"Scream all you want, no- one's going to hear you, no- one's going to save you"

You don't hear me? Of course not, I'm screaming inside but my lips are shut.

What's the point? If anyone will hear me, who knows, would they believe in my bloody tears, dirty face and hurtful words.

Dead silence. But you hear me even when I am not talking...

I chose insanity.

Madness.

I want to tell you, how I feel, what I think, but words... I cannot speak them, I'm choking with tears and I don't know what to do.

Razor is my one and only Saviour... Isn't it? Can you help me?

You... You think it's funny to play with my feelings? Not by the rules of this game.

Love. It's a condition when we are going insane. Not funny, why are you laughing? My ridiculous and often childish feelings are amusing to you. You look at me, as I am a child that needs attention, as a kitten, that needs your care but you will need to give it back to the owner.

You need me to highlight your Godliness, to show you attention and love.

You, so precious, perfect, beautiful need me, strange, crazy and depressed to raise your level.

It's so nice, when you're a princess and others kiss the land that treaded your graceful steps and bend as low as they can until they break. I'm the one who thinks, that can get a crumb of your priceless attention. I am always the one, who runs the fastest, bends the lowest and waits the longest.

That is what love makes foolish people do.

Stupid. Failure. I never got, what I wanted, why should it be different this time?

I have fallen a lot of times and I still haven't learned. No, I realised, I understood, that it is hopeless, there is no point. How far will I stretch? Not far, I give up...

I'm sorry, sometimes I think like this... Sometimes, I don't know what to feel... Sometimes, I don't know what to think...

Often I feel that I am standing on a crossroad and I don't know where to turn. If I will climb very very high, would I be able to see my life's horizon?

I took a razor, slit my wrist and write on the wall "Why don't you love me?" .

I don't want you to feel liable for this. I don't want this.

You make me miss you more than home.

So I started to drown this in a huge amount of alcohol. I want to break away from what is real...

No- one else has eyes like yours. Deep, that can drive you into madness. Lovely, that can make you desperate. No- one else has eyes so deep, so expressive, so fantastically beatuiful but you.

I love you like a drop of rain that falls into the desert once in 500 years.

I love you like darkness that holds on to me until traitor dawn comes and tears you apart.

I love you like a cup of coffee when you drink it, you still feel warmth and pleasure in your stomach.

I love you like the wind, which can caress you carelessly and not be told- off.

I love you... It's strange to me, it's strange to you. I never felt this way before. I don't want his feeling to be gone. I will embrace you and try to never let you go. What's the meaning in living without you?

Sometimes, when I do not feel you near, I put twice as much sugar and I still do not feel the sweetness of it, I wrap up in a warm bed and I still feel cold without you...

Don't be afraid, my love is pure like vastness of cosmos. What will discover you in it?

When I dream something cute about you, I don't want to call my friends because they might wake me from this dream, I don't want to move because it might change my memory and I might forget all that's been.

I try to listen and catch every word that pronounce your smooth lips.

Sometimes I want to hurt you, so I could have a reason to hug you longer and not let go.

I want to feel your soft hands entwine around my body, I want to hear and count you every heartbeat.

I want to do nonsence just to see, if you care what I do to myself and how do I disrupt myself.

I fall on my knees before you...

Have I changed your world? Because you changed mine radically...