Ah, by now you guys should know the drill already so I don't have to repeat myself do I?

A/N – So this is the newest chapter. I think it's safe to say that I will upload more chapters for the rest of the day. I hope you're looking forward to it as much as I do. Remember, if you're confuse about some part feel free to ask!

Joining harmoniously in the dark

Despair and the future

The moonlight that expose my sorrow

Shines coldly

CHAPTER 4

Lilith wakes up. No screaming, no heavy panting or sweating uncontrollably. She slowly sits up and stares at her left hand. That dream... It feels so vivid... So real... Her heart was beating like crazy but her composure was calm and cool. Maybe it was just 'one of those days' I guess... Lilith convinces herself. After all, dream is just a dream. It means nothing. She stretches her stiff body lightly before exiting the room. "Damn... How long was I asleep?" She yawns. "Lilith!" A voice calls out to her. It was her mother. She didn't realize that she had passed the living room. She turns around and suppresses a smile. The males all had a frown on their face. She ignores their glare and faces her mother who was sitting on the couch in front of them. "Yes Mum?" "I have to go out for a while. I need to buy something..." Her mother said, almost apologetic. "Your... Father wants to speak to you now that you have woken up..." Tristiatina said carefully. Interesting... I wonder what that man wants with me? "OK Mum" Lilith replies. Her mother hesitates at first before leaving. Lilith watches as her mother got into a car and left off. She too leaves the living room which the Varia members instantly escort her. "Being a nuisance again trash?"Lilith smirks. "Voi! We nearly die because of your disappearance!" Squalo said furiously.

"Why the fuck did you do that!" Her smirk widens. "I wanted to see you scums curl up and die by your own boss's hands. That would be fun to watch" She said. "Why do you hate us so much? We did absolutely nothing to you!" Levi demand. Lilith ponders on how to say this as nicely as she could. "Hmm... Is not that I hate you guys... It's just that you sorry assholes are top assassins. I never play with a bunch of assassins before so this could be fun..." Lilith explains. "... Play?" Fran dare to ask. "Yes... I would be very satisfied when I finish you all off..." They abruptly stop. After seconds pass, they follow her again. They soon reach to the office. Lilith enters the office only this time, she enters alone. "Sit" The Varia boss said as soon as the door is close. "... You don't command me trash..." Lilith growls. Xanxus eyes widen in interest. "You will listen to what I have to say..." Xanxus threaten the girl in front of him. Out of boredom, Lilith shut her mouth. "From now on you and your mother will live here. You will not leave this mansion without an escort. You will stay indoors at all times" Lilith's left hands burst into flame and she throw it at the window behind him. Purposely missed its target. "I don't think so..." She begins with a calm expression but her anger was burning behind her eyes.

"I don't mind if Mum want to live here again with you but you don't command me trash. I do whatever I want, whenever I want!" Lilith snarls almost inhumanely. Xanxus remain calm, as if he had forgotten about the shattered window behind him. "Tch, figures... Starting tomorrow you will train with those scums and learn to control that Dying Will flames of yours" He commands. Lilith was shaking with pure anger but the image of her mother flash in her mind. For her mother sake, she is willing to back down. "... Whatever trash..." Lilith said bitterly. She turns around and leaves the office in a huffed. Xanxus stare at the door then at the shattering glass beside his chair for a moment. "... I will make sure that your life won't turn out like mine..." He said, almost a whisper. Squalo enter the room soon after. "Voi! So what are we suppose to do with your daughter!" He said. The Varia boss glares at the man, silencing him. "Make sure she stays in this place trash... I don't want to hear that you lose her like before" Squalo ears turn red due to embarrassment. "It wasn't our fuckin' fault!" He yells. He storm out of the room, barely missed the wine glass being thrown at him. Since her mother wasn't back yet, the Varia kept a close eye on her. Meaning, they won't leave her alone. Everywhere she goes, at least one of them follows her like a lost kitty.

Needless to say, she didn't like it. "Would you trash quit it! You really want to die don't you!" Lilith yells when she returns to the living room again. "The boss orders us to watch over you... So that Lilith-san won't escape..." Fran explain, monotonously. "Escape? So I'm a prisoner now? Screw him!" She roars both of her hands burst into flames. "The boss is probably worried if the princess would somehow hurt herself if she went out... After all, the princess is a pretty girl... Ushishishishi" Bel laughs his trademark laughter. "I can handle myself fine trash! I'm not some weak girl who needs bodyguards!"Said Lilith. "Then would you at least stay here for your mother's sake?" Lussuria begged. Lilith extinguishes her flames reluctantly. She sat down on the sofa. "... I'm thirsty..." She murmurs. "I'll go get something for you dearie!" Lussuria exclaimed. "No... I'll get it myself" Lilith stops him and proceeds to the kitchen. Now this amazes the males in the room. Their boss always ordered them to do everything, even the slightest thing. Lilith on the other hand, she does it herself. Maybe there is a slight difference between them. Lilith opens the fridge and pours herself a cup of orange juice and return to the living room. "So what do you assholes do around this time of day?" Lilith asks randomly after taking a sip. Good stuff. "Train" They answer simultaneously.

Tch... Figures. There are assassins after all. Speaking of training... Xanxus did say that these people will train me starting tomorrow... This should prove quite interesting... Lilith heard the sound of soft footsteps coming towards the living room. Her mother had return holding a plastic bag full with Lilith's favourite chocolates. She smiles happily for receiving so many sweets. Her mother then shows Lilith her room. She was lead into a room richly decorated with expansive furniture though plainly decorated. This would serve as her room for now on. After her mother leaves her alone, she couldn't help but miss her old bedroom. Though it was small, it gave Lilith the feeling of secure and comfort. Listening to her mother advice, Lilith folded her legs on the comfy white bed and starts eating the chocolates in small amount. Not wanting to spoil her appetite for dinner. The warm summer breeze that manages to slip into the room startle Lilith quite bit. It made Lilith finally realized that her room has a balcony. Getting off of bed, she gently slide the glass door open and went into the balcony. The scenery was anything but interesting to her; lush green carpet of grass and forest surround the mansion. Underneath the normality of the environment, Lilith couldn't ignore the presence of peace in the atmosphere.

Her mother was a mafia even before she was born. She must've gotten used to the bloody fights and rival families by now... And yet, she couldn't tell her secrets to her. Not ever. She will take them with her to the grave if she must. She didn't want her mother to start worrying about her; she wanted her to be happy with that man. Lilith mouth feels dry, her tongue is rough as sandpaper everytime she try to regard that man as her father. It's bad enough to have his looks; she didn't want anything else to do with him. She sat on the edge of the balcony and let the wind calms her down. A tea would be perfect right about now... She sighs. She stays like that; watching the sun slowly sets, and remains even when the sky had been painted black and dotted with stars. The warm breeze had turn into chilly winds. Lilith didn't bother to go inside; she didn't feel like doing anything at all. Simply stares at everything while feeling nothing. She crossed her legs and look up at the stars. Her expression turns into a longing. A longing for what? Even she didn't know that answer. Night is the time when Lilith would question herself restlessly.

Does she want happiness? As long as her mother is happy, she's fine with it. Fun? She's good at finding things that interest her. Lilith shook her head; her hair was messy due to the wind. She felt that something is missing inside of her. This frustrated the young mafia because the answer is not within her grasp. She could try to think of hundreds – No... Maybe thousands of answers to her problems but finding the right would be... Tedious. Maybe her life isn't spice up enough. Maybe she needed more fun because that's the only thing she's good at; violence. Her appetite for dinner had vanished. Food suddenly didn't sound too good right about now. Neither the sweets on her bed. The door slowly creaks open, Tristiatina step into her daughter new room. "Lilith...?" Her mother called, a little worried because the room is pitch black. "Out here Mum" She replies. Tristiatina went to the balcony finding her daughter was sitting on the ledge, her back facing her. "... It's time for dinner dear..." She said warmly though she was curious. Why is Lilith out here without wearing anything warm? Lilith slowly turns her head slightly. Her expression was solemn and her eyes show some sort of deep sadness. Never before had Tristiatina had seen her daughter this way. When her mother remains silent for some time, Lilith put on her facade. "Alright! I'll go now" Said Lilith. Her expression turns happy. "A-Ah, yes..." She got off from the ledge and they went down together.

As soon as their enter the dining hall, screams and curses can be heard rather loudly. Bel, Levi and Squalo was fighting as usual with Lussuria trying to calm them down while Fran was throwing fuel to the fire even more. Lilith raises an eyebrow but said nothing. They both sat near Xanxus who was the only one eating. The fight seems oblivious to him. Neither of them said nothing as the fight continues. "Welcome to the Varia. This is how 'normal' works around here" Tristiatina grin at her daughter which Xanxus merely roll his eyes. Lilith smile. She try to eat as much as she could that was on her plate but she couldn't swallow more than 5 minutes. "I'm sleepy... Goodnight..." Lilith announced. She pushes her chair and left the hall before anyone could stop her. Although the fight continue on aimlessly, even though Lilith had left when she only enter for a few minutes, Tristiatina and her husband stare at the door that she left. Tristiatina felt guilty that she didn't consider what Lilith would feel about living here. She will agree to whatever her mother decision. Though Lilith is mature than any other teenagers similar to her age, she was still a child. Xanxus notice the worried look on Tristiatina face. He needs to do something about his two-face daughter if he intends to shape her life better than his. And that's the problem. He was never really good with talking and he doubt that Lilith would even listen to him. She was too much like him. The shouts were fading as she heads back to her room. Her room might me grand and all that but it was at the farthest end of the wing.

As soon as she enters the room, she switch on a few lights and rearranges the pillows on the bed and cover it with the bed sheets, so that if anyone went in to check up on her, they could be fooled. Lilith slides the glass door again and jumps down. She landed o the grass with a soft thud! Before venturing into the woods. Her mind was still in a mess so Lilith hopes that taking a stroll in the woods would help her clears her mind. It didn't do a thing at all. Frustrated, she jump on a nearby tree and make herself comfortable by leaning on the tree. She could see the mansion from on top of the tree. The cold air sings a lullaby for the troubling monster girl; finally manages to calm her down. All of the sudden she feels truly sleepy. She slept rather peacefully where no weird dreams dare to bother her. For a moment, she feels relax and strangely calm. Lilith woke up very early on the next day. The sun hasn't rise yet but she could see the light slowly rising from the horizon. She yawns and stretches herself. I should sleep outdoor more often... Lilith muses at the idea. If her mum found out she would sure freak out. She jump from trees to trees and in less than 5 minutes, she was on her room's balcony. She enters the room and makes her unused bed. Lilith switches off the lights and went out.

The mansion was dead quiet; given it's only 6 in the morning. Her mother could still be sleeping. She went downstairs to the kitchen for a glass of water. She was very surprise to see a happy Lussuria was already in the kitchen, cooking breakfast. "Good morning Lilith dear!" The flamboyant man greets her. He soon frowns when he saw Lilith. She was still wearing her yesterday's attire which is all wrinkle up. Her face is grim with dirt and there were a few leaves on her wild hair. "... Were you out last night dear?" He asks, carefully. Lilith merely rolls her eyes and gulp down a glass of water. The water cools her throat nicely. Before she leaves the kitchen, she threw a ripe apple at him; silently answering his question. Soon after she had return to her room, Lilith couldn't help but examine herself on a full body length. "Damn... I look horrible" Lilith curse at herself. She is in badly needed of a long hot bathe. She turns on the faucet and let the lukewarm water fill the porcelain tub. After the tub was half full, she took her dirty clothes off and slips into the bath. A sigh escape from her lips. She shampooed her hair since it was so need of some attention. After her body feels fresh and her head feels a lot lighter, she got out of the tub to dry herself. She put on some clothes; a white t-shirt, a black rip skirt and boots accompany with a red necktie. The t-shirt was not tuck in which is the way she likes it.

She took the remaining chocolates from yesterday and brought them to the balcony so that she could enjoy them. She sat on the ledge again while happily much on the sweets. "What should I do today? Hmm..." Lilith thought while savoring the chocolates. Maybe today she could finally go out but then she had to deal with the annoying scums. Oh well, if she could lose them once, she could lose them again. Other option; Lilith could do a little research about the Varia and learn as much as she could do about them. On top of that, she could also find out about powerful mafia families along the way. Now that could be fun! An entire mafia family to play with. If all goes well, she could take over the underworld and all will know her name – "Lilith-san...? Is Lilith-san awake?" A knock came follow by the sound of a familiar emotionless voice. "... Stop stabbing me Bel-sempai... It's embarrassing..." The froggie complain. "Ushishishishi... Not until the kouhai learn to show some respect to the prince" Bel said angrily. "Well, where is this price then...?" Fran reply. Another knife was added into his head. "Ow..." He complains. Tch... Stupid assholes. "What the hell do you want!" Lilith yells. "Tia-san wanted to you to come down for breakfast..." Fran explain. "I'm not hungry. I'll come down later" Lilith explains. Outside of the door, Bel and Fran studied the door quietly. If they try to force her, she'll definitely goes berserk but on the other hand, their boss's wife really wants to see her daughter. They decide to retreat and leave her alone. Lilith's last box of chocolate had finished; she grimace.

There's goes her little piece of heaven. It was true when she said that she wasn't feeling hungry but she could use some light snack. Lilith remembers the apple tree that she slept on last night. The apples look red and juicy. Yummy. Lilith jump down and went to the said tree. Since she didn't bring a basket with her, she would have to carry the apples in her arms. She hums to herself while plucking the apples. Soon her arms are full, cradling the apples. She could feel that time is passing by since she spent the whole morning in the forest; not that she gives a damn. Noon will probably arrive soon. A twig snap softly making Lilith immediately went into alert mode. She could feel an intimidating presence not far where she's at. Lilith didn't need to call out – a young girl appears on the tree beside her. She was young, around 13 to 14 years old, her white elegant curls sway lightly to the side and her eyes were greyish brown. At first glance, there wasn't anything out of the ordinary about her. She was wearing a kind of clothes that makes you think that she's Alice in Wonderland with a cute black bow on her head but there was no mistaking it. She's a killer. From Lilith's experience, the girl's eyes tell everything. "Hey there" She said, her voice was girlish and somewhat lyrical. "... Who the hell are you?" Lilith narrows her eyes at her. She never comes across anyone; well, other than her before. "My name is Heidi Septette... Nice to see you. Bye-bye!" She introduces herself and instantly ran away. What was she doing around her... Lilith wonders. If anything, she knew that whatever the girl's intention was, it wasn't nice. It was too hard to ignore the bloodlust in her eyes. A thought suddenly pop in her mind. Did she plan on destroying the Varia? Lilith bit her lip.

That girl, Heidi, she must be incredibly brave or stupid to plan a massacre in the middle of the morning. She needs to find her before the idiots do. She went back to her room; place the apples on an empty bowl on the coffee table before leaving the room. She had to pass the living room first before she could leave the mansion. The Varia members were on the floor, tackling with each for the TV remote; her mother was nowhere in sight. "I'm leaving..." She announced, didn't even bother to stop walking. Usually she would announce that she would go out to her mother but the trash could deliver the message for her. "Wait... What!" Levi quickly scrambles up. "Voi! Hold up! The boss told you not to go out on your own!" Squalo remind her. Lilith mutters a curse. She had forgotten about that shit. "Do I look like I give a damn?" Lilith replies, sarcastically. Hopefully that girl will be somewhere around the area. "Lilith! Wait please dear!" Lilith had no choice but to obey the voice. Her mother was walking the hall to her. "Are you going out?" She asks, smiling. "Yes Mum" She nod, also smiling. "Well let's go then!" Lilith froze. She didn't expect her mum would tag along too. The odds were not in her favour. "Voi! You both can't go out on your own! The boss would be freak out!" Squalo argue. Tristiatina's smile remains; the angry swordsman didn't even effect her the slightest. "Then would you, Bel and Fran would be so kind to accompany us girls?" Her mother offered. So it was settle. Lilith would have to somehow find a way to search for the girl while being surround by her mother and assassins. The odds were really not on her favour...

Lacrimosa

Fallen and born here

I want to love this blood soaked-world without fear

Instead of being forgiven, forgive and have faith

And remain on the face of this Earth

To count the tearful days that pass…

A/N – The song I choose for this chapter is Lacrimosa by Kalafina from the anime Kuroshitsuji (Black Butler) second ending.

So I use my little sister's name in this chapter since I was so lazy to think of a name XD Hope she won't mind that much.