So I have somewhat bad news, I am getting sick again and it might cause me to talk a very long break on this…I hope not, but again I'm not in good health..
Also I was told that I needed to stop typing and writing so much because I'm going to end up hurting myself, so this chapter might be it for a little while, but I don't know because I love to write so much I don't think I could ever stop! Well I'm not really sure where I am going with this chapter so it might be really bad… I mean really bad. So please bear with me on this chapter, and if this one is bad then I promise the next will be even better!
Well anyways you guys know I don't own Black Butler, sadly.
This morning when I was awakened by Yasu, Ciel was already dressed and on his way out the door. I was still tired and didn't talk while Yasu dressed me for the day. She dressed me in a light blue dress with black and white lace. I yawned as Yasu put up my hair in a curly bun.
Yasu laughed at me, "Looks like someone is still tired."
I grunted in reply and Yasu just laughed, then we heard a crash come from outside then followed by a screech. Yasu and I rushed outside the door to find the maid and the Gardner on the ground. "What on earth is going on out here?" I asked.
"I'm sorry if we disturb you, Lady Shima, we thought we saw a mouse!" Finnian said to us, scratching the back of his head.
"Yes, very sorry, Lady Shima, it won't happen again!" Meyrin screeched again.
"Oh it's quite alright; I just wanted to see what the fuss was about out here, now if you will excuse me I must go see Ciel for breakfast." I smiled at them and turned around with Yasu to walk down the hall.
"She's nothing like Lady Elizabeth; she's more calm and reserved." I heard Meyrin, sort of, whisper to Finnian as I walked away. I then turned my heel immediately and walked back to them.
"If you don't mind me asking, what do you know about the split up of Ciel and Elizabeth?" I asked looking at them seriously, they both became flustered.
"Well we really aren't supposed to talk about this," Finnian began, "but all we know is that one morning he the young master went to see Elizabeth and returned a short while after and he shut himself up in his study for almost 3 days! We were so worried about him, and then when he finally came out he announced that he was breaking the engagement with Lady Elizabeth."
"FINNY!" The redhead yelled, "You're going to get us in trouble! I'm sorry, Lady Shima, but we must be getting back to work now."
With that the two scurried off in the other direction, "Must have gotten into one nasty fight for him to break the engagement." I looked at Yasu and yawned again.
"You think it was a fight, milady?" Yasu began walking and I followed behind.
"Must have been, why do you think it was something different, Yasu?" I said as we got to the top of the stair case and began to descend down the steps.
"No, milady, I'm only saying is that you have a lot of faith in the human race." Yasu smirked and opened the door to the dining hall. Ciel was already sitting at the head of the table with food in front of him and another plate of food in the seat to his left.
"Good to see you are finally awake, Lady Shima, I'm assuming you slept well?" Sebastian grinned and pulled the chair out for me.
I yawned again and sighed, "Yes I did, Sebastian, thank you for asking." I smiled at him. The rest of breakfast went on like that, but a little bit into the conversation Ciel and I were having I noticed that Sebastian and Yasu had left the room.
"Um, Ciel, did you see where Yasu and Sebastian went off to?" I asked looking around.
"Yes, I asked Sebastian to leave with Yasu so we could enjoy our morning together alone." Ciel folded his hands under his chin and looked right at me.
"Well that's a change for me; I don't think I've ever been in a room without an escort or a maid." I said looking back at Ciel.
"Really? Well I guess it's only precautionary since you are a princess. They didn't want anything to happen to you." Ciel said.
I huffed, "Yeah and while they were busy watching me, they let my parents get killed." I looked away from Ciel.
We sat in a silence for a while till Ciel got up and he held out his hand to me, "Come on I want to walk through the garden, come with me." I sighed and got up and followed him outside. Ciel linked his arm with mine as we walked around. I could tell he was trying to cheer me up after the mention of my parent's death. It was somewhat working; I tried my best to fake smile, but I don't think he was buying it.
"Lady Shima, you do know that if something is bothering you can always come and talk to me."
I gazed over at him surprised; Ciel didn't seem like the type of character to be considerate to others. "Thank you, Ciel, I'm glad you've allowed me to confine in you." I smiled up at him; he pulled me slightly closer as we walked.
Ciel was about to say something when he was interrupted by Yasu, "I'm sorry, my lady, but we must go see the queen. She sent asking for you to come and see her." Yasu said a little rushed.
Ciel''s P.O.V.
I was going to compliment Shima on how lovely she looked, when Yasu came informing us that the Queen wanted to see Shima.
"Well I guess I must get going, your Queen needs me." She looked up at me and smiled, "I'll see you right after I am done."
I took her hand and kissed it, "Yes, when you return though we must start planning the details for our wedding." I smirked and I could see a blush gracing her cheeks.
"We must be going, Lord Phantomhive, please excuse us." Yasu quickly led Shima out of the garden and out of my sight. I stood there staring after then.
"Young master, it seems to me like you are growing very fond of this girl. I thought you were still upset with losing Lady Elizabeth." Sebastian stated rather than asked, also appearing out of nowhere like he always did.
I cringed at the memories of Lady Elizabeth, "I won't make the same mistake I made with Elizabeth, and this time it's going to be different. Now we will speak of this no more."
"Yes, my lord." Sebastian said like he normally did.
I sighed, "We have things to do, come we need to start preparing for this wedding." I started walking and Sebastian began walking behind like the shadow he was.
Shima's P.O.V.
All the Queen wanted was to ask me how I was managing it here and to get my opinion on some wedding details. She also wanted to tell me that supplies had been delivered to my country and that my people were happy again. She said they spoke very proudly of me and with the kindest of smiles. I couldn't help, but smile the whole time as I left the Queen. Waiting outside next to our carriage was another carriage and standing outside of it was Alois Trancy.
"Lord Trancy, to what do I owe the displeasure." I said straitening my posture more and giving Alois a disgusted look.
"I'm here because the Queen sent for me; something about if Ciel were to, oh I don't know go missing before the wedding, then you would marry me instead." He laughed and glared right back at me, with those piercing blue eyes of his.
"Why you! Don't you dare lay a hand on Ciel!" I walked towards him, but Yasu stopped me.
"We must be on our way; Ciel will start to worry if you don't get back soon." Yasu wasn't even looking at me, her eyes were trained on Claude, "And if I have to ask you again to please keep way from my master then, well, I will take matters into my own hands, good day to you." Yasu pulled me along back into our carriage and we drove off fast. I didn't even bother looking behind us; I could feel those beady little eyes burning holes into the back of the carriage. Yasu and I rode in silence, neither one of us wishing to speak about what just happened.
Once we got to the manor, Ciel could feel our tension, "What happened, what did the Queen want?" he immediately questioned.
"Oh nothing really just asked a about a few things, got my advice in details for the wedding, and to tell me that my people were okay and that they had received their supplies." I told him in a sort of monotone voice.
"Then what is the matter, why are you to tense?" Ciel asked lightly gripping my arms, looking concerned.
"Alois was there, he was summoned by the queen as well. He said they were discussing what would happen if you were to go missing before the wedding. Ciel he is going to try to kidnap you before the wedding so that he can marry me!" I stood closer looking up into his eyes; they were just as worried as I was. I could feel a blush rising to my cheeks at our close proximity.
"That won't happen; I won't allow it, too. I will protect you no matter what." Once our close proximity was finally recognized by a slight cough from Sebastian, we pulled away from each other. After standing there for a little but in an awkward silence, Ciel decided it was time to go out and arrange the other details for the wedding. We went to the cake shop to pick out flavors, we decided on vanilla, we went to a photography place to schedule pictures, we went to a flower shop and picked out tons of flowers, they were all so beautiful, and finally we went to a tailor to get our sizes and schedule a later date to come back and pick out a dress and an outfit for Ciel.
"I'm so glad we are going home now, these shoes are killing me." I remarked with a painful expression. I was forced to wear these raised heel shoes, back in Cambodia I always wore flat shoes, and they were far more comfortable than this. "I'm ready to go to bed." I pouted looking over to Ciel who was proudly walking next to me; Yasu and Sebastian were following shortly behind us. I heard Ciel chuckle at my complaints, but then he stopped abruptly and I almost ran smack into a girl with blond, curly pigtails. I could feel Ciel tense next to me.
"Oh, Ciel, it's you. What a surprise and I hope you are doing well." The girl said in a sort of irritated tone "Who is this?" The girl looked at me in a sort of snobby way.
"I'm doing just fine, Lady Elizabeth," Ciel tensed as he said her name and stood away from me, "And this is my fiancé Shimabukro." I nodded at her.
The girl, whom I'm guessing is Elizabeth, looked away rather sadly, "Well that's good to hear, that you've already moved on so quickly." Elizabeth looked as though she was going to cry.
"It was arranged by the Queen not me. Now if you will excuse us; we must be going." Ciel sounded as though he was trying to be harsh, but just couldn't find the will to do. I sighed; obviously this was just an arranged marriage, nothing more. But was I to expect, this isn't a love story my nannies would read me about before bed. No, this was reality, not some silly story. Ciel remained quiet and tense threw out the rest of the day. There was no talking on the ride home, not even small talk. Once we arrived back home Ciel went straight to his study without saying a word. The other servants were whispering about how it was happening all over again and that it was just like the time when he came home after seeing Elizabeth. I sighed and trudged up to my other room, the one I wasn't sharing with Ciel.
"Milady, something is troubling you, what is it?" Yasu sat down and asked.
"Nothing really, but for some odd reason I was expecting one of those fairytale romances, but I don't know what I was thinking. This is just an arranged marriage, nothing more." I looked up at the sky from the window, the clouds were turning grey and the wind was picking up.
"It looks as though it might rain and thunder, milady, should I have you moved to a room with no windows?" Yasu asked already getting ready to get clothes and leave.
"No it's fine I'll try to stick this one out tonight." I half smiled at Yasu as she gave me a disapproving look.
"Alright, if you say so," Yasu replied. "Milady, go talk to him; I know you want to." I sighed, she had been right. So I got up and walked out of the room and down the hall to Ciel's study. I knocked on the door three times, though I wasn't really expecting an answer. I was surprised when Sebastian answered the door and gave me concerned look,
He bent down and whispered, "He isn't in the best of moods, but maybe you can talk him out of it. He has taken quite a liking to you, Lady Shima." He smirked at me and then walked past me and the door closed behind him.
"What do you want?" I heard Ciel grumble, annoyed. He looked very upset and I was rethinking my choice to talk to him.
"Ciel, earlier you said I could come to you whenever something was bothering me." I said quietly getting closer to him.
"I recall that, what's been bothering you." He said in a monotone voice.
"Well, I want you to know that you can do the same thing; please tell me why you are so upset." I was right next to him now. I timidly placed a hand on his arm and he looked up at me with a confused, shocked face, "Please, Ciel, I know you are upset; so tell me what's wrong." We sat in a long silence before he decide to say,
"She cheated on me." He said it so hushed and his teeth were clenched together, but then he began to break down. "I saw her with him they were walking together in the park and holding each other's hands. That day I had planned on surprising her with taking her out to lunch, but then. I couldn't help myself I walked straight up to her and demanded an explanation. She said she couldn't take it anymore that I wasn't happy anymore, no matter what she did, she told me that I wasn't caring and she wanted something more romantic. So she left me." He looked down and buried his face in his palms. "The moment I realized what had happened and what I had just lost I promised myself that if I were to ever try and get married again, I would be different and I would try harder. Please, Lady Shima, know that I am trying to be a different person."
"Oh, Ciel," I sighed, "Though I have not been what you've been through, I can say that you can confine in me just as you've allowed me to confine in you. And you do not have to be a different person for me, only be yourself." I smiled down at him. Our discussion was quickly cut short by the sound of thunder and lightning cracking outside. I let go of Ciel and hurried to the corner farthest, from the window.
"Shima, are you-are you afraid of the storm?" I heard Ciel get up and start walking over to my crouched position.
"Well um—AH," I screeched as another bolt collided with the ground outside. "Only a little I'm not used to storms like this, that's all." I tried to somewhat laugh and wave my hand at him, but I could tell he as definitely not buying it.
Once he reached me, Ciel held out his hand, "Come on I'll have Sebastian prepare a room with no windows for us."
I looked up at him slightly and shyly reached out to grab his hand, another crack was heard and I jumped straight into his arms grabbing a hold of him tightly. He wrapped his arms around me and held me there for a short time.
"I'm so sorry," I said shaking as I tried to pull back, "normally Yasu is the one I hold on to, please forgive-"
"No it's quite alright, you can hold onto me. Now let's go the sooner we get to bed the sooner it will be over for you." Ciel made an effort to smile down at me as he began leading me out of the room.
I pulled my self-closer, "Thank you so much, Ciel."
Be honest with me the sucked didn't it :c
Ughhh I hate being sick :c well any ways please tell me what you think I know you've waited awhile and it didn't turn out so good, but at least I got the Lizzie thing out of the way. It's one of the many things I have been dreading. Now the only things I have left are the wedding and the assassin WOO I'm not excited about those parts at all, I know what I'm doing for the wedding and I might have to make a sequel Idk yet.
Well anyways tell me what you think R&R
-Vivi