Here's the next chapter. Trying to see if I can develop some possible feelings between them without making it too fast. Please leave reviews and tell me how to make it better, if I'm too fast or too slow, anything. Thanks guys.
They made small talk, as I expected, and Mina mentioned the fact that the war kept going.
I decided to voice my opinion, "With all due respect, as a separatist, didn't you create the Clone Wars?"
I felt a pang of guilt when Padme quickly rebuked me, "Ahsoka!"
But Mina was unafraid, and replied, "It's alright. That's a very polarized point of view, my dear. Would it interest you to know that many of the people you call 'separatists' feel the same way about the Republic, and the jedi? Lux's father was like that."
Determined to make them see my view and accept it, I offered "Well, maybe I could talk to him."
I felt even worse following that comment, for her response was a story… regarding the death of Lux's father, who was killed by clones. This was a difficult predicament, so I quickly excused myself from the house, to get some fresh air.
Unfortunately, Lux was outside, too. I intended to walk past him without talking, but I was, at the same time, wondering about him. Did he feel the same way about the Republic and the jedi as his mother?
I did not have long to find out. As I walked down the steps, he asked, "You're a jedi, aren't you?"
That wasn't obvious at all. I wasn't sure if he was looking at my lightsabers or my skirt, though. I still wasn't sure about him. It was time to find out what he was getting to, though, to make Padme happy.
"Yes, why do you ask?"
He explained, "Before the war, I always believed the jedi were good."
Why would he feel any different now?
"And now?"
I understood that he couldn't figure me out, either, when he responded, "I don't know anymore. A lot of terrible things are happening. A lot of killing. And now my friends are beginning to say the jedi are to blame."
He appeared a little confused. But I knew he was surprised to find me a normal jedi, and that he hadn't seen a jedi before. I distrusted him, so I smirked, "I'm the first jedi you've ever met, aren't I?"
He was caught in a trap, and felt a bit awkward, so he hardly managed to say, "Well… um… yes."
Now I had him. It was time to find out if he was like every other dumb guy.
"Look at me. Not so bad, am I?"
He lifted his head and eyed me from head to toe, and thought for a moment. He tried to hide it, but his thoughts betrayed him. He found me pretty, just like everyone else. He went even further when he said,
"No. Not bad at all."
I felt disgusted, and mentally discarded him.
"Ugh. It seems boys are the same whether they're Republic or Separatist."
He wasn't going to let me off so easy though. He quickly called to me as I began to descend again,
"Wait!"
I stopped and turned. He slowed down and quickly said, "How many Separatists have you met?"
"What?"
"Well, I mean, you think we're all the bad guys. But how many of us have you actually met? And droids don't count."
I was caught a bit off balance, but I recovered and said, "Well, besides military officers like Grievous and Ventress, none, I guess. You and your mother are the first."
Though I was off balance before, but his next comment really threw me off.
"Look at me. Not so bad, am I?"
I eyed him quickly. No, not terrible, but he was still a Separatist, so I still didn't trust him. I had to get out of this situation, so I turned away and told him,
"I'm sorry about your father, Lux." At that moment his emotions went overboard, and a long-buried wave of grief poured out of him. I could feel it, even without my sensing abilities. I realized that was not the right thing to say too late, and quickly turned and walked away. A glimpse of him while returning to the house caused me to see the hot tears in his eyes.
I thought about what he said later, in my room. Maybe a few separatists weren't so bad, but the Bonteri family may not be the model of all separatists. Also, I knew his pain of losing his father, for I never knew my parents. But staying in the same home with a strange boy and a woman who is a CIS senator was not particularly appealing.
He didn't look that bad, really, but I couldn't help it either. He was different. I saw him across the courtyard in his room, reading a holobook. Noticing a light was on and someone in the window, he looked up and at me. A reflection I saw in him, combined with the fact that he wasn't another boy, caused me to blush and turn away. Perhaps there's more to him than meets the eye.
What a stupid war.
Lux's Point of View
Why did she just blush? I thought she hated me. Her aggressiveness was funny, really, if not a bit insolent. I looked down again at my holobook, but once again, I couldn't focus on the words, my mind drifting back to her.
She was beautiful, and I knew she realized it too. I thought for sure jedi were all the bad creatures all my friends said they were. But why wasn't this one like that? Behind that mask of rudeness, there was something about her that was different than the other girls his age. She was a bit more than he expected. And something deep within her reflected his past, as well.
When I looked back up, she had turned out her light and gone to bed. Perhaps some sleep would not be a bad idea. I turned out the light, and wearily crawled into bed. For a few minutes I lay wide awake, still thinking.
A thought crossed my mind that she might feel the same way towards him. Maybe she really wasn't such a rude Torgrutan underneath. But something else nagged at him. What was that feeling that they shared? What was the same about each of their pasts?
Ahsoka's Point of View
A bell sounded. My eyes opened to see a beautiful Raxian sunrise. The planet was once again waking up. I rubbed my eyes and remembered the previous day's experiences.
I felt guilty for yesterday's behavior, so I resolved to apologize as soon as possible. Breakfast was a lively affair, but the only people who didn't talk to each other were me and Lux. Padme understood that I was conflicted, as she was naturally great mother figure, and I looked to her like one, too. I politely helped clean up everything, and it was after that was done that Padme took me aside.
"Ahsoka, I know you don't fully understand what to think about him, but remember that some cannot evade certain feelings, even if those feelings go to someone on the other side."
She smiled. I was surprised she wasn't a jedi with sensing powers too. I looked down, slightly embarrassed that she had noticed it. I wanted to like him, but I felt my duty as a jedi demanded that no attachments of any sort would be tolerated.
I walked outside, my heart too full and conflicted to say anything, as was my mind. I saw Lux gazing at the forest on the pavilion, and decided now was as good a time to apologize as ever. I slowly approached.
"Lux….. I'm sorry for yesterday. I know I was rude, and… I'm sorry."
The words were hard in coming, for apologizing was not what I was used to. He turned and looked at me, but this time, something more was in his eyes. I could sense he was pleased, and that he was expecting such a thing. He slowly turned again, and said,
"I know you are, Ahsoka. I realize you don't think very highly of me or any of my kind, the kind you call 'Separatists'. I know you don't trust me, but I hope you will reconsider your anger at my home… my family… and at me."
He looked at me, but he seemed a little wiser, and a little more mature than before. I blushed again, and turned away.
"I don't know Lux. Separatists are who I appear to fight against. Though, now that I know a few, I don't know what to think anymore. Possibly some are better than others….." but then my voice trailed off, and a feeling of embarrassment drove me back into the house.
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