Edward and Bella in their famous meadow.

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"Blush (Only You)" - Plumb

"Chances" - Five for Fighting

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POV: Bella, Edward

I Thought I Lost You

BPOV

After the small Mother - Daughter talk, I felt so small. I always thought that my mom is childlike and fun loving, but I never knew the real reason behind it. Never knew the amount of hurt and sadness she had in her heart. When she broke, she changed herself to what she is today. I knew that they were really young when they married, I thought that it must be moms idea but it was dads. He wanted mom out of her depression. He was always by her side, that's what deepened their bond, the bond of love. Mom has suffered a lot in the past. That's why when she saw Edward and me, it reminded her of her past. Her dark past. She does not want it to happen it to me too.

But it might be different. I mean Edward was about to kiss me. Mom never mentioned any such contact with him, so maybe he never felt that way for her. Maybe it was just one sided love. It is not necessary that it would happen with me too, is it?

"Ahhh!" I groaned. My head was practically busting with ache, so I lied down on my bed, thinking. I do not know what to do. I do not know what our relationship of our means. If Edward left me then I surely will break. But who will be there to support me? Mom had Dad, but I have no one. "Damn." Why does this always happen with me? I stood up of my bed and went to the bathroom, took a good, warm shower to calm my nerves. It always works but this time the effect was not long lasting, as soon as I stepped out of the shower I again felt the chill. I need to get out of here as soon as possible, I thought to myself. I picked up the phone, to check whether it was still working, to my utter surprise mom was right it was working. First I thought of calling Alice and Rosalie, but they would still be mad at me. I sighed and dropped the phone back on the bed. Now what? I thought. I quickly slipped on my blue turtle neck sweater, faded blue jeans and boots, I don't exactly know where I will be going but right now I need to get out of this place. I ran through the stairs, I did slip once but thankfully did not fall. As I reached the end of the stairs I caught the sight of my mother, she was just about to ask me but I answered "Mom, I am just going out but I will be back in time for dinner." She shot me a quizzical look.

"But where are you going, Bells?" I could hear the pain in her voice.

"I don't know." I replied honestly, I did not want to lie about this. But she just nodded and left. I slipped on my jacket and went out.

It was cold, but I wasn't feeling much of it. All my thoughts where in the direction of what mom told me, wondering if it can be true. When I reached my truck I turned around and looked at Edward's house. I did not realize that there were tears flowing until the cool breeze touched then and tingled on my face, I quickly wiped away the traces and stepped into my truck's cab. I turned the heater on full speed and drove off. I was just wandering where to go, I started to drive towards Rose's house knowing I will find my two best friends there. But then I decided not to go there, they are still upset with me and I am not in the condition of explaining anything to anyone. So I drove in the opposite direction. I found I very unfamiliar path, a voice in my head was screaming to turn around but there was a pull that was attracting me towards that portion. For this one I decided to follow my instincts and turned towards that path. I was loamy and silent, not used by anyone. Exactly the kind of place I was searching for right now. I stopped my truck at the road end and got off. Ahead of me was a path that led towards the forest, I started walking on it. Thankgod I was wearing boots. I watched my every step while walking inside. I had just started walking, my feet caught a branch and I tripped, but thankfully my hands saved my face from hitting the ground. I got up and started walking, not bothering to look at my hands since there was no pain. After about 10 minutes of walking I stopped, realizing that I had reached quite deeper in the forest. I decided to sit under a tree nearby, so I started making my way towards it. I was just about to reach there but just in the nick of time I heard the cracking of a branch I turned around but saw nothing. Ok, now I was freaking out. I turned around only to notice that I forgot the way I came through. Perfect. I heard someone's footsteps coming closer to me, I ran. That's when I saw the shadow of a person chasing me, I ran faster. "Unh!" I choked as he tackled me, and we fell. The ground slammed into my back, and his weight pressed down on me, his legs tangled up with mine. His hand closed over my mouth. Due to the darkness I could not see his face, but his movements where clearly visible. He was looking around, finding someone. Probably his gang, fear clenched me. I bit his hand, he jerked it back.

"Ow, what the..." His voice sounded like I had heard it somewhere, but I still started struggling under him trying to get free of him. He took both my hands in one of his and pinned them above my head, readjusted me so that I could not free my legs. "Will you stop doing that." He growled. Again I felt like I knew him and when he spoke electric shock went thought my body. But this time I ignored my instincts cauz they are the reason I am here in the first place.

"Let me go." I shouted, thinking someone nearby will help me. But then I realized that what a lonely place it was. Damn. I doubt that there will be a human within 10 miles of this place. As soon as I shouted the guy looked down at me as if trying to get a better look at me.

"Bella?" As he spoke I realized who it is.

"Edward?" I just bit his hand. Shit.

"Bella? Oh my god, Bella are you alright." He asked in a concerned voice.

"I..um..I yeah, I am fine." Was all I could reply, as I was still stunned.

"What are you doing here?" He asked after a moment of scanning the place.

"I am... well I just came here to get some peace." I admitted.

"Did you see him?" He asked in an alerted voice.

"Who?" I asked, confused since there was no one except me and him.

"The person who was following you." He asked, still looking around.

"There was no one following me." I replied, but I was thinking hard. Still, I got no memory of anyone following me.

"Okay, if you weren't running from an attacker, why were you running like that?" This time he looked at me.

"I was running from you"

"Me?" He asked in an astonished voice.

"Yes, you."

"Why?"

"Because I thought that you were going to hurt me. Why did you tackle me to the ground?" Wow! I am proud of myself for talking to him so calmly.

"Because I thought that there was someone following you, so I tackled you to the ground to get you out of his sight." So he was trying to save me.

"Oh!" was my brilliant response. "What are you doing here, anyway?" Was he following me? Hope came.

"I came here for the same reason are yours. Do you come here often? Cauz I have never seen you." My hopes dropped.

"No, I came here for the first time." As I said that I realized that he was still on top of me and I was still on the ground. My heart beat sped from such close contact. He too realized that and got off from me.

"I am sorry for that." He apologized, embarrassed.

"It's ok. I mean you where trying to protect me, right?" I started to get up, but as I started to move my head up I felt it spinning. First I thought that it might be because I hit it hard on the ground. He noticed my hesitation.

"Are you alright?" He asked in a panicked voice.

"Yeah, I am fine." I replied in a weak voice, he did not buy it.

"I am sorry." His voice was burning with regret. "Come on." He said as he outstretched his hand to help me. That's when I realized that my head was not spinning because I hit the ground hard, but it was because of something else. Just then I felt a roll of nausea coming on full force. I got the smell of something like rust and salt...

Blood.

"Oh" Was the only word that escaped my lips as I got the real reason of my fainting. The scrapes that I got earlier on my hand had started bleeding, but I think they are effecting me even more because my hands had been pinned right above my head. I felt the blood draining from my face, and me slipping into unconsciousness. Why does this happen with me only?

"Bella!" He shouted as he noticed me. "Bella, are you alright?" He said as he leaned closer to me "Oh my, Bella." He said as he placed his ears on my heart to listen to my heartbeat. "Look at me Bella." Was the last thing I heard. Then suddenly I felt the ground beneath me disappear, and found myself in his arms. Why did I have to pass out at this moment? I did my best not to vomit on him, it is a good thing I had not eaten anything in the morning. "Bella, please don't pass out on me." His voice burned with pain and fear. I did my best to keep my eyes open.

"Edward" I spoke his name as I gripped tightly onto his shirt.

"Yes I am here." He said, I did not realize that we had come to the clearing until he placed me in his car. I was in so much pain that I never noticed that his car was not there in front of his house. Then suddenly I remembered something.

"Pl... please don't take me home." It would be the last thing that I would want my mom to see me like this, especially not after her breakdown. He placed me on the passenger seat and was about to close the door but I held onto his shirt and stopped him. "My wounds, please stop the blood." I said once I felt better since now his scent was overpowering the smell of blood. I saw him nod and then he disappeared, I thought that he left me but after a minute he returned and took my hand in his. I tried to focus on the warmth of his hand, the feeling his touch got into me. He slowly wiped the blood, since the wound was a bit deep I slightly winced. He squeezed my hand as if to comfort me. After wiping the blood, he cleanly bandaged it. One of the advantages of being a doctors son, I thought. As soon as the bandage was wrapped around my hand, I felt better. My nausea eased and the color of my face started to return. I heard Edward exhale in relief, as if he had caught his breadth for a long time. That made my heart flutter a bit, he cared for me.

"Are you ok now?" He asked, still panicked. At least it wasn't as if he was just about to call 911.

"Yeah I am fine." After a few minutes the nausea went away, and I felt like myself again. I saw him looking at me with worried eyes. "Really, I am fine. It's just, the smell of blood makes me uneasy and sometimes even faint." I admitted, embarrassed of myself. I heard a low chuckle, I looked in his direction only to find him laughing. Now since I was fine, I felt a blush creeping on my face. "What?" I asked, looking down at my hand.

"No, nothing. It's just" His voice drifted from humor to seriousness "when I saw you back there, I thought that you where about to die. Your face was so pale and the state you where in, I thought I lost you." Did he just say that he thought he lost me? Could it be just friends way or I love you way? "And being serious I have seen corpses of better color." He added, I saw the glint of humor returning in his eyes. "And it was nothing but weak stomach. Oh Bella! You scared the life out of me." He said in a mocking voice but I could see pain deep down in his eyes. "Come on, let's go." I started stepping out, he stopped me. "Where do you think you are going?"

"Towards my truck." I was not sure where I parked it. He shook his head.

"No you are not. I am not letting you drive in this condition, besides friends don't let friends drink and drive." He added with a smile, I melted. But as soon as he started to get me back in his car I argued back.

"Wait, what about my truck?" He stopped and turned towards me.

"Don't worry, I will get it later." But this will not help with mom situation, I thought. Then an idea struck me, I know that it is not the most brilliant plan but this is all I could think of.

"Edward, can you take me to Rosalie's house?" He studied me, then nodded.

EPOV

It was a hectic day today. I was getting annoyed sitting at home so I thought of going outside in order to get some fresh air. The only please I could think of was my meadow. It was something I stumbled upon while aimlessly wandering in the woods. It is the only thing that gives me peace of mind besides Bella. I sat in my Volvo and drove off. I sat there for quite an amount of time. I don't know but whenever I come here it just calms my nerves down and soothe me instantly just like a drug to an addict. I was deep in thoughts when I heard someone approaching me. I stood up, alert. This is quite a secluded section, not many people some this deep in the forest. I ran towards the movement and saw a girl. She was running like someone was following her so I did what I can. I tackled her to the ground as to take her out of the attacker's sight. She tried to battle me, but I somehow held onto her. There was something about her, her voice seemed so familiar, her scent. Just when she screamed I instantly recognized her voice. Bella. When I asked her what was wrong she simply laughed it off saying that it was a misunderstanding. Suddenly she stopped laughing and looked at me, I looked at her just when I realized that I was still on top of her so I quickly got off and apologized. When she was not about to get up I offered her a hand, but she couldn't get up then too. I panicked when she started to lose conscious. By every passing moment she was getting paler, and at one point she was even paler than a corpse. I scared the hell out of me. There is no way I could lose her. If it all happened because of me then I can never forgive myself. I picked her up and bought her to the car. As I sat her she suddenly held onto me and requested me to not to take her home but I was not to listen to her. So I was just about to close her door when she asked me to clean her wounds. I did. Later she started regaining her color and I breathed out the breath I didn't know I had been holding. When I asked her what happened she blushed and told me that it was because of the smell of blood that she went all nauseated. Now it was my turn to laugh. They way she looked like beck then, any doctor would have proclaimed her dead without even listening to her heartbeat and yet it was only weak stomach. When she got alright she stepped out claiming that she had her truck. Hell, there is no way I was letting her drive in that condition so I literally dragged her back to the car. She argued but I just brushed her worries off by saying that I'll get it back later. When I was about to drive she requested me to take her to Rosalie's. I studied her for a moment but the only thing that I could see in her eyes was worry so I did as said.

Sorry it took me so long to update. I am suffering from cold and that too in dead drop summer. Yeah I know, it kinda sucks but who said life was fair.

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Also did you guys find the Evernight refrence, if not then please read Evernight by Claudia Grey. Its real good, trust me.

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Much Love,

Bella