Exams are more or less over, and why not? this is chapter nine Yeahh :)

I hope everyone is ready for this :) any way I worked hard on this. :)

Song: Counting~ Christina Grimmie

also: Breath Me~ Sia

This chapter is going to be going into Ania's old life. and some things might happen, but I promise it won't destroy anything they have
If you have any thoughts of self harm, I'm going to warn you that it may show up in it. If you are having troubles with this type of thing, please contact someone, or come talk to me.

Ania's POV

'I'm gonna miss you' Seth looked down at me in the air port.

'Seth, I'm not leaving forever, it's just that the rules of me being here is that I need to go to my mom's for Christmas. I'll be home in, like, a week.' I smiled up at him.

We have been dating for about two months now, and all though Paul wasn't to happy about it, for some odd reason that I do not know, everything was going good. After we had kissed, Paul said it was safe for me to come home. Then, like regular teenagers, Seth had brought me onto 3 dates before officially asking me to be his girlfriend. We had school, like normal, and on weekends, We would hang out.. I had soon come to realize that in an all to soon amount of time, I had begun to fall in love with him, I don't know what it is, I mean, I never trust anyone, and all of a sudden this one boy shows up, and I'm gone. It's like, I'm not me unless he is with me, or at least he is talking with me. I've been completely happy. But I know that when I get back to my mom's house, all hell will break lose in my mind. all I will have is the thoughts of Seth, and that in a week, I'll be back in his arms, happy, or at least safe.

'I know, but still, that's 7 days till I'm with you again.' He looked into my eyes; his Dark brown, so dark that they were the color of charcoal, filling into my similar, but slightly lighter, ones.

'You, will be fine.' I said, in the most convincing tone I could, more to myself then him. trying to hide that I was scared to death of going back to my home in Canada for a week.

"I wonder if my razor is still in with my socks" I thought, thank god Seth couldn't hear that. I have told him several of the reasons why I had left, the bulling, and fighting with my mom, the depression, but the one thing I had left out was the self- harm. I don't want him to know about that. It stopped, when I left. It was the people at my school, and at home, that caused it. Maybe It won't happen.

I hope.

'I love you' he said to me, pulling me out of my thoughts.

'I love you, too,' I smiled up at him.

The lady on the intercom called out my flight, and I looked at Seth. 'I Guess I need to go, now.'

'I Guess so.' He looked at me, and leaned down, pushing his lips to mine. I reacted instantly, replying with my lips in sync with his.

The lady called again, forcing us to part. as I moved away from him, he looked at me and mouthed 'Be careful' I nodded my head, and turned to run to my plane.

after giving the lady my ticket, I turned around one last time, to see him watching me. Seth put his hand to his lips, then pushed his hand towards me, symbolizing that he was pushing a kiss to me. then I pretended to catch it and smiled at him, Walking away.

and like that, the boy I love was gone, I was alone, for a week sure, but really, I was going to my hell.

OoOoOoOLater that dayoOoOoOoOo

I had just gotten home from the 2 1/2 hour flight back to Canada, the entire time trying not to think about what was ahead. I was keeping my mind on Seth. I was wondering what he was doing. was he with His Sue and leah? or with the boys?

I had grabbed my suitcase out of my mom's car when three girls walked by the house, Chris, Tania, and Samara. Three of the girls that had made my life a living hell here. 'Well, shit.' I thought trying to not get noticed. My mom had already gone into the house, something about the dog.

'well' If it isn't Ania. Where have you been?' Chris Looked at me with a smug expression on her face. and I knew I was going to have a bad time here.

'I moved in with my dad.' I whispered, Finally getting my Suitcase out.

'What? Mommy Didn't want you anymore?' Tania laughed, The other two joined.

'You know, everyone here is happy without you, no one cares about you. you could just stay where ever your dad is from.' Samara Took a step closer to me. Crossing her arms over her chest.

'I know' I looked down. It's funny, How when your treated really badly all the time, it doesn't hurt as much, but when Your finally treated like the way you should, it hurts when your treated bad. I could feel the tears forming in my eyes. and When I wiped them away, they laughed.

'Well we would stay and chat, but I don't want to have to see your face anymore, its burning my eyes.' Chris said, as they walked away. 'Toodles'

When they were gone, I grabbed my Suitcase, and Walked into he house. I brought it into my room. By now I could hardly stop the sobs from escaping my mouth. and I headed straight to the sock space in my dresser. I reached to the back and felt the familiar cloth that held my razors. Soon, I was in the washroom, with the door locked. 'just for now will I do this, I will stop when I'm back home' Was my final thought before I pushed the blade to the inner part of my thigh

This took me a while to wright, and I am really sorry if it triggers anyone, please don't do anything, if you need to IM HERE TO TALK.

anyway. this is chapter nine :)

xxsisi