Logan's P.O.V.
It's funny to realize how much time I had spent, not on myself. Between being a father to four kids, always demanding attention, and having a sick husband, I never really got time to do some of my favorite things. Like reading some of my books, or going online to read new medical journals. I know that's like the epitome of nerdum, but it really helps me calm down, and feel good. After putting the little kids to bed, and talk to Maggie about her science project I got to grab one of my favorite books, a priceless bottle of wine and a soft warm blanket I snuggled up on my couch. With one light on over my head in the corner by the couch, I quickly dove into the book while sipping casually from my glass of blood red wine. Except it didn't last long. There was hurried and harsh knocks on the front door, making me jump up and fling my book to the ground, and almost spill my glass of wine. I almost tripped on my blanket hurrying to the door still clutching on my glass. I really didn't want the kids to wake up, because it was almost midnight and they had school tomorrow. So when I pulled the door open after unlocking it and un-doing the dead bolt I was more than pissed off, especially to see James. I jumped slightly hearing a thunderclap from the storm that wasn't supposed to be here until tomorrow night.
James seemed a little flustered, and actually just as pissed off as I am. He breathed out hard and took a step forward looking over my shoulder. "Are the kids awake?" I shook my head quick and he nodded turning his body and moved out of my way so I could see out in front of my house. His tiny sports car was parked out on the street and I could faintly see a body in the passenger seat. "We have a small problem…and I don't want you to get mad at me for bringing him here, but I didn't really know what else to do." I frowned and cocked my head eyeing him closely. "I went to check up on Kendall. You haven't been answering your phone and I didn't know where you had moved to, so I got a hold of Chris and he told me about everything and I went to find where Kendall was, from Carlos, and I got there and there was like 6 empty bottles of beer and then an empty bottle of Vodka on his floor. He was a drunk mess and he kept saying he hated how everything had turned out, and he wanted to see his kids…and then he kissed me." I froze quick and he moved forward putting up his hands and shaking his head. "But I pushed him away and he started crying and then tried to take off my pants and that's when he fell back and passed out on his couch. So I picked him up and took him here after getting your address form Chris again…and I want you to take him in because he needs you man. He really does, and I know you need him." My mouth had been hanging open since he said Kendall's name, and I honestly didn't know what to do, or what to say. "Let me just get him, and we'll talk." He turned quick and ran down the walkway towards his car.
After putting his sleeping body on my couch, and covering him with a blanket, the same one I had been snuggled in, I put the tea kettle on the stove and started boiling water. James leaned against the counter across from me and I avoided all eye contact at all costs. I hadn't seen James since I had kissed him and my world was falling apart. And now again…when my world had actually already collapsed here he was again, bringing me my drunken ex-husband to sleep on my couch. I didn't know if I should be really mad at him, or happy. Happy because Kendall was actually near me, and we weren't screaming in each other's faces. But I still hadn't really gripped the fact that Kendall was in my house, passed out shit faced drunk. "You haven't said two words to me Loges about this…it's freaking me out." I quickly grabbed two bags of green tea and put them in the mugs, then poured in the steaming hot water. I lifted one dark blue mug and gave it to James walking past him to the dining room table. I sat down fast swishing the tea bag around in the hot water. James sat next to me, at the head of the table. "Logan…come on. Talk to me." I sat back raising my eyebrows at him and shaking my head.
"You had to bring him here?" He sighed out hard sitting back sipping form his tea. "You should have just left him at his piece of shit apartment so when my kids wake up, they don't see their wasted dad on the couch and get their hopes up. I don't care what you think about what happened between us. I just thought you were my friend, and if you were you would not have brought him, and I'm going to ask very nicely for you to get him out of my house." He almost spit out his tea jumping forward slamming his mug down on the table. I remained completely stone faced shooting daggers at him.
"You're kidding right?!" I looked down, clenching my jaw, and locking it in place. "I know what this is…you are so fucking afraid of taking any God damn responsibility for anything!"
"I need to take responsibility for Kendall being a drunken asshole?!"
"The same way he did for you!" His palm slammed down on the wood of the table making me jump. A ton of bricks came smashing down on my head, leaving me dizzy and absolutely stunned. "You don't think I know you Logan? You don't think I know exactly why you threw your marriage and your love away?" He scooted closer on his chair and leaned on the table, lowering his voice, considerably. "You remember those times when Kendall came to your rescue? You remember when Kendall took you back, with strong loving arms after you had sex with another guy days before your wedding? Kendall has taken a beating from the people who've tried to hurt you, without giving it a second thought. Kendall has always been there to pick up your pathetic pieces of your life because he loves you, and what the hell did you do for him? You threw him under the bus and turned his kids on him. There was seriously a time in my life when I would have given the moon and the world just to be with you…but this you…" He paused looking me up and down, only digging the knife deeper in my heart. "This you, is not anyone I want to be associated with. You need a fucking reality check, and him being out there, is it. You know when I got to his house; he was watching old home movies of you and the kids. Yeah I see it man…he's a real asshole for fucking caring." He sat back crossing his arms over his chest, huffing loudly and angrily.
"You really know how to make a dude feel good about himself James." He frowned shaking his head at me and I sat back rubbing my hands over my face. Before either of us could say another word there were more knocks at my front door. I groaned pushing up, and walking to it, James not far behind. He may be really pissed off at me…or the situation…whatever, but he was still overprotective bear, James. I grabbed the handle pulling it open and surprise, surprise; saw Carlos's face and…Chris's? I cocked my head to the side and Carlos sighed, yawning and grabbing the back of Chris's neck, pushing him in past James and I. "What are you guys doing here?" I shut the door softly following them out to the living room. You could tell Chris immediately tensed up seeing Kendall on the couch, but Carlos never let him go. "You don't have to be here Chris."
"Like hell he doesn't." Carlos turned his fiery angry gaze to me and shook his head. "I don't know about James, and I don't know about your kids, but I am sick and tired of dealing with yours and Kendall's bullshit." The whole room went quiet except for a pair of feet walking in the room. I turned seeing Maggie walking into the room tying a robe around her body, I sighed turning back to Carlos w3ho had let Chris go and was looking around at us. "Did you know your daughter, Sammy, has been teaching herself the piano? And she is getting so God damn good." My lips parted slightly but he put up his hand and shook his head. "Don't try to say something stupid Logan. We all know the only reason this has happened is because you want to make up for when Kendall was sick. Because when Kendall was thrown into an awful situation, like getting fucking cancer, do you know what he did? He rose up to it, kicked its ass while still being an amazing father and tried to be an amazing husband. DO you know what you did Logan?" The way he asked it was extremely condescending but I decided not to bring it up, not wanting to make the situation worse. "You hid in the corner and pushed everyone away. So at the first chance, to get the good graces of your kids, you agree with them on all their dumb ass mistakes…" He turned to Chris and stared at him for a minute before looking back at me. "And you let Kendall get hit by the bus and then run over, over and over again." I swallowed hard seeing out of the corners of my eyes, both Maggie and Chris staring at me. Carlos raised a finger and pointed it right at me. "You are the only person who can fix this. If I didn't love you as my best friend and my brother, I would convince that judge to let the kids stay with Kendall full time. Fix it before it is too late." He sighed out hard walking past me, shoulder checking me and grabbing James arm, pulling him out of the room, past Maggie. I was left with nothing to say having my two best friends hating me, and tearing my ass apart. They knew all the right things to say to make all my deep, unknown reasoning come out.
All I could do was look between the two kids and hoped they would say something, anything before I did. Neither of them seemed phased by their father passed out on the couch and I don't know…I kind of wanted to desperately wake him up and ask, beg, and plead for his help. I knew he wouldn't give me any, but I was being pathetic. Until Chris spoke. "I need to go back home and be with Rose." I turned to him softly crossing my arms over my chest nodding and smiling small. "And I need to seriously think about college." My mouth parted slightly, but he pushed past me without another word, or even looking in my eyes. He and Maggie looked at each other, but no more words were spoken. Chris walked to the door, and I heard it pulled open, it went quiet. "Carlos left?" I frowned and started walking out to him, only to have him walk to me. "He drove me here…and I don't want Rose driving…"
"I can drive you…" He completely ignored me and turned to his sister. It was starting.
"Can you take me home Mags?" She nodded fast and turned, just as another someone was walking out towards us. Josh. My arms fell off my chest as he stopped short seeing me. His shirt was off and he had a dumb look on his face. Maggie turned back to me quick beat red. I raised an eyebrow and she swallowed hard turning back to Josh.
"I said to wait in my room."
"You had him over here?! In your room half naked?!" Chris yelled down at her, making her jump and Josh step forward. The first wrong move was to put his hand on Chris's arm. His second wrong move was when Chris pushed him off…Josh pushed back. I had no time to react. Chris was shoving Josh into the wall hard, and he was throwing punches. Maggie yelled at her brother to get off him, but her voice was lost in the fist's hitting bodies and their grunts. I quickly snapped into action and stepped forward to separate it, but I was too shoved. By Kendall. He stepped forward easily towering over both of them, and grabbed Chris, pulling him back hard. He stepped between them, on wobbly legs and breathed out hard.
"What the fuck is going on?"