Chapter 16 – Intersection

Usagi stared at the man in front of her. She couldn't breathe and she was sure it was because her heart was pumping so hard that all the blood flowing towards her head was clogging up her airway as well.

"It's been a long time Usagi-san" Mamoru stated in a calm quiet voice. "You look well".

Usagi tried swallowing. His voice was cold and clinical. Almost like a non-empathetic doctor informing you of your terminal illness. It wasn't a question, it was a statement.

Usagi didn't know what to say.

"Thank you...you look well too" Usagi answered almost automatically. Her brain was in too much of a frenzy. She stared at Mamoru, stared at the nose, the jaw, and the eyes that she had seen in her head over a million times in the past 6 years.

Mamoru looked back at her, but it wasn't with love or the warmth that she remembered. It was with...nothing. Usagi's heart continued pounding while her head tried to register everything. Mamoru looked at her like someone he happened to make eye contact with on the street.

"Thank you, I am well." Mamoru set his papers on the desk, and took a sip of his coffee." I'm glad to see you Usagi-san." He pulled back his chair and sat down. Leaning back in the chair and resting one side of his face on his hand. Mamoru stared at her. "I hope however, that we keep work..as work and it really shouldn't be anything else anyways. I believe you would agree with me on that, wouldn't you?"

Usagi couldn't make sense of anything he was saying. What did he mean? She looked at him.

"Yes ofcourse." She replied. She could hear herself talking. Usagi felt sick. She felt like someone had just poured a bucket of ice water over her. She was shivering so hard on the inside, her body ached weirdly and her brain lagged.

Mamoru nodded and looked down at his paper. "Well I wish you a good day then Tsukino-san, I hope from now on we'll work well together and you will be at work on time."

"I'm very sorry about today..." Usagi heard herself saying again. "It won't happen again, i'll be outside if you need anything". Usagi turned around stiffly, she couldn't feel her hands or legs as she opened the door and walked down the hall towards the washroom. She could vaguely see Mina waving at her from the corner of her eyes trying to get her attention, but she couldn't stop, she felt sick to her stomach.

Usagi pushed the washroom door open and rushed into a stall. She knelt down over the toilet and puked her stomach out. Her heart still pounding so fast that she felt the room spin. Choking on her own vomit, Usagi felt something wet on her cheeks. That was when everything finally seem to come back to her. She felt her eyes burn as hot tears rushed out.

The man she saw in that room was Mamoru Chiba. She had buried that part of her life, or she thought she had. She thought she had buried everything, and she was over it, and she was ready to face life without him and face that it just wasn't meant to be. She wasn't meant for him. But now after seeing him, it's like a hidden bomb, everything blow up. The perfect shield that she had carefully built in the last 6 years over the wound and over that buried corner had exploded the moment she saw him. She wasn't ready. She wasn't ready to face it after all...she wasn't ready at all. Usagi covered her mouth with her hand to silence her choking sobs.

Mamoru sat in his chair. He took a sip of his coffee. Unwanted emotions swelled in his chest; emotions that have not been stirred for the past 6 years. He's been with plenty of women in the past 6 years. He had thought about serious relationships, but in the end his heart just wouldn't let him open up to them. He's met nice girls that if perhaps before he met Usagi, he would have dated and married. He didn't want to be betrayed again. One look at Usagi, and all the betrayal and hurt came back to him in such a rush it could drive him mad. Perhaps what he didn't want to face was that one look at her had also poked a hole in the one thing that kept his love for hidden..even from himself.

Mamoru slumped in his chair and lowered his head into his arms. "Why now..." He whispered. "Why are you doing this to me Usagi..."

He wouldn't be hurt again, he couldn't be hurt again. The betrayal and hurt she had caused on him and Raye, it had killed him. Even if he could forgive her for hurting him…but he could never forgive her for hurting Raye.

Mamoru clenched his fists. Dammit Usagi! Why! …Why does it have to be him! If it was anyone! God I would have forgiven you. I would let you go…I would never force you if it wasn't me that you wanted to be with… I would have given you freedom even if you didn't want to be part of my family anymore..but why Damon!

She had broken his trust, Raye's trust and hurt both of them deeply. Mamoru closed his eyes against the burning in his eyes. She was so special to him, and Raye had opened up to her, had trusted her!

Mamoru sat there with his head on his arms for he didn't know how long. He had thought of a thousand scenarios of them meeting again. He had pictured her apologizing, running away. He had expected that perhaps Damon had left her and she came back begging for them to take her back in again. He thought he'd be happy if she did come back to his doorstep, but he realized at one point he wasn't happy. He was just more resentful of Damon…and more than anything, maybe he just wanted to see her again.

He was hurting. Every inch of his body hurts. His arms ached to be wrapped around her. Why does his body wish for the impossible? He ached everywhere, but his mind has never been clearer. Perhaps seeing her today finally made him realize. He'll always ache for her, he'll always want her. No matter how much he wants to bury that part, but she was destined to be that part of his life that he'll never be able to bury.

Mamoru sat up slowly and leaned back into his chair. "Mamoru wake up…your life has to go on without her. It wasn't meant to be". He whispered to himself He looked at the closed door. She was sitting behind those doors right now. He felt himself slowly patch over the hole, and felt himself calm down. "Don't ever trust anybody again…right now all that's important is Raye."

The thought of Raye sparked anger in him. He wasn't going to forgive her. He wasn't going to let his body take over him. She will never again..ever be part of his life.

Author's note:

I will never promise anything about updates anymore hahahaha my words are not believable. But thanks to everyone who's bothered to email me and review. Youuu guysss are the only reason that makes me want to finish this story. You guys are awesome. I hope you like the update ! there will be more coming….who knows whenn..