As Oisin sat drawing on a napkin at the bar, Brendan finally had a chance to take in the boy's appearance, fair brown hair almost blonde under the lights of the club, a cut on his bottom lip and a dark bruise around his left eye and a angry red mark on his jaw also blemished his young face, he was wearing black skinny jeans with well worn boots scuffed at the front and a grey hoodie over a nirvana t-shirt, there was a black ring on his right thumb, a metal cross around his neck and multiple rings in his left ear and he was also wearing gold nail-polish on his right index finger and his left thumb.
"How is he?" Asked Cheryl who was now suddenly behind Brendan "He ran away, says his mam isn't worried"

"I'm sure that's not true"

"Have you seen his face, the way he jumps at any loud noise... c'mon Chez it's obvious" Brendan said with a heavy sigh.
How could he have been so stupid, now Brendan was going to send him back to his mam and Dermot and then he would have to see Father John, he couldn't see him he just couldn't, even the thought of his made him feel so wrong. It was his fault, that's what Dermot said, his mam said he probably asked for it and Father John said he wanted it, but he didn't, he begged him to stop pleaded with him but he wouldn't listen, nobody ever listened to him, Ronan did but he couldn't understand not fully, Oisin was alone and he hated it.

The day Oisin met Ronan hadn't been a happy nor had it been a sad it was a normal day really, Oisin woke up late for school because he had spent most of the night being shouted at by Dermot, after school he got the bus into town like he normally did and then spent the day busking, but he remembers the exact moment he saw him for the first time, Oisin had been doing a cover of 'Hey Jude' and Ronan stood with a few of his friends listening.
After the song had finished Ronan introduced himself and asked Oisin where he had studied, Oisin simply stared at him with confusion written all over his face and Ronan smiled at him and asked if he could sing with him, Oisin was in-love and he hated himself for it.

Oisin sometimes thought Ronan was from a different planet, well the South side. Ronan's smile was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen and his laugh was just music to his ears, everything about Ronan was amazing how loud he was, how rude he could be, how he danced around the streets without a care in the world instead of having his head bowed in shame like Oisin, Oisin didn't know many things but he did know that Dermot hated him, music was his life-line, The Doctor was his hero, he was as in-love with Ronan as much as any twelve year old could be and he also knew he was going to hell because of it.

It had been a year later when Ronan kissed him for the first time, "Oisin, why don't you like me" he had asked "What, ofcourse I like you you're my best friend" "But we're not like normal bestfriends" "No, we're just closer" "Good, that means I can do this then" and with that Ronan smashed their lips together and tangled his hands in Oisin's hair. Oisin felt like he was on fire, he knew what they were doing was a sin but he didn't care, he had never felt more whole, more complete.
Oisin hit Ronan for the first time four months after that, "C'mon Oisin, I want you so bad"

"No, Ro" "C'mon babe please" Oisin pushed Ronan back and punched him square in the face, as Ronan stumbled backwards holding his nose Oisin fell to the floor in a panic, apologising again and again "It's okay Oisin, I shouldn't have pushed you"

"Don't make excuses for me" Oisin shouted I forgive you is what Ronan chanted as Oisin cried into his legs while hugging him for dear life. Ronan may have forgiven him but, Oisin couldn't and he never would forgive himself for hitting the person he loves most in the world.

It took three more weeks for Oisin to come clean about the abuse he suffered at the hands of Father John, and Ronan had just held him while he cried and told him how brave he was and how much he loved him, Oisin didn't believe a word he was saying.

Not long after that Ronan found the scars that painted Oisin's pale wrist, that's when Oisin told him about Dermot and finally showed Ronan all of his scars. Oisin had never felt more vulnerable than when he stood shirtless infront of Ronan while he whipped away tears and told him that nobody should be allowed to hurt him as much as they have, He had angry red welts all over his back, thanks to Dermot's belt, he had three burns the size of a cigarette heads on the underside of his upper arm and he had a jagged scar across his stomach, from that time Dermot threw a glass bottle at him. Oisin thought he was ugly but Ronan said he was beautiful.

Okay I'm being a total weirdo posting like a hundred times in one night but I couldn't help myself :) Please Review!