Thank you so much for all of the reviews! Felix's point of view:
"Leah, you're pregnant," Carlisle said.
My mind went blank. Leah, you're pregnant. She's pregnant. I'm going to be a father. A father.
Me- someone who had killed countless people without a second thought. Individuals who didn't deserve to die while I continued to live. People who were or would've been great parents.
I was getting the chance that I had stolen away from my many victims.
I didn't know how to be a parent. I doubt I knew enough to lead a child into adulthood. I also had never been around babies or small children, so how was I supposed to take care of one? Until recently, my life had been about killing those who opposed my masters, and now I was facing fatherhood. Loving Leah was easy and came naturally, but I doubted being a parent was the same. She had life experiences that could help our child become a good person, whereas I didn't.
And how in the world was Leah supposed to survive this ordeal? I doubted that her body would withstand the birth, and there was no way venom would save her. I couldn't lose her. I felt the panic start to rise in my chest.
Without thinking, I stood and took several steps away from Leah. My eyes met hers, and I could see the joy and hope radiating from them. Even though I wanted to, I could not push away my doubts about being a father and her safety from my mind. Slowly Leah stood to face me. Her hand came up to cup my cheek while our eyes continued to look into each other's.
We didn't have to say anything to know what the other was thinking. She was ecstatic but a little scared too. I knew she wanted this baby more than anything, I wouldn't ask her to end it, but part of me is screaming for me to do so.
"Everything will work out," Leah whispered to me.
"How do you know?" My voice wavered.
"Do you remember how you found me when we first met?" She continued after I nodded. "Before that, I was so scared that things would go terribly wrong. When you found me on the cliffs, I knew we'd work out because you were there. I was sure you'd leave me here, heartbroken, but you didn't."
"This is different. What if you don't survive?"
"I will, Felix."
"How do you know?" I pressed.
"I'm stronger than Bella or any other human. My body can handle this. I'm not saying it'll be easy, but we'll get through this with our beautiful baby."
"If anything happens to you, I'll always blame myself."
"It won't, Felix.
She leaned up to kiss me tenderly. I closed my eyes and touched my forehead to hers. I took a deep breath as I tried to rope in my fears. I wouldn't lose her. May she could be the one woman that could carry a vampire without dying. Doubt coursed through me, but I would and could be strong for her while she went through out this pregnancy.
I opened my eyes to look into Leah's again. I kissed her before breaking off to turn toward Carlisle.
"I have some equipment set up to check you out, Leah," Carlisle said, motioning to a bed in the corner of the large office.
We moved toward the bed while I kept my hand in hers. Leah sat on the bed, with prompting from Carlisle, Leah lay down and pulled her shirt up, exposing her torso.
"I'm going to measure your stomach first," Carlisle explained, while picking up a long tape measure from a tray. "Have you noticed any weight gain recently?"
"My dress felt a little tight yesterday," Leah admitted, "but that was the first time I noticed."
"Felix?" Carlisle asked me while running the tape measure vertically across her abdomen.
"Not until now," I said. "I guess it was obvious …"
"Are you saying I'm fat?" Leah asked me.
"Of course not," I responded quickly.
Carlisle coughed slightly as he continued to turn the tape measure one last time before placing it back on the tray.
"I want to see if we can get an ultrasound," Carlisle said. "From Bella's pregnancy, I'm guessing we won't be able to get an image. We should be able to hear the baby's heartbeat, at the very least."
Carlisle squirted gel onto Leah's belly before using a tool to move the gel around. A fuzzy picture appeared on the screen. Carlisle moved the device around for several minutes, and he frowned.
"I'm afraid that I can't pick up anything," Carlisle said in a disappointed tone. "Let's check for a heartbeat."
Carlisle cleaned the ultrasound machine, and then he pulled out a hand held tool. He positioned the instrument, and after several moments of searching, a loud, clear thumping sound filled the air. A wide smile spread across Leah's face as we heard the sound.
"That's what I was hoping to hear," Carlisle said. His smiled matched Leah's.
"What?" I asked.
"The baby's heartbeat isn't as fast as Ness'," Carlisle explained.
"That's the heartbeat?" I asked.
"Yes. I suspected and hoped that if you two were to have child, that Leah's genes would cause the baby's growth to be slower, which will make it a safer pregnancy. It seems my suppositions are right." Carlisle started to move the end of the machine over Leah's stomach again.
Once again a thumping sound of a heartbeat filled the air, but this time it was a little faster than before. Carlisle frowned slightly as he adjusted the heart monitor to its original placement. He changed it back to the second place and alternated between the placements several times before silently putting the monitor away and wiping Leah's belly off; he was quiet the entire time, as if to process his thoughts.
"What's wrong?" Leah asked.
Carlisle broke out of his thoughts and looked at the two of us.
"It seems you're having twins," Carlisle said slowly.
"Twins? As in two babies?" I asked.
"Yes," Carlisle said. "It is going to make your pregnancy harder, Leah. You'll have to go on bed rest earlier than I thought you would. Until then, I don't want you to go anywhere by yourself in case you pass out again. Based on your measurements, I believe your pregnancy will be longer than Bella's. I think you're a month pregnant, and your gestation will last four months."
"What if I got pregnant this week?" Leah asked.
"Judging on when you were in heat a month ago, I'm sure you're a month along," Carlisle continued. "With the exception of patrolling, you may go about your normal daily life until you start to show, which maybe several weeks to a month away."
Carlisle continued to give Leah instructions and what we could expect about her pregnancy. The more I listened to Carlisle talk, my nervousness lessened slightly.
"Will I need to drink blood?" Leah asked.
"It's a strong possibility," Carlisle said. "If you'd feel more comfortable, we can have you ingest blood through a feeding tube if the time comes."
"I don't want human blood," Leah said firmly.
"Certainly, Leah," Carlisle said.
Leah ran her hand over her face while slumping back in her seat.
"Is it normal to be this exhausted?" she asked.
"Very, especially since this isn't a normal pregnancy," Carlisle reassured her. "I want to check on you every day to monitor your progress. I'm sure you'll be just fine, but I want to keep an eye on you just in case."
"Of course," Leah said, nodding.
There was a knock on the door just before Esme stepped into the room.
"I have lunch ready for you and the boys are downstairs eating. I'm sure you're hungry, Leah," Esme explained, smiling. "And we have to feed those babies."
"Do my brothers know about me yet?" Leah asked, giving Esme a warm smile.
"Not yet," Esme said as we started down. "They just woke up and headed straight for the kitchen."
We entered the kitchen to find Leah's pack, along with Colin and Brady, eating a very late lunch. Leah quickly darted to the table and filled up her plate before the food was all taken.
"Hungry much, Lee?" Quil asked.
"Had to get some food before you all ate it," Leah replied as she sat in the chair next to me. "Especially now."
"Why? What did Carlisle say?" Jacob asked.
"I'm pregnant," Leah said.
Everything in the room seemed to stop in that moment. Everyone stopped eating to stare at Leah in shock.
"You're kidding me right?" Seth asked quietly.
"No, Seth," Leah said, meeting her brother's eyes. "I am pregnant."
"You're going to end it, right?" Quil asked. "It's not safe."
"Of course I'm not going to end it," Leah said angrily. "We've been talking with Carlisle, and he's sure I'm perfectly healthy. My pregnancy isn't the same as Bella's and my babies aren't going to hurt me. If anyone has a problem with it, they'll just have to get over it."
Leah stood and stormed out of the kitchen with tears in her eyes. I clenched my fists in anger at Quil's words.
"Do any of you know how much she's wanted a baby?" I asked. "When we learned that Emily was pregnant she cried over the babies she thought we couldn't have. Carlisle has explained that her pregnancy is completely different than the one Bella endured. Even though I'm scared to death for her safety, I will not ask her to end it."
I stood so quickly that the chair flew out from behind me and smashed against the counter. A twinge of guilt ran through me. Using the imprint pull, I found Leah standing on the porch, wiping away angry tears. I pulled her into my arms, and she relaxed against me as I held her.
"Would you ask me to end it?" she whispered.
"No," I replied. "I know how much you want this. I knew if I asked, it would break your heart to even to think about ending your pregnancy."
"Aren't you scared for my health?"
"Honestly? I'm scared more than anything. I just need you to be careful."
"I will. Like I said before, I think my body will be able to handle the pregnancy."
"I know, but the pregnancy will be taxing. I'm going to hate seeing you go through that, and I'll be completely useless."
"You won't be, Felix. I just need you here to support me, that's all I ask."
Leah leaned up and kissed me slowly, and I poured in all of my emotions into the kiss.
"Hey, Lee … oh," a voice said from behind us.
I reluctantly pulled away from Leah to see Embry sheepishly smiling at us.
"You should finish eating," Embry explained.
"Sometimes I hate having a big family," Leah grumbled under her breath.
"You know you love us," Embry said.
"Sure I do," Leah said sarcastically.
Leah punched Embry's arm as we walked into the house. The mood in the dining room was still tense, but Carlisle was talking to the pack about many of the basics of Leah's pregnancy. The room fell silent after Jake asked Carlisle a few questions. It seemed, for the most part, they were pleased with Carlisle's assessment of Leah's pregnancy.
When everyone was finished eating, there was much discussion about stepping up patrols, which annoyed Leah that she couldn't phase until after the babies were born. Quil, Embry, and Brady left to patrol while Seth went to pick up Ashley from work. When Leah started yawning, I insisted we leave as well. After saying our goodbyes, and after many hugs and fawning from Esme, we walked slowly home while holding hands.
"I'd like to go shopping for the babies in a couple of days," Leah said.
"Why?"
"I want to experience shopping for my children before I start to show," Leah admitted.
"You're really excited about this."
"I am. It doesn't seem real yet."
"It doesn't," I agreed.
I sighed. These next couple of months were going to be very long. I just hoped that everything would come out as well as Leah and Carlisle thought it would. We walked while Leah talked about the things she wanted to buy for the babies.
I hope you're still here to use those things when our babies are born, I thought.
I quickly pushed the thought away Leah and I went home.
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