Tilly ran out into the night. Not thinking just needing to get some air. She couldn't breathe. Her bare feet pounded the pavement as she ran, to where she didn't know. That was it. Her and Jen were no more and she felt her heart breaking as tears strolled down her face. She'd known something wasn't right. Even as they had made love that evening Jen had looked so sad. Tilly felt used. That was goodbye? How dare she. Tilly had pushed the whole biker boots incident to the back of her mind. She did feel a bit guilty about it. She had been excited at the thought of it being Lexie coming back to her house but she was far from disappointed when it was Jen. She was the last person she'd expected to see yet the person she'd wanted the most. It's not that she fancied Lexie. Not at all, she just found her interesting. She was far too in love with Jen to even contemplate looking at someone else in that way.
Then something dawned on Tilly and she slumped to the floor as if the thought had physically knocked her down. Had Jen met someone else? Was that what all this was about? She was turning it around on Tilly to make herself feel better about it? Tilly pulled the promise ring off her finger and traced over the engravement 'Until then' Yeah until what? Until you were bored of waiting? Anger suddenly rose in Tilly and she threw the ring in front of her. She heard it clink a couple of times and instantly felt regretful. Even if Jen had broken the promise and threw it away like rubbish Tilly knew deep down she still needed that ring, something to still link her to Jen she couldn't just let go as easily as Jen seemed to. She looked around her she had ended up at the Dog. The ring had fallen down the ledge tilly hooked her legs under the bars on the ledge and jumped down. Scrambling around on the floor to try and find it. She looked to her left and realised it had probably fallen into to the pond. Without thinking she jumped in, feeling around to try and find the ring. She didn't care how undressed she was, how cold she felt or how ridiculous this all seemed, she just needed to find that ring. As if finding it would fix everything. She tutted as something blocked the light from the street lamp making it even more difficult to see what she was doing in the pond. She looked up and saw a figure at the edge if the pond.
"Midnight dip?" Lexie frowned down at Tilly.
Tilly just ignored her and carried on with her search.
"Cool" Lexie shrugged and pulled off her dress kicking off her biker boots. Tilly groaned. Those bloody biker boots.
"What are you doing?" Tilly stopped still in the water. Instantly regretting it as she started shivering.
"Fancy a dip too" Lexie had now stripped to her underwear and jumped into the pond.
"You're mad!" Tilly shook her head and carried in searching.
"What we looking for then?" Lexie copied Tilly joining in the search.
"A ring. It fell off my finger" Tilly choked back tears.
"You'll never find a ring in here!" Lexie laughed. She stopped laughing when she turned and saw Tilly in bits next to her. "Oi... Come on. I'm not good with cryers..." Lexie patted Tilly's shoulder awkwardly.
"What do you think you're doing?!" Jack appeared at the edge if the pond. "Get out now!"
"Eh whats goin on? Everything alright Jack?" Diane poked her nose in as her and Martha stood behind Jack.
"Yes everything's fine. Nothing to see ladies" Jack tutted and stormed off. Ruby's death still affecting him deeply he had no time for anyone.
"Tilly is that you?" Diane squinted.
"What's it got to do with you?" Lexie scowled. "Jog on"
"Cheek of her!" Diane mumbled as her and Martha walked away.
"Oh what's the point anyway" Tilly swam to the edge and jumped out of the pond. Lexie followed her.
"Erm where's your clothes?" Lexie frowned as she started to get dressed.
"I... I..." Tilly looked down suddenly realising she was only wearing a Tee and knickers.
"Never mind" Lexie took her jacket and wrapped it around Tilly. She left her hands on Tilly's shoulders and looked into her eyes. "Expensive ring?"
Tilly felt slightly uncomfortable under Lexie's stare and looked to the floor. "Not really. Just means the world to me" she sniffed and pulled Lexie's jacket around her. Lexie hugged Tilly. Tilly felt guilty for a moment but then embraced the hug. At that moment Lexie could have been anyone. She just felt like her whole world had fallen apart and needed to be held. She sobbed onto Lexie's shoulder and Lexie rubbed her back gently.
Lexie pulled away from the hug and looked back into Tillys eyes.
"That better?" Lexie smiled and leaned forwards to kiss Tilly. Tilly responded for a moment before realising what she was doing and pulled away.
"No... No sorry I..." Tilly ran off.
"Shit. Tilly I'm sorry I shouldn't have done that I just..!" Lexie started to shout after Tilly but there was no use. She had gone. "Shit!" Lexie kicked the pavement and then something shiny caught her eye...
Jen lay awake in bed as she watched the light appear through the curtains. She'd not slept all night. She hated herself and what she had done to Tilly. Not only had she ended what they had together but she had also cheapened it by practically kicking Tilly out once she had got what she wanted. She'd thought that if she reverted back to her old love them and leave them ways then it wouldn't hurt as much. In the past Jen had never cared and so thought maybe this would help her not to feel as bad about Tilly. She was wrong. She felt ten times worse. She contemplated calling in sick at work but what was the point? She'd have to face Tilly sooner or later. She sighed defeatedly and got out of bed. She threw on the nearest clothes she could find. No energy to even shower. She reluctantly made her way downstairs.
Jen got to the kitchen just in time to see Sinead sneaking Bart out of the back door.
"Nice Sinead." Jen shook her head. Sinead seemed to take advantage of Diane when ever she could and Jen didn't like it. Sinead just scowled back.
"Have you seen Tilly?" Sinead quickly changed the subject.
"Why would I of?" Jen widened her eyes defensively.
At this point Diane came through the front door.
"Alright. No need to bite me head off!" Sinead gritted her teeth at Jen.
"Eh! What's all this?" Diane glared at Sinead.
"Her doin me head in! I'm only asking where Tilly is. She was meant to stay last night that's all. It's not like her to just-" Sinead stood with her hands on her hips as over dramatic as ever.
"Tilly? Oh I wouldn't worry about her. Having a wail of a time she was when I saw her last night. She was only swimming in the pond with some hobby girl!" Diane didn't realise every word of that had felt like a dagger going through Jens heart.
"You messin?! The saucy minx. Oh my god... The girl she was with dud she have long brown hair?" Sinead was practically jumping up and down with excitement and Jen felt like her heart was under her feet.
"I dunno Sinead it was dark." Diane had lost interest now as she made a cup if tea.
"Bit gothy looking but really gorgeous?" Sinead continued.
"I dunno Sinead like I said it was dark!" Diane was losing patience. "Right gobby thing she was though. Told me to jog on!"
"Ahhhh!" Sinead squealed. "Deffo Lexie then! Oh my god I've gotta hurry up and get to college I need the goss NOW!"
Luckily enough for Jen, Diane was too busy making a cup of tea and Sinead was too busy gushing about Lexie for either of them to notice the sound of her heart breaking or see the stray tear that rolled down her cheek... She hadn't expected Tilly to move on THAT fast. At least she now knew she'd made the right decision...
