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Mihael sat on my bed across from Matt and I, who were sitting on the floor, and both of them were staring at me. I liked the look I was getting from Matt a lot better more than the one that I was getting from Mihael.

"You don't have to look so pissed off Melz, ya gonna scare this poor little fella'." As he talked Matt pulled me into his lap, which surprised me, mother had always told me not to trust people so easily. I don't understand why, but it made me feel happy to be sitting there in Matt's lap (not in an inappropriate way), with Mello, as I've heard Matt call him, no longer looking at me so angrily (it was scary).

"Well Near, you definitely surprised us today." Mello said happily after falling backwards onto my bed with a smile. I think they've given up on interrogating me about my father, well, maybe now Mello and I can work more on establishing a slightly more friendly (on his behalf) relationship now, maybe I should voice this opinion.

"Mihael, I was thinking that now that Matt and I are friends, maybe you and I could work on establishing improving our relationship?" Mello sat up and looked at me horrified. Wrong choice of words?

"GROSS MAN! I'm not gay!" Matt sighed then face palmed, obviously irritated by his best friend's stupidity.

"No ardtard, what he means is he wants to become friends." Matt said sounding just as annoyed as he looked.

"YEAH WELL ARDTARD'S NOT A WORD!" Mello yelled much too loudly, as a pathetic attempt at a comeback.

"A little off topic, but anyway." I mumbled to myself and Matt being right next to my mouth(I'm sitting sideways in his lap) heard me and laughed.

Our conversation was ended as quickly as it began when aunty Miyu suddenly came running into the room, smiling, with her arms out for a hug. "NEAR, NEAR, NEAR, NEAR!" Aunty Miyu yelled sounding really scared and suddenly jumped on me and Matt and started crying.

I noticed two things at that moment, one: that Matt's chest can't handle the weight of two other peoples bodies crushing it, so now he's left gasping for air; and two: That aunty Miyu's clothes had blood on them!

"S-sister won't wake up! N-n-nd-and she's all red!" Everything else that happened next that day didn't process properly after that, I don't remember anything after that except for waking up in a hospital chair (the ones beside the patients beds, Matt had called Axel and ambulance) and found out that my mother was dead.

I'm now sitting on a bed in the hospital, staring at my feet. It's early in the morning and I've been sitting here staring at my feet since late last night. the police have already come and gone, but I refused to leave the hospital with them, and definitely refused to talk about what happened at home, I don't want to think about it.

They have no idea what I'm going through; I could barely deal with my sister's death and now my mother!

Aunty Miyu had been asleep in a chair near the bed, but now she's awake and staring at me with sorrow in her big brown eyes.

"So you brush your hair down,

And you let your makeup dry,

Stupid,

You let the ball drop,

Why'd you do it?

Why'd you do it?

You let the bridge burn,

With your secretive timing,

He was a manic depressive named laughing boy,

Named laughing boy"

I sung quietly, I don't see any relevance between the song and the situation, but I felt like singing and it was the only song I could think of.

I hear that Adrik had proposed to mother and that they were supposed to announce their engagement at that dinner Mihael ruined, so I might be sent to live with the Keehl's, but then again, I also might be sent to live with my father, where ever he went. I hope I get to live with Mihael and his family, and then maybe, for the first time since Kaida died, I could feel happy.

"Why Near look so sad? Axel in happy place now, she off with Kaida now." Aunty Miyu grinned at me and I smiled back.

"I-I know, these are tears of joy, I wish I could be in a happy place with Kaida too." I said while still smiling, maybe dad was supposed to kill me, and that's what Kaida meant when she said that she'd see me soon.

I was right, thank god, I was right when I assumed that we would be going to live with Adrik and Mihael. They live in a really big house and I'm surprised by the fact that we hadn't already moved in together along with mother back when she was still alive.

Aunty Miyu and I are standing in the doorway with our bags, but not grandmother, she died, did I forget to mention that? Oh well, she was a grumpy old cow anyway, she hit Mihael with her cane when he called her old, when she knew darn well that he was right.

Anyway, Mihael and Matt are standing in the doorway across from us (there's a cute little room between the doorway and the rest of the house), that I assume leads to the hallway, Matt's playing on his DS as usual (I can't believe that after only one morning around him I already knew his daily habits) and Mihael's eating chocolate (not a habit, an obsession) and leaning on the door frame while giving me a rather unkind look. What did I do now? I can understand if he doesn't want me living here but it's not my fault, my mother just died so he could at least pretend that he feels sorry for me.

Adrik smiled at me; well at least some people in that family know how to be kind and welcoming. I looked back over at Mihael and saw that he was staring at his dad looking sort of, well, strange. Maybe he just doesn't understand that he's the only one that doesn't like me?

"Mihael, would you please show Nate to your room where he'll both be staying." Oh now I get it, Mihael and I will be sharing a room, oh joy. Anyway, Mihael frowned, turned around and started walking down the hall without a word, so I followed him not, planning on breaking the barrier of silence.

Mihael stopped at the end of the hall and opened the door to his left and walked in. "This is my room, so therefore if you want to live here you must abide by my rules." Mihael grabbed my arm, pulled me into the room and pushed me back to sit on a bed. "Rule one: don't touch m'stuff. Rule two: if I'm in the room with you it means no talking unless Matt or myself happen to ask you something, and rule three: Don't do anything that might piss me off. Are we clear?" I was sort of confused by that last one, doesn't everything piss him off? I wasn't going to ask any questions though, because that would be talking, and I can't do that. So I just sat there quietly.

After dinner Adrik told me that I could have a bath, so I did. Whilst I was in the bath I started to dose off, and ended up falling into a terrifying dream.

I stood there in horror as dad tried to strip Kaida naked; he was definitely as high as a kite. Kaida was screaming and hitting dad so hard he had bruises and was even bleeding in some parts, I'd always thought that Kaida, strength wise, took after dad. Kaida through a kick, he threw a punch, she fell over, he tore off another article of her clothes, then, Kaida pulled out a pocket knife and dad started to laugh.

Dad easily got the knife out of Kaida's hand by tickling her (serious moment kind of ruined) and slit her throat. I remember that I screamed next, but I don't remember anything else that happened after that, though I think I was crying.

I opened my eyes with a gasp, I could feel something on my shoulder and I saw something out of the corner of my eye, so I turned just to come eye to eye with Matt, he was sitting beside me, looking worried.

"Ya' okay Near?" Matt asked worriedly, and removed his hand from my wet shoulder. "Ya' been in here a while."

"Yeah, fine. But if I had to complain I'd say the water's too cold." I joked and put on a fake smile; Matt then returned my smile and started to help me climb out of the tub.

I sorta' just winged this chapter so I could update. So please, let me know what I should do next!

I really need to learn to proof read before I update!

The song was A Manic Depressive Named Laughing Boy by Modest Mouse.

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