THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT I DON'T WANT YOU
After the nice conversation Tony had with his boss, he went back inside with Ziva. He was still hoping that she would decide to get some rest but he wanted to work on being honest with Ziva. He wanted to remind her of her life with him, with NCIS, and in Israel. He knew a lot of pain would come along with his honesty but that was the only way to get her to start remembering, hopefully. "Ziva, before we go to bed, I think we need to talk about a few things." Sitting down on the bed, as she did the same. "Alright, I think that's a good idea." "First off, I know you keep bringing up us being together, you know, in this bed but the truth is, we've never been together in that way."
"You are saying that we've never made love to each other?" Kind of looking disappointed and ashamed at the same time. She never would of pushed him if she had known that they've never been together before. "I am sorry, Tony. I just assumed we have done it on several different occasions. I mean, I feel this strong chemistry whenever we are around each other. I just thought it would be nice to express these feelings." "It would be nice." Moving closer to Ziva and wanted her to know that the chemistry she was feeling was always there. Even before she lost her memory.
"Don't get me wrong, Ziva. Sex with you would be amazing." Staring into her big, brown eyes now, with so much passion. "Just because we havn't been together before, doesn't mean-" "That doesn't mean that I don't want you. The truth is, I've wanted to be with you ever since the night be brought you home from the hospital but..." Looking away from Ziva's sweet face now and down to the bed. Tony couldn't bring himself to tell Ziva that they havn't even been dating. That they havn't even gone on a date before. He knew he would have to eventually, but now he just wanted to be there for Ziva and even if Gibbs understood, he didn't actually say he would be ok with Tony sleeping with Ziva.
"Tony, I do want you too. I may not understand this, my whole life and everything that is going on in it but I know deep in my heart, if not in my head, that you are very special to me." Taking Tony by the hand and holding it to her heart. Suddenly Tony didn't feel so nervous anymore. He just smiled at her. "We've got time, My Ninja. If something this amazing will happen, it's worth taking our time. I promise you it will be worth it." "That nickname, I'm still so confused about it." "Well, maybe that's the next thing we can talk about. Why don't we get comfy and we can talk about all the things that make you My Ninja." Getting into what was turning out to be he side of the bed as Ziva did the same.
"I am not like an actual Ninja, am I?" Letting Tony put his big, strong arms around her. Tony just smiled at the shock in her voice. "Actually, you kind of are. You are a trained assassin and I've honestly never seen any women kick ass like you before. Actually I have never seen anyone kick ass like you before. It's pretty amazing." Ziva couldn't believe what she was hearing. She had been trained to kill people? Suddenly Ziva felt like a horrible person. "How can you think that's amazing, Tony? I've been trained to kill people. I'm a killer?" "No Ziva, you've only killed the bad guys. Believe me, You're not a cold blooded killer." Trying to make Ziva feel better about herself when he was reminded of the fact that she did kill her own brother.
That conversation would have to waite until he had more energy for it. He knew it wouldn't be easy to tell. "Ziva, that is not who you are anymore. Your life is catching the bad guys now and you do a great job at it." Kissing her lightly on the head. An idea came to him now that might help a great deal when it came to Ziva remembering her life. "Ziva, would you like to go back home?" Waiting for a response. "This is not my home?" Still confused about so many things. "No Ziva, this is your home now but I'm talking about Israel. Where you grew up." "I think that would be nice but I am scared. I can't help but feel like there was a lot of things that I was running from and that's why I came to NCIS." Just resting her head on Tony's chest.
"Ziva, your life has come with a lot of pain but I promise, I will be with you every step of the way. I won't let you be alone in this." "So, you will go with me?" Tony just held her close to him. "Of course I will go with you. I may not know every fact of your life in Israel but it might be a good experience for me, too. I think we'll learn a lot about each other while we're there. So, are you up for it? I can talk to Gibbs tomorrow." Ziva just smiled and looked up at Tony now. "Yes, with you with me, I think I can handle this." "Ok then, we should get some rest if we're going to leaving for Israel soon." Trying to get comfortable as Ziva did the same. Ziva just laid there for a few seconds before she had one more request from Tony for the night. "Hey, Tony?" "Yeah?" "Can I have a kiss?" Looking up at Tony with a vulnerable look on her face. He just smiled and bent down to kiss her sweet, soft lips. He kissed her a few more times as Ziva enjoyed every single one of them. "You can have more than one." Tony said as he looked into her face.