Chapter: Prelude to Thanksgiving
The rain has been really hard lately; it seems that it's trying to get my attention because it has been tapping at my window for the past half hour. It seems that Siris has his moon and Mana has his winds, but for me the rain does enough justice for me. I cannot help but feel like standing out in the rain and just wash my pain away. It has been a while where I felt like I had to be perfect and do my chores without flaws just to get my parents approval, I would spend minutes upon minutes washing and ironing cloths but if there was even a simple wrinkle then I would do it all again, just so that I can get a "good job" from my parents. But it doesn't seem like that has been happening lately because even if it is great in my eyes it is still not great enough to satisfy my parents. If you guys wouldn't mind I would like you to listen to one song that explains how I feel ok while I go toss the other cloths into the dryer.
Pam gets up and walks over to her stereo as she plugs in her who pod and turns it on to a song.
You were standing in the wake of devastation
And you were waiting on the edge of the unknown
And with the cataclysm raining down
Insides crying "Save me now"
You were there, impossibly alone
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope, but failure's all you've known
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go. Let it go
And in a burst of light that blinded every angel
As if the sky had blown the heavens into stars
You felt the gravity of tempered grace
Falling into empty space
No one there to catch you in their arms
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope, but failure's all you've known
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go. Let it go
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope, but failure's all you've known
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go. Let it go
Let it go
Let it go
Let it go
Let it go
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope, but failure's all you've known
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go. Let it go
That was a song by Linkin Who, they are the one of the Pack's favorite band to listen too, I hope you enjoyed it while I was away. But it isn't just my parents who I feel doesn't appreciate what I do it also has to do with my boyfriend Leonard, he always said that he would treat me right and do whatever it would take to make me happy but it seems he talks more about it than putting the effort into it. His parents also seem to disapprove of what I am doing to their "perfect son", well I just want to shout at them this "real people are not perfect, and perfect people just aren't real" everyone has flaws even they do but they make it seem that I just keep messing up.
The pack shouts from downstairs for Pam to come down stairs for lunch
Haha it seems that the pack members who are my family now are calling me for lunch, at least they appreciate me and the things I do, even if it is just making them lunches and food but it's the thought that counts doesn't it? Well I better go before they eat all the food, namely Mana.
But I do want you guys to enjoy the rain while I am eating lunch with my family with one more songs of how I feel.
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place,
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you?
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you're screaming?
No, you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No, you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like (What it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life