A/N: Whoa! I'm back, guys! And not only am I back, but I'm also writing Kogan-y goodness o.O Things have changed for me, and I'm gonna try to write some romance again :) So I hope you enjoy it. I'm trying to make my chapters a little longer upon request because I didn't even realize how short they've been getting. So yeah, enjoy, and thanks for being so patient!
Kendall took a deep breath and closed his eyes. His muscles tensed around him as he opened his mouth. "Mom... Logan and I are dating."
"What?!" he heard his mom shout. His eyes darted open as he reached for his boyfriend who was seated next to him. They wrapped their arms around each other as Mrs. Knight stepped closer to them menacingly slow.
"Are you telling me," she said through gritted teeth, "that you're gay?" she spat. Kendall closed his eyes again, and seconds later, he felt a hand across his face. His eyes flashed open, but they quickly closed again when he saw the same hand coming toward his face again. His cheek and left eye stung and were turning red. He reached up to his face, but it hurt to even touch it. He looked up at his mom and saw her fuming with anger.
"RUN!" Kendall screamed. "RUN, LOGAN! RUN!" And Logan wouldn't run. No matter how much Kendall yelled, Logan just didn't run.
Kendall woke up, out of breath in a cold sweat. It was just another one of his many nightmares. He did not want to come out. But at the same time, he wanted to. Just to make these dreams go away.
He tried to fall asleep again, but he just couldn't. So he settled for the same thing he had done the past 3 nights. He got out of bed and walked to Logan's bed. He softly tapped Logan's shoulder. "Logie," he whispered. "Logiebear?"
"Mmmm, yes Kenny?" Logan whispered, wiping the sleep out of his eyes. "Oh, did you have a bad dream again?" Kendall nodded like a little kid with a pout on his face. "Oh, sweetie, come in my bed for tonight." He moved over to let Kendall in.
"Loges? Are you sure?" Logan nodded and tried to keep his tired eyes open. Kendall climbed in, but he wanted to keep talking to Logan to calm himself down a bit. "I wake you up every night and make you share your bed just because of some stupid nightmares."
"They're not stupid, baby. But, I am worried about you." Logan reached over and caressed Kendall's cheek. "Trust me, I don't mind sharing my bed with you," he giggled. They were silent for a bit.
"Kendall?"
"Yeah?"
"Do you think it would help to just do it?" he asked. "To just... come out already?"
"Yes," Kendall replied. "I was thinking that before. Ya know, just to get it over with. But only if you're ready!" he said.
Logan nodded. "Yes, I'm ready if you are."
"So, tomorrow alright with you?" Kendall asked.
Logan said yes. "Now, let's go to sleep. I'm tired."
"Okay Logie. Night." Kendall wrapped his arms around Logan and rested his head on his chest. As he drifted off to sleep, he half-consciously whispered, "I love you..."
Logan was shocked, but he soon calmed down and whispered, "I love you too." And he really meant it. The two rested against each other and soon fell asleep in the comfort of each other's arms.
-ThisLoveIsOurs-
Kendall woke up early the next morning but didn't get out of bed so he wouldn't wake Logan.
When Logan's eyes fluttered open, Kendall leaned in to kiss his forehead. He said softly, "Good morning, my sleeping beauty."
Logan smiled big and giggled at how cute his boyfriend was. He looked up into those deep green eyes. He leaned up for a kiss, and Kendall happily pecked his boyfriend on the lips.
He pulled away. "Logan, about what I said last night-"
"Kendall, it's fine," he replied. He was hopeful. "Did... did you really mean it?" he asked, trying to keep his best poker face.
Kendall nodded slightly. "Yes, I did. And I'm sorry, Logie. If you don't even wanna go out with me anymore or whatever I totally understand. I don't know-" He was cut off by a pair of lips tackling his own. And soft hands cupping his face. And soon a tongue invading his mouth. And then Logan crawling on top of him. When Logan pulled away to look into Kendall's eyes, the blonde commented with wide eyes, "Well that was random!"
Logan laughed. "God, you've gotta stop being so cute!" he said. "And by the way, I love you too.."
-ThisLoveIsOurs-
After dinner that night, Kendall and Logan sat on the bright orange couch in the living room, close but far enough away so that it wouldn't look suspicious to anyone. It was happening for real now. It wasn't just another dream this time.
Mrs. Knight pulled up a small chair that matched the sofa, while Katie, Carlos, and James sat on the other end of the couch. "So sweetie, what did you wanna talk to us about?" Mrs. Knight asked nonchalantly. Kendall could feel his heart beating inside his chest. He could literally hear it pounding as he got closer and closer to saying the words.
"Mom..." Kendall started, "Katie... guys..." Kendall started to have second thoughts about all of this. He could feel his face heating up. All he wanted to do right now was reach over and grab Logan, and that would make him feel safe. But there was no choice now. He just had to say those two words. He could see the faces in the room growing with curiosity and concern. He had to do the unthinkable, and he had to do it now. After a long pause and a deep breath, he finally stated, "I'm gay."
There was a long silence. Kendall didn't know what to think. Everyone was just looking at him with surprised expressions. He almost started to cry when his mom finally spoke. "Kendall, sweetie, it's okay. I love you. I promise. Everything's going to be fine." Kendall only nodded in understanding. He let a tear or two slip down his cheek, and his mom did the same. She got up, walked over to her son, and gave him the tightest hug imaginable. "You know that I love you no matter what, right?" Kendall nodded again. He could seem to find his voice. All he could do was hug his mom back.
"Mrs. Knight?" Logan interrupted their hugging. She looked over at him with a questioning expression. "Can I say something?" She nodded and sat back down. Everyone looked at him, half knowing what to expect. "I... I'm gay, too..." he blurted out, then immediately regretted it. But everyone came over to comfort the two boys, and they were soon glad that they had gotten this over with.
After about half an hour of tears, hugs, and kind words, James finally popped the question. "So, does that mean you two are, like..." he gestured to Logan and Kendall, and they smirked, linking their fingers together.
"Yeah," Kendall said with a big smile. "Logie is my boyfriend." James and Carlos let out little 'awww's. Mrs. Knight and Katie just smiled.
"I always had a feeling you two would end up together," Mrs. Knight confessed. "I'm very happy for you boys. But I would like to talk to you."
Everyone knew what this meant and immediately left to go talk amongst themselves in James and Carlos' room. On the way out, Katie hugged her brother and said, "Congrats, big brother. Oh, and... good luck with 'the talk'," she said putting air quotes around the last two words as they laughed together.
"Now," Mrs. Knight began once it was only the three of them in the room. "While I am very happy for you, I have to set some rules."
"Yeah, yeah, always use protection, mutualism, I know, Mom," Kendall said in a drony voice, causing his boyfriend to giggle.
Mrs. Knight rolled her eyes at her son's childish behavior. She started again, as if nothing had happened. "First of all, I don't want PDA." The boys were both shocked by this and started to protest. "I know. I understand that you're disappointed, but you know how mean the world can be. I don't want my boys getting hurt."
"Mom, we're gay teenagers! I think we can learn to handle it!"
She responded by saying no. Well, no one could argue with her when she was set on something. "Now, on to the stuff that I'm sure you boys don't want to talk about. How sexually active are you?"
"Mom!" Kendall yelled, blushing.
"Kendall, what have you and Logan done sexually?"
Kendall groaned. "Nothing, Mom. We're both virgins. All that's happened is I gave Logan a blowjob, okay?!"
She nodded. "Okay," she said. "Well, I know you two are going to do it eventually. So when you do, use protection. And for God's sake, boys, don't do anything around Katie!"
"We won't," they said in unison. Mrs. Knight released them to their room with a final congratulations.
Logan closed the door to their room. "Happy?" he asked. Kendall nodded. They got ready for bed very quickly; it had been a mentally exhausting day for the two of them. Kendall climbed into his own bed for the first time in awhile. "Goodnight, my love," he said as he turned off the lights. "I love you."
"I love you, Ken," Logan mumbled, sleep already taking over his body. Kendall was surprised when he felt someone crawl into his bed at 3 AM. He looked over at the brunette, questioningly. "I couldn't sleep without you," he admitted. They fell asleep in each other's arms once again. They both secretly hoped this would become a habit.
A/N: Okay, I hope you liked it! Like, seriously, I worked hard on this! Please review to let me know that people are still reading this! Even if it's bad, just give me feedback! Any and all readers are greatly appreciated :)
