Sorry I haven't updated. I get Lazy XD
I'm Lonely.
Name: Mizki Yuzuki
Occupation: Full Time Student.
Age: 17
So we survived doomsday...
Goddammit I'm feeling so emotionally spent and the worst part is I can't really talk to anyone about it. Yukari-pyon knows that I have been feeling sad lately but honestly I am getting overly depressed because now -no thanks to school- I can't talk to Yuuma anymore. We barely can have a conversation now and it sucks because I get depressed when I don't talk to him. I want to cry right now as I'm typing this but I'm in school. I don't need my parents asking me why I brke down crying for no particular reason.
When I came back to school on Tuesday I realized something. No matter what I'm always an extra wheel. I decided to spend lunch with my friends and wound up sitting in between everyone while they all chatted away. I doesn't help that Neru and her two best friend, Lin and Haku, have boyfriends too. I wish Yukari went to school with me so I could feel a little less lonely. Gumi-chan is also busy too. I hate this feeling so much. I feel like at any moment I will burst into tears and only Yukari would understand.
I miss vacations. I miss talking to my Internet friends. I miss talking with Yuuma. I miss the last two weeks and I've only been in school for a few days. I want things to go back to the way they were last week. I wish I could at least talk with someone about how I get. I get scared to tell Yukari because I think my parents will find out about my crush on Yuuma. Yuuma is not a bad guy. He isn't. We're the same age and everything. but still... I don't want to lose his friendship because of my parents or my feelings. I need to suck it up.
I'm lonely. I'm lonely but I'm surrounded by people. I want someone to come up and tell me they understand this horrible emptiness that seems to slowly eat me from the inside out. I think me and Yukari need to talk on the phone for a bit. I need my cousin right now.
Poor Mizki-chan D': Also, no comments because this was posted on a school computer and she didn't bother to tell anyone she updated.