Love like this
Chapter 14 - Cloudy Sky
Usagi sat quietly while the man in front of her flipped through papers.
"Tsukino-San..." The elder man took off his reading glasses and sighed.
"Please Tomo-San..." She looked at him with pleading eyes.
He shook his head lightly. "There is a lot of paper work that needs to be done, right now Chiba-San is your legal guardian. Unless we have papers signed by him that it is ok for you to return to the orphanage...and if he does sign those papers, we have to find an orphanage for you and arrangements have to be made."
Usagi clenched her hands. "Please I can wait for the arrangement..but is there no way that this can be done without bothering Chiba-San?"
"No..unfortunately there isn't." The man shook his head apologetically. "Has Chiba-San not been well to you?"
"No! ofcourse not..." Usagi shook her head quickly. "Chiba-San has been wonderful to me.." She hesitated for a moment. "It's just..i guess getting over living with Hitomi was harder than i thought..i just didn't feel comfortable."
"Perhaps you just need a bit more time with Chiba-San?" Tomo-San suggested.
Usagi shook her head lightly. "I've been causing him a lot of trouble..i don't want to do that. Please...just put me back to the orphanage."
The man sighed. "If that's what you want. Tsukino-San lots of children in the orphanage would die to be in your position. They long for a family."
"I know..." She whispered softly. If there was any other way..she wouldn't trade the life she had with Mamoru with anything.
"Alright then Tsukino-San i will make the arrangement..but the paper works can't be avoided. Mamoru-San has to sign them and go through several other paper works. Its the required procedure."
"...ok" Usagi said hesitantly.
It doesn't matter anymore. She was the one that chose this...the moment she walked out that gate everything had already ended. She wouldn't..couldn't care about what he thought of her anymore.
Mamoru tripped and wobbled his way into the living room, a bottle of whiskey in one hand.
He collapsed onto the couch and stared at the ceiling above him.
"...you're certainly full of surprises."
Mamoru looked at the woman walking towards him, stripping as she walked.
He smirked and asked softly. "Am I?"
Leaning over him the woman didn't say anything, skillful hands romed over his body and stopped at his belt. The smell of perfume stung his nose.
"Yes..." The woman whispered, teeth grazing over his ear. ".."
Mamoru wrapped his hands in the woman's hair and using the other arm, he propped himself up so his face was centimetres away from the woman's face.
"Is that so..Rita?" Closing his mouth roughly with the woman's, Mamoru sat up and lifted the woman into his lap.
Rita moaned as his hand slid down her back.
"You know..i've waited for this moment for a very long----"
"Shhhh" Mamoru whispered, putting a finger on her mouth, then he closed his mouth on her neck, trailing down to her chest.
Fingers undoing the buttons on her blouse, Mamoru pulled her closer to him with his other arm.
"Mamoru-San..." Rita whispered.
Mamoru-San... Usagi's blue eyes and clear voice rang sharply in his head.
For a second, Mamoru hesitated. His hand dropped from the woman's waist and he remained motionless.
"What's wrong?" She asked, body desperately pressing closer to him.
A thudding pain started again in Mamoru's chest. No...this is wrong...this isn't what you want..
Mamoru was about to pull away when he saw the white envelope sitting on the table. The thudding pain became a dull pounding.
Wanting to shake himself loose of the feeling, Mamoru grabbed Rita's face with both hands and pulled her towards him.
Feeling her unbutton his shirt, Mamoru loosely shrug it off. Pulling Rita on top of him, Mamoru roughly pulled off the remaining cloth she had on.
This was how it was suppose to be...this was how it should have been
He was naive to think someone would come and heal the scar the long years of loneliness left, and that he would never choose a life or a relationship without love, never be like those he's seen around him where everything revolved solely around pleasure and power.
But now...the truth was...a life without love was the only way he could live in order to save his own sanity. Power…Pleasure they all pulled at him.
Letting out a groan Mamoru grazed Rita's neck with the edge of his teeth and buried himself inside of her, thoughts of Usagi pushed behind his head.
This was his life now, he will sign the papers…and from that moment on, he will have nothing to do with her.
Usagi sat quietly in the chair waiting. Running her fingers through her thick blond pigtail, she stared out the window. What would she do? If Mamoru didn't sign the papers, the only way for her to go back to the orphanage was resolve things with him or go back to him. Why would he sign the papers? He had gone through all that trouble and paperwork to adopt her and she had left leaving him only a note. Was he disappointed? She clenched her hands tightly. She wanted to go back so badly, she wanted to be there when he woke up and when he came home. She wanted to be with him.
"Tsukino-San?"
Usagi snapped out of her deep thoughts, her eyes focusing on the man walking into the room, a smile lingering on his face.
"It looks like Chiba-San is ok with you going back to the orphanage, he has signed all paperworks, you're free to go back to the orphanage Tsukino-San"
Usagi felt a weird ringing in her head. Ahh..he signed it…
"Thank you". She said softly. Her mind was blank. She smiled stiffly at the man in front of her and excused herself from the room.
What did she expect?
That he would come find you..ask you why..take you back…
Usagi paused in the middle of the empty hall and leaned against the wall. She shouldn't care..she had told herself that she wouldn't care…and she didn't have the right to expect anything anymore. He was probably angry with her or even worse maybe he just didn't care anymore. This really was goodbye..the moment he signed the paper..she no longer had anything to do with him.
Usagi slowly slid down the wall and sat down.
She couldn't even cry anymore…no matter how much she wanted to the tears just won't come. When had this started? Perhaps she had drained all her tears throughout the past few month and even more so the days after she left Mamoru's…she simply didn't have any left.
Usagi sat quietly in the hall for a long time. She didn't how long had passed. Then slowly Usagi stood up. It was over..she had to let everything that had happened go else she'll never be able to move on. Mamoru was not part of her life anymore..maybe he was never meant to be, but she was still living and she needed..to do the best for herself..and Naomi. What would Naomi say if she saw her now? She would probably be so disappointed. Usagi let out a deep breath, the cutting pain in her heart more pronounced than ever. She'll have to live with it..and maybe one day she can bury Mamoru somewhere deep deep into her heart and this pain will become a dull ache.
Usagi walked slowly outside of the building, the cool air pushing her hair back lightly, she closed her eyes. She would never be able to love like this again…but it didn't mean she couldn't move on…she was just bound to be by herself.
TO be continued….
Author's note: Sorry! I lied hahah I know I promised like an instant update last time but that never happened..sooo I won't do that again but I will definitely tryyy to get an update in as soon as possible. Thank you guys for the reviews =) you guys are awesome. Okk hope you like this chapter too although it's a bit short haha, enjoy!