A/N: READ FIRST! So i decided to skip the whole sleep over thing because i wasn't really feeling up to a lemon and didn't feel it appropriate for this time in the story, so i'm sorry to those of you who were looking forward to some lemony goodness :[ But i will let you read and see what has happened and what is about to happen {;
And thank you for all the reviews, i cant thank you enough. It makes a big impact on the story :]
Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or Feeling Sorry For Celia.
7 months into pregnancy.
Her light brown eyes sparkled with pure joy and serenity, the ocean there deep within her pupil, with miles and miles of green fields, dandelions galore, her hair cascading down her back in loose ringlets of curls, red fire curls surrounding her pale face. Rosy pink in her cheeks with every melodic giggle and breathtaking smile, love in each beautiful chime like word tugging on my heart in every corner. Sweet and innocence so gorgeous and lovable.
"Go fish." She giggled, with all her free spirit, rolling onto her back as we sit there on her bed. Her dress of all sorts of flower prints rides up her leg just the tiniest and she laughs harder at just that. Like chimes singing in the wind. I reach for a card in the deck.
"How are you so good at this game?" I raised an eyebrow teasing her.
"Practice remember." She laughed. Practice makes perfect I had told her 2 days ago, but she held on to everything I said like I would never be around again, like she thought I was as amazing as I thought of her. It could never be. This child was beyond amazing.
"Mhm." I giggled rolling my eyes, her giddiness rubbing off on me within seconds.
"I'm getting bored of beating you." She giggles and then puts her card neatly in the deck rolling back on her tummy something I was incapable of doing at the moment. Vanessa noticed this, curiosity flickering through those light eyes, and then she looked down at my tummy. Realization hitting.
"Mama says you have baby inside of you." She whispers. On Q my little baby boy bundled up inside me kicked.
"That's right." I smiled and wrapped my hands around my big belly.
"Does it hurt." Vanessa reached her tiny pale hand out in front of my belly, glancing up at me for permission.
"Of course Nessie." I placed her hand over my belly, and again the baby kicked.
"Oh!" She squealed jumping a little. "Do it again!" giggles erupted from her tiny pink lips.
And like he knew, he kicked again right under her hand.
"Does it hurt?"
"Nope."
"I love babies." She mused putting her hand by her heart. "So small."
I watched her as I always do when she sends me speechless with her tiny words.
"Mama said I use to be in her tummy." The six year old smiled a toothy grin at me.
"Really?" I tilted my head, I'd let her go on. I loved to hear her speak.
"Yep! And one day I'm going to have a baby in my tummy." She nodded confidently.
"Oh I see." I giggled.
"I can't wait." She sighed.
"Yes you can." I said quickly and she looked at me questioningly her eyes growing wide.
"It does hurt doesn't it?" She whispered.
"No, no. You just- you just have to wait as long as possible that's all." I tried to explain.
"Mama says the same things you do."
"I'm sure she does." I laughed.
"Is it a boy in your tummy?"
"I think so." I bit my lip. I hadn't really known, and when the doctor asked Edward and I, we both wanted it to be a surprise. But for some reason I had my mind set on a boy, that's what I wanted I think. Nessie looked at me questioningly again, but before I could answer another melodic voice entered the room.
"Is that Nessie?" His voice so smooth and relaxing. Velvet like, I had always said. Both Nessie and I looked to the door to find Edward leaning against the door frame casually, his eyes that piercing green. That hair a beautiful mess.
"It's me Edward!" The six year old jumped of the bed and sped into his arms. "It's me Edward!"
"How are you today?" He murmured into her hair.
"I'm doing great Edward! How are you? I played cards with Bella, then she brushed my hair, then we talked about the baby inside her tummy!" She never stopped to take a breath.
"Sounds like an exciting day!" He laughed his eyes sparkling with the same happiness Nessie had.
"It was!" She giggled.
"Very exciting." I nodded my smile wide.
"Don't you get board hanging out with Bella?" Edward whispered to Nessie, glancing at me teasingly.
"No!" Nessie just about screeched. "Never!"
"Alright, alright, just checking." He set her down on her feet again and she fell right into her own little world.
"Hello love." Edward plopped down on the bed next to me and kissed my cheek.
"Hello." I grinned, feeling absolutely complete with him there beside me.
"And how are you?" He took my hand and began tracing patterns on it, soothing me from head to toe.
"Just hanging out with Nessie.. being really pregnant.. you know the usual." I shrugged.
"You know Esme is going to be home in just a little bit. I was wondering If you wanted to come over for dinner." Edward seemed a bit nervous as he watched my hand and waited for my answer. I could see why he would be scared I would say no. Mrs. Masen wasn't my biggest fan at the moment, while Mr. Masen had grown to think I was quite alright, he treated me much better now that I had volunteered to help around the house since Mrs. Masen's accident. She didn't care very much but Edward and his father loved the idea. I wondered idly where Mrs. Masen had grown such an attitude towards me and not so calmly I found out one night. While I was putting away some groceries in the kitchen the phone rang and seeing no one was around I thought it was my job to answer it. It was my mother's number on caller ID. I practically died then Edward had to come and revive me when I was found having a panic attack in the kitchen.
"Why was she even at the hospital?" I complained as Edward carried me to his room.
"Can you please calm down." He sighed.
"No!" I screeched.
"Bella please breathe. You're providing oxygen for two now."
"Why was my mom at the hospital!" I ignored him.
"Your mother volunteered to come, and seeing it was my mother and I am the father of the baby, she was probably just being nosy." He shrugged.
"This is bad." I pouted.
"No its not."
"My mother's ruined me." I groaned.
"They'll get tired of each other." He winked. And at the time that was enough to sooth me. But every time I was around them thoughts like..
Dear Bella!
Hey long time no see! How have you been? We must tell you though; we had to think extra hard on where to send this letter, your regular address or Sea World, Shamu? Well it was nice!
Love National Teenager Association.
Or..
Dear Bella?
Are you completely retarded? Does pregnancy make you stupid? Then why did you just spill apple juice on the counter, then have the nerve to ask Mrs. Masen to help you clean it up after she watched you make a fool out of yourself and clearly dislikes you already? Just wondering.
Question Committee
"Please Bella?" Edward's pouting pulled me out of my deep thinking. I scanned the room reflectively, to see Nessie on the floor coloring. Just making sure she was okay.
"Yeah." I sighed, seeing there was no way out of this one. What's the worse his mother could do. I flinched.
"Really?" He smiled, that breathtaking sideways smile.
"Yes." I said more confidently. Mrs. Masen couldn't do anything too bad.
"That's it? No make Edward beg?" Edward eyed me carefully.
"Did you want to beg?" I raised an eyebrow.
"No, no." He answered quickly.
"I'm hungry." Nessie's little voice squeaked as she sprawled out on the floor.
"You're mom will be home in a few minutes, we'll eat lunch with her then." I assured her.
"Wanna come to dinner at my house tonight with Bella?" Edward slid onto the floor next to Nessie.
"Yes! Can I?" Her eyes glowed with pure excitement.
"Yep, I'll ask your mommy."
I had been quite close to Nessie's mom Esme, since I met Edward's uncle Carlisle at the hospital who happened to be married to the warm hearted woman. Esme was beautiful inside and out, much like her daughter, it was only what I would expect a child of Carlisle and Esme could be like. Pure inside and out. After meeting Vanessa and Esme for the first time, I was absolutely sure I wanted to be part of this side of the family. I volunteered to watch Vanessa anytime.
"They call me Nessie." Vanessa smiled wide and shook my hand. I loved the child the minute I met her. Esme who also happens to be Elizabeth's sister fell in love with me when I told her my story, and she was very supportive of my plans to keep the baby and Edward around. I wish Mrs. Masen could be more like her sister, but when I first met her she was indeed like her sister, sweet on the outside just like in, glowing with happiness every minute of the day. I just couldn't understand her now.
"Call Mary! Call Mary! She'll pick out my dress!" Nessie squealed as Edward wrapped her in his arms.
"I'll call Alice." I giggled at her excitement.
8 months into pregnancy.
"I can't fit this shirt; I can't fit this shirt, go ahead and burn this shirt!" Clothes covered Alice's bedroom floor, removing any trace of a nice pale lavender carpet. The mess was bearable on my hand, but the truth had me ready to roll on the floor and die.
"I can't fit any of this!" I all but screamed at the top of my lungs, throwing my hands in the air my face burning with red blush.
"Calm yourself, we'll find something." Alice watched me carefully, her eyes wide but amused.
"This isn't funny Alice. I'm the size of Shamu!" I groaned and plopped onto her bed that looked as if it had been drowned in clothes. My hands couldn't help but rest on my big belly; it was the largest part of me, taking all the attention away from my face or my hair.
"Shush, it is." Alice got up from the bed and began picking the clothes up from the floor, her face calm like she had a solution.
"Well what am I suppose to wear?"
"Go naked." Alice shrugged then giggled.
"You're a horrible person."
"I'm just trying to lighten you up a little you grump." She stuck her tongue out at me.
"I'm just tired." I sighed.
"I know, but we'll have fun tonight I promise." Alice said confidently, like she always does. She finally dropped Tommy late last month and has been a lot happier since, seeing that she was free and didn't have to feel guilty about stealing glances at Jasper, or brushing her hand against his. I wondered when he would finally make his official move, maybe he would tonight at the summer carnival. It had been weird thinking about going back to a carnival seeing last fall I had conceived my first child there, but I wasn't too bothered by it neither was Edward. I was sure he was unbothered by anything. He still loved me and kissed me in front of his mom even though she still hasn't warmed up to me, and he accepts that I no longer talk to my parents, and rather talk to Esme and Carlisle his aunt and uncle.
"I hope." I wobbled to Alice's bed to sit, standing was a lot harder than it should be at the moment.
"We will and don't you doubt it." Her eyes were almost as young and bright as Nessie's when she spoke.
"Here." Alice threw me a shirt, that looked like something appropriate to wear tonight.
"And you couldn't have said anything sooner?" I said incredulously.
"Watching you was fun." She winked and continued to clear her floor of clothes.
"Bella!" Edward stood from his spot on the couch as I wobbled down the stairs. His eyes went to my big belly and I swear he was glowing.
"Baby!" He rejoiced and put his hands on the either side of my belly, and the baby began kicking like crazy.
"You're son man." I complained teasingly, lifting up on my toes to press my lips against his. And like it was our first kiss, heat began to course through my body head to toe, electricity running through my veins. My cheeks were hot with blush and I was suddenly on cloud nine.
"Get a room!" A booming voice entered the room, both Edward and I turned to see Emmett Jasper and Rosalie standing there with stupid grins on their faces.
"Shut up." Edward rolled his eyes.
"I'm ready to party." Emmett said seriously.
"We're going to a carnival." Rosalie rolled her eyes as Emmett tucked her under his arm.
"Doesn't mean I can't party." Emmett said incredulously.
"I'm ready!" Alice announced bouncing down the stairs her dark blue eye shades lighter, and her vintage floral print thigh length dress hugging her body in all the right places. Jasper was definitely staring.
"You look hot." Rosalie stole my lines.
"Oh why thank you." Alice winked and skipped down to us.
"So what's the transportation dealio?" Alice glanced at all of us.
"Bella you me and jasper, in my car. And Emmett and Rosalie in his car." Edward
"Sounds like a plan." I smiled.
I put my hand in my back pocket.
"You know I hate these fries." Alice complained as she stuffed a fry in her mouth, while Jasper stood very close to her.
"Why are you eating them?" I asked incredulously, as I watched her.
"You have to have fries at the carnival."
"No you do not."
"Do to."
"Why am I even talking about this with you?"
"Because I Bella,-"
"Eat your fried Mary Alice." I cut her off and rolled my eyes. She continued to eat her fries slowly to taunt me.
"How do you put up with her?" I asked Jasper, and he boldly put his arm around her waist, I had to bite my lip to contain the 'aw' that was threatening to burst from my lips. He just shrugged and smiled proudly, and I couldn't help but laugh at Alice's frozen body, and wide eyes. She relaxed into his arms and I declared it the cutest thing I have ever seen.
"I knew he'd come around." I whispered to myself and turned the other direction, with my hands wrapped securely around my belly.
Edward was with Emmett and Rosalie at the moment, in line to get on a roller coaster. Something I wasn't aloud or safe to do at the moment so I told Edward to go ahead, while I stay back with Jasper and Alice. Being at the carnival wasn't as nerve wracking as I thought it would be, there was no horrible memories, and I wasn't having panic attacks. It's obviously loud here but I enjoy the noise, the loud yelling of kids and teenagers, the big lines for rides I could care less about. People from school walk by and do double takes, but I could care less, they don't wave and they don't smile they just pass me. I see Jessica Stanley standing by the entrance to the roller coaster line, but she's not in line. She looks at me then back at the ground. I surprise myself and wave. Jessica's eyes brightened up with something I wasn't sure of. She smiled back and then began walking towards me. I turned glanced behind me at Alice and Jasper to see if they noticed what just happened but they were too busy getting the soda machine to work. They would be.
"Hey." Jessica smiled the first friendly smile she has ever even attempted to smile at me. Her hair is pulled back and I can see her eyes are red from crying about a boy probably. She looks sad but really happy that she's talking with me.
"Hey Jess. What's up?" I wondered where all this friendly talk was coming from, I should want to bitch slap her for everything she put me through in the past yet I don't feel an ounce of anger.
"Just here." She smiled. "At the carnival." Sadness returned to her features.
"What's wrong?" I frowned.
"Boys." She shrugged her eyes glued to the dead grassy carnival ground. I knew it is my first thought and I feel kind of smug, but in the next second I feel bad.
"Hey I won't ask for all the details but I know it was probably his fault. Whoever it is." I tried to comfort her.
"Thanks." She smiled a little.
"Where's Edward?" She asks but when she says his name, she actually makes him sound like a human being rather than a piece of meat. I appreciate it and answer.
"Roller coaster." I said simply.
"Oh. That's why you're standing alone." She nodded gesturing to my belly.
"Yep." I laugh. It got really quite, well as quite as it can get when you're standing in the middle of a carnival. When I glance behind Jessica I see Tommy Jackson -from first grade, who told me he loved me then befriended me this year then went out with my best friend Alice, but broke up last week, and now is kind of pissed with both of us- staring at me. He didn't look very angry and his dark hair finally looked dark from here. Was he looking at me or Alice and Jasper behind me?
"Hey I just wanted to say.. sorry. You know for everything." Jessica finally broke the silence. Her apology caught me by surprise and I was sent speechless, not sure on what I should really say to that.
"I wasn't the nicest person to you. And you already have been through a lot, and I can honestly say I'm happy things are working out for you." She continued.
"Thanks Jess. That's means a lot to me." I smiled warmly.
"Bella!" I heard Edward's voice and I was instantly searching for him, but he found me faster than I found him. He wrapped his arms around me and held me close to him.
"Hey Jessica." He smiled politely, and I caught her staring.
"Hey Edward. Bella and I were just talking." She nodded, and things were getting really awkward. "I got to go, look for mike."
Jessica walked away waving by to me, then disappearing into a large group of people by the roller coaster.
"What was that all about?" Edward kissed my cheek, and I cuddled close to him.
"She said sorry." My voice was surprised.
"Really?"
"Yeah." I shrugged. Then my eyes searched for Tommy, but he had disappeared to, I was kind of disappointed him and I couldn't be friends anymore. I turned around to face Edward, and we stood as close as my big belly would allow us. My hands were around his neck and his hands were tight around my waist, while his eyes were on my belly.
"I still don't like her for all she did to you." He looked up to meet my eyes.
"That's okay." I whispered, dazed by his piercing green orbs.
"Really?" He smirked.
"You can live a life without Jessica Stanley." I shrugged.
"Are you jealous?"
"She was staring."
"Is that a yes." His smile was smug.
"It wasn't a no." I smiled.
"No one could ever, in a million years, give me what you give me."
"And what's that?" I tilted my head, and his green eyes sparkled with happiness. He sighed deeply before continuing, looking up at the night sky then back at me.
"A hand to hold.. A life time of butterflies… A never ending sea of excitement.. A place to go when it gets cold.. A sun when it starts raining… A beautiful face to look at when the world gets ugly.." He chuckled a bit running his thumb across my cheek, as I listened in awe.
"A forever of nothing but love." He whispered. I couldn't respond, I couldn't breathe, and I couldn't even see. Tears fogged up my vision and all I could do was get on my toes and force my lips upon his. We pulled apart to breath and he rests his forehead against mine. Of course me being the number one mood killer in a America, my stomach growls. Loudly.
"Lets get you food." Edward chuckled.
"Agreed." I laughed.
Edward and I found a popcorn/hot dog stand that I was totally up for. And ironically, literally an inch away from us was a cotton candy stand. I couldn't help but laugh.
"What's funny?" Edward asked as we made our way into the line. I thought about whether or not I should tell him. I just shook my head.
"Nothing." I lied, and he let it go. The line was moving a bit too slow, and there was way too many people crowded around, I was beginning to feel claustrophobic. I shifted my weight a few times trying to get comfortable but each time I would just grow more uncomfortable.
"Edward I'm going to stand over there." I pointed to the side of the cotton candy stand, and seeing he was watching me the whole time and could see I couldn't take all the people standing so close to us he just nodded and helped me wobble out of the line. I rested my hand on my back pushing myself forward and once I was out of the line I felt fine. I wobbled over to the side of the cotton candy stand and rest my body against the warm glass window, while kids and their parents excitedly paid for cotton candy. I watched slowly becoming board. People would look at me, and I would just ignore them. I realized we had totally ditched Alice and everyone, so I took out my cell phone.
To: Alice
555-9090
Hey –
Before I could finish my text I felt something. It was warm, felt like pee and it was currently running down my leg, and it wouldn't stop. I was strangely calm as looked down at my shorts and the water running down my pale legs, and the big stain on my high inner thigh. I couldn't possibly be peeing myself I thought while my phone still sat in my hands. Then it hit like a ton of bricks and I began texting Alice rapidly.
To: Alice
555-9090
Alice my water just broke
From: Bella
555 6090
And with that my phone slid out of my hands and on to the dead grass in front of me. I didn't know what to say, there was a baby and now we had to hurry to the hospital to get it out me, but I was only 8 months pregnant. This was wrong and shouldn't be happening yet. Tears began to form and I couldn't stop them. I wasn't contracting yet, but I didn't have the energy to call out for Edward. I was in definite shock. Edward stumbled from the line looking at my confused, then his eyes went down to my stained shorts and realization hit him much faster than it hit me. He dropped the hot dog and drink and rushed to my side.
"We got to get you to the hospital now." Edward seemed so confident, so sure, it calmed me.
"I'm going to be alright. He's going to be alright." I whispered to myself, as Edward soothed me and took out his phone to call someone. I couldn't be crying I had to be strong; I had to listen and do as told.
"Have the contractions started?" Edward asked me.
"No." I shook my head keeping my breathing even. I was scared to even think about contractions right now.
"No." Edward repeated my answer to someone on the phone.
"Alright, we're on our way. Tell Emmett and everyone else." Edward closed his phone.
"Oh." I groaned my back aching. I turned glancing behind us, remembering I had dropped my cell phone. I gripped Edward, holding onto him, my hand thrown over his shoulder. My cell phone was flipped open, and the big font was clear to read, even from here, wrapped in Edward's strong embrace.
From: Alice
555-9090
OH MY GOODNESS.
To: Bella
555 6090
Anyone see what i did there? How'd you like it ? I've been planning that for quite some time now, its great to finally get that out lol. Reviews are always loved and needed especially now, im very eager to know how you liked the deja vu scenario. :] ANDD the whole nessie thing? if nessie's already alive then who's in Bella's tummy? Lol