk about something else to keep the conversation flowing and still be calm. Edward never once let my hand go, he didn't dare leave any space between us.

"I wish this was how we stated." Edward sighed when we stopped walking, both of us looking at the dark almost black sky, with tiny stars everywhere. You could forget where you were just staring at the sky. It was beautiful.

"We did things backwards." I sighed.

"But now we just have to get through it." He said for me , and a slight smile played on my lips and I imagined one on his too.

"You can just hold my hands Edward."

"And you can just hold mine."

"Is that all?" I teased. He rubbed the back of my hand with his thumb. I turned to look at him as he gazed up at the sky. The beauty of the stars had nothing in compare to Edward. The day might have been stressful but the night was perfect. It was beautiful. I didn't need much, I didn't want much. This was all it took.

The sun was out shining in the clear sky, making it hard for me to have a bad day. It wasn't only the big ball of fire in the sky, it was the looks Edward's bright green eyes held when we would pass, or he would say hi. My cheeks would burn with red and my stomach would fill with butterflies, and I would hope he knew the sparkle in my eye was just for him, and the glow radiating from me was just because I knew he was around.

I didn't ask questions when I passed him in the hall and I found a sad smile placed on his lips, it no doubt had something to do with his parents, and he would tell me when he was ready. But when I expected him to pass me in the hall with just a wave and that's all, he captured me in his arms pulling me into a hug in front of everyone in the hall. I couldn't quite register what was going on until he whispered in my ear.

"You look beautiful today."

I felt my arms move around him to squeeze him gently. I didn't care who saw, or who said what. Edward. That's all that mattered. My cheeks began to ache because of the smile that ceased to disappear.

"Thank you." I mumbled when he released me from his hug but not from his hold.

"I could get use to this." He chuckled lightly.

"Me too." I blushed of course. Edward leaned down and brushed his lips against my cheek.

"Everything is going to be okay." He whispered more to himself than to me.

"Of course." My eyes searched his dim ones. I could almost see the concern set on my face.

"Are you going to be okay?" My fingers lightly traced the bags under his eyes.

"Yeah. Just a rough night."

"I hope."

"I wouldn't lie to you Bella."

"I know."

"I love you, I meant everything I said."

"And I love you." I reached up to press my lips to his. "And everything will be okay."

"No matter what happens Bella, I promise I will be here." Edward's eyes were suddenly filled with deep emotion, emotion that made me want to cry. It made me realize, being pregnant still wasn't cute, and it still wasn't good, and I was still in a big problem. It made me scared but relieved I was realizing this. I held on tighter to him, and rested my head on his chest. "We are going to be just fine. Its nice to know I'm not alone."

"You never will be." Edward kissed my hair.

"How about we go to lunch?" I looked up at his jaw.

"Sounds good." He smiled. And I took full credit for putting that beautiful smile there.

We walked hand and hand to lunch. Never once did he let go. Just like he promised.

Alice wasn't in the cafeteria yet, that much I could tell when Edward and I walked in to the cafeteria, Edward and I holding hands. The whole room had grown just a little quite, and my cheeks flushed a light pink.

"Edward, Bella!" Emmett's booming voice silenced the whole room. Both Edward and I turned to where we had heard Emmett's voice to see him sitting at his usual lunch table and waving over at us. It was good to know we had his support. Edward gave my hand a squeeze, and began to lead me over to Emmett's table, where Jasper seemed to be sitting looking pissed.

"You okay buddy?" Edward nodded toward Jasper, as we took a seat across from Emmett and him.

"Jasper's alright. He just has a vagina that's all." Emmett sighed while Jasper glared at him. I couldn't help the giggle that escaped my lips. Edward turned to me giving me a lopsided grin.

"Shut up Emmett. Hi Bella." Jasper glared at Emmett then smiled warmly at me.

"Whatever." Emmett sighed "So how are you lover birds doing?"

"Fine." Edward rolled his eyes.

"I have a doctors appointment on Friday." I blurted remembering suddenly. I must have forgotten just like Katherine predicted I would. None of them at the table looked taken off guard by me bringing up the pregnancy.

"I'll be going to that. I knew that by the way." Edward nodded.

"Oh. Well I forgot." I shrugged.

"Its good I'm around." He joked.

"Of course." I teased.

"Oh guess what?!" Emmett boomed throwing his hands in the air with excitement.

"You like penis." Jasper muttered picking at his salad.

"Rosalie is coming back down to Forks." Emmett ignored Jasper's remark and my giggling.

"Wait when?" I choked out after my giggle fit, and soon excitement was bubbling in me.

"In a month or so, and I hope you don't mind, but I told her about your situation." Emmett looked sincerely apologetic.

"Its alright." I nodded reassuringly. "I planned to get a hold of her and tell her."

"She's really concerned and cant believe Edward's the father." Emmett was like a gossiping old lady.

"That's so nice of her." Edward said sarcastically. Edward moved his arm around my waist and pulled me closer to him, so I could rest my head on his shoulder, he planted a kiss on my forehead.

"I miss Rose. She was so nice." I sighed.

"Bella!" I heard a squeaky chirp from across the cafeteria.

"Alice." I sighed with a smile and waved for her to come sit with me, and in that instance her eyes met with Jasper's and they shared a quick glance before she began to skip over to our table.

"After noon, Bella." Alice sat gracefully beside me.

"Hey Alice." Edward smiled at Alice.

"Ello Edward. Emmett, Jasper." She nodded, and handed me my sack lunch. Jasper seemed to tense just a little and his eyes staid on his salad. Emmett cleared his throat after he eyed Jasper, like everyone else had been.

"Everyone's staring." Alice muttered taking out her pudding. I knew everyone was staring I was trying my best to ignore it but it seemed Jasper and Emmett were just realizing this, because they were looking out at the cafeteria incredulously.

"What the hell!?" Emmett looked up and down the cafeteria, Jasper nodding in agreement. The staring was embarrassing but I was trying to just pretend it wasn't there. Pretend maybe they were looking past me and at the wall or something. But it was too late now, the panic was slowly building as I stared intently at the table in front of me.

"Calm down Bella." Edward had obviously heard the change in my breathing. He ran his hands down my back in smooth circles, a comforting gesture. Those people, those students, they didn't know who the father was, they didn't know what I was going through. Tears were coming.

"I'm sorry. Their staring at me. I'll leave if-" My breathless rambling was cut off by Edward's disapproving expression.

"But I shouldn't be sitting with you." It came out more of a question when Edward began shaking his head.

"Bella." Edward sighed.

"Of course you should be sitting with us, you're practically having my nephew." Emmett boomed, and Jasper choked on his salad. I'm sure shock was written all over my face.

"No, niece." Alice rolled her eyes at Emmett.

"I'm pretty sure it's a little stud in there." Emmett nodded towards my Belly.

"I thought you said, you thought it was a boy." Edward asked Alice. When had they started talking?

"I changed my mind." Alice shrugged.

"it's a boy." Emmett sighed leaning back in his seat.

"Girl." Alice sighed leaning back in her seat.

"Watch it pixie."

"Watch it giant."

They sat staring at each other intensely, like having a silent battle. Emmett relaxed first and leaned forward in his seat.

"She's a keeper." Emmett nodded to Jasper, and Jasper choked on his salad again, while Alice blushed a light pink.

"You're going to kill him Emmett." Edward leaned over to pat Jasper's back.

"That's the plan." Emmett chuckled earning a punch in the arm from Jasper.

"You suck." Jasper coughed.

"Boys." Alice laughed.

Home, or Alice's house which ever fits.

As soon as Edward was gone I was back to stressing, I was back to being worried and depressed, I was back to old Bella.

Ring

Ring

Ring

The phone made me flinch, not because of the sudden loud ringing going on through out the house, but because I had an idea of who was calling. I knew she would call back.