"I'm fine, really" Emily moaned as Garcia laid a blanket over her and handed her a hot drink.

"You just had a baby!" Garcia reminded her then sat down on the edge of the sofa Emily was curled up on.

"I don't remember JJ having this much trouble from you" Emily sighed as she snuggled under the blanket.

"That's because I had nine months to fuss over JJ. I didn't even get a whole day with you before the sucker was popping out" Garcia said with a big smile.

"Do you have to describe it so graphically?" Emily moaned as her cheeks slowly gained a tint of pink.

"There!" Reid called triumphantly from the bedroom as he finally set up the crib. "I told you I could do it" Reid added with a grin as he walked into the living room and flopped onto the armchair.

"I never said you couldn't!" Emily said defensively.

"She did" Reid pointed out.

"You just don't look like a crib builder!" Garcia said and held her hands up. Emily laughed a little as Reid shook his head and started defending himself which was interrupted by a ringing noise coming from Garcia's pocket. "Why can't icky people just take a day off" Garcia moaned as she read the details of another murder off her phone.

"Even If they did, it wouldn't be today. We're not that lucky" Emily said with a little wink to Reid which made him smile even more. "Go on, you're gonna be late. The team need you more than we do" She added as she nudged Garcia into action.

"I'll call you at one" Garcia stated as she opened the door, before closing it she peeked through and warned them "If you don't answer I'll come round here"

As Garcia shut the door Reid grinned at Emily who returned the smile as she glanced over at their baby sleeping in the moses basket they'd bought on their way back from the hospital. Emily slowly got up from under the blankets, strolled over to the basket and slowly picked up the little girl. "Hey Jessie" Emily whispered as the she slowly opened her eyes and stared up at her mom.

"How is she?" Reid asked as he stood and walked over to her.

"Why don't you see for yourself" Emily said with a grin as she gently handed over the baby and walked out into the kitchen. "I haven't had coffee in ages" she added as she started the coffee machine.

"Didn't you have any while you were away?" Reid asked as he followed Emily out with the baby in his arms.

"Nope" She answered as she poured the coffee into her favourite cup. "I knew it wouldn't taste as nice as this" She added then took a sip from the cup.

"Nice, huh?" Reid said with a smile as Emily's miss of her familiar coffee was painted across her face.

"Amazing" She corrected him then gently kissed his cheek. "I missed you" She whispered as she pulled away.

"Looks like you missed that coffee more" He said with a little laugh as he walked back into the living room and softly put the little girl in her basket. He sat down on the sofa and Emily quickly put her coffee on the table and snuggled up to him, laying her head on his shoulder. "I need to tell you something" He said with a hard look on his face. "Something happened while you were away"

"What is it?" Emily said as she looked up at him with a worriedly look in her eyes.

"The day we buried you… I almost had a relapse" Emily gently took his hand and gave it a little squeeze to apologise, not realising he was going to say more. "I tried to…" Reid had to pause for a moment to get his thoughts together, he need to tell her this but it was like the words wouldn't come out. "The day after they placed your headstone I went to your grave and…" He paused again as he fought hard with the lump in his throat and the tears behind his eyes. Emily sat quietly as she stared up at him with worry. "I tried to kill myself" He whispered and wiped a tear that broke free of his eyes.

"Reid…" Emily gasped as she pulled him into a hug, his head resting under her chin as another tear slipped out.

"I thought you were dead" He tried to explain as his breathing became erratic. "I didn't see the point in it anymore"

She quietly hushed him and rubbed her hand up and down his back, gently stroking a few strands of hair with her other hand. "What stopped you?" She asked as Reid calmed down, sat up and wiped the tears of his face.

"Morgan" He said simply. "He found the voicemail I left and knew where to find me… He talked me down and took me to JJ's. I was pretty spaced out for the first day… Garcia must have come a little later" He explained as his breathing started to become steady and regular. Now Emily realised why he'd reacted so badly to JJ, she'd seen him at the lowest he could be and still didn't tell him. "They didn't let me out of their sight for weeks after that" Reid said with a sad little laugh.

"I'm sorry" Emily whispered, unsure of what else she could say.

"You weren't to know" He said with a cheery smile as he tried to hide the pain.

"Come here" She said as she stood, grabbed his hand and walked towards their little girl. "It's ok if you need to cry or shout or blame me. I want you to. I want you to be upset about how everything was handled and all the time you missed out on" She whispered as they looked down at their baby sleeping. "I want you to get it all out before Jessie starts to understand. I don't want you locking it up like you did with your dad. She deserves more than that" She said as she reached for his hand.

Reid slowly entwined their fingers and smiled down at the little girl then to Emily. "I'll sort everything out with JJ, I promise. Jessie's gonna have the best family there is. She's gonna have Uncle Derek and Aunty Penelope and JJ-" Reid started.

"And Grandpa Dave and Hotch" Emily continued with a smile.

"And Jack and Henry as cousins" Reid added with a smile.

"And Grandma Strauss" Emily said as she tried and failed to hold in a laugh.

"Grandma Strauss? Do you wanna get fired?" Reid asked with a laugh slipping through his voice as he bent down and laid a little kiss on her lips.

Sorry this one is a little short, I still kept to the 1000 word rule but only just. My mom's car got a flat battery today plus we were on an icy road so it took almost four hours to get home. Luckily I'd started this off last night so there wasn't much to add. Hope you liked the chapter and thanks to all those who consistently review, it means so much and it's always nice to wake up to people liking what you've written :)