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Chapter 11 - Tension
Mamoru sipped the coffee in his hand. His mind on the scene he had walked in on the night before.
Usagi had excused herself to her room, she had barely touched her dinner. When Mamoru asked her if she still wanted cake, she had politely refused saying she had a stomache.
She hadn't met his eyes all night.
Mamoru knew things were a bit awkward between them right now. But Usagi had not acted like that at breakfast.
He rubbed his temple with one finger.
Something sat heavily on his heart. He didn't know where his mind was going, but the conclusion he came up with was enough to crush him.
He hadn't missed the fear in Usagi's eyes when he walked into the room...or her unstraightened shirt.
He hadn't missed the chocolate mark on Damon's finger and on the edge of her mouth.
Mamoru closed his eyes.
Everything painfully making sense all of a sudden.
The first time he had introduced them, Usagi had been acting weird.
They knew each other.
He didn't want to know why Usagi had kept it hidden or Damon.
He could only think of one reason.
Mamoru leaned back into the chair and tilted his head back.
He trusts Usagi. She wasn't obligated to tell him everything about her past.
But whatever was between Damon and Usagi, he trusted Usagi wouldn't past any lines now knowing Damon was Rei's fiancee and how much Rei loves him.
She wouldn't.
Mamoru tried to come up with excuses for the scene he walked in on last night but his mind was blank.
"You look tired"
Mamoru startled, sat up and looked at the entrance of the kitchen.
Rei walked in eyebrows raised.
"Ahh.." Mamoru smiled at her. "I didn't sleep well yesterday."
"Did you eat breakfast yet?"
Mamoru picked up his cup and waved it. "Coffee"
"Didn't eat anything?"
Mamoru shook his head. "You're up early..and when you come over this early usually means you have something to talk about."
Rei bobbed her head up and down. "Haiiii..exactly right".
Mamoru sighed. He looked at his sister. 'Well...?"
"Since you're on breakkk..I was thinking lets all go on a trip together. I know it's cold in Tokyo right now but we can go somewhere warm. I'm sure Usagi would love to go too. Usagi seems to be getting along with Damon pretty well too so it'll be fun"
Mamoru didn't answer, he didn't know how to answer so he shrugged lightly.
Rei made a face. "You're such a grump in the morning.. atleast consider it" Rei looked around the kitchen "i'm hungry do you have any--" She trailed off when she saw the box on his counter. "You have cake."
Rei walked over and opened it, dipping her finger into the frosting she smiled. " I didn't think you'd ever buy cake..you were never onto sweets. mmm you didn't buy this did you?"
Mamoru grip tightened around his cup. She didn't tell Damon to buy the cake...she didn't even know Damon bought it.
Mamoru forced a smiled. "Hai...a friend brought it over."
Rei nodded and grabbed a knife to cut herself a slice. "It's barely touched minus the finger dent. " Rei grinned at him. "Must be Usagi's."
Mamoru nodded lightly, his head buzzing.
Rei looked over at him worried as she chewed on the cake. "What's wrong?"
"Nothing..just tired."
Rei walked over and placed a hand over Mamoru's forehead.
Mamoru lightly removed her hand. "Don't worry..it's not that..just didn't sleep well."
"Just making sure. Burning up so often isn't good. Do you know how worried I was when Usagi called last time? She must have been scared. " Rei leaned onto the counter next to Mamoru.
"Sorry..thanks for taking care of me."
Rei smiled lightly. "You don't have to say thank you..i'm you sister. We're family."
Rei continued to eat her cake in silence while Mamoru sipped on his coffee.
Then She straightened up and placed her empty plate into the sink. "Well i should get going. Just dropped by to asked you about the trip."
Rei grabbed her bag off the chair and patted Mamoru on the back. "I meant what i said about the trip..consider it and thanks for the cake. I"ll drop by some other time. Say hi to Usagi for me."
Mamoru nodded.
Rei waved behind her as she walked through the front door.
When the front door closed, Mamoru leaned his forehead on his propped up hands.
He looked at the open box of cake sitting on the counter.
Mamoru's fingers dug into his palm as he clenched his hand into a fist.
He wanted to smash it off the counter.
Mamoru lowered his head into his arms and closed his eyes.
When Usagi came downstairs, Mamoru was already preparing lunch.
"Morning..."
Mamoru glanced over his shoulder. "Morning."
"Did you need help? Sorry i overslept."
"It's fine. I'm almost done, lunch will be ready soon.".
Usagi sat down quietly.
His coldness stung her.
No smile, nothing. He hadn't even turned around when he was talking to her.
"Usagi..."
Usagi looked up at him. "Hai?"
"Did Damon come by himself yesterday?"
Usagi hesitated. "Yes.."
"and he brought cake?"
Usagi looked at Mamoru's back. "Rei-chan...must have told him to bring it." She felt guilty, she was lying to him. Damon's words from yesterday came back to her. Mamoru hated liars...but she was more scared of him finding out the actual truth wasn't she?
"Is something the matter?" Usagi asked softly.
"It's nothing." Mamoru said still facing away from her.
Usagi sat silently waiting for Mamoru to finish, then she grabbed a set of forks and knife and placed it on the table.
Thanking Mamoru quietly when he set the plate of food in front of her, Usagi looked down at her plate.
They ate in silence.
Usagi looked at Mamoru. He didn't look up, he ate silently.
She couldn't stand it anymore. "Mamoru-kun?"
He looked up at her.
Usagi hesitated, then she asked quietly. "Would you like to come to the backyard with me after lunch?"
Mamoru looked surprised. "Backyard?"
Usagi nodded and then smiled shyly. "I did a bit of clearing up, i wanted you to see."
Mamoru nodded.
After they finished, Usagi cleared away all the dishes and waited for Mamoru by the hall.
Mamoru looked curiously at her.
She was glad the cold tension was gone.
She opened the back door and slipped outside.
Usagi waited and heard Mamoru's sharp intake of breath as he saw the backyard.
"Usagi..."
She smiled. "Sorry i hope its ok, you had furnitures in here and it was such a beautiful garden..i moved the furnitures downstairs and fixed it up a bit."
Mamoru glanced around at the roses. "It's beautiful" He walked around the small garden.
"I thought the backyard was a bit empty so originally i bought a couple plants and flowers, but then after a while I just started piling furnitures here." Mamoru smiled at her.
Usagi gazed at him, she felt her chest contrict. It was so good to see him smile.
She knelt down by the rose bush. Her brush lightly brushed over the rose petal, her back facing Mamoru.
'Mamoru-kun..?"
"Hai?"
Usagi looked at the flower wistfully. "If one day...if i wasn't like how you thought i was..." She paused. "Would you...try to understand me for that? Even if it's just a bit..."
Usagi waited, when Mamoru didn't answer she tilted her head towards him.
He gazed at her, his hands in his pockets.
They stood looking at each other.
Usagi couldn't read Mamoru's eyes.
"Is... there something about you that i don't know?" Mamoru asked softly.
Usagi couldn't answer, she saw Mamoru's eyes look at her searchingly.
"I..." She looked away and shook her head lightly. "No..I was just wondering.." The rock on top of Usagi's heart sunk further down.
"I would."
"..Eh?" Usagi looked at Mamoru.
Mamoru looked away at the flowers to the side. "I said I would try to understand..."
Usagi turned away so Mamoru wouldn't see the tear that glided down her face.
Wiping it away with the back of her hand, she stood up and smiled at Mamoru. "I just wanted to show you the garden...it's nothing too much but i was hoping you'd like it."
Mamoru nodded. "I do..."
"That's good." Usagi said quietly. "Let's go inside, it's cold out."
She opened the door and stepped inside of the house, Mamoru followed her.
"I"ll wash the dishes. I know you still have work to do. " Usagi said heading towards the kitchen.
"Usagi..." Usagi turned around and looked at Mamoru.
Mamoru looked down. "It's nothing.. I'll be upstairs if you need anything."
Usagi nodded.
She listened to Mamoru's footstep as he headed upstairs.
Usagi leaned on the counter. Mamoru's words had been comforting...but things couldn't possibly continue the way they were now. If she said anything, her and Damon's past would be exposed and Rei would be heartbroken. If she didn't...
Usagi closed her eyes and wrapped her arms around her.
She had only one solution.
She looked at the staircase where Mamoru went up.
She had to leave, maybe from the beginning she should have just gone to the orphanage.
The only thing was...if she went back, she would have nothing to do with Mamoru.
Could she live with that?
Mamoru closed the his bedroom door behind him. Leaning against it, Mamoru tilted his head up and looked at the ceiling.
Usagi's earlier question buzzing in his head.
He would try to understand. For her, he could be the most understanding guy in the world.
He could accept and understand anything including her past..everything even if Damon was part of it. It was just her past. He could accept that she didn't love him.
But...
Mamoru closed his eyes.
He hoped he was wrong.
Mamoru opened his eyes and listened to the running water downstairs as Usagi washed the dishes.
Please..let him be wrong.
To be continued...
Author's Note:
haha i had a lot of time soo heres another update!! There some Mamoru pov in here, i thought for a change i'd add in how Mamoru felt. Enjoyy!