Yuki: I've had Internet for a few days and I've gotten obsessed with something else that has helped fix the holes in this plotline.
Anika: Something useful for once.
Yuki: KUROSHITSUJI! (Black Butler!) It's something I must save money for.
Disclaimer: Butch Hartman would projectile vomit out of every orifice if he would read this misshapen horror of a story.
Warning: Just prepare for some insane sh*t, just in case. Prepare, also, for a CHAPTER OF DOOM AND MAYHEM… AND SOME SEX… JUST IN CASE…
Note: Based on episode 1 of season 2 Memory Blank.
Songs used: I'm With You by Avril Lavinge
Written from August 21 to
Note: August 31, 7:16 am: I feel shitty. I lost my flash drive, sending me into a panic because I can't turn in my Jonathan Edwards Paper without it. I get told off by my mom for not being organized, not getting ready in the morning, doing non-homework things on the computer, etc.
I want to swallow pills.
Note: 3 September 7:21 pm: I turned in my Edwards paper. My spontaneity for doing stuff, such as e-mailing my paper to myself, not being able to use it for said purpose, and needing it the day I freak out, leads me to believe that I prepare for the future on a whim. (My email version of my paper, I edited it and turned it in online. I now have a new flash drive that I shall treat, along with my 1st Flash drive, as my new baby forever... Would be pretty good if I found my other one though.)
RIP 2nd Flash drive (2008-2010)
Happy Birthday 3rd Flash drive (2010-?)
Note: September 25, 9:02 pm: I lost Internet again. My mom couldn't find the billing statement (Internet bill-keeping is pretty much my job... I still don't have a job, btw). I am currently at a cousin's house, 150 miles away from home. Thank God for Internet stealing... I wonder when this will be updated.
Guess What!
I found my 2nd FLASH DRIVE!
Note: 3 October, 4:24 p.m.: Working on a paper for my mom. Putting off working on an Emerson paper. Oh well, I get money for the first one.
Chapter 15: Vertigo
"… and since you promised we'd all go on Friday, I bought us tickets." Sam stood smugly in front of the sign that advertised Trinity of Doom!.
"Danny?" Said boy turned to see Paulina Sanchez walking over to the trio, three flyers in her hands. "You never told whether or not you were coming to my quinceñera on Friday."
"That's because, when you invited me," Danny explained, grabbing the flyer/invitation. "I thought you were joking."
Tucker smiled. "And forgot to invite me."
Sam scowled. "And remembered not to invite me."
Paulina laughed. "No, silly. You're all invited." She handed the techno-geek and goth their invitations, smirking mischievously.
Tucker made a fist and threw it in the air, while Sam crumpled the invitation in both of her fists.
"Yes!" "No!"
Danny smiled. "Really, Dev?"
Tucker and Sam were still clueless at the weird names that Danny, Paulina, and apparently Valerie went by. Paulina was 'Dev', Danny was 'Nny', and Valerie was 'Ten'… They could see not real connection to anything, ANYTHING, that they knew Danny was into.
Paulina smiled. "Really. I knew Danny wouldn't come if I didn't invite you two, but I especially want Danny to be there."
"Watashi?" Danny looked either hopeful or lovestruck… Sam hoped that she made a mistake on both theories, but that was difficult, considering the boy had just spoken in JAPANESE.
"Of course," Paulina said, somewhat seductively. "My papa is throwing the party at the country club, and it's happening on the same night as the meteor shower." She showed him the statement on her invitation. 15th Birthday. METEOR SHOWER!
I'm standing on the bridgeI'm waiting on the darkI thought that you'd be hereBy now
"Y quiero tener tiempo contigo, porque ya no te veo en escuela. Puédemos ver la pélícula que ella quiere ver." Paulina blushed and began to skip away, turning back to Danny. "And since the ghost boy shows up wherever you do, I figured I had no choice but to invite you and your loser friends." She winked at him, knowing that Phantom and Danny knew each other, but she had no crush on the ghost… More like a hero worship. As long as it would keep Tucker and Sam from knowing how close Danny and Paulina had always been…
"Hey," Tucker said. "We're right here, you know."
"Yeah, I know." The Hispanic girl walked away, visions of a female android in her mind.
"The ghost boy?" Danny followed speaking, calling to the girl. "Oh, he'll be there, Paulina! I promise!"
Tuesday in Lancer's class…
Joy.
"Thousands of meteors will be visible in the skies of Amity Park this Friday." Lancer was teaching class, knowing that Danny was probably the only one memorizing anything that he would be saying. The boy had been caught changing his grades from "As" to "Cs".
As an act of self-preservation, Danny had said.
As an act of not having to deal with others' expectations, Lancer had argued.
There's nothing but the rainno foot steps on the groundI'm listening but there's no sound Isn't anyone trying to find meWon't somebody come take me home
Didn't matter anyway, really.
"People tend to wish upon these 'falling stars' without realizing that at the speeds they're falling," Lancer resumed, demonstrating the falling with a small bit of meteorite that he had obtained in his backyard as a child. "They could drill through your tiny head like they were wet TOILET PAPER!" He blinked, coming back to reality. The front row of students blinked back, somewhat disturbed by their teachers eccentricity.
Sam sighed, drawing possible Danny Phantom logos in her notebook.
"Papa says that the stars are falling on my birthday just for me." Paulina smiled, folding her hands together and resting her hands on them romantically. "I'm going to wish to meet the Ghost Boy, and if one of those meteors flies towards me, the Ghost Boy could save me!"
Dash awoke from Dreamland, remembering something from 7th grade, giving his eyes a cloudy look. "Oh, right. You know what I'd wish for? Extra arms to catch more footballs."
He turned to Danny, who sat next to him. "And to wail on you, Fenton! But that doesn't technically count as a wish, because I can do that anytime. Watch!"
"Ow!" Danny held his arm where the fist had made contact. His katakana scribbles littered his notes, a long line going from the "su' in "Kakimasu" (I [shall] write).
His ghost sense went off. A large lizard-like ghost appeared, growling menacingly.
…
Shit.
Danny was all smiles on this lovely Tuesday. Paulina invited him to her quinceñera and they could finally rebuild their friendship. Paulina was even going to watch the Femalian v.s. Terminatra v.s. Nightmerica with them at the movies... If only Sam wasn't being such a jerk about the party and let him explain.
"You can't blame me for this, can you?" Sam said, feeling accused as Danny spoke of the large lizard ghost that went after Paulina at school. Danny knew that his friend felt contempt for Paulina, and he wouldn't put it past her to try and hurt Paulina.
Should friends think of friends that way?
"Well, it's got something to do with you, but don't worry. I saved Paulina, so you don't have to apologize."
"Good, 'cause I'm not gonna." Sam put her fists assertively on her hips.
"You just have to wear the Specter Deflector," Danny said, rummaging through his backpack, pulling out the device, and securing it around the girl's waist, "and stay out of the way."
"What!"
"Sam, something weird is going on and you're clearly the cause of it. It's probably better for all of us if you just lay low." Danny, then Tucker, mimicking Danny, put their hands flat in the air and lowered them in example.
Danny heard Paulina scream, transformed into Phantom, and made Sam promise to stay at the picnic table that they were sitting at.
"Oh, I will. I promise."
As Phantom and Danny flew away, he heard Sam shout, "The same way you kept your promise about going to the movies Friday!"
"Excuse me." Sam glared at Danny, having saved him from Terminatra and accidentally shocking him with the Specter Deflector, causing him to fall back into the park fountain. "I save your butt, and you're giving me grief?"
"Welcome to my world, remember?" Danny felt... irritated, that the girl in front of him was so self-righteous... somewhat like that German... "'We should make the menu recyclo-vegetarian', 'We should let the gorilla out', We should sell all of your dad's stuff at a garage sale'." He crossed his arms.
It's a damn cold nightTrying to figure out this lifeWon't you take me by the handTake me somewhere newI don't know who you are but II'm with youI'm with you
"So, what else do you want to blame me for?" Sam struck a satirical pose, openly mocking the boy in the pool of water. "World hunger? The Ice Age? Puberty?"
"Sam, those ghosts knew your name. Either there's another Sam involved in ghost-fighting, or it's you." 'I don't want it to be you, Sam... You'll regret it so much.'
"How about a 'thank you', huh?" Her anger and jealousy were rising, Phantom could tell from inside his master's body, her soul becoming darker by a hue. "You think Paulina would've saved your butt back there?"
"She would if she wanted me to come to her party, which she happens to." Danny was honestly exasperated with the girl. She was acting like a child who was told she could have a toy if she was good, disobeyed her parents, and still expected a toy without letting her parents tell her about the big birthday party that they had planned for her the next day.
"Danny, I swear," Sam said heatedly, "there are days when I wish I had never even met you."
Danny felt much like how that woman had made him feel when he was younger. Yet he followed her.
"I wish you had never been born!"
"Sam! Wait!" Danny got out of the fountain and began to follow her. He turned when he heard ominous laughter follow him.
I'm looking for a placeI'm searching for a faceIs anybody hereI know
"FINALLY!"
Danny turned
"Desiree?"
Phantom appeared. "I wish that Miss Manson's wish was delayed until my master fulfills his task."
Desiree scowled. "So you have wished it and so it shall be."
Phantom turned to Danny, both somehow maintaining a solid form. "Run, my Master."
Danny ran. Of course, he didn't run fast enough to escape the barrage of monsters that Desiree sent after him.
"Damn. I wish I had something, someone, to help me get to Sam."
"So you have wished it and so shall it be."
"Hop! Step! Jump!"
"Sam!"
Sam stopped her scooter and saw Danny in the air… in his human form. He landed on his butt on the ground beside her. There were glowing wings coming from his back, only about 8 inches long from each shoulder blade.
"Danny, what the-"
"No time to explain." Danny said, eyes frantic and searching for the ghost threat. "Sam, Desiree-"
"The genie ghost?"
"Yes, she heard you wish that you never met me!"
Sam gasped, hands flying to her mouth. "Danny, I swear. I didn't mean it."
"Oh no! My hair!" Sam turned her head and saw a little floating cheerleader. She looked like a chibi character from some girly anime. The little cheerleader had big sky blue eyes and black hair in a ponytail. A blue visor shaded her face and her little cheerleading outfit was a baby blue.
"Rani! Stop with the hair!" Danny yelled at the little cheerleader, whose blue eyes filled with sadness, then elation.
"Yay! GrH!" Rani smiled, going to hug the other little chibi character that was zooming towards them. The little character, grH, had white hair and had little cat ears and a tail and contrasted against his black jumpsuit.
Cause nothing's going rightAnd everything's a messAnd no one likes to bealone
Isn't anyone trying to find meWon't somebody come take me home
"Phantom says that you must leave right away, Danny!"
"Okay, what?" Sam said.
"We separated ourselves in order to protect you." Danny bit his lower lip.
"Well, isn't this a surprise?"
Danny and Sam both turned to Desiree, who had thrown Phantom to the ground in front of them.
Phantom stood up. Sam noticed a cat tail and ears on him as well. "What do you want, Desiree?"
Desiree cackled evilly. "You out of the way, by Friday night. It's only days away from the meteor shower where everybody will be making wishes." She zapped ecto-energy at Phantom, who jumped to shield Danny and Sam.
"But it's not about what I want. It's about what your little friend wants." Desiree pointed accusingly, happily, at Sam.
"And she just wished she never met you!"
Phantom's eyes grew wide. "Oh. Oh no!"
"And so she has wished it AND SO IT SHALL BE!"
"Watashi to Sam watashtachi no inochi wasurerarenai inotte kudasai!"
Sam woke up, remembering her fight with Danny the day before. She had wished that they had never met... Damn. Telling a suicidal person that may not have been the best idea. Everything today seemed... off, however. That was proven to her half an hour later.
This morning, her mother had eaten breakfast with her.
"Good morning, sweetie!" The woman's hair was black, as Sam remembered it being when she was younger. Pamela, with her pale skin, looked like an angel with her dark hair... a fallen angel. She wore a suit, skirt and jacket a fancy grey.
"Hi... Mom. Where's Dad?"
Pamela laughed. "He's at the office, silly." Pamela walked over to her daughter and hugged her close, kissing her forehead. "I'm going a bit late today so we can talk about your love interests."
Sam, having poured a glass of organic, environmentally safe orange juice and drinking some, spit out her drink. Pamela went over to her daughter, patting her back.
"'Love interests'?"
"Well, you are reaching that age, Sammy-kins."
Sam felt… awkward… Her mother never, never, talked about things like that with her, always saying that she was too young to have a boyfriend.
"I'll be going to school then, Mom."
"Okay." The woman checked again for her papers, a faraway sad look in her eyes.
Her daughter walked out the door.
It's a damn cold nightTrying to figure out this lifeWon't you take me by the handTake me somewhere newI don't know who you areBut II'm with youI'm with you
Sam saw Danny and Tucker at Danny's locker, seeing them talk about what they would do after school. Tucker wore his usual get-up, but Danny wore black skinny jeans with blood-red Converse shoes. A black "Z?" shirt and a Beatles hoodie covered his torso.
"Hi."
Tucker smiled at her. "Hey, Sam."
Danny tilted his head to the side. "Do I know you?"
Sam sighed. "Oh, very cute. I said I wished that we'd never met and now you're pretending we didn't meet. You're hilarious."
Tucker laughed. "Funny Sam." He placed his hand on Danny's shoulder. "You two have never met before, not really."
Danny, clueless, stammered nervously. "Umm…"
Sam scowled at Tucker, who smiled innocently… Well, as innocently as Tucker could. "What on Earth are you talking about?"
A few lockers down, Dash and Kwan were stuffing nerds into a locker. The fourth nerd that they had managed to was Mikey.
"I wish somebody would show what this feels like!" Mikey yelled in anger.
Magenta mist filled the hallway from an air vent as Desiree appeared again. "So you have wished it so… you know the rest."
Mikey became a green cross between a wildebeest and a lizard and roared. His eyes glowed red in fury.
Desiree felt power surging through her. She zoomed down to Danny Fenton, grinning.
"Boo."
He didn't react like she thought he would. Then again, a kick to the head was uncalled for in any situation.
"What, no powers, but still fighting?" Desiree muttered to herself as she flew away. "As long as his powers haven't returned or his Zero magic activated, I'm fine."
"That's Desiree, the wishing ghost," Sam realized, jumping in. "Danny, you've got to do something."
"Um…"
"Why aren't you going ghost?" Sam's hands were pushed away from his shirt as Danny explained.
Oh
Why is every thing so confusing?Maybe I'm just out of my mind
Yeah yeah yeah...
"Listen, kid. I don't know who you are or what you're talking about." Danny looked at his watch. 3:10 p.m.
"Damn, I'm gonna be late." Danny ran, his shoes hitting the linoleum at a rapid pace.
Sam stood. Had Danny wanted nothing to do with her in anger or… She went to Danny's locker and gasped as the photo of she, Danny, and Tucker from 8th grade was missing one thing…
Her.
"Wait, Danny!" Sam said, grabbing the photo and running after him. "You've got to listen to me!"
Danny felt the slap on his face. His naked skin felt the burning water of the removable showerhead on him, screaming in both painful agony and sweet ecstasy. The parent above him cried at him to change… to grow up…
He was the reason that Daddy wasn't home… That Jazz wanted to live with Daddy instead of Mommy…
It was all his fault.
It's a damn cold nightTrying to figure out this lifeWon't you take me by the handTake me somewhere newI don't Know Who You areBut IIm with youIm with you
He heard fingers snap and the hot water, beatings, and yelling were gone. Kizuka-sensei looked at him.
"Your hypnosis state… worries me, Danny."
He stood up.
"See you next Wednesday."
Sam had followed Danny. They had both walked to the Amity Park Psychiatric Clinic. S
She had never known that Danny was a patient for Depression.
"I had super powers?"
"Yes."
"You and I are best friends?"
"Yep."
"And you're the only one who knows it?"
"Yes! Isn't that crystal clear?" Sam and Danny were in his room. Posters of The Beatles, Full Metal Alchemist, and miscellaneous Japanese items were all over the room and the walls. Some model rockets were on Danny's dresser. They were resting on the bed.
Or, rather, Danny was sitting on a floor cushion by his bed, which Sam was sitting upon.
Danny sat for a few moments, thoughtful. "Let's say that you are right. That this reality is the result of some change to the past that you created in mild spite."
Sam stared at him. "Are you high?"
"Um… No, I don't think so. Are my pupils big?"
"No."
"Then I'm not high. Why do you ask?"
"You've never been… this insightful."
Take me by the handTake me somewhere newI don't Know Who You areBut II'm with youI'm with you
Danny sighed. He picked at the plush doll (Colonel Roy Mustang), smoothing out the non-existent wrinkles in the blue uniform of the tiny "man". "Personalities are set at the age of three. I have always been this "insightful", as you put it. You seem…"
Sam looked at him. "I seem what?"
Danny glared at the floor. How dare it betray him by not responding to his unspoken question. "You seem so… I don't know the words to say it."
His body leaned back until it made sudden contact with the floor. "You seem so upset."
"Upset?" Sam glared at him. "A bit, considering I just lost my best friend."
"Perhaps your friend never existed, Sam." Danny sat back up. "You're afraid of people leaving you."
Sam sat upright. She wasn't afraid of anything stupid like that. "I'm not-"
"Yes, you are." Sam barely blinked by the time that she somehow ended up on her back with Danny on top of her, a predatory glint in his eyes. Her breathing immediately quickened.
"You are afraid of hurting and being hurt, of changing and being changed." Sam closed her eyes as Danny laid his head upon her chest, on her left breast to be exact, listening to her heartbeat.
"That's all understandable. You're human. Humans fear change. I do not. Humans fear pain or become consumed by it. I do not." Sam whimpered so quietly that it was almost unreal. Danny had licked her neck and had begun to lay little kisses on it.
Take me by the handTake me somewhere newI don't Know Who You areBut II'm with youI'm with you
"Do not worry, you will not grow yet." Danny sat up, Sam's hips now free, only to have her legs underneath Danny. Sam leaned into the soft, yet strong chest of her friend, frightened out of her mind.
She was only fourteen,
it was immoral,
they weren't married,
they had to be 17 to have the ability to consent,
she didn'tdidn'tdidn't want to hurt,
were condoms an option…
Was this sexual harassment?
Assault?
Rape?
Sam looked up and saw Danny… tears running down his face.
"No, you will stay my Sam, my Sammy. Just like that day in second grade when Dash and Kwan were picking on you for carrying a picture of your grandparents around, you are still Sam."
Sam looked into those pools of sky blue, seeing something that she should've recognized at school earlier that day. Because it had been there.
Recognition.
Stepping into the ghost portal for the second time, it made Danny feel… euphoric. In this lifetime, he enjoyed hurting and being hurt.
He reveled in pain and the painful.
He embraced the change.
He loved Phantom's voice in his head again.
At the movie theater that Friday, Danny, Sam, and Tucker sat together as they normally would. Paulina and Valerie sat right behind Danny, the three teens wearing a wrist band that said, "Fear the Thing What Squeaks!". Danny looked Jhonen Vasquez shit.
"I never realized how my life would be," Danny said, looking at Sam. "If I never met you. I've got to say, it's kind of cool to know."
Sam looked at him, not knowing that their almost-one-night stand had almost occurred, Danny wishing that memory away… It was all his. "Still, I'm sorry about that stupid fight. Can we forget it ever happened?"
Danny smiled. "So you have wished it, then so it shall be."
Sam blushed in romance, Danny blushed in Romance.
Only the girl loved the boy.
Yuki: YAY! DONE!
Anika: Sleepy!
Paulina: "Y quiero tener tiempo contigo, porque ya no te veo en escuela. Puédemos ver la pélícula que ella quiere a ver"
- Spanish "And I want to have time with you, because I don't see you at school anymore. We can see the movie that she (Sam) wants to see."
Note: Spanish is spoken in my home, but my parents usually speak English around me (My dad and I speak Spanglish a lot of the time: My dad = Span-, Me= -glish) Correct my language and grammar please.
Danny's outburst before Desiree's spell took affect: "Watashi to Sam watashtachi no inochi wasurerarenai inotte kudasai!"
- Japanese (in order of words spoken(again, please correct my Japanese grammar)) "Sam and I (that) our lives are not forgotten, our wish! (Essentially, Sam and I wish that we don't forget our lives!"
Danny has already been described in this story as a messed up child. More info: Maddie abused him, all under the guise of discipline and all that shit. The burning water: that is a reference to my coping mechanism that I developed when I was 8 years old: take a hot bath/shower. It happened when we moved over 100 miles away from my family in Elgin, Illinois to where I have lived for the past 8 years…
And counting…
Danny's sudden surge of sexuality: Danny was sexually abused as a child. NOT BY MADDIE. Oh, God! That thought… It repulses me! DannyxMaddie-shippers: I see nothing wrong with it if it's consensual romantic love, but a parent taking advantage of a child… Jesus Christ, no!
Sexually abused children can, not DO/WILL, exhibit overly sexual knowledge and sexual urges. Danny stops himself here because he knows that he will only hurt Sam if he tries anything. Danny sees sex as a form of passage with someone you truly cherish. Sam is a child in his eyes, a child that he wants to protect from the things that he went through when he was little
"romance" - speaking of love
"Romance" - An intellectual movement that made its way through the U.S. during and after the Revolutionary War until the Civil War. Emotions logic. Unity with existence and all that jazz… (Wait… That's Romanticism 2.0 [Transcendentalism])