YOU CAN'T GO BACK
Tony walked out of the bowling alley now, not really sure where he was headed when Gibbs walked out shortly after him. What Tony didn't bother to notice was that Gibbs was watching the whole argument that him and Abby were having over Ziva and he couldn't help but get upset by it. He knew that Tony was hurting now and that Abby didn't have all of the facts straight but she was right to get mad at Tony for hurting Ziva by bringing another women to the bowling Alley then leaving the girl he was with behind. Something had to knock some sense back into his Senior Agent and if it wasn't a head slap, then it would be his voice.
"What the hell do you think you're doing, Dinozzo?! "Walking up to him now when Tony just threw his arms up in the air. Not really knowing what to say or do that this point. "I obviously keep scruing up, Boss. That's what I'm doing." "Will you quit feeling sorry for yourself?!" "But I'm soo good at it, Boss. Why stop a winning streak now?" Hitting the wall of the bowling alley with his bear hand. "Smart, Dinozzo." Tony just held his hand close to himself, and winced in pain. "You can hurt yourself all you want, Tony but you're truly hurting yourself by not talking to Ziva."
"I'm hurting myself by not talking to Ziva? No, I think I'm doing the best thing for her by staying the hell away." Practically in tears now. Gibbs didn't get it. Tony was toturing himself with all of this. If he didn't stop soon, he would really do something he regretted and it would be to himself. "You have to face her sooner or later, Tony." Tony just looked at Gibbs with complete hopelessness in his face. "And when I face her, Boss, what do I say? I'm sorry I told you that I couldn't live without you. I'm sorry that I slept with you. Are those some good conversation starters?"
"You got to say something because if this keeps up, I will end up loosing if not one, then two of my agents and I will be damned if I loose the both of you over this whole mess." Tony just sat on the cold ground now as Gibbs slowly did the same. "Can you live without Ziva, Tony?" Tony just gave his Boss the weirdest look. "Can you honest to god, live without Ziva?" Tony just looked away for the longest time before he gave the answer that Gibbs was expecting. "No." He said quietly. Gibbs just nodded, understandably before he asked his next question. "When you slept with her, did you regret that?" Tony just let out a big sigh as Gibbs put his hand on his back. "I regret the way it happened but do I regret kissing her, touching her, holding her?" "Ok, remember what I said about details, Dinozzo."
Tony just laughed a little bit at hearing that. "No, I don't, Boss. It was amazing. It was probably the best thing that ever happened to me." "You can't go back. After everything that has happened and after tonight, things have already changed." "I know that, Boss but I can't except the fact that they all changed because of me. If I would of just kept my big mouth shut and my hands off of her, she would of gotten her memory back just fine and things would be back to the way they were." "You don't know that, Tony. Like I said before, maybe this all happened for a reason but you have to go and find that out for yourself. You can't leave things like this."
Tony just slowly got up off the ground as Gibbs did the same. "I think I'm going to go find her. Thanks, Boss. You seem to keep popping up everytime I need you lately." Gibbs just gave him a little smirk before Tony began to walk away. "Not yet, Dinozzo." Tony just stopped at looked at his Boss in confusion. "You still have a date that you need to take home and you might want to bother to learn her name." Giving Tony one of his lighter head slaps. "Right, Boss."