Alright, next chapter. Getting some feelings sorted out. Really short one, but I think I warned you somewhere that most chapters were gonna be short. Enjoy!
Ahsoka's Point of View
Senator and Mother
I had since reconsidered politics, understanding that it wasn't all black and white. Lux and his mother were proof of that. No one found out that moment between Lux and I. I felt a little foolish for letting him kiss me, but I was reconsidering then possibility that maybe it wasn't all bad. I decided to talk to Padme. My master would be able to find out my story if I told him, and I would not feel comfortable talking to him anyway. Padme would be the one who would understand.
I took a transport over to her apartment. The guards let me through, and I greeted the senator just before she was going to retire for the night.
"Senator?" I questioned, hesitantly. "May I have a word?"
Her face lit up when she saw me, and quickly said "Of course, Ahsoka. Captain, would you and your security excuse us for a moment?"
Captain Typho nodded and started for the door, motioning for his men to do the same. They followed, but I waited until the door closed behind them to speak.
I walked towards the balcony and, while looking at the brightly lighted Coruscant, slowly told Padme what was on my mind.
"Padme, have you ever done something you regret… and cherish… at the same time?"
She looked down and replied,
"Yes. But only once… If you regret something, regret it. If you want to feel better about it, don't let that feeling of regret poison you.
She looked at me, and I at her. She saw it in my eyes.
"Pity… or even compassion… is not wrong, Ahsoka. Rather, it is a natural tendency that resides in all living things. Compassion is a feeling to stay with, as without it, nothing but hate remains. It is only by choice that such a feeling grows to something greater."
I thought for a moment. This time, I was not surprised she understood my issue. She had seen the look on my face when I heard about Lux's father's death. She may have even guessed the truth of what happened.
"Thank you, senator. I understand. But why does compassion lead to something stronger? I mean, they seem like very different things, and… what's the difference?"
This time, her eyes lit up with realizations. But she calmly replied, "They're closer than you think…" She paused.
"As you may already know." She smiled mischievously.
The truth was not ready yet. I smiled, thanked her quickly, and left the room.
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