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Chapter 7 - Her Secret, The truth
Usagi vaguely felt a hand take off her seatbelt and lift her out of the car.
Mamoru? She thought groggily. She must have fallen asleep.
Then the memories of that night came rushing back to her. Usagi stilled, keeping her eyes shut.
The car ride had been silent, until Usagi eventually dozed off.
She felt Mamoru carry her upstairs and lightly drop her on the bed and pulled up the covers.
Usagi knew her makeup would be smudged the next day but she didn't feel like moving anymore. she just wanted to sleep.
Usagi turned around and buried herself further into the blanket.
She felt the bed sank as Mamoru sat down beside her.
"Usagi..?" He said softly.
Usagi clenched her dress under the covers. It was better to just pretend she was sleeping. She didn't have the strength to deal with anything anymore tonight.
Mamoru lightly brushed her hair from her face. Then Usagi felt the bed lift as he stood up.
After she heard the click of the door she opened her eyes.
Usagi stared at the ceiling, her eyes slowly adjusting to the darkness. Tears leaked out the side of her eyes.
Perhaps..she should have gone to the orphanage.
Usagi buried her face into her hands as she felt hot burning tears spill out.
Every bit of her past coming back to her... pressing her down and every bit of the hopeless future with Mamoru crushing her down all the more.
She could still see his shocked face at the ball.
He thought he'd never see her again after what he's done...Usagi swallowed bitter tears. Did he think she'd forget who he was?
She'd recognize his face anywhere. As much as she wanted to, she haven't forgotten anything about him.
Flashback
She stared as the teacher.
Usagi blinked. A university graduate? 22 years old??
She gawked at him. She thought he was her age! He was 8 years older! What was he doing in a high school?
The silver haired "boy" who had sat next to her was a guest speaker..and here she thought he was another student.
Usagi leaned her face into her hand, elbow resting on her desk. She felt a wave of disappointment. Guess he won't be staying...
She listened as he started talking. He had a pleasant voice.
Usagi didn't realize she had started to doze off.
Her head snap up when she felt someone tap her desk lightly.
She looked groggily up to see the teacher standing beside her desk, hands now on her hips. "Tsukino-San..could you please repeat what i just said to the class?"
Usagi immediately straightened up. She could feel her face burning. She wanted to crawl under her desk.
"G..Gomenasai..." Usagi stuttered.
The teacher sighed. "Well since you completely slept through Mr.Yamazaki-san's speech, i'm sure you wouldn't mind showing a bit more courtesy by giving him a tour around our school."
"Hai!" Usagi stood up quickly and followed the man out of the class.
Once the classroom door closed behind them. Usagi immediately bowed. "Gomen Yamazaki-San!"
He laughed lightly. "Tsukino-San theres no need to apologize. I know my speech was dull, i almost fell asleep writing it myself."
Usagi smiled shyly. "Then..let's walk around, i'll show you where everything is."
He nodded.
End of Flashback
After that day..he left her his name card and often asked her out to dinner.
She got to know him little by and little and she found herself attracted to the older man.
His father was the boss of a big company and he himself worked at the company as a consultant.
HIs father wanted to spend money and build a school. He was here at their school to do some research and surveying.
Usagi looked forward everyday to going to school, and bumping into him in the halls, speaking to him.
They started going out after a month.
Usagi had thought it was the happiest time of her life.
Usagi shrink further into her blanket. Her eyes staring unblinkingly at the ceiling.
It had all been cut down that night.
The day when he took her out to the beach but on the way back they got caught in a storm.
They had gone to a nearby Hotel that Damon suggested.
Flashback
At first Usagi hadn't thought of anything.
It was after they both showered that Damon had sat next to her on the bed. One of his hands reached over and hooked onto her shoulder.
That was when her heart started pounding and she realized they were in a hotel..alone.
"Usagi?"
Usagi looked at her toes nervously. "H..Hai?"
Damon tilted her chin with his other hand and kissed her lips. Usagi's heart pounded more rapidly.
It wasn't the first time they kissed but there was something different about his kiss..it was more urgent.
When Damon leaned further towards Usagi.
Usagi pulled away. "Da..Damon?"
"Shhh.." Damon rested his hands on her shoulders and gently pushed her down on the bed.
Usagi lay stiffly. She felt like her heart was about to jump out of her throat. She couldn't do it here..She wanted the first time to be special, she didn't want it in a hotel where they were sheltering the storm in.
She laughed nervously breaking the kiss. "Um..Da..mon.." Usagi was cut off as Damon kissed her again. His hand moving under her bathrobe. She felt him untie her robe.
Usagi began to panick. "D..Damon..Wait...Stop"
Damon ignored her and proceeded in taking her robe off.
"Damon!" Usagi shoved at him. "St..Stop!"
Damon slammed one hand beside her hand. "What Usagi? Isn't this what you want?"
Usagi looked at him. "Wh..What?"
Damon could have been a stranger then, she almost couldn't recognize him as he sneered down at her. "Don't pretend to be innocent..a high school girl like you..its what you approach me for isn't it?"
Usagi stared wordlessly at Damon. What was he saying? She shook her head violently. "No...No...ofcourse not..Damon I love you...Its just I..this isn't how it's suppose to be..."
Damon traced a finger over her lips and smiled down at her. There was nothing warm or loving about his smile. "It's exactly how it's suppose to be U-Sa-Gi" He said punctuating every syllable in her name.
Usagi felt a cold fear break though her. This wasn't happening...It's Damon..he wouldn't...She loved him...
Her heart was in denial.
Damon grabbed the sleeve of her robe and pulled it off rougly.
"iie...please..Damon..don't do this.." Usagi wrapped her arms protectively around her now naked body. "Stop...Onegai!"
Damon muffled her screams by slamming his mouth against hers. He had been rough and aggressive.
Usagi struggled but it was no use.
Her struggles faltering as she felt him slam roughly into her again and again. Tears leaked out of the corner of Usagi's eyes.
Eventually Usagi gave up and simply laid on the bed, unmoving as he satisfied himself.
Everytime she felt pain shoot up her body, her heart also broke off a piece. She could only think of the happy times they spend together. Was it all fake? How could she have been so naive and stupid?
Damon shuddered and groaned.
Usagi closed her eyes, her hands clenching tightly onto the sheets. She wanted to puke.
Damon collapsed on top of her. He said nothing.
He laid silently on top of her.
Usagi felt numb.
She didn't know how long passed as they laid there, eventually Damon got up and began dressing.
He straightened his tie in the mirror. Then he turned around and looked at her. "Well i'll go downstairs and get another room...Theres no point for us to be in the same room anymore."
Usagi blinked. She didn't answer.
He looked at her for a second longer then turned to the door.
Right before he opened the door to leave. Usagi whispered, hands shaking as she held onto the thin sheets. "Did you ever love me..?"
His hand paused above the doorknob, back facing her, he didn't say anything for a second.
Then he turned around, a grin on his face. "You were the best...i haven't felt this much... pleasure..with anyone so far Usagi-San...you really are something..compared to the others." He turned back and opened the door, waving a hand at her. Then he closed the door behind him.
The best one...Usagi laid in the soiled sheets unmoving. she was so stupid...Usagi felt her lips quiver, then as if a wall crumbled inside of her. Her tears spilled out like a river and Usagi turned her head, silently sobbing. Usagi..you Baka!
End of Flashback
She had showered non stop for the next week, she had scrubbed until she started bleeding. She had felt so dirty. Naomi had been so worried.
Usagi didn't go to school after that. Naomi didn't question her and simply understood. She had been understanding.
After that she started painting.
Usagi wiped her tears with her fingers. Her eyes burning as new teardrops made their way down her face.
She had been trying to so hard to forget everything.
She didn't go to the orphanage because she didn't want to be send back to school. She didn't want to be reminded of any of it.
But fate could be so cruel.
She had fallen in love with Mamoru. It had been hopeless from the start.
and Damon..why did he have to be Rei's fiance? Why?? Usagi wanted to scream. She had wanted to just forget about everything and just live with Mamoru. It was ok even if she could never be with him.
It had only hurted her more to know that he loved her. She could just reach out and grab happiness again.
Usagi sobbed silently into the blanket.
If Damon wasn't Rei's fiance..perhaps one day if it wasn't too late she would be able to open up to Mamoru.
But now...how could she even open her mouth to tell him.
Usagi...what are you doing? Usagi clenched her hands so tightly, she felt her nails dig through her skin. You're such..a mess!
To be Continued.
Author's Note: OOoooo here it is! I hope you all like the update. Things are going to get very complicatedddd hahaa. I"ll try to update soon. Thanks for the reviews, love love keep them coming!