"You want to talk about it?"
Jenny sat on the edge of the bed, near the crib. She was leaning over it and watched her sleeping son. Her mother's question hang in the air for several long minutes. She was too busy eyeing the sleeping angel. He was making sounds while sucking his pacifier and shaking his little chubby fists in the air. She smiled at the sight and tried to- tried desperately to forget what had happened with Chuck. She should have been happy right now. She had told him and he wanted nothing from them. She could be going back to Hudson tomorrow if she wanted and move on with her life. There she was, supposed to be relieved, but instead Jenny felt more trapped than she had felt in a long time. Facing the reality with Chuck had made her feel worthless again and made her doubt herself as a mother.
Allison sat next to her daughter and smiled, "He is starting to act more and more like you every day," Her voice was almost a whisper, "He even smiles like you."
Her mother's nice words didn't seem to work as encouragement. A tear rolled down her cheek," I don't know if I can do this after all."
"What are you talking about?" Allison sounded alarmed.
The fragile blonde tore her broken eyes from the baby, "What if my love isn't enough? What if I'm not enough?"
Her mother's eyes dart quickly to Jenny. She doesn't watch her for too long because the sight in front of her is truly breaking her heart, "Jenny…" She wiped her tears with her thumb, "I don't know what he said, but you can't listen to him. Remember what I told you? Do not let these people get to you. You are everything that little boy needs and there is nothing more you could give to him." Allison continued her voice careful and low, sounding both comforting and scared for her at the same time, "You and Charlie share a special bond that didn't break when the umbilical cord was cut. You are a wonderful mother and whatever Chuck Bass said won't change that."
Jenny looked at the ceiling and wiped rest of the tears away forcefully, "I feel like I'm back to square one. Everything I've gone through is nothing compared to what's to come. I can't protect him and he deserves better than that. It's never going to end."
"Don't think like that."
"I don't know what to think anymore mom," She says slowly, enunciating carefully, "I just know I need to get out of here as fast as possible."
Allison chewed on her lip, wanting to say something, but stopping herself with the firm bite of her teeth, "You know we need to get going soon."
Jenny couldn't agree with clocks because they always seemed to be running ahead, ticking away faster than her heart could keep up. She still had to go and see her brother. Tell him about everything and it was the last thing she wanted to do. Her thoughts were cut short as the sound of crying emerged. Jenny bended down over the bassinet to see Charlie's tiny face scrunched and red as he continued to cry. She reached out for him, carefully pulling the baby against her shoulder.
"Shh, shh. Come on, little man." The girl whispered, patting Charlie's back.
"I think he is done with his nap." Her mom smiled fondly, "I'm gonna pack his bag and we will be good to go."
Jenny looked at her with a hesitant expression, as if she was unsure about what to do next. She was feeling like a ball of nerves by all that was taking place, still torn about what happened with Chuck.
"I guess, if we really have to." She nodded, lost in the memory.
Allison was silent for a moment, but then her face turned serious, "You know you do."
"What are we waiting for?" Serena sighed and grunted in frustration, "I have plans."
"Your friends can wait Serena," Lily answered with irritation, keeping her eyes on Rufus who was looking out of the window, "This is a family matter and it won't take long anymore."
"Can't you just tell us already?" Dan joined in the complaining.
"Mom said it would take a sec," Serena's little brother rolled his eyes before settling his gaze back on the book he was reading, "You two need to relax."
"Are we waiting for someone?"
The question his son asked caused Rufus to turn away from the window and focus his eyes on the whole family, "Yeah we are." The way he said it made it sound like it was nobody important. Maybe he just didn't have the strength to think about other people when he felt so anxious and angry at the same time himself.
"Who? What's going on mom?" Serena asked alarmingly, "This is ridiculous! You guys can't expect us to just sit here and wait."
"Serena." Lily snapped at her, but the doorbell rang, interrupting their conversation.
Rufus looked back at Lily and she knew he was not ready for this.
Soon as everybody in the family knew it would be official and not a secret to them or the town they lived in.
He was restless. All day his feelings had spiraled out of control from bored to sullen to a frenzied agitation.
Lily went to the door and opened it for the guests they were expecting. The whole house was silent.
Dan, Serena and Eric stayed still, but kept eyeing into the hallway trying to guess who would walk into the living room.
Everyone looked shocked, like they couldn't believe it. Serena's jaw dropped while Dan and Eric remained speechless. Jenny stood right in front of them with Charlie. She looked down at her son, slumped warmly in her arms almost as if she wanted to avoid other people's gazes and only look at the eyes that made her feel a bit calm. Allison was behind her daughter arms folded against her chest, like she was trying to hold herself together. She actually hadn't seen her son in a long time and coming back to see him like this wasn't exactly planned.
"Jenny? Mom?" Dan finally managed to mumble out in confusion, "What's going on?" His eyes then find the baby who is being calmly rocked in his sisters arms, "Wha-What? Whose baby is that?"
"Could someone explain what's going on?" Eric questioned in a surprisingly stern voice and finally tossed his book aside.
"I didn't mean to hide this and I hope you all will understand," Jenny locked eyes with her brother and went on, "I can't tell you how much it hurt me-"
He looked anxious and she felt like all hope was gone. She could tell how annoyed he was, "What are you trying to say Jenny?"
The blonde looked back at Rufus who stood in the background with Lily and Allison. He nodded at her as encouragement even though he felt like he was fighting with understanding this himself.
"He is mine," She announced and the whole room was dead quiet, "I want you all to meet Charlie Daniel Humphrey- My son."
"WHAT?" Serena and Eric both exclaimed in shock. Her brother remained still, but looked as horrified, maybe even more horrified.
"But- but- you can't have a baby!" Eric said breathlessly, "You would have told me- You wouldn't have lied… This is a joke right? Right!"
Dan shook his head, closed his eyes, and pressed his face against his arm.
"Dan…" Jenny could have cried her eyes out because she felt so relived. He looked at her, but it was painful to see her innocent little sister like this. The whole sight in front of him seemed comical. She was still tiny and seeing her holding a toddler was just plain ridiculous, "I didn't want this okay? You know how messed up everything was and I couldn't.. I couldn't deal with this and these people yet. I needed time to figure things out." Then she turned to look at Eric, "I didn't mean to hurt anybody. I wanted to tell all of you, but I couldn't because…" The girl felt tears burning in her eyes, "I couldn't because I didn't know if I would keep him and frankly I didn't know what I was doing."
"What am I supposed to say?" Dan finally opened her mouth and sounded astonished. He then looked at the grownups in the room, "You all knew?"
"We didn't," Uneasy Rufus answered his son, "We found out yesterday."
Allison tried to avoid Dan and what was about to come.
"Mom?"
"It was my decision okay?" Jenny continued to watch her brother with careful, but sure eyes, "Don't blame her. I asked her not to tell and I don't know what I would have done without her."
"You lied to me! You lied to us! I don't know what the worst part about this is!" He exhaled slowly, the words just coming out his mouth, "The fact that you lied to us for God knows how long or the fact that you had his baby! He tried to take advantage of you," His innuendo fell flat on her ears, but still shook her to the core. She had never seen him so mad and hurt, "Remember that huh? And now you have his baby! What do you expect me to say Jenny!"
Charlie immediately started to fuss in her arms and soon broke into full tears. The little boy was scared of the new faces and the yelling around him.
"Don't yell in front of him!" Jenny responded loudly.
Seeing how everything was spiraling out of control, Lily stepped between the heated argument, "I'll take him."
Jenny looked at her with worried eyes. She held Charlie tightly as she could.
"It's okay." She reassured her and waited her to hand him over.
On impulse, she leaned down to kiss her baby boy, a light touch on his smooth cheek, but he howled in indignation. Jenny handed him over to Lily, "He isn't used to strangers… If he-"
"Don't worry I will come and get you if he doesn't calm down."
She nodded back and watched the woman carry her son out of the living room that had turned into a war zone. Meanwhile Dan couldn't help thinking of all the things he'd missed, all the things he still missed, all the things they'd never do together again.
"Chuck is the dad then?" Serena asked in denial. She had watched it all go down in front of her eyes, but couldn't comprehend what she had actually witnessed. She had been too busy eyeing Dan and hoping that he would be able to keep himself together.
Jenny nodded ashamed, not able to say it to their faces.
"Why would you name him after..." Eric pondered aloud.
"I-I it isnt like that," She explained, "I didn't name Charlie because of Chuck. Well I did in a way, but I didn't do it to respect him. It's hard to explain."
"Does he know?" This time it was her father, "Did you tell him?"
"Yeah… A few hours ago actually," She laughed, short but sweet, and shook her head, a gesture Rufus still remembered she did when she was nervous, "He doesn't care."
Soon as the words leave Jenny's mouth he just takes off.
"DAD!" The blonde immediately knew what was going to happen. In panic she turned to her brother, "Please help me get him before he does something he will regret."
"Let's go," He sighed, impatient, "I have a few words I'd like to say to him as well."
"I'll go with you."
"No," Dan turned to Serena, "I don't want you to get mixed up with what is going to happen." His words were sincere for sure, "Just don't tell Blair yet… We don't need her meddling into this."
She didn't even have time to react when Dan stormed out of the living room with Jenny on his tail, but he stopped to look at his mother for a cold long second, "When I'm back- we need to talk."
Allison watched concerned as both of her children went after Rufus. Eric and Serena stood there dumbfounded by everything that had happened.
Chuck walked around the room with a cigarette in left hand, drink in right, and his breath strong with both. The sickening thought of him actually having a child was still too strong in his mind. He knew what kind of people his family was full off; plain assholes, people who were mentally incapable to show love, miserable business men- well let's face it, they were all screwed up. Chuck growled to himself and looked like a caged tiger, pacing back and forth in the room while drinking his drink and tossing away the cigarette. He didn't know what to think or do at this point. For a moment he wished he hadn't even opened the door and let her in. Another fucking problem brought into his life.
Just then his door was being banged again. He looked at the door in annoyance and waited for the banging to stop, but it didn't. Finally losing his cool, he put his drink on the nearby table and opened the door with a huff, "What now-" Chuck's yell was cut off by a fist to the jaw. He didn't even catch a flash of the person behind the door when the first fist hit him. It was a hard blow that caught him off guard and put him down on the floor with a loud thud. He was gasping, choking as he tried to regain the breath that had been stolen from him. While he tried to regain his breath Rufus was over him, "You son of a bitch!" He pulled Chuck by his shirt collar, punched him again and again.
"Dad!" Jenny's voice came from the hallway. She stopped by the door in shock before launching to grab his father's shirt, trying to get him to stop, "stop it! Stop! Dad!"
Dan ran into the situation, also pulling Rufus off Chuck. With a miracle he was actually able to pull him away, "It's not worth it!"
"I'm not done!"
Chuck angrily pushed himself up off the floor. He savagely wiped away the red blood from his bloody lip with the sleeve on his arm, "You're all fucking crazy!" He turned around getting support from the wall, "Fuck-" He touched his forehead and winced in pain. He had a deep cut above his right eyebrow and his bottom lip was completely busted.
"Chuck." Jenny reached out for him, but he backed away motioning her to stop.
"Get out and take your family with you before I ask someone else to do that." His voice was harsh and he continued to reach for the whisky he had placed on the table earlier. With pathetic shaking hands he tossed the liquid down his throat and cursed some more under his breath.
"Don't talk to her like that!" Dan still held onto Rufus who was breathing in and out heavily, "After everything you have done-"
"I told you to leave!" Chuck spit out the blood from his mouth on to the carpet.
"We are not going anywhere before you apologize to her for everything." Rufus managed to growl out.
"You want me to apologize?" He spat and tried to take a threatening step closer to Rufus, but Jenny stepped in front of him.
"Stop! Both of you!"
Chuck looked at the family in front of him and laughed mockingly, "You're all trash and you know what? Maybe I should actually look into this," He snorted to himself, "I wouldn't want my son to grow up with people like you and have a pathetic excuse of a mother like you. He would probably be much better off with me in here."
Her face crumbled. His harsh words hitting home, "I hate you!" She screamed at the top of her lungs, "I fucking hate you Chuck!"
"Get in line!" Chuck was being his serious, cold self even with blood smeared on his face, "Stop acting like a little bitch and go home!"
Curse words were flying and Rufus was ready to lunge at him again, but the hotel security stopped anything from happening. Pulling Rufus into the hallway as well as Dan. They also took Jenny by her shoulders and pulled her out of the suite.
"Sir, are you alright?" One of the men who was keeping Rufus under control asked.
"Just throw them out," Chuck looked down at them idly with a mockingly proud look on his face, "And Rufus?"
He looked up from the floor and met Chuck's gaze.
"Have fun looking at my face for the rest of your life on your grandchild."
Chuck slammed the door shut and shook his head. He needed another drink.
Well that was dramatic lol :D
sorry this chapter took longer because i didnt know quite how approach it...
anyways hope you liked and again thanks for the nice comments!