Edd before he moved away had said goodbye to Eddy in person but in truth had left him months before in his thoughts, the minute he received his acceptance letter he left. He detached him self from those around him but with very little attachments to speak of it wasn't something he found difficult. He had left to meet new people to better him self and seek new opinions to challenge his own.
Yet here he was. He laid wide awake staring up at the blank canvas of his ceiling next to his old friend Eddy. A friend who had always been around him growing up who used to pose a challenge but Edd had decided had out grown any contribution to Edd's own personal growth. Eddy had shocked him,he'd given him a new experience. There was still a tension in the air since their argument previously. If you could call it an argument Edd asked him self. He never expected to see the beautiful side of Eddy,he knew it existed but they had never had emotions with each other.
Not all friendships are based on sharing. A friends support system can be heartless and quite if you all understand that this is the support system you built around yourselves. Fake laughter when in pain and false smiles,it works to get you through. You ignore the problem and move on laughing at your own suffering. It may seem cold and destructive as an outsider but it had always worked.
Eddy changed the system tonight and in doing so challenged Edd to evaluate his friendship and himself. Edd knew once he had risen to the challenge and evaluated all issues that were raised to meet a new conclusion,he'd have grown. In his own words he saw personal development as a result of new human interactions and experiences, this change challenged him to do something he'd never done. The beautiful side of Eddy was in it's own right a new person.
For the first time in months Edd felt like he'd grown and he hadn't even worked it all out yet,nor did he want to. He savoured this moment tasting the sweet taste. He knew this moment would be brief but Edd felt the sting of having been wrong about a person in the best possible way. He had knew Eddy his whole life and yet today he didn't,this was someone all new though he wasn't scared. It was strange when faced with something new and unfamiliar to him he had broken down previously but he had prepared for the experience months in advanced. Now,back in defeat. He faced a challenge and wasn't twitching.
the blank canvas he faced played as a surface to project his thoughts whilst he played through their previous conversation. Eddy was about to tell him something he never thought he would see or even existed. Of course Edd stopped him, what Eddy was about to suggest was not what friends shared especially two the same gender. He couldn't promise him self he wouldn't have accepted the challenge which was why he felt it was wise to stop him. Edd thought back to his love interests,on surface they had always been strong characters importantly female. In secret he had looked to Kevin, he had the illusion of a deeper character but once Edd had looked more in depth at this interest he saw only visual stimulation. Thinking back being close to others had never held importance to him, the idea of anything more than friendship had been paid even lesser thought.
Sex was something he had thought about. He had heard of the pleasures his urges could bring,played with pleasures he could bring him self. When he explored these pleasures he tried everything possible to him including more than a quick jerk or pull. These sudden thoughts made him blush checking quickly to see if Eddy was indeed sleeping. The sudden thought that Eddy may had been awake added a new thought of being caught,a deep desire filled his eyes. Edd had little experiences with lust but it always made him feel more adult. Lust was something he felt held a new experience every time he encountered it. Licking his lips Edd draped his eyes over Eddy wishing at any minute the boy next to him would wake.
Edd wasn't entirely sure he'd have welcomed Eddy's challenge had he been allowed to propose it though he was certainly sure now he'd have accepted it none the less. But right now all he wanted in the deepest part of him was for Eddy to share with an experience he'd longed for. A kiss. With a new sense of courage forgetting his nerves ever existed Edd in a swift movement positioned him self on top of Eddy. He was light and was grateful as this was to his advantage not to wake him.
Hovering over Eddy's body which seemed to radiate such heat Edd inhaled his scent deeply from the crook of his neck. It was driving him deeper into his own desires and all thoughts before him seemed to be clouded but he couldn't care. Driven by instinct he hosted along eddy's neck with his lips untill he finally reached his. His lips were only centimeters away,his breath on his. So close.
Edd froze every part of him called to attention. What was he doing?! Edd scolded him self as he jumped away from his friend still with effort not to wake him. Scratching his arms Edd looked down at his own erection and violently twitched his neck letting out a quick sound of desperation. What was he even thinking?! Biting down hard on his lip he allowed another muffled cry leave his body.
Edd stopped scratching to hold his neck still to fight the twitching that violently jerked his head. Fighting the urge to verbly cry his frustrations Edd left the room quickly and sunk to the floor once the door was firmly shut biting hard into his own hand his whole body twitching slightly. Now he was scared. Edd screamed at him self but then cursed. If he woke Eddy he would never forgive his break in social grace.
Edd bit down hard,his eye site being clouded by white.