Once I reach the bottom, I can't fall any further.
I haven't talked to you for about a week. Are you ignoring me?
But maybe it's my fault. Maybe it is me, who is ignoring you?
I'm just mad at myself. And sad. You still got the most beautiful face,
it just makes me sad most of the time.
I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't think. I can't do anything normally.
I only think about you. Am I crazy, obsessed?
You are angry. I am distracted and spaced- out.
Today I slit my wrists. On the wall I wrote "Why don't you love me?" with blood.
I fainted afterwards.
I took a razor. Tiny line on skin shows where the razor has been...
Should I change?
it'a 03:45 in the morning and we are still talking. You carefully raise your cup of tea.
You gently take a sip of the drink. When I stare at your lips, I remember who I always wanted to be. Your tear. So I can be born in your eyes, caress your cheek and die on your lips.
Night of no fears.
I'm just standing still, maybe these thoughts will vanish soon.
How long will I be waiting for you? Though you don't have to commit to anything.
Unrequited love, unreciprocated feelings...
I don't want to live. It's not because you have done something wrong, it's because I want to do somethnig right.
Life is a vice, why we are living? I want to end this right now so I won't be called a sinner.
When I see you, the way you look at me, feeling you so close and so far at the same time.
If I told you how I feel, would you have listened anyway?
I will never be good enough, I will never be strong enough, I was never conceived in love,
I will never rise above....
You cried. I wanted to die once more. Stupid.
Pill overdose.
Hospital.
Coma...