Love like this
Chapter 9 - Confession
Usagi stirred the hot chocolate in front of her. Her eyes focused on it.
The kitchen was quiet. Damon sat silently in front of her sipping on his drink.
Tired of waiting for the conversation to start, Usagi stopped stirring and sighed. She looked up at him. "What did you want?"
She didn't really want to be here. She wanted to be upstairs with Mamoru, making sure that he was alright.
Damon regarded her quietly for a moment. Then he said quietly. "How have you been?"
Usagi almost snorted. "Not bad."
Damon was quiet again, eyes on the counter. "That's good"
"What did you want Damon? I can't sit here all day to wait--"
"I'm sorry" Damon cut in quietly.
Usagi's head snapped up. It had been said so quietly she almost miss it. "What?"
Damon looked up at her. "I said i'm sorry...about what happened before..about..us".
Usagi swallowed the lump that formed in her throat. "Why..why are you telling me this now."
Damon looked away and out the window, he shrugged and said softly. "I just want you to know..."
He didn't say anything for a few seconds.
Then he turned aorund and looked at her again. "If it's possible..i hope this can just be left like this..whatever happened is in the past..i don't want Rei to know."
Usagi stared at the man in front of her. Was he ashamed of what he did? Did he want her to keep a secret so he can do the same thing to Rei?
She felt a flare of anger.
Usagi opened her mouth to retort but the look in Damon's eyes stopped her.
She studied the man before her.
"You're in love with her..." Usagi stated.
Damon nodded slowly. "For the first time..."
For the first time...he never loved her. Usagi felt a pang of pain. Although his words shouldn't have the power to hurt anymore, the realization that he never loved her did.
"I was never planning on saying anything anyways.."
Damon looked at her. "I know it's a lot of ask..especially after what i did--"
"It's not." Usagi cut in abruptly not wanting to hear more about that night. "It's better to be left untold..for all of us"
Damon nodded. "Thank you"
Usagi got up and set her cup in the sank, she turned around to leave.
"Do you love him?"
Damon asked quietly just before she left the kitchen.
She paused. Then she said softly. "Yes"
Usagi turned around. "But i can't be with him...not when i have to constantly lie about my past and keep things from him..plus he deserves better."
Damon sighed. "I'm sorry...it's because of me..."
Usagi didn't say anything.
She quietly left the kitchen and headed upstairs.
Just as she reached Mamoru's room. Rei came out.
She smiled apologetically. "Gomen..It must have been awkward down there with Damon. He's not really much of a talker."
Usagi shook her head lightly. "iie...its ok. Is Mamoru-kun ok?"
Rei nodded. "It''s normal. It happens time to time, he'll start burning up. He must have been out in the cold for quite a while last night."
Usagi winced. "Gomen he gave me his jacket and.."
Rei patted her shoulder lightly. "Don't apologize. We're family..we should be taking care of each other."
Usagi felt warm all over at Rei's words.
"Well Damon's waiting for me..we're suppose to go out to lunch today. Mamoru should be ok, if it gets worse call me right away or take him to the hospital if you can't reach me."
Usagi nodded. "I will thanks Rei-Chan..." She gestured towards the stairs. "He's waiting for you"
Rei smiled. "I'll come visit later. "
Usagi smiled back at the older girl and watched as she headed downstairs.
She watched as Damon and Rei leave, before Damon closed the door he turned back and looked at her.
Then he closed the door behind him.
Hearing the front door click shut, Usagi slipped into Mamoru's room.
Usagi quietly sat down on the side of the bed. She gently put on hand on Mamoru's forehead. It was still burning but he seemed to be breathing more evenly now.
Just as Usagi was about to get up. Mamoru groggily opened his eyes.
"Usagi?" His voice soft and cracked.
." I"ll get you some water." Usagi got up to go get some water.
Mamoru pulled her hand lightly stopping her. He shook his head. "It's ok..What time is it?"
Usagi sat back down on the bed. "It's 2:00...You scared me this morning, you didn't even respond when i nudged you."
"Gomen..." Mamoru smiled apologetically. "It's like this from time to time."
Usagi absently placed her hand on Mamoru's chest. "How's your chest?"
Mamoru gazed at her. Usagi felt her cheeks burn when she realized she had placed her hand on Mamoru's bare chest. She abruptly pulled her hand away.
"Gomen.." Usagi mumbled.
Mamoru shook his head.
Usagi looked at him. His hair was messy, a thin sheet of sweat covered his body but he was still gorgeous.
"Mamoru-kun..." Usagi looked down at her hands. "About last night..."
"Gomen..."
She looked up at him.
"Yesterday was my fault, i shouldn't have been so blunt. I understand .. that you can't be with me. You don't have to explain yourself to me." Mamoru brushed his thumb over Usagi's cheek. "As long as you're happy."
Usagi's tears glided down her cheek.
Mamoru pushed himself up and cupped both of cheeks with his hand.
Usagi shook her hand, she covered Mamoru's hand with her own. She cried silently into them.
Mamoru pulled her into his chest. Usagi buried her face in it.
"Don't cry...starting from tomorrow everything will be back to the way it is. I'll be your guardian... " He rested his chin on her head. " and everything will return to the way it was...I promise" Mamoru said softly.
Usagi felt something rip inside.
She nodded none the less. It was the best thing..for all of them.
Just as Usagi pull away, she felt Mamoru tip backwards lightly.
"Mamoru?"Usagi said alarmed steadying him.
"Gomen..." Mamoru shook his head lightly trying to clear his dizzines.
"Are you ok? Are you in pain?" Usagi immediately felt Mamoru' forehead. She gasped when hot skin met her cool one. "You're burning up again!"
"It's ok...I just need some sleep." Mamoru smiled reassurringly at her, lying back down.
Usagi nodded. "I"ll go make you some soup..atleast eat something before you sleep."
Mamoru stopped her. "It's ok i'm not hungry." He looked at her. "Just today...stay with me..before everything goes back to the way it was...for today stay with me."
Usagi nodded again. She sat onto the bed beside Mamoru's head. Mamoru moved his head onto her lap.
One of her hands still clasped in his, she ran her other hand through his thick black hair.
Mamoru closed his eye and leaned one side of his face into her leg. His breathing slowing after a while.
Usagi looked at the sleeping man in her lap.
"Thank you..." Usagi whispered lightly.
She was happy just being here like this with Mamoru. She knew one day perhaps Mamoru would bring back another girl, she would eventually get married as well.
But today he was hers...even if it was just one day.
She was happy.
The end
Author' note: Its not done! ahahaha i'm just kiddinggg i wouldn't end it here. But i hope you all liked the update, sorry it took so long. I'll try to update faster anyway enjoy! thank for the reviews!