Jen sat in The Dog nursing a glass of wine. She'd had to get out of the house. She wasn't angry with Tilly. It wasn't her fault Sinead had gone on about Lexie the way she had but because Jen had felt slightly threatened by Lexie anyway it hadn't helped. How could she feel so high one minute and rock bottom the next? No one else had ever had this effect on her. This is why you don't let your walls down Jen – She silently chastised herself. You love them and leave them, no feelings, no commitment and therefore no heart ache. Once you let someone in you're screwed. She could never have been like that with Tilly though. It was different between them.

"Alright Miss?" Lexie appeared at Jens table. Jen rolled her eyes.

"Oh what do you want?" Jen blurted out. The wine loosening the connection between her brain and her mouth.

"Oh nice to see you too." Lexie smirked.

"Sorry it's just I try to avoid students outside of college" Jen quickly recovered taking a huge sip of her wine and smiling politely.

Lexie screwed her face up and made her way to the bar. Jen watched her. Sinead was right Lexie was gorgeous. Slim but toned, effortlessly cool and unaware of the attention she was receiving from many admirers around her. Tomboyish yet sexy. Not a lot of girls could make biker boots sexy Jen frowned. Hang on a minute… Biker boots? Jen quickly grabbed her bag and made her way out of The Dog.

Sinead had gone to bed. Bart had heard her Mum was out all night and coincidently dropped by to see her. They'd instantly made their excuses to Tilly and gone straight to Sineads room. Tilly lay under a quilt on the sofa flicking aimlessly through the channels on the tv. She wondered where Jen had got to. She'd tried to call her after Sinead had gone to bed but her phone was off. Tilly sighed frustrated. She couldn't settle while she didn't know where Jen was. She got up to make a cup of tea.

At that point Jen came home but Tilly hadn't heard her as the kettle was just boiling. Jen stood observing Tilly for a moment as she stood there in a T shirt just long enough to rest on the top of her thighs. Tilly jumped as Jen moved behind her.

"Jen! You nearly gave me a heart attack." Tilly smiled nervously. "Where did you get to?"

"I just went for a few drinks. Thought I'd leave you and Sinead to it. Didn't want to interrupt" Jen raised her eyebrows.

" She doesn't know what she's talking about Jen as if I fancy-" Tilly stopped talking as Jen put a finger on her lips to stop her.

"Where is she now?" Jen frowned… moving her finger from Tillys lips to let her answer.

"Bed" Tilly managed to reply. Jen smiled and stepped closer to Tilly. They were inches apart. So close they could feel each other's breath on their faces. Eyes burning with desire. Jen stroked Tillys face and moved her hand to the back of her neck to pull her closer and close the excruciating gap between them. Jen planted small kisses up Tilly's neck slowly. Tilly pulled her head back but pushed her neck against Jens lips. Jen continued kissing upwards until her lips found Tilly's. Tilly grabbed Jens waist pulling her closer as they kissed hard. Tilly passionately tried to speed the kiss up as they both started to lose control but Jen kept slowing it back down. As if savouring every moment. Jen pulled away from the kiss to look at Tilly. The desire in her eyes replaced with a certain sadness as she studied Tilly's face.

"What's wrong?" Tilly held Jens face Inbetween her hands, stroking her cheeks with her thumbs.

Jen just looked all over Tilly's face for a moment looking as if tears were about to escape from her eyes. "Nothing" she whispered and took Tilly's hand leading her upstairs to her room.

Once inside Jen pulled Tilly over to the bed. Falling back onto it she pulled Tilly on top of her. She entwined her fingers in Tilly's hair as Tilly kissed along Jens collarbone. Jen moved her hands from Tilly's hair and slid them down her back and underneath the T shirt. She cupped Tilly's perfectly petite bum with her hands and positioned herself so her thigh was Inbetween Tilly's legs. Jen moved Tilly in motion with her own thigh up and down slowly as she kissed her neck. All much slower than normal which excited Tilly even more. Tilly pulled her hand down and moved it slowly up Jens inner thigh, she pulled Jens pants to one side and started to massage in time with Jens notion between her own legs. Jen pulled her head up to watch Tilly as they both shuddered in delight, Tilly felt enchanted by Jens beauty as she watched her moan with delight at Tilly's touch. They sighed with delight as they fell into the pillow. Out of breath and satisfied. Tilly turned to Jen with a huge smile. "Jen, that was amazing" she kissed her quickly on the lips then threw her head back on to the pillow.

"Yeah." Jen sniffed as tears rolled down her cheek. "That was goodbye." Tilly sat up confused... Goodbye? Tilly watched Jen as she got up and walked away from the bed. Standing near the door as if waiting for Tilly to leave.

"Jen... What are talking about? Goodbye?" Tilly stayed put on the bed. She wasn't leaving until she knew what the hell was going on. They had just made love, it wasn't sex it was love.

"Biker boots Tilly. I'm talking about biker boots..." Jen stood looking at Tilly. No emotion on her face. Tilly felt like she was looking at a stranger. She didn't recognise Jen. The love on her face that had enchanted her moments ago was know replaced with a blankness that petrified her.

"Can you go? I need to sleep." Jen nodded towards the door. Inside she was falling apart but on the outside she was cold and composed.

"No! I won't!" Tilly shouted.

"keep your voice down!" Jen whispered.

"Tell me Jen. What about biker boots?" Tilly knew deep down what he answer was.

"The other night when I turned up at your house and you were drunk. You thought I was Lexie didn't you? I heard how excited were Tilly. When you shouted for me to keep my biker boots on and I've seen how you look at her. I'm not going to stand in your way. It's not fair. We're kidding ourselves if we really think we can carry on like this for another two years."

"No. You've got it wrong Jen. I can wait two years. I'd wait ten if I had to! I don't want Lexie or anyone else you're being ridiculous. I don't mind waiting" Tilly protested as she made her way over to stand in front of Jen. She stroked up Jens arms. "I really don't"

Jen pulled her arms away from Tilly. "well I do mind." Jen opened the door and stood waiting for Tilly to lmake looking at the floor. Tilly stood trying to think of something else to say but couldn't come up with anything. What could she say to that? There was nothing left. Tilly shook her head and pushed passed Jen. Jen closed the door behind Tilly and fell onto her bed body heaving as she sobbed.

TBC