"No!" screamed Jack, his seeming peaceful demeanour broken, he went running down the stairs pushing Owen out the way whilst doing so.
"She's not dead. The medi scanner must be broken, its been here a while, that what it is, Owen please keep working?" Owen had moved over to his computer screen after being forced out of the way by Jack, the computer had finished running the diagnostic on the spike.
"Jack the spike was coated in clopidogrel, her blood wouldn't clot, she would have just kept bleeding out, there was nothing I could do." Jack span to face Owen,
"Then what is the point of you? A doctor who can't save people, get out Owen. "Owen left without arguing, knowing Jack had only said it because he was hurt. As Owen walked up the stairs Tosh ran at him, he opened his arms and she hit him full force, sobbing into his chest. He picked her up and carried her over to the old sofa that was under the torchwood sign and sunk down onto it, letting out his own tears into Tosh's shoulder.
Jack had pulled Gwen onto his knee and was breaking. He had inducted her into this team, showed her things that had shook her faith to the core and put her on the front line of danger only to result in her dying because of a mission he had asked her to go on with him. He could have took Owen but no he took Gwen and because of that she was dead. She couldn't have a normal life now or any life, oh god he would have to tell Rhys he realised and this brought on a wave of fresh tears. He had no idea how long it took him to stop crying, but when he finally let go of Gwen and put her in the morgue the hub was empty. He walked up to his office and found the bottle of whisky that Gwen had bought him for Christmas, he had saved it and told himself that he would drink it with her one night when they needed a pick me up but now he sat drinking shot after shot alone and he realised he would never get to see the gap between her teeth, listen to her laugh, tease Owen, all these things that he would miss lead him to drink more and more until finally he passed out due to the amount of alcohol in his system and his tiredness.
Owen pulled into the car park the next day and was amazed to find the hub quiet, at this time normally everyone would be in and at work, he moved across the hub and made his way into his medical bay. The stark white walls hurting his eyes slightly until they adjusted. He looked at the table and figured Jack must have put Gwen's body away, the cog door opened just as Owen reminded himself to go down there and check Jack had done it right as he was in some state by the time Owen had ushered the rest out to leave Jack to mourn. They all knew he loved her, it was clear to them all apart from Jack and Gwen themselves. Tosh walked through her eyes red rimmed and her hair just thrown in a bobble, she said a quiet Hello to Owen before sitting down at her desk and sinking herself into the servers. Ianto came down offered them coffee and then retreated back upstairs his eyes staring at Gwen's desk for the full time he was there.
It was around midday when Jack came downstairs, he looked in worse state than them all and apologized to Owen for his comments made the day before, Owen made it clear that it was okay that he would ring Rhys to tell him about Gwen. Jack thanked him and went back upstairs the normal spring in his step and playful glint in his eyes gone. Owen reached for the phone and rang up Rhys.
"Rhys Williams, it's Owen Harper I worked with your girlfriend Gwen."
"Aye, Its not you ringing me to admit finally that she's shagging that boss of hers are you?"
"No sir, we were running a routine operation yesterday when the person we were chasing let off a round of shots, one hit Gwen and we did everything we could but unfortunately she died late last night."
"Oh right, thanks for letting me know Owen." And the next thing Owen heard was the Dial tone. Rhys hadn't even had a flicker of emotion in his voice, Owen let out a breath.
He spent the next hour cleaning the med bay, putting the equipment away where it was meant to go, scrubbing Gwen's blood off the floor before heading towards the morgue. He didn't' want to do this, he didn't want to see her face still and pale non moving. As he made his way into the room he heard someone following him, he figured it would be Jack and so wasn't too bothered by it. After locating which draw Jack had put Gwen in the night before Owen walked over to it and pulled open the draw.
"Jack!" He shouted behind him as his leader walked in.
"What?" Asked Jack.
"What did you do to her?" Asked Owen calmly.
"I prepped her and put her away Owen why?
"Then why the fuck is her gown there, her bag there, but her body isn't?"