Santana stayed at my house for the rest of the weekend only to go home that Sunday night. I was alone and I missed that warm feeling of her sleeping besides me. I grabbed all the pillows I could and pulled back my sheets to pile them next to me, keeping me trapped inside the comfort of the barrier. I didn't get much sleep that night so I didn't go to school the next day. I didn't want people to see me this way, I had to clean up my mess before I did. I slept most of the day only waking up later that afternoon when my mother told me I had a visitor. I heard her footsteps leave the room and I turned over and rubbed my eyes before opening them, only to see that it wasn't Santana. It was Rachel.

"Crap, Rachel." I pulled my blanket over my head to save her from the sight of me. If I were to cry I wasn't going to let her see. "What are you doing here?"

"I was worried, you didn't show up last week." She told me. "Are you okay, Quinn?"

"Are you seriously asking me that?" I threw the blanket away from me and stared at her. "You told me you liked me and then ran off. How could I possibly be okay?" I was starting to get angry but I couldn't hold it in.

"I'm sorry.." was all she said.

"You're sorry? That's it?" I was being a bitch and I knew it but I was only protecting my feelings, I didn't want to hurt any more. It was too much to handle. How I wish Santana would finish up with Cheerios practice and be here. Before I knew it she was kneeling on my bed with her lips pressed against mine. It was soft and soon became passionate but it didn't last long.

"I'm really sorry.." she breathed close enough for me to smell her perfume. I opened my eyes just to see the last few seconds of her as she was walking out the door.

Not again!

xxx

I waited for Santana to come by as I sat in my room with my fingers pressed to my lips. Rachel had kissed me. It felt so good to have done it but now it just kind of hurt. I couldn't believe she ran off again after kissing me. It wasn't fair. I wish I had my phone now so I could – ugh. How could she do this to me?

There was a knock at my door before it slightly opening and a smiley Santana poping her head in.

"Hi there." She called to me.

I gave her a slight smile back because I really was happy to see her, she'll make me feel happy.

"Hi San." She closed the door and walked up to the bed putting some bags down the bed before getting under the blanket in her track suit and wet hair to give me a hug.

"How are you feeling today?" She asked relaxing into me.

"Better now that you're here." This made a huge grin appear on her face as she sat up and reached for the bag.

"Well you should be cause I brought bacon." She pulled out a container made of foam and I could smell it as soon as she handed it to me with one of the two forks she had.

"Calm down Q." She laughed. "It's only bacon."

"Don't you say that, it is life. Like tasting gods tears of joy." I told her with a tone of seriousness which made her explode into a fit of laugher telling me I was insane and I couldn't help but laugh along with her. As she knew would happen, she didn't get much of it. I ate most of it while we watched cartoons in bed but she didn't seem to mind.

"People have been asking about you."

"Who?" I asked while I chewed.

"Well Mr. Shue has been worried about you, so has Britt and a couple of others- oh and berry" She added. I turned my head back to the tv.

"What's wrong?" She asked. "Is it Berry?" When I didn't say anything she knew it was her and she wanted to know what happened. I told her that she came around today after school while she was at Cheerios practice and asked me if I was okay. I told her I got mad and then I told her the whole story of us on the bus back from sectionals. I told her how she kissed me and apologized before once again, running off and leaving me hurt. I could see the hurt in Santana's eyes too but she pushed it away like she always did. She wiped the tears that ran down my face with her thumbs before she moved in closer to me and held me into her.

"Everything will be alright, Lucy. Just remember that I love you..." She mumbled the last part but I heard her.

"I love you too." I told her before I shut my eyes. "Please stay here with me."

"Always." She told me in return and she did. She stayed with me all night long while I snuggled into her for warmth. Only leaving when it was time for her to get up in the morning to get ready for school. She used my bathroom and put on my Cheerios uniform since we hadn't had the chance to wash hers. Sue wouldn't even know the difference. And before she left she wrote me another letter that I found after I had woken up for the second time that day.

It said:

Quinn,

Sorry I couldn't stay, if I had a choice I would have stayed but Sue will have me running laps until my legs were on fire and I would have to listen to her on going speeches. I will be back after school since I have practice before lunch.

Have a nice day, Lucy.

-Santana.

So I did what I always did when I was waiting for her, I took a bath, got changed and even did my hair even though I knew I wasn't going anywhere. When I looked at the clock it had just pasted one so I logged into my laptop and decided to check my emails since I hadn't looked at them for over a week. I had more emails than I thought. There was one from Brittany telling me that she hoped I would get better soon and something else about skittles making me happier, then there was one from Mike & Tina, Mercedes, Puck and well I expected a few from Rachel. I looked at them all but left the few from Rachel unopened before I closed my laptop and went downstairs to the kitchen. I'd locked myself in my bedroom for so long I was beginning to forget that there was life outside my room. I looked through the fridge and then the cupboards deciding that I wanted a bowl of fruit loops. My mother took a double shot at looking at me at the kitchen table, she was quite surprised to see me outside of my bedroom walls. She came and gave me a quick hug and a kiss on the cheek before she headed off to work.

I was once again left alone and maybe not even an hour later Santana had let herself in and was heading up to my room.

"Hey San, down here." I called from the spot I was sitting at in the lounge room reading one of the few books I had left around the house. "You're back early." She walked into the room with one of her famous shining smiles and came down to sit with me.

"I decided to leave early today." She shrugged. "And I'm glad I did since you seem to want to leave your bed today. How about we go out tonight?"

"Sure." I said putting down the book and heading up to my room. We went through my wardrobe going through all the options before picking out skinny jeans and two of my favourite tops that seemed to look better on the Latina than they did on me. I found myself liking when she wore my clothes, they always left her scent on them afterwards. I put on my make up while Santana told the story of how Finn had totally embarrassed himself when he woke up after history class to find the other guys on the football team had drawn on his face.

"-it was so funny. You should have seen him, he had no clue what anybody was even talking about." She told me as she was using my straightener to do her hair.

"He's so clueless sometimes." I laughed. I finished putting on my mascara and turned to Santana. "You ready to go?" I asked her as she was putting on a jacket.

"Yep, let's go."

We drove around for awhile not knowing where we wanted to go until we found ourselves at the park. The park did sound good, I must say as I haven't walked much in the last week so we got out and headed down the first path we saw, not caring where we went.

I felt free for the first time in ages. I felt like running and enjoying myself. I felt like sitting under the trees in the shade and watching the sun go down. I could feel myself smiling at the idea and I saw Santana's eyes on me.

"Can we stay here for awhile? I want to see the sun go down." I turned to ask her.

"Of course we can." She leaned in closer and linked my arm to hers. "As long as you like, Q."

We settled down under a thick, tall tree as I watched the colours in the sky as the sun fell. I admired the purples and the pinks in all the different shades. Santana's phone rang and I watched her as she picked it up. She groaned and picked it up before asking what the person wanted. I heard a mumble over the phone but I couldn't make out the words. I wonder who it was.

"You know what, I don't care what you're excuse is. Stop. Calling. Me." and just like that she hung up the phone.

"Who was that?" I asked with wonder. She shook her head, rolling her eyes.

"Nobody."