KNEW YOU WERE WAITING FOR ME - PART 7
Jen and Tilly are laying on the floor with their arms and legs wrapped around each other. Jen has her head nuzzled into Tilly's neck. Neither one wanting to move, speak or even breathe too loudly in fear of disturbing the magic in the air. An art room cupboard is hardly the most romantic place but neither one cared. Even if they were laying on the floor of prison cell with cockroaches & mice running around them they would still both feel as if they were cuddled up together on cloud nine.
Tilly is the first to break the spell as she lowers her face down to kiss Jen on her forehead over her silky fringe. Tilly instantly regrets it as Jen sits up and leans backwards against the shelves. She looks around her as if only just realising where they are.
"Teacher of the year once again..." Jen lets out a small nervous laugh. Tilly's heart sinks. Here we go. The regret... Tilly wasn't ready for that yet. She didn't want this to be ruined. "Let's not do this yet eh Jen?" Tilly sits up eyes wide and pleading as she looks at Jen. "Erm I think we just did..." Jens eyebrows raised as a cheeky glint in her eyes sparkled. Tilly couldn't help but smile "You know what I mean. The thing that always happens. The regret. The this wont happen again..." Tilly looked to the floor. Jen tutted and grabbed Tilly's hand pulling her towards her. "Come here." Once Tilly was close enough Jen turned her around so that she was sat leaning back on Jen. Jen rested her head on Tilly's shoulder. "No regret. I promise. I mean if I could have chosen the time and place it definitely wouldn't have been in here..." Jen laughed then lowered her voice to a seductive whisper "although I have fantasies a few times about it.."
Tilly laughed. "Really? Oh Miss Gilmore! Me innocently in your lesson hanging on every word you say trying to learn all I can about art while all the time you were seducing me in your head?"
Jen playfully slapped Tilly's wrist. "Innocently? I don't think so... With the whole forceful domineering act you had going on when you were moodily teasing me? You knew you were driving me wild... You could hear my heart beating you got that close to me as you sexily threatened me. You knew it was turning me on. Can't resist you when you're annoyed. Except for how you were in your room earlier... That, I didn't appreciate..." Jens smile fell as she remembered.
Tilly turned her face to Jen and kissed her softly. "I am sorry. So so so sorry. Those things I said to you. I'm ashamed of myself." Tilly looked into Jens eyes.
"Forgotten." Jen smiled and stood up. Pulling Tilly up with her. "I love you Tilly Evans. You know that right?" Jen faked confusion with a cute furrow of her eyebrows and cheeky pout.
"I do thanks to Esther... When she told me you'd said that I thought my heart was going to jump out of my chest..I"
"Hang on... Esther?" Jen eyed Tilly suspiciously.
"Yeah I saw her before and she told me what had happened when she kissed you." Tilly shrugged.
"Right. So if Esther hadn't told you then you'd still think those things?"
"No of course not." Tilly tried to hold Jens hand to recapture some of the magic that she seemed to have accidentally spoiled but Jen pulled away.
"I don't believe you." Jen shook her head. "I think if you hadn't have seen her then you wouldn't be here"
Tilly hesitated to answer. Not really sure what to say. Jen saw this as her agreeing.
"Brilliant." Jen let out a sarcastic laugh and pushed passed Tilly, opening the door and leaving the cupboard.
Tilly quickly followed her. "Don't do this Jen. You're just making excuses to be mad at me because its easier than trying to figure out how we're going to handle this. I know because its all that's been going through my head too. While we were lying there."
Jen rolled her eyes. Tilly was right, that was what she was doing. After all nothing had changed. The only difference was that they both now knew for sure how the other felt. The facts still remained the same. Jen was a teacher, Tilly was her student and a relationship was out of the question.
Tilly walked over to Jen and held her hand. "It's ok. We'll wait"
Jen stroked Tilly's hand not sure what Tilly meant. Wait for what?
"Until I finish college. We'll wait to be together. By then you'd have had experience here and it will be easier for you to get a job somewhere else won't it?" Tilly smiled trying to hide the pain those two words caused her - we'll wait. She didn't want to wait. She wanted Jen now, tomorrow & forever but she also loved her too much to ruin her career.
"But how? I mean look what just happened? We can't risk that happening again Tilly."
"We'll have to avoid being alone together. Two years may seem a long time to wait but it'll be worth it right? To be together properly? You shouldn't have to choose between me and you'd career Jen. It's not fair on you or me." Tilly shrugged.
Jen couldn't help but smile. This is something that had first attracted her to Tilly. She was mature beyond her years. So calm and collected. Jen admired her.
Tilly sensed Jens apprehension and intervened. "Look I'll leave you to think about it yeah? It's the only solution I can think of... I don't want to lose you Jen and if it means waiting 2 years then I'll do it. For you. I'd do anything for you." Tilly kissed Jens hand and left her alone with her thoughts.
TBC