A/N Please forgive me for taking so long with this chapter, i was having some health issues but its all good now. Thank you so much for reviewing and i hope you continue. Much Love, Danielle.
Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight.
"Bella?" Alice called my name as she bounced up the stairs.
"Sh." I whispered as I rocked sleeping Emilia gently. "She just fell asleep again."
"Oh sorry." Alice mouthed her face apologetic.
"Grab me that blanket."
Alice tip toed to the pile of blankets that belonged to Emilia on the rocking chair, meant for Emilia as well. This past week we had been receiving so many gifts to Emilia, I wondered if this was my baby shower. Alice's room was covered with baby things, not to mention Emilia's life time supply of diapers stacked in the corner. I cried my apology to Alice one night, ashamed that I was being selfish in taking over her room, but she shushed me and made it quite clear that she was insulted by my selfless behavior. We giggled about this later.
"Here you go." Alice smiled warmly at Emilia, and helped me raise Emilia's body to wrap the pink cover around her.
"Thanks." I sighed staring back down at the baby in my arms.
"You know I don't think I have ever seen you so happy." Alice stated randomly, and I looked up at her in surprise.
"I like it." She smiled and sat beside me on the bed. "Emilia being here brought peace." Alice made a dramatic hand motion for peace then giggled quietly.
"Thank you." I laughed lightly
"I'm really glad she's here." Alice looked down at Emilia. "I have a feeling this was meant to be."
Her words made my heart soar, and for the millionth time I thanked god-
"Alice?"
"Hmm?"
"I thank god for letting me keep you forever." I smiled, finally getting the words out. Alice's eyes widened and I could see her eyes bright up. She was speechless, and I was glad. I wanted her to know how much she meant.
"Oh Bella." Tears made their way down her cheek and she tried to hug me gently while I held Emilia.
"Isabella!" The loud voice downstairs calling my name broke the special moment, and Alice was on her feet that instant to hush the voice before Emilia woke.
"Isab-"
"Shhh!" Alice hushed her way down the stairs, while I rocked Emilia a little faster.
"Sorry, sorry." I heard the voice whisper back.
"Jasper." Alice squealed quietly, and I rolled my eyes while I rocked Emilia. I could hear both of them making their way up the stairs, and now with Alice was Jasper Hale, her very new and improved boyfriend that I approved of. Jasper stood at the door with Alice wrapped up in his arms, her face glowing and her cheeks a light pink. I wondered if I looked that happy when I was tangled with Edward, or just hearing his voice. Alice looked great and I had never seen her so happy.
"Isabella." Jasper rejoiced in a whisper when our gaze met as he entered the room. His dirty blond curls bounced with each movement as he took further steps into the room, looking around briefly.
"Hello Jasper." I shook my head with a slight smile. His smile was bright as I spoke to him, and he took a seat next to me on the bed while Alice sat criss-cross on the rug in front of me.
"What are you doing?"
"I can't visit my niece?" He asked offended.
"Yeah right back off. She's mine. You've got Alice."
"But Emilia looks like Edward." He whined and Alice slapped his leg.
"That's sick." I laughed and they both joined in. I hadn't felt so care free in a long time.
"She's going to be a heart breaker." Jasper sighed. I hadn't really thought about how Emilia would be when she grows up, or even how I want her to be, but I already knew she was going to be beautiful, even more beautiful then now.
"Just like her father."
"And her mother." Alice whispered but I didn't look up.
"Speaking of her father, where is Edward?" I asked, feeling as if it was years instead of just yesterday since I had seen him.
"He should be here any moment actually." Jasper chuckled.
"What do you mean?" I raised an eyebrow.
"We kind of had this bet-" Before he could finish I rolled my eyes and looked the other way.
"It doesn't matter I was the first one here so I win." He finished.
"You guys are idiots." Alice scoffed.
Emilia began to squirm in my arms, I could feel her cry coming.
"Sh." I began to rock, and both Alice and Jasper went dead silent as they listened to Emilia let out a high cry, I even thought I would begin to cry myself. She was becoming more restless, and wasn't getting much sleep at night the poor girl would cry herself awake each time she found a peaceful sleep.
"I'm sorry baby." I cooed rocking her as she continued to cry. The rocking did nothing and she continued to cry louder, my heart breaking with each.
"Can you bring me her bottle?" I asked Alice not taking my eyes off of Emilia. I heard Alice scramble to her feet and run downstairs to fetch Emilia's bottle.
"Poor thing." I held her little body closer to me. "I'm sorry for waking you."
"Let me try." Jasper suggested curiously. I pretended to not here him, as I continued to rock Emilia, and she continued to cry in my arms. No one really holds her but me and Edward, sometimes Alice who gets really clingy and won't give her back and sometimes Katherine who is always eager to give her to me when she begins to cry like now. Come to think of it, when Emilia cries I end up holding her, unless Edward is around. For three more minutes I continued to rock Emilia, and she still cried loud and broken.
"Here." I caved and held her out to Jasper, who was shocked by my sudden decision.
"Hold her to your chest." I explained tucking Emilia in his arms securely and she continued to sob.
"Then rock her back and forth gently. It usually helps."
He took note of my instructions and did exactly as I said, rocking her back forth, a bit stiffly and awkwardly , but in only a few seconds, Emilia's cries died down and she relaxed into Jasper's arms. As Emilia became more relaxed so did he.
"You did it." I smiled just happy Emilia was okay now he simply chuckled quietly as he rocked her. Alice returned to the room with a bottle in her hand, and questions in her eyes. When her eyes finally set on Jasper her whole expression went to mush.
"Jasper got it." I smiled, and looked back to Emilia and Jasper.
"I hate the mall." I groaned as Alice pushed me into the mall, behind Edward and Emmett.
"For the last time I don't care. Emilia has never been here, she'll love it."
"She's 3 months old Alice." I sighed.
"She'll love it." Alice insisted, Emilia's eyes met mine from over Edward's shoulder, and I smiled a wide brilliant smile. Emilia stretched out her arms, and her lips mimicked the same smile I had just made.
"See!" Alice pointed at Emilia, and I slapped Alice's arms which created a real smile on Emilia's lips.
"Oh come on, it's not that bad." Emmett rolled his eyes.
"It's not bad for 30 minutes Emmett. It gets bad after I don't know say 5 hours?!"
"Hey we won't be here that long." Edward entwined his free hand with mine, and I immediately calmed down.
"I hate you." I mouthed to him.
"I love you too. It's our daughters first time at the mall, don't ruin it for her." Edward glanced at Emilia secure in his other arm.
"I just hate it here."
"So do I." Edward whispered making sure Alice didn't hear.
"I don't care if she hears." I stuck my tongue out at Alice, and she did the same back.
"Children. We are here to shop for Esme's birthday present, and Emilia a new dress that is all. Let's get it together." Emmett boomed, and there were more than a few heads turned in our direction from Emmett's loud announcement.
"Shut up." Alice giggled, and I buried my head in Edward's side to hide my blush.
"Not to mention Emilia hasn't seen anything but Alice's house, my house and the back yard." Edward squeezed my hand.
"She's only 3 months she's got time." I rolled my eyes.
"Do you really hate the mall this much?" Emmett nudged me.
"Yes." I whispered.
"Well we do live in Forks, it's not like Disneyland is right across the street." He reasoned.
"You're right." I hated Emmett being right, I hated it very much.
"Now can we leave the acting like a baby to the babies?" Emmett eyed smiling Emilia in her daddy's arms.
"Shut up." I pushed him away before he could start barking with laughter. I switched to the other side of Edward where Emilia was and played with her hands over his shoulder. She was so soft and happy, her big green eyes bright, her cheeks pink and rosy. I let the love I had for her distract me from the horrid mall, I let her little hands squeeze my fingers in wonder. In the last two months she'd grown a lot of hair, soft shade of brown much like mine, making her green eyes stand out.
"I love you." I whispered kissing her hand. She squirmed and smiled a nice big smile, her hands stretching out towards me.
"You don't want me anymore." Edward teased her kissing her cheek, then swooping her from his shoulder and cradling her to his chest. She began to choke out laughs hysterically. The sound was so magical, it made my heart drop then speed up, it made me want to laugh and cry all at the same time. She reached up to touch Edward's face as she continued to laugh.
"Is she laughing?" Alice skipped to the other side of Edward her smile almost as wide as Emilia's.
"Yeah." I giggled and moved closer to her.
"Adorable." Alice sighed as she leaned over to watch Emilia laugh.
"Hi." I laughed as Emilia's eyes crinkled up and she laughed a little harder.
"Ha!" Edward laughed holding her tighter to his chest.
"Her uncle's sense of humor." Emmett shrugged.
"Of course." I answered sarcastically then laughed.
The little baby wrapped in Edward's arms continued to laugh for a minute more, and we all stopped walking to just laugh with her, at nothing in particular. Her happiness made both Edward and I radiate with love and joy. If anything I wanted my daughter to be happy and loved, I would only give her the best. Even Edward was still getting used to having her around, although they looked absolutely perfect when together, we still can't get over the fact she's here and she's so unbelievably amazing. Renee would only call me so often, and briefly ask about Emilia, and I would give a short brief answer. Charlie hasn't even made an effort to talk to me, but I try not to dwell on those depressing thoughts, I much rather think about the love I have received from Katherine and Elizabeth even Mr. Masen who fell in love with our little Emilia.
"You two have changed." Elizabeth one of the nights I staid over with Emilia.
"What?" I asked confused with her statement.
"You and Edward. You act so much older." I could hear the honesty in her words, and the compliment was beyond shocking especially from her.
"It's hard for teenagers to raise a baby. But you two could be mistaken for a married adult couple."
Emilia wasn't hard to take care of, maybe by myself at times but I was rarely alone when Emilia was having a bad day. Even Emmett had helped out once or twice.
"It's still hard." I whispered to her. "To not know where you're going."
"It's a daily struggle, it's just easier to remember the positives."
Elizabeth looked at me curiously for a long time before composing her expression and standing up a little straighter and saying.
"You're honest with yourself. It makes you that much more mature."
I think a lot about how Elizabeth has changed towards us and if giving my mom the cold shoulder was the right thing, but I always decide in the end it was. She wasn't treating me like family, and I was more than family I was her daughter and Emilia was her granddaughter. I stuck with the thought that everything would be okay one day.
Emilia rolled into Edward's chest probably to fall asleep, and the show was over, I watched her still just as Edward did. Alice mentioned something to Emmett and I faintly heard her mention coming right back. I nodded my approval.
"I still can't believe you did it Bella." Edward whispered his eyes on Emilia.
"I can't believe we did it." I breathed. "I'm glad we did. Sure we could have waited a little longer ."
"Things worked out in fates way."
"Do you think if this weren't to happen we would still end up together?" He shrugged his question, I was familiar with the nervousness in his voice.
"No." I answered immediately. But regretted it when I saw the hurt flash in his bright green orbs.
"Well eventually. But we'd still be in two different worlds." I explained, softly pushing back a strand of hair that hung by his eyes. He raised his eyes to meet mine, and tilted his head ready to ask more question I'm sure.
"And say we realized we were in love later on, would it still be the same?" I didn't know where he was going with this. "Strong like it is now- I mean we are in love right?"
He was definitely nervous.
"Of course." I laughed, resting my cheek on his arm. "I know I'm very in love with you."
He sighed distressed, and I looked up at him curiously, watching his eyes flash with the internal conflict he was having. It was very odd when smooth Edward talked like this, like he was doubting something or nervous.
"Hey what's wrong?" I asked after he didn't reply.
"I know we're doing everything backwards Bella, but I love you very much so. More than anything I have ever even thought to love- well except mom and dad but that's beside the point- and having Emilia has made me the happiest person alive but I know teenage pregnancies don't work this well their not suppose to be so easy, things aren't suppose to come so naturally. Especially between us. I don't think this would have happened if Emilia wasn't in the picture or hadn't have been made. I think this was the only way we would have found each other and that's why it happened." He rambled, my eyes flickered with shock and surprise at each word, why was this coming up in the first place?
"I mean come one Bella, I asked for Cotton Candy, you're Bella Swan you don't just do those things- well I hope you don't- If I was Mike Newton you probably would have slapped me or called me a pig." He was right I probably would have said no to anyone else.
"This is what it took for us to find our soul mate." He sighed taking a deep breath, while I still watched him in shock.
"Soul mate?" I choked out.
"Yes. Soul mate."
"I- I" I couldn't form words but I couldn't even try he interrupted me.
"The point is, I don't just love you because you carried my baby, and I don't want you to think that." He breathed staring me deep in the eyes, my mind going blank with the power he held in them the serious depth I found.
"I know we're in a mall and it's the very most inappropriate place to tell you this but I have to tell you." He breathed, both of us breathing heavy my eyes searching his intently.
"Yes?" I whispered my voice cracking.
"Marry me."
My heart was beating out of my chest and I knew Edward had to hear it, blush flooded my cheeks with a deep red shade, and I could feel my hands shaking as I held on to Edward's arm. I couldn't think straight, I couldn't even see, I was so overwhelmed with the power of the question and all these knew realizations. All I could focus on were those bright green eyes staring down at me intensely.
"Marriage is a trap." My mother's voice rang in my ears. I never listened to her words well maybe I did but I couldn't respect them now.
"Sometimes you think you're in love." Alice had said to me 4 years ago at summer camp in Arizona, when I thought I loved my counselor Jake.
"No boyfriend? What you're gonna spend your life alone?" Rosalie asked when I met her for the first time all that time ago.
Marriage. I never thought about it, I never pondered about it till this very moment. Sure I had always thought I would end up with Edward forever, and love him forever I just forgot about the marriage thing. I was too young, he was too young people would look down at us even more than they do now with Emilia in the household. My mother would hate me more, my father wouldn't walk me down the aisle. Wouldn't it be wrong? The words so cliché that ever slipped out of any girls mouth or ran through any girls head made my heart skip a beat. The words I thought I would never say, the words spoken so many times but only meant a few.
It's not wrong, because I'm in love. I'm in absolute love, and it grows every second I'm with Edward and Emilia, it grows with every glance Edward gives me, it grows with ever kiss Edward softly plants on my lips, with every warm hug I spend in his arms. With everything I have and will have in the future, my heart beats for Edward. It belongs to him forever.
If mother was here to repeat her thoughts on marriage I'd reply with one answer.
"But I'm in love." I would breathe, I would pour my soul into each word, I would show them it was not just a faze, I would make them see what I have found in Edward and what he has found in me.
Edward's eyes dimmed a little when I didn't reply right away, but I quickly gathered my words and spit them all out.
"I love you." I touched his cheek. "I love you so much how could I not marry you?"
"How could you even think I would even consider saying no. I love you Edward. I'll love you forever." I reached up on my toes to press my lips against his delicately, passionately. A smile spread across his face and I could see the joy in his eyes reflected in mine.
"That's a yes." He smiled kissing me again.
"That's a yes." Kiss.
"That's a yes!" I giggled, and he kissed me once more.
"What's a yes?" Emmett and Alice walked up, both holding their own cone of ice cream, glancing in between Edward and I. Alice looked like a little girl, and impossible small next to huge Emmett.
"What?" Alice asked again becoming impatient, a giggle erupted from my lips and Edward let out a chuckle.
"We're getting married." I laughed tears filling my eyes.
Alice dropped her ice cream cone, and Emmett's face went completely blank. I laughed even harder, and Edward joined in.
"Married?" Alice whispered, and I nodded.
"Married." Edward chuckled.
"CONGRATS!" Emmett boomed happily throwing his hands up in the air, while poor Alice stood frozen in shock for a minute longer.
"Meaning a wedding.. planning a wedding. Oh MY GOD!" Alice squealed bouncing with joy.
"Oh my goodness! Bella you're getting married?!" She screamed.
"I think she might die of happiness." Emmett watched her concerned, tears fogged up Alice's dark blue eyes as her little body had spasms of happiness.
The scene had caught more than one person's attention, and there was more than just a few heads turned our way. And I could care less.
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