This chapter tells the hurricane of feelings going in Bella's mind.

Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyer owns the names. I own the plotline.

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"The Piano Knows Something I Don't Know" – Panic! At The Disco

"How To Believe" – Ruby Summer

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POV: Bella

What To Believe

BPOV

"Oh my god! What the hell is she doing outside Rose's house?" I voiced my thought without even realizing it. Edward looked at me with bemused eyes, I blushed and looked outside towards Lauren.

"Well, let's go and find out." Edward chuckled and started to get out of the car, I did the same. Lauren was still standing there, with her hands folded.

"It's nice to meet you, Edward." She greeted him in her nasal voice.

"Same here, Lauren" He replied, unable to contain himself from laughing. Lauren smiled at his remark and then turned towards me with a look of death on her face.

"Nice to meet you too, Bella." She greeted me, with venom dripping from her words. I flinched. Normally I would have answered her back but right now I was not in the condition for speaking to anyone, let alone her. I think Edward noticed my reaction as he immediately grabbed my hand and led me towards the mansion.

"See you later, Lauren." He called over his back to an open mouthed Lauren. "Are you alright?" He asked, as soon as we were out of her earshot. I nodded in response. "You sure?" He stopped and studied me.

"Yes, I am." I answered, not wanting to worry him anymore. He nodded and we walked towards the mansion hand in hand as Edward didn't let go of my hand, for which I was very grateful of him. After a few minutes Martha, Rosalie and Jasper's caretaker (more like their mother) appeared.

"Oh Bella! How are you?" She asked the moment she laid her eyes on me.

"I am fine, why?" I tried to sound puzzled, but from the look on her face I could tell she had caught my lie. Martha is known for studying a person inside out, just by looking at them. Even sometimes my mother is not able to detect that I am unhappy, but Martha is. When Rosalie's parents left, they hired Martha. She is like a mother to both of them, I can bet both of them listen to her more than their parents.

"Bella" She said in a warning voice.

"Really Martha, I am fine." I tried to reassure her.

"Ok, if you are alright then why are there tear traces on your face?" She asked, as she crossed her arms. Damn. I could feel my eyes moistening at the ends, she too saw it. Her face softened and she held shoulders. "What is it Bella?" She asked in a concerned voice. I got forward and hugged her, tightly. "It's ok Bella. Shh, don't cry." She looked at Edward for the answers, he simply started at me, clueless.

"Bella, what happened to her?" I heard Rosalie as she came down to see who came.

"Bella, honey. Why are you crying?" I heard Alice asking me.

"What happened Martha?" This time it was Emmett who asked, I have never seen him use this serious tone.

"I don't know, I mean she just came. I asked her what's wrong and she just broke down." Martha explained as I stayed there clinging to her, sobbing even harder.

"What happened to her Edward?" Alice turned towards Edward.

"I have no idea." He simply explained, but I could hear the pain and care underlying in his voice.

"Come on Bella, Rose take her to your room." Martha started prying me off her, I let go. Everyone gasped as they looked at me. My face was paler than usual, my eyes where red rimmed from crying so much and lastly whole of my face was tear streaked.

"Oh my Bella!" I heard Rosalie gasp. I don't know what happened but suddenly everything started moving and I started to fall down.

"Bella!" Edward screamed and caught me and picked me up.

"Take her to my room." Rosalie instructed, he did as said. I griped his shirt to keep myself from falling. After a few minutes I could feel Rose's soft bed beneath me. Edward slowly pried my finger off his shirt and then the dark took over me.

I woke up in Rosalie's bed. My head was throbbing very badly and my eyes where paining like hell. I recalled what happened to me and all I could remember was – Meadow, Edward, Lauren, Martha and me crying franticly. I slowly got up, looked around me only to notice everybody soundly sleeping. Rose and Alice where on one side of my bed, Emmett and Jasper where on the couch and Edward was on the other side of my bed, holding my hand. It felt really nice. But right now I had no idea what time it was, I arched towards the clock only to discover that it was 2:30 AM. What the hell! Mom!

"Shit" I whispered. I quietly tried to get up from the bed without waking anyone, but as I moved Edward woke up and saw me getting out of the bed.

"Bella, are you alright?"Was the first thing he asked. I nodded and proceeded to get off the bed. He looked at me with concerned eyes. "Bella, what are you doing?" Edward asked as he got up from where he was earlier sleeping.

"Um, nothing. I just wanna go home." I whispered back.

"No way. Come and lie down, you are still weak. How can you even think of driving in such a condition?" He asked as he helped me lay down again.

"But Edward, I have to go home. Mom must be worried about me." I explained.

"Don't worry, Alice already talked to your mother that you are having a sleepover at her house." He said in a calm voice.

"What about you, what are you guys doing here?" I asked as I realized that everyone was here at this hour of night.

"Well, according to what I said to my mother Emmett, Jasper and I are supposed to have a guy's night out. Whereas according to what we said to your mother Rosalie, Alice and you are supposed to have a girl's night out." He said, sitting on the edge of the bed. Just then Alice twitched and Rosalie woke up.

"Oh, Bella. How are you feeling now?" She asked, getting up. Alice, too, woke up.

"Bella!" She screeched so loudly that Jasper and Emmett fell off the couch.

"What, what happened?" Emmett asked, starleted, as he jumped on his feet as we have just been robbed. Jasper was still lying on the floor, trying to register what just happened. Edward, Rosalie and I laughed at them. Alice pouted but soon bombarded me with her questions.

"Alice, she just woke up. Let her relax a bit." Rose interrupted Alice's interrogation and for once Alice listened to her and let it go.

"What happened?" I asked, looking at all of them.

"What do you mean by 'What happened'?" Emmett asked in a animated voice.

"Jazzy, will you please hit Emmett hard on the head." Alice asked Jasper. Just then I heard a loud thud and an 'Ow' from Emmett. "Thank you, Jazzy." Alice winked at him, he smiled. I looked around at everyone for answers.

"Bella, as soon as we bought you in my room you fainted." Rosalie explained.

"How are you feeling now, Bella?" Edward asked. I almost forgot that he was even here.

"I am feeling fine." I answered with a small smile. He visibly relaxed. "Um, Alice?" I called.

"Yeah?" She looked at me, I signaled for her to take the boys out since I wanted to talk to them in private. She understood and nodded. "Come on boys, time to go out for your boys night out." Alice got up stood in front of all of them with hands on her hips.

"Alice!" Jasper and Emmett protested in unison. But Alice was not listening to anyone so she started shoving the boys out of the room, even Rose got up and helped her.

"Alice, I am not going anywhere." Edward said in a stern voice. Alice narrowed her eyes on him, I understood what she was planning.

"Alice, no." I said in order to stop her, Edward turned to look at me with a puzzled look on his face. She turned towards Jasper and Emmett.

"Take him out of here or you will have to pay." She threatened them, and boy from the look on their face I was unable to control my laughter. Two tall and muscular boys afraid of a tiny pixie. Way to go Alice!

"Come on, dude" Emmett and Jasper towed Edward out of the room, as he got out of the room he looked at me and I smiled and nodded, with that last glance he went.

As soon as the boys were out, Alice locked the door and came to sit by my side on the bed along with Rose.

"So Bella, what is it?" Rose asked after few minutes of silence. I sat there for a minute, thinking what to speak. Then I started from yesterday night, when Edward came to drop me at home. Alice and Rosalie where shocked when I told them about mom, they even cried, but listened silently. Then I told them about the meadow incident, at this they smiled. Then I told them about what Lauren said to me, and my talk with Martha. Now they understood my reason of breakdown. It was around four in the morning when I finished explaining things to them. It felt so nice to finally let everything out of me, to know that someone else also knows your reason of grief. After I explained things we sat in silence, comfortable silence, trying to figure out things together.

"Bella, I don't think what happened to your mother will happen to you too." Alice was the one who broke the silence.

"Yes Bella, from what you told me I think Alice is right. I mean even tonight Edward did not leave your side since you fainted. He did not talk to anyone either, he just kept looking at you, waiting for you to wake up. I could see the love in his eyes for you." Rosalie explained.

"Yeah, the way Edward acted, I felt it too. You know it was his idea to make the phone calls to settle things out." Alice added. I was shocked at this confession, because I thought it would be Alice's idea to do such a thing.

I started analyzing everything that happened in these 72 hours. Everything happened so fast that I had no time to think what it meant. Until tomorrow I thought that mom and dad had a happy love story and it was mom's idea to marry early, until tomorrow I thought Edward and I where just friends. But today since morning I have got a lot, and I am simply not able to digest it all so easily. And from what happened some hours ago was something out of my knowledge, something I did not understand. If Edward really felt towards me as a friend then why did he hold me in the car? Why did he soothe me? Also from what Alice and Rosalie just told me, it got me even more confused. There are a thousand questions revolving in my mind at this moment.

What if mom is right?

What if Edward really does like me as a friend?

If it all is true then I certainly will be heartbroken.

But what if it's not true.

What if Edward really likes me?

What if his feelings are same as mine?

I was caught in a whirlpool of emotions, and the worst part is that I do not know the way to get out of it. I have a lot many questions with me, but have no answers to them. It's been a hell lot of time since Edward and I met but I still have no idea of what to name our relationship. I am still all confused.

"I have no idea." I said after a moment of thinking.

"What do you mean?" Alice asked.

"I mean I have no idea of what it is." I explained, from thinking so much my head started to pain real badly. Killer headache. Great. This is all I needed. My stomach growled, I remembered that I had not eaten anything in almost 24 hours. "Um, Rosalie. Can I have something to eat?" I finally asked as my stomach growled again.

"Sure" She said getting off the bed to get something to eat, I got up too. "Bella, where are you going?" She asked as she saw me following her.

"I am coming with you. I just want to walk and stretch a bit." I explained, she nodded. Alice too came and joined us. On our way to the kitchen we noticed that the boys are nowhere to be found. "Rosie, Alice, where are the boys?" I asked.

"I have no idea." Alice responded. We went to the kitchen and Rosalie quickly opened the fridge and took out an apple for me. Hungry, I quickly finished it. Then I ate some pop tarts, finally my stomach got some food in it and it stopped hurting. As I finished with my night snack we heard footsteps coming towards the kitchen, we stiffened. After a few minutes we heard a boom of laughter and we understood who it is. Emmett followed by Jasper and Edward entered the kitchen.

"Where did you guys go?" Alice asked immediately as they entered the kitchen.

"We went to retrieve Bella's truck." Jasper explained. I looked at Edward who was looking at me.

"But why did you go at this hour of night?" Rosalie asked. She had a point.

"Well you girls needed some privacy and we were getting bored so we went to get Bella's truck.

"Thankyou." I whispered with gratitude, happy that he remembered his promise.

"Your welcome, Bella." I don't know why, but I always like it when he spoke my name, it sounds like a musical note hearing from him.

"What are you girls doing in the kitchen?" Jasper asked.

"Bella got hungry, so we came here to get some food inside her." Alice said, I blushed.

"Come on guys, let's go and get some sleep." Emmett said, yarning.

"Yeah, see you later girls." Jasper said, going towards his room.

"See you later Bella." Edward said looking at me as he left the room. I looked at him in amazement. With these final words the guys left the kitchen and went towards Jasper's room to get some sleep.

"Bella, do you want anything else to eat?" Rosalie asked, as soon as the boys where out of the earshot.

"No, Rose. I am full." I replied, getting down the kitchen aisle.

"Kay, so let's go and get some sleep." Alice too got up and we headed towards Rosalie's room. When we reached Rose's room, Alice and Rose quickly went to bed since they were tired on the account of all the events that took place recently.

"Night guys." I whispered as they pulled up the covers.

"Night Bella." Rose answered.

"Yeah, night Bells." Alice too, replied. After a few minutes I could hear them sleeping peacefully. I am so lucky to have such caring friends, I thought to myself. As I had slept earlier I got off the bed and stood near the window. From there I saw my truck in Rosalie's driveway, tears started flowing down my cheek.

I am still confused what all this means.

I still need to figure out what I mean to him.

I still need to figure out whether we are in love or not?

I am sorry for the long time between the updates. I had gone on a family outing and forgot to take my laptop with me, so here's a big update for you all. And to make up to you all I am going to update more frequently from now on.

Also go check my new story 'Death She Grows Near'.

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Much Love,

Bella