AN: I am sorry I have been taking such a long time. I have been really busy with returning to school, X-mas, my son, and so on. So I promise to be really moving in this chapter. With the engagement ceremony, and so other little things, okay?

If You Love Me

Chapter 5: You Will Not Cry

Eyes opened wider, trying to take in the sound. They were listening in. Long dark brown locks washed over the young teen's face. Her icy lilac white eyes closed tightly and moved away from the screen door as fast as she could. The sound, hard steps were made. Young Hyuga Hanabi hid swiftly as her father walked out of the room, where Hinata sat, her head bowed to the ground, her eyes closed tightly. Her sister's dark locks fell over her head and spilled like ink to the floor.

"Hanabi, you can go now," Hinata's slowly lifted her head up, her eye locked to the part of the wall that Hanabi used to hide.

"Why were you arguing?" she said, placing down the cloak she used to blend to the wall. Hinata's face gave a soft, kind smile, but her eyes were so sad, it broke Hanabi's heart.

"I asked to remain a shinobi. As a Hyuga woman, I can not. I tried to get permission, but I can not." Hanabi gasped softly. Hinata loved working as a medic-nin and going off on missions. Why would father take that away from her?

"Hinata-nee-san…"Hanabi walked over to her sister, her chocolate brown eyes shining with sorrow and sympathy for the woman who sat, now a single tear kissing gently at her cheek. "Maybe..you could…"

"No, Hanabi. I will see the marriage through. I must," she wiped the tear and slowly rose up. She bowed to her sister, and took steps away. They echoed in the hall, and Hanabi stood, watching her sister disappear around the corner. What could she do?

Hinata stood at the door to his room. What was she going to say exactly? She wanted to cry to him, like when they were little. She wanted to curl up into his arms and just let the tears fall. Her hand rested at the screen. Unsure if to gently tap it, to say something. She wasn't even sure if he was in there. Pale, kind hands slid so ungraceful to her side.

"If you want in, say something," the voice called through the screen. Hinata jumped a little. He was there. "Just come in," He called. She listened. He sounded muffled. Sliding the door, her head was bent. She wouldn't look at him yet. Courage needed to rise into her being. She shut the screen, facing it. She wasn't sure if she could look at him. Taking in a deep breath, she turned. Her beautiful white eyes stared at what stood before her. Her breath caught in her throat as Hyuga Neji stood, his dark pants loosely hanging from his hips, a towel around his shoulders as his hair was free, slightly matted to his slim and yet, perfect frame. He stared at her, as she stared at him; a soft, beautiful rose color began to lighten up her pale cheeks. He had been drying his hair. He must have just gotten out of the shower. "Hinata-sama…" He took a step closer, and Hinata took one back. She couldn't go much farther, since she just hit the screen. Neji's eyes were staring at her, confused.

"Um..I….just wanted…." She stuttered softly. Her eyes widened slightly. It was back? But why? She looked up into the icy blue eyes. Because in the past few days, they had moments where she thought she could learn to love him. The moments that have passed not that long ago burned in her mind. Because he had kissed her lips softly just two days ago. And that soft almost lighter than air kiss, took her breath away.

"Hinata-sama…." He was leaning over her, and Hinata's eyes stared up at him, as she tried to crouch to the floor away from him. "Why are you here?"

"……."she couldn't lie to him, as the words flowed out of her mouth. "I am no longer permitted to be a shinobi."

"WHAT?!" he yelled so loud, Hinata fell to the ground, surprised. She looked up, seeing Neji's eyes darken slightly to a cool blue that happened to the Hyuga's males. "What do you mean?!"

"It is tradition that once a Hyuga woman becomes a wife, she turns in her band, and stops being a shinobi," her words came out softly, as her fingers twiddled together.

"I will not have an idle wife," Neji said through tight teeth. Hinata's lips turned slowly to a smile.

"Neji-san, you know I do other things than just sit," she giggled. Even if he was half naked, she stopped noticing it now. He was mad because he thought she would just sit on his money?

"I know," he took in a deep breath, and Hinata watched his abs flex as he breathed. Hinata turned and was about to leave when strong arms circled her waist, bringing her back to the strong chest that she was eyeing earlier. "Hinata…" he placed his head against hers, taking in her scent. Herbs, earth, rain and flowers. Such a pretty smell.

"Nejinii…" her mouth was covered softly by his finger.

"Neji-san. My name, Hinata, is Neji. I am not your brother…" His voice, rasps, smooth, and made her body shiver. Shivering over and over. "Hinata, are you cold?"

"I-I-Iie…" she breathed. Her body began to soften as she got us to him holding her. She would have to…they would soon be sharing a wing together…and then… Hinata's face flushed bright red. They would have to share their bed. His hand gently slid over her curves. Hinata tried to break free, and leave but he was much too strong. He was holding her so tightly. His lips grazed softly at her hair. His eyes, though she couldn't see, were cloudy and lustful. Hinata had walked in here with a kimono on. A beautiful light blue kimono and her hair was in a loose ponytail. Now, his hands moved to work the tie off. How smooth it flowed. How perfect it was.

"Hinata…." He breathed out, and flung her like a shirt to his bed. Hinata gasped, as she finally saw his face, his eyes. They frightened her. She tried to crawl away but soon Neji had lunged himself at her, holding down her wrists above her head. "Hinata….My…Hinata…" his lips then descended onto her lips. Her eyes widened. Its not that this was her first kiss. It wasn't even her second. But it was the first time she didn't want it. This kiss, was taking her breath, and with each second, her innocence.

He felt her wiggled beneath him, slowly, his mind was being taken away with every touch, every feel. Every time he feel her move underneath him, he grew harder. He grew hungrier. Slowly, his mouth left hers, licking at her neck, sucking softly until finally his darkest desire at this time came true. Underneath him, Hinata moaned. Not that it was in pleasure. He couldn't see it, but under his lips and teeth, came a hickey. A painful hickey.

"Please…" she cried, as his hands brushed her kimono loose. His lips moved and began to kiss and suck on her shoulders. Each time he touched her, each time he let her move, only drove his sanity father from his mind. He loved her, he needed her, he wanted to drive himself deep and scar her, so no matter what, he would prove to anyone, she was his.

"I…want.." he ripped at her obi, forcing the kimono off her body. She laid there, beneath him, wrist above her head, tears glistening from her eyes, her lips swollen form his kisses. Her body open. Her breast bound together, her white panties covering her. She was beautiful, she was perfect. Now, no light shone from his eyes. Not on little bit.

"HEY NEJI!!" Hanabi's voice called from the other side of the screen. Hinata gasped softly, and thanked the gods she appeared as sanity slowly rose back into his eyes. "Have you seen Hinata?"

"….No, I have not. Try seeing the training grounds. She could be with her teammates." Neji rose. He looked at Hinata for a moment before he turned around, letting her dress. Frail hands worked quickly to put the kimono back on.

"Thanks!!" Her loud steps soon left and disappeared. Neji turned, after sure Hinata was dressed.

"I am…sorry," he bowed his head to her softly. Hinata's neck was covered in a deep hickey mark. And her hair was a huge mess. "Hit."

She quickly did as she was told, scared of what would happen if she didn't. "Neji..-san…"

"Hm?" he asked, coming back form his bathroom, a dark brown brush in his hand, and her tie in the other.

"…What….were you think?" she whispered softly as he sat behind her, now doing her hair.

"….I was thinking…that I had to have you. That I couldn't stand the idea of another man making you his own." Neji's words shook her to her core. He wanted to be her first? She blushed bright red. He would be the first time she had sex…but not her first at …other things.

"Neji…" She tired to start but he had finished and helped her up. Hinata was red but Neji led her out and shut the door in her face. She sighed, going to her room. How would she tell him, she helped out others. She had helped Sasuke with his anger, using things that were….very…sexual. She had done so for Shino and Kiba. That she almost did it with…Kakashi? She ran to her room, falling on her bed, now tears flowing swiftly. She had forgotten completely to even tell Neji. But, she didn't need to, really. After all, Neji had slept with Ten-ten and Sakura. Why should she feel so…dirty? But she did, she felt disgusting, and dirty. She needed to clean herself. That's what she needed. Looking up at the time, she made up her mind. She would go and get clean. She would rid herself…like she should have done.

"HINATA!!" Neji called into the dark forest. He kept yelling, hoping something would be heard. His eyes looked and searched as the veins that popped from his face began to hurt. He shook his head, forcing himself to keep going.

"HINATA!!!" he tried again. Was she lost? He stopped for a moment, hearing a faint mumbling sound. He turned around to his blind spot, seeing a faint chakra. He ran towards it. He ran as fast as he could. Twigs scratched at his face, and he tripped a few times as he got closer. He stopped at the edge of water, seeing Hinata wearing a white kimono, purifying herself at the river. She was shivering, and her lips were turning blue. Why was she doing this to herself?

AN: BWHAHAHAHA!! Isn't it perfect? Don't you love it? Dark Neji, beautiful Hinata, and dirty little secrets? I love my writing.

ANYWAY!! Hinata isn't a whore. Neji isn't either. I was in a situation like Hinata once, when the ones you loved needed release and you offered up anything you could. Hinata is a virgin, in the sense that no one has taken her or pierced her vagina. She did anything that pleased them, but that. Please do not think she is a slut. I will explain more in the next chapter!!!