Chapter 6
Jackie opened her eyes and glanced at the alarm clock it was nearly 3pm, turning her head to look at Catherine who was dead to the world, she'd never known for Catherine to sleep this soundly before, Jackie decide to take it as a good sign. Jackie turned onto her side and started stroking Catherine's long blond hair, which despite is new dull and flat appearance was still as soft as Jackie remembered. Catherine started to stir so Jackie moved closer into a spooning position and gently began to rub Catherine's stomach. Catherine felt a safe warmth starting to run through her body starting from her stomach, which emanated from Jackie's hand, Catherine rolled onto her back and opened her eyes, Jackie was propped up on one elbow, lying on her side watching Catherine lovingly "Good afternoon" Jackie said before leaning down to give Catherine a gentle kiss. Jackie pulled back almost instantly for the first time since arriving Catherine didn't kiss her back "What's wrong Catherine" Jackie asked her face full of concern, she desperately wanted to make love to Catherine but here she was being all stand offish which to Jackie seemed a bit weird especially considering how open and honest Catherine had been just a few hours ago. "Nothing" Catherine replied refusing to look at Jackie "I'm going to have a shower, make yourself at home, you know where everything is" Catherine said as she climbed out of bed "Catherine, wait" Jackie pleaded but it was too late Catherine had already walked into the bathroom and closed the door.
Shit thought Catherine as she slumped back against the door and started to cry once again. 'Why is this so hard' Catherine thought to herself. Ever since Jackie had showed up at the front door 24 hours ago she had been more open and honest with her that she had been with any other person in her entire life and it had shaken Catherine to her very core. Catherine stood back up and turned the water on in the shower to drown out the sound of her sobbing, she didn't want Jackie to hear her, to make Jackie think that she was any weaker than she had already come across. Looking at her reflection in the mirror Catherine thought about what had just happened in the bedroom, Jackie was definitely giving off clear signals that she wanted to make love but Catherine couldn't shake the feeling that it was bound to by a huge mistake plus the way Jackie had looked at her yesterday, when they almost, hurt. It had made Catherine realise for the first time really, how her break up with Jackie had affected her physically as well as mentally. Staring at herself in the mirror, she wondered how she'd let things get this far she used to have this amazing, strong, elegant body that made both men and women go weak at the knees, a body that demanded attention from every pair of eyes in a room but now the person staring back at her was nothing in comparison, no wonder attempting to have sex with her had freaked Jackie out especially when Jackie was so used to the body, that Catherine used to own. After a few moments Catherine finally stopped sobbing and stepped into the shower, Catherine closed her eyes letting the hot water wash away the sticky dried tears that now clung to her cheeks and for the next 10 minutes Catherine tried to shut off her mind and enjoy the warm water wash away her distress.
'Okay that wasn't the reaction I expected' Jackie thought to herself as Catherine shut and locked the bathroom door. It was kind of worrying, after all Catherine used to thrive on being a sexual predator and Jackie knew firsthand how much Catherine liked and enjoyed sex but seemed almost prudish now. Jackie started to doubt herself, maybe Catherine's had second thoughts about her being here or had she done something to upset Catherine or maybe Catherine just wasn't into her that way anymore but having said that Catherine gave her the impression that wasn't the case only yesterday, either way Catherine obviously wanted to be alone right now and Jackie wasn't going to do herself any favours by lying in bed worrying about it, so she decided to get up and go and make some coffee.