Sorry for not updating recently. I have been busy with finakls and other stuff! :( SORRY GUYS!
I ran into woods and waited not knowing what to do. Leah ran in the woods in wolf form with my shorts and a sports bra in her mouth.
Thanks Leah
No problem…I hope you aren't as temperamental as he is…no offence
Why is everyone comparing me to him! I HATE him do you hear me I HATE PAUL LAHOTE!
You know that isn't true…
YES IT IS
Brooke….
No Leah I'm sick and tired of people thinking I have to be with him. I didn't imprint on him! Therefore I don't want to be with him. I have a choice!
Wait. You didn't imprint on him back?
Well I didn't exactly look him in the eye…I told her sheepishly
Don't act innocent on me young lady you go march back there and look him in the eye!
NO! I growled
Yep definitely anger issues...well more than before she winked
FINE! BUT I WILL SLAP HIM!
That's my girl
Okay now to phase back. I thought of what helped me phase the first time. Happy thoughts! I though about meeting Sam and Emily and then Leah! And having Nina move in with me and watching her fall in love…
Love that I was so envious about…
You could have that you know…thoughts of her and Embry slipped into her mind
I KNEW YOU GUYS WOULD BE TOGETHER! YOU OWE ME FOOD WOMEN!
I told Leah if she just looked into Embry's eyes that she would imprint. But NOOO she didn't think so, so anyways we made a bet. Loser has to buy the winner all the food she wants. Suck it bitches I'm getting food! HAH!
Brooke, I want you to know that I'm not the same Leah I was when you first met me. I'm talking to Sam and Emily again and I'm back to my old happy self. I think if you give into the imprinting that you won't be as moody and angry all the time but instead be the sarcastic, fun-loving, happy girl we knew…she said quietly
I WILL NEVER! I HATE HIM! I thought trying to convince myself it was true…I wanted to phase back so I though of happy thoughts. Jake and Nina, Leah and Embry, Jared and Kim, hell even Claire and Quil. But they weren't happy thoughts. I wanted to love some one and be loved by someone like that. And I knew I could have that with Paul but…the truth was I was scared. I was never fully trusting. Everyone in my life always left me. My dad hated me, my mom who I trusted with all of my heart left me too. I though I could learn to trust again with Brandon but he left me to and so did Katherine. I was afraid of loosing him. Afraid of loosing everything that happened between us.
No matter what people will always end up leaving me. It's hard to trust anyone and the truth was the only people I fully trust nowadays are Leah, Nina, and Quil. I want to but I can't trust Sam. I would never tell this to him but…I'm afraid he's going to leave me like he did with Leah because he loves Emily more. I never said this to anyone but a part of the reason I hate imprinting is because I'm jealous of Emily. Imprinting stole my one chance of having a normal relationship with my brother. No matter what Emily will always come first in his mind. If we were both dying he would save Emily. Not me. He can never love me truly, and a part of me hates Emily for that. For taking my brothers heart before I got the chance to. I know it's not her fault but, I can't trust him if he wouldn't think twice about leaving me for Emily because in my heart I know I'm just the stupid little sister he got stuck with. The stupid girl that invaded his life and stole time away from his Emily. The dumb midget that causes so much drama without meaning to. That's why I have walls up. That's why Nina only knows the real me. And eventually Leah will too but I am just a messed up girl. I let out a pained, sad howl.
Brooke Leah's voice rang in my head
CRAP SHE HEARD ALL OF THAT!
Brooke, please listen. Imprinting Is not bad and having trust issues is NOT abnormal.
I have to go…
I phased and yanked my clothes on. I ran back to the house with tears in my eyes. I ran into the living room heading for the stairs and realized everyone was there.
"Brooke what's wrong?" Emily asked concerned
I couldn't keep it bottled up any longer.
"YOU WANT TO KNOW MY PROBLEM?" I screamed through tears, "WHY DON'T YOU GO ASK LEAH! HUH! SHE KNOWS GO FU***** ASK HER! LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE!"
I stormed out of the room and planned on crashing down on my bed bawling my eyes out but then I realized I had something I needed to do.
I ran back down the stairs and marched up to Paul.
"You ruined my life. You made me ugly. I. Hate. You." I looked into his eyes and the world shifted. I lived and breathed for him. My Paul. Oh but I was pissed I slapped him right across the face. "Leave me alone"