I'm back from...eh...'christmas stuff'.
Anyway, here is a new chapter of Kuro ame, tomoshibi dei.
Disclaimer: If I owned anything I would sit and eat chocolate in the chocolate factory, right now.
Warning: Blood, gore, murder, torture, yaoi, murder and more stuff.
Last time on Kuro ame, tomoshibi dei:
"Ye, sure. Thanks." And got around the car and sat in the passenger seat in the front, beside Axel.
Axel smirked.
And now, on chapter 2.
Chapter 2: Ask me
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Axel and Roxas sat in the black car, as Axel drove toward Roxas house. They had almost been driving for ten minutes and none of them had said anything to each other. Roxas looked out the window. Seeing all the buildings that they were driving by.
Axel looked at Roxas. God, he is so beautiful. Axel though as he watched the blond from the corner with his eyes. Just as his eyes shimmer from the sunlight. Axel smiled as he watched the blond. He wanted to talk with him. Ask him questions he had been planning to ask on Friday. Until that bitch ruined everything. No, don't think of her. You don't want to get angry when you with Roxas, will you? A voice told him in the back of his head. No he didn't want to get angry in front of his blond. His Roxas. But there was something, deep inside of him that have been bothering him for a couple of days now. A slight of annoying, dark feeling that he felt. Like something was lost or he forgot something. A feeling that came up in just a second, but could disappear just as fast. But what?
Then, this was not the time to think of something like that. Now he wanted to think of his Roxas.
Axel wanted to know him. Know which food he liked. What's his favourite colour was. What kind of music he liked. His favourite movies. What weather he liked. What made him sad. What annoyed him. What made him happy.
There were so many questions that he wanted answers to. But he was too afraid to ask. For the first time in a really long time, Axel was afraid. Afraid to scare his blond with his questions, so he would leave, and making Axel not to be able to see him again. Instead he watched his blond in silence. Hoping that Roxas would start talking to him instead. So he could hear that sweet voice, lovely voice.
Roxas looked at Axel, that quickly turned his look to the way instead. "What are you smiling at?" He asked the red haired, confused.
Axel looked at himself in the rear-view mirror and saw himself smiling a nice, friendly smile. Which was also rare, because Axel never used to smile unknowing why himself. He looked at Roxas again, not removing his smile. "Nothing special." He lied and his smile became wider when he saw Roxas smile back at him.
"So..." Roxas began as he blushed. He didn't like silent, especially not when he was not alone. He never had, maybe because he was growing up with silence because his mom's love for it, when she worked. "What did you do in town?"
Axel reached a bag from the back seat and gave it to Roxas, who opened it. The bag contained a splitter new camera that had not been taken from its packet yet. And not a regular camera most people would buy, but more a like a camera that paparazzi used when they took photographs of celebrities.
"I was buying a new camera. My old one was broken." Axel said. That wasn't a complete lie. He had bought a camera. But that hadn't been his main reason to be in town. But he couldn't tell his Roxas that he was looking at him, when he didn't know. He wouldn't understand.
"Oh." Was all Roxas could say as he putted back the bag in the back seat. "It looked rather expensive and complicated, then other cameras. Do you like to take photos? Or do you do it for a living?"
Axel wasn't sure what he should answer, he was too distracted to hear that silky voice. "I just enjoy taking photos of the nature, that's all." He lied. "I work at the Twilight bar, but only when they need me. I got money to pretty much live on since my folks died a few years ago."
"Oh, I'm sorry." Roxas said with sadness in his voice. And felt sorry for the red headed man that had lost his family in such a young age.
Axel's grinned more when he heard the sorrow and worries in Roxas voice, when he heard that Axel's parents were dead. Roxas cared and felt sorry for him. He loved that he blond felt sorry for him. That he felt feelings for him. So he continued his lie, about his parent's deaths.
"It's okay; they died when I was fifteen in a car crash. So I was left alone with my older brother. He's dead now too."
Roxas felt sorry for Axel. That he had lost his family before he was over twenty-two. That was a young age to lose family on. Not hoping to get Axel sad, he wished that they could talk about something else. Thankfully, Axel began to change the subject.
"But, not more about that. How about you? Why did you move here? Where did you live before?"
And so they conservation began in the car. Roxas told him about that his mom was a writer and how much she loved nice and quiet places, which got ruined when many neighbours began to move closer to them at their old home. He also told him about his old house, school and friends. Axel laughed out loud when Roxas told him about the ballet incident that happened to Hayner last summer. He also told him that how his mom always liked when it was quiet when she worked. And always used to buy quiet toys to Roxas during his growth. Axel had then said, that Roxas mom was a rather boring woman, that needs a trip to fun land and convert herself. Roxas laughed at the comment about his mom, as he completely agreed. His mom really needed to learn how to have fun.
The conversation continued gladly as they finally got to Roxas home.
Roxas worried a little when the car was only a hundred meters away from the house. If his mom saw him get out of a car another car that wasn't hers, and with a person she didn't know so much, she would throw questions at him before he even could explain himself. Axel stopped the car before it could reach to be in the view from the house.
"I think it's better to drop you off here. Your mom probably wouldn't like that you got a ride home." Axel said and gave a playful grin at Roxas. Roxas smiled thankfully that Axel almost had read his mind.
"Yeah, you right. Thanks for the ride. It was really nice of you."
Roxas sat still in the car and put his hand on the car door to open it and get out. Axel bit his underlip. He didn't want Roxas to leave. He wanted to ask him that question that had been in his mind, the whole trip.
Before Roxas got out of the car Axel opened his mouth and said out loud. "Do you want a ride to and from school tomorrow?"
Roxas looked at Axel, confused. Before Roxas could answer, Axel said, with a slice worry and panic in his voice. "You see, I'm going to town to work anyway. And I know how annoying it is to take the bus, so do you want a ride?"
Roxas was silent for a second, until he opened his mouth.
Say yes, please say yes! Axel though and observed Roxas every movement. Hoping that Roxas wouldn't say no and leave.
"Sure, but didn't you say, that you only used to work sometimes when they needed you?" Roxas asked.
Damn! Axel thought. Why did I have to say that I only worked part time?
Rapidly he had to make up a lie, even if it wasn't a good one, he just had to make up a reason why he needed to get into town every morning and stay there, until Roxas school day ended.
"Yeah, I did but I got a more stipulated work in there today. So I'm going to drive every morning and home, like the same time today. So you could ride with me. If you want?"
Roxas hesitated. It was a really kind of him to offer ride both to school and home. Since Roxas didn't have anything to do on the bus, he could at least have someone to talk to if he said yes to the offer. But then he thought on is mother. As she reacted when she meet the red headed man two days before, she probably wouldn't like that her son would ride with the man. But does she need to know? Roxas knew that his mom hadn't liked their new neighbour, even if she hadn't said anything; he knew that she didn't like Axel. But he didn't want to tell Axel that. Instead he answered hesitantly.
"Sure, if it's not too much trouble for you?"
Axel smirked. "No trouble at all, Roxas. I pick you up same place tomorrow at seven."
Roxas smiled as he got out of the car and waved goodbye to Axel as he started to go toward his house. And Axel started to drive home. Little did Roxas knew that Axel didn't drive home.
Instead he drove to the place he used to park his car, so no one could see the car. Turned the car off and walked toward Roxas house, to watch, looking, searching new ways to see. As he had in the last days, but only this time with his camera.
Near the house, he hides himself in the bushes that gave him a perfect view into the kitchen.
There was no one there. He held the camera firmly in his hands, to make sure he didn't drop it. He walked toward the window that gave him access to see in the hall. But no one was there either.
Blast, Roxas must have gone up to his room. He thought. He cursed himself once again, that he still hadn't found out a way to see into Roxas' room.
He wanted to use his camera. He sighed heavily. But then, maybe he could try the veranda on the second floor. If he was quiet enough he could try to climb up there get up there and see into Roxas' room in there. But if he wanted to do that he needed a ladder. He took in a deep sing as he walked, silently away from the house, toward his car.
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Roxas sighed deeply when he closed the outside door behind him. He was really tired after his first school day. And not to mention he had to get up early to get to the school. But at least he had found some people to hang out with. And not mention that he from now on would get a ride from Axel to and from school. He had a feeling inside that he was using Axel to come home earlier. But it was Axel who had offered him ride, right? Why would he feel bad? Beside it was nice to have someone to talk too between the long trips. And Axel was really nice. Too bad his mom didn't like the red head so much.
Oh, shit! Mom! Roxas though as he dropped his school bag on the floor. Damn. He was at least thirty minutes home too early, thanks for the ride. How was he going to explain that? Roxas swore to himself. She would ask how it come he was home early. And if he told him that he got a ride, she would ask by whom. And if he told her it was Axel, she would burst. Not only has he taken a ride from a man that he newly encounter, also a person his mother didn't like very much. But then his mom didn't like many people, if there were under the age of thirty. He was probably the only one under that age she liked.
He could lie, that was, and unfortunately, his worst skill. And especially if it were lying to his own mom. At lease he wasn't lonely with that lack of skill. How many kids were a good liar when it came to lie to their mothers?
But when he thought about it. There were no sounds in the house. If she was home she must have heard him come in. He wandered into the kitchen where he found a note on the table.
Roxas honey! I got a job in the town just this morning and I started today. Can you believe it? So I won't be home to six from every day from now. I hope your first school day was fine and I see you tonight. P.S there is food from yesterday in the fridge. Hug, mom.
That's right. His mom had talked yesterday to find herself a new job in the town. 'Apparently, not all writers could live on what they were writing' His mom had said once. And that was true. Many writers didn't live on what they were writing. His mom was one of them.
A relief feeling rushed threw him. This was great. This meant that his mom would never notice if Roxas came home earlier than he should, and not question him either. He grabbed some of the food that was left over from yesterday and warmed it in the micro way. After he had finished his meal he dished. He yawned. Maybe he should lay down for a couple of minutes. He grabbed his school bag and went upstairs to his room. In his room he threw himself on his bed and closed his eyes. And tired as he was he fell asleep with on a couple of seconds. Not noticing what was going on outside.
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Axel was standing outside on the veranda on the second floor. He was certain his blond would have taken the smaller bedroom, which has been the kids' room in the earlier family.
He crouched himself so his body was hiding under the window, to make sure Roxas couldn't see him if he were in the room. In his hand he held the camera that he had bought, ready to take pictures. Slowly he raised his head to get a view into Roxas room.
In there. Roxas laid on his bed, still in the same clothes he has worn during the whole day, and his chest lifted slowly up and down as he breathed. Axel raised his head more to get a better view as the young blond lay in his bed, sleeping. Unfortunately, Roxas was laying down so his back was shown toward the window. And his face toward the wall.
Even how misfortune it was that Axel couldn't see Roxas face. He felt a happy feeling inside his chest and mind. Not that happy feeling he had when he was killing or torture people. Even how wonderful that felt, ripping, torturing, and burning other people as he loved to hear them scream in pain and fear. It could not even compare to this feeling, when he watched his blond or when he was with him. This was a different kind of happiness. One that Axel never felt before. But he knew one thing, he loved that feeling. Loved Roxas.
He watched Roxas as the blond chest went up and down slowly. Oh, Roxas looked so cute, even if Axel could only watch his body, he though Roxas looked adorable as he slept so peacefully.
Axel felt a big urge in his mind and body. As he started to wander off into his thoughts. Axel! Yes, Axel, take me. Kiss me! Make love to me. I always loved you! Yes, Axel, yes. Deeper. Ah, faster. Ah, Axel! I love you too! Axel shook his head as he woke up from his little day dream.
God how he wanted to open the window and kiss the blond. Take off his clothes and kiss him, all over his body. As they slowly would make-No! He couldn't do that. Roxas could be scared. Besides, he didn't know if Roxas would return his feeling and thoughts. If he didn't. It would crush the redhead, if he couldn't return his feelings for Axel. Axel would might not be able to stop taking Roxas anyway. But he couldn't do that. He wouldn't do that. Axel didn't want to scare Roxas and not in the whole world want to force himself on him.
Axel had many chances to rape his victims. All of them if he had wanted to. But he didn't.
He felt disgusted to do a thing like that. Even if that would cause pain for his victim, which he loved, he felt more disgusted by it, to do that. He saw rapiers as the scum of the earth. And he would never want to do such a horrible thing to his sweet Roxas, never. He wanted Roxas willing. He wanted Roxas to love him too.
Axel jumped in surprise, when he saw Roxas move a little in the bed. Shit, he woke up! Axel though and dodged. He waited for a couple of second before he rose to see in the room again. He sighed in relief. Roxas had only moved a little in his sleep. Well no time to waist. He took up camera as he started to take pictures of Roxas and his room. His camera didn't have a flash and he was outside, so Roxas would never hear or in any other way notice that he was there, taking pictures. He made sure to take pictures of every furniture Roxas had. Especially the shelf, because it inhaled stuff Roxas liked, like books, photos, movies and stuff. He really wanted to take pictures inside Roxas wardrobe and bathroom, of the clothes and towels he used. But that was a thing he couldn't risk doing. Not yet at least. Most of the pictures were taken of Roxas. Even how much he wanted the blond to turn around, so he could see and take pictures of his face. The blond never did. He took pictures until his camera was full. It was then he knew he had to leave. Even how much he wanted to stay, to see Roxas longer. He knew he probably would wake up soon. He watched his watch. The clock was almost six.
He sighed as he touched the glass. Roxas, you are so beautiful. How I would kill all of the world's population, only to get you love me too. He sighed again as he went down the ladder and carried it away. He took the ladder toward the woods and hid it behind some bushes.
It was a shame to have to leave his blond. He didn't want to. But it if he was there too long every day, he could be noticed and caught. If Roxas woke up, he could have noticed him. Or if his mom saw the ladder. It was still bright and the sun didn't start to go down before at least nine. From now on he had to be more careful and not be there as often he had for the last two days. He could only for now on, watch Roxas when he was in his house at night time. He felt sad for leaving his blond. Not be able to see him.
Axel smirked and looked down at his camera as he started to walk to his car. At least now he had pictures, so he could see his blond. Even if there were not the real or living Roxas and only still paintings, taken in the moment. But thanks to those, he was now able to see Roxas as often he liked. The first thing he would do, when he got home was to load the memory card into his computer.
Besides, I will be able to see and talk with Roxas, every day he has school, from now on. He thought.
If you wondred why Axel didn't know saw Roxas on the first floor, while they both are their on the same time. Don't worry I can explain. You see when Axel doesn't see Roxas in the hall, is because he is in the kitchen and reading the note. And Axel just doesn't bother to look there.
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