Love like this

Chapter 13 - Betrayal

Mamoru sat stiffly, hands clenched so tightly he was sure his nails broke skin. He listened mutely to Rei's sobs. His ears rang. How had it come to this?

His heart clenched painfully. His head a mess.

Nothing made sense.

"Rei". His voice came out steady and quiet.

Rei continued sobbing, her face buried behind thick locks of black hair.

"Rei" He said again, his voice firmer.

Rei looked up slowly, trying desperately to stop her sobs. "How could she...how could he!!!"

Mamoru shut his eyes. He wanted to ask the same question.

He wanted desperately to believe she didn't do it...Usagi wouldn't.

'What did the letter say?"

Rei angrily wiped away gliding tears, she handed him the letter.

Mamoru numbly unfolded the piece of paper.

Dear Rei:

I'm sorry i left like this, you've been...wonderful to me. However i can't be with you and i'm sorry. I betrayed you.

Please don't blame Usagi, she's a good person, i'm sure she was just lonely. It was my fault, i should have resisted.

I'm sorry Rei i never meant to hurt you. I don't deserve you. I thought this was the best way. I was already regrettful after the first time

but Usagi said she would tell you if i didn't stay with her. I"m sorry Rei..i didn't know how to face you. I hope you can forgive me..and Usagi

, she was a lonely child.

love always. Damon

Mamoru swallowed the lump that threatened to choke him.

"She left?" Rei asked bitterly.

Mamoru didn't reply.

He had woke up this morning, the memory from yesterday fresh on his mind, smile lingering on his face he had gotten up to make breakfast.

That was when he saw the note and his world came crashing down after that.

"She left." He said numbly.

Rei ran her hands over her face. "She never treated us like family..not even once, everything was fake..she was a selfish little bitch!"

"Rei!"

Mamoru couldn't take it. Rei was not an aggressive person. He knew how hurt she must have been to verbally insult someone but hearing it from her,

especially when it was directed toward Usagi...

His heart clenched so hard he felt like it was about to burst.

He closed his eyes and tried to regain the last bit of control he had left. Rei needed him right now.

He placed a hand over Rei's.

"Rei.." He said in a softer tone. "If it's like this..he doesn't deserve you..you will find someone who will love you with all their heart one day."

Rei buried her face into Mamoru's hands. ".."

"Shhh It's ok.." Mamoru patted her head lightly.

"...What about you?" Rei lifted her head tears gliding down her face, her voice cracking.

"What about you?" Rei asked more firmly cupping his cheek with one of her hands.

Mamoru closed his eyes. "I don't know.." He was hurt, bitter and angry even though he didnt know why. She never promised him anything, she never said she loved him. So why?

Why did he feel so betrayed?

He had thought she was different, there wasn't another woman who made him feel the way she did. Her paintings....he had always wondered what kind of person she was? How could someone

who could paint something so beautiful....maybe it was the disappointment that was drowning him. But it wasn't Usagi's fault, he was the one that binded her with this image he thought she would be.

She had became so important to him..and he was just hurt that she had chosen Damon over him. Especially when she knew it would hurt Rei.

"Mamoru?" Rei looked at him red-eyed.

Mamoru slowly shook his head. "It doesn't matter anymore.."

This was just a bad experience..she wasn't the one for him. He tried to tell himself that, he knew it wasn't right to feel angry but he couldn't help it, the pain of betrayal was drowning him. He didnt' know

if he could ever forgive her and maybe it was because he cared so much about her, that his heart isn't letting him forgive.

"It's over..We'll never see them again " Mamoru pulled Rei into a hug. "We still have each other..like always..i'll always be here Rei."

Rei buried her face into Mamoru's shoulder and cried. Just when she thought maybe they didn't have to be alone anymore, that they'd finally be able to have a family.

Usagi..How could you?

Rei didn't know if she was weeping for Mamoru or herself. Damon's betrayal was like a sharp knife twisted into her heart, but what hurted more was that the one person she thought could open up Mamoru's heart

again had broken it and taken broken pieces with her that she wasn't sure if it'll ever heal again.

Mamoru dropped the car keys onto the table. The loud clinging sound ranging painfully in the empty house.

Mamoru dropped off his stuff and stepped outside.

After driving Rei home and making sure she was sound asleep before he left, he went to the closest convenience store and bought a pack of cigarette.

Pulling one out, he lit it up.

Ahh..the doctors had said that he shouldn't smoke. But he didn't really care anymore, he felt numb all over. He hadn't realized that the girl that had shown up a couple of month ago

at his door would leave him feeling so empty inside.

A bitter smile formed on his face. Maybe he was destined to be alone. He never understood how a man could so easily be with a woman he didn't love. But today, he felt like he could understsand them.

A relationship without pain, commitment or heartache. Only physical pleasure and companionship. It didn't sound so bad.

Coughing as he felt the smoke burn his throat, Mamoru leaned against the pole. His thoughts lingered back to Damon's letter.

If you were lonely...why did you never come to me?

Mamoru clenched his hand. Why did she treat him like that if all she needed was Damon?

"I really..didn't know anythign about you." Mamoru whispered lightly. snow gliding down the side of his face.

He stared at the empty street and the flurry of snow speeding towards the ground. The cold air brushing past his face.

Mamoru felt the emptiness ranging inside of him. Usagi had came and broke and swept away the pieces of his heart and left nothing behind.

He didnt' feel anything anymore, didn't want to feel anything anymore.

He didn't even know if he could love anymore.

Love like this...once was enough.

Mamoru took the folded piece of paper from his pocket, and read it one last time. Then he release it and watched the wind carry it down the street.

Dear Mamoru-kun:

There is a lot i want to say to you yet there is nothing that i can say. I'm sorry i'm leaving like this. I"m going back to the orphanage.

I can't stay here anymore, there is too much you don't know about me, and too much i can't give you. I will only hurt you more if i stay.

Thank you for everything.

love, Usagi

His eyes cold and hard, his face expressionless Mamoru willed himself to erase every word of the letter from his mind, and let the anger of betrayal swallow him.

It was much easier to be angry...then to truly give in to the fact that he had lost her and give in to true anguish.

To be continued..........

Author's Note:

Hellllooo thank you for all the reviews! please keep em comingg, bad or good i'll take them all haha. Sorry for the slow update. I had a busy past half of a year. But i promisee from now on i will try to update as soon as i can but heres the new chapter. Hope you'll like itt~