A/N – Hell yeah! Nice to meet you again my good friends! Thank you so much for reviewing my chapters! Oh yeah! Since I'm sugar high I decide to grace you all with a new chapter today! Sorry for the grammar and spelling errors! So please enjoy! And I do not own Katekyo Hitman Reborn! Just Solverstress and her family!
Ever on and on I continue circling
With nothing but my hate in a carousel of agony
Till slowly I forget and my heart starts vanishing
And suddenly I see that I can't break free-I'm
Slipping through the cracks of a dark eternity
With nothing but my pain and the paralyzing agony
To tell me who I am, who I was
Uncertainty enveloping my mind
Till I can't break free, and
Maybe it's a dream; maybe nothing else is real
But it wouldn't mean a thing if I told you how I feel
So I'm tired of all the pain, of the misery inside
And I wish that I could live feeling nothing but the night
You can tell me what to say; you can tell me where to go
But I doubt that I would care, and my heart would never know
If I make another move there'll be no more turning back
Because everything will change, and it all will fade to black
Will tomorrow ever come? Will I make it through the night?
Will there ever be a place for the broken in the light?
Am I hurting? Am I sad? Should I stay, or should I go?
I've forgotten how to tell. Did I ever even know?
Can I take another step? I've done everything I can
All the people that I see I will never understand
If I find a way to change, if I step into the light
Then I'll never be the same, and it all will fade to white
CHAPTER 18
Sol managed to find a rundown inn somewhere in the town to let her herald rest and collect her distraught mind. They settle down in one of the nicer room. She the dump Squalo on the bed and her black mismatch eye disappear. Lilith blinks twice as her full vision returns. How are you feeling? Sol asks. "Like I just won a gazillion bucks!" She snaps. Sol chuckle in her mind. "At least you're fine. Honestly, I didn't know what would happen if I continue to use your body a second longer" She admits. Sol sounded tired and a little weak. Now that she was able to calm herself, Lilith just realizes something. Sol had possessed her body, use the Sin repeatedly and even had some injuries on her body but why isn't the aftermath of the effect her?
I channel all the pain from the fight from your body to myself. So you wouldn't feel anything. Except maybe a little headache Sol explains. She was breathing heavily. "Why did you do that?" Lilith asks in uncertainty. So that you wouldn't have to explain to your boss about your near death condition! Your body didn't receive any heavy injuries so you can hide them later but if you went back half dead then your boss won't allow you to undergo any mission. Ever. And afterwards you would whine and complain about how life sucks and just how unfair it is. Then you go out on a killing spree and oh, I don't know maybe a massacre at the side? Steal all the chocolates ever create by man – "Ok, that's enough Sol!" She snaps in irritation. Sol is starting to nag and it hurts her head. But what Sol did was kinda… Caring. Yeah, sure she did kill Eve in cold heart and emotion but in that tense moment, she was able to be considerate about Lilith's situation. Xanxus would surely never let her leave the mansion ever again if he finds out that she had screw big time on her first mission given by him. "I have a lot of things I want to ask you and you better answer them" Lilith said as she went to the bathroom to clean herself up.
I'll explain what I can… Sol sighs tiredly. She went quiet after that. Probably too tired. Lilith had successfully managed to remove the blood from her body and clothes. Her minor injuries were also well hidden. She's gonna have to ask Bolverk to heal her somehow. "VOOOIIII!" Lilith cringed slightly as she was washing her hair. Great. The stupid shark has awakened. Lilith got out of the boredom to find out that Squalo had indeed wake up and was now getting out of bed. "What the fuck? Where are we!" He demands as he scans the room. "In one of the run down inn in the town. The mission ended a while ago so you wanted to sleep while waiting for our car to pick us up as on schedule" Lilith lie perfectly. It amazes the young girl how good she had become a lying. Squalo didn't reply; Lilith was doubting whether Sol really did erase his previous memory.
Maybe she forgets. To Lilith's relieve, Squalo merely comment how much the room look like shit. "Voi! Let's go home!" He announces. They left the inn as well as the town when their car arrives. Squalo was complaining how the mission was too easy and weak through the ride home while Lilith merely ignores him. Her head was spinning. Talk about cliché. Only a few days ago that she had begin her training with Sol and today, on her very first mission ever, a stranger with incredible power suddenly ambush her. It was as if Sol was training her to face with sudden dangers like this. Lilith hates cliché moments. When they finally arrive at the mansion, Lilith went straight to her room without even reporting to Xanxus or greeted Tristiatina. She needs to talk to Sol. As soon as she was in the safe zone in her room, she changes her clothes and kicks her boots off before collapsing on the bed. The throne room gleams brightly and proudly upon the owner's arrival.
"Tell me now about Eve –" Lilith begin only soon to realize that Sol was nowhere. Isn't she supposed to be here all the time? Lilith was puzzle. Where is she? How is she supposed to contact Sol? Lilith was frustrated. Where the hell is Sol! One of the gems on Sol's black throne glow eerily. As if it was beckoning her towards it. Up 'till now, Lilith had come across a lot of strange things thanks to Sol so this could mean something. Lilith got up from her golden throne and went to occupy the black one. At first nothing happen, but slowly Lilith begin to hear voices inside of her mind. Soon it become to sound clearer and louder. A collective of voices were arguing with each other only to be silence by one. "Shut up!" It was Sol obviously. "You stupid motherfuckers fuck off! I said I'm fine alright! Just leave me the fuck alone!" She roars in pure rage. Wow, she sure is pissed off. "That is enough Sol! Did you have any idea of the consequences of what you did today!" A man voice said sternly. "You could of kill Lilith and you would be send off to the Dungeon completely! Did you realize that your actions nearly expose Lilith and harm the Grimoire Regalia! Did you realize that you would die again!" Scratch that. This guys sound ever more worst than Sol. Who is he? "What the fuck am I suppose to do then! Dawn didn't see this was coming and so was I! I DID not know that Eve have already left the Dungeon! If Dawn didn't see it then so am I! She was going to kill Lilith in a heartbeat! Tell me Dante, what the ever-loving fuck was I suppose to do! I took the risks and I atone it instead of Lilith! Just leave me the hell alone!" Lilith yells back.
Her voice was deep and pure with wrath but Lilith could have sworn that she could feel... Sadness too. But it was masterly hidden. "Stop it both of you" Another man voice interrupts them. "Who die make you leader Fenrir!" Sol sneer. "That is extremely not cool Sol! You need to extremely calm down!" Now a woman voice advises her. "Calm down? How the flying fuck am I suppose to calm down! You bastards ambushed me while I was resting damn it! If that wasn't enough you interrogate me! How dare you! Why is that whenever I try to do something good it always backfire at me!Is it because it goes against my purpose?" Sol howls furiously. No respond. "I know that you're very upset Sol but please calm down! If you can't control your emotion then you'll surely be drag back to the Dungeon!" A new woman voice spoke up, trying to sooth the barely controllable woman. Sol shut her mouth somehow. "We don't blame you for what you did earlier Sol" A man voice assure her quietly.
"None of saw that Eve had escapes from the Dungeon. It's just that, it was scary that the first person to be assault was you. Of all of us, it had been you. I'm sure you know what you will do next; Regardless that you don't have a body" He finish. "What about you Remillia? Aren't you gonna yell or lecture me too?" Sol said mockingly. "I have no desire to upset you even further Sol. You are my friend, as well as one of my sisters. What done is done; Changing it would put Dawn on a risk. All I ask you is to be patient. Please Sol, don't go after the rest" The woman, Remillia pleaded her. Sol didn't reply. Lilith was worry about her patron. Why are they treating her badly? Aren't they supposed to be her family? "Sol, I'm so sorry that I yell –"SLAP! The sound of a hand slapping away another hand could be heard clearly. "Don't touch me!" Sol hissed. "I am sick of looking at your face!" Lilith could hear that Sol was rummaging her pocket for something. All of the sudden the atmosphere turn cold and sharp like a guillotine blade hanging above Lilith's head. The sound of weapon being immediately drawn out echo around Lilith.
"Don't do it Solvestress. Please don't let it be like this again" A woman voice said with a mix of tone in her voice. Serious, calm and pain. "Don't do this to yourself. To your family. I beg you" Lilith heart skip a beat. Were they going to fight with one another? "Put your box weapon away Sol. This isn't worth it. Let's talk this over calmly" Fenrir adds in. Seconds pass to minutes. It was dead quiet. After what is seems hours, Lilith heard a man sigh. "She left..." "It's my fault. I shouldn't have yelled at her. She's in pain due to the fight. I should have known her reason for putting the pain onto herself; She was protecting Lilith's situation..." Dante grief. "It can't be help. We know that you were so worried when she fought with Eve. You were afraid that Sol would fall into the Dungeon so soon" A woman said softly. "I don't know what to do Roze. She is reverting to her old self as the day passes. I-I can't bear that happening. I fear that I cannot fight her when that day has arrived. My eternal jewel..." Dante sounded so heartbroken and in tremendous pain.
Did something happen between them? The voices finally quiet down; Leaving Lilith with one emotion. Pain. A foreign pain. It must be Sol's. Where ever she is. So now Lilith finally knew her family name. Grimoire Regalia. A strange name though. Lilith woke up after a short while in the evening. The pain still lingers in her heart. She decides to stretch her legs around the mansion for a while. Lilith spend the rest of her remaining day just thinking about Sol. That was pretty intense... I hope she is alright... Was it really that bad that they fought with Eve? Like Sol had said, neither of them sees her ambush. It was sudden but why did they blame Sol like she was at fault? When night falls, Lilith went straight to bed after dinner. Lilith was a surprise to see Sol infront of her. "Judging from your expression I'm guessing that you heard everything?" She question calmly. Lilith nods her head in shame. "... I'm sorry" Lilith murmured. Sol sighs in exhaustion. "Don't sweat it. It's not your problem anyway" Lilith couldn't see Sol's expression from the thick black veil. "What are they gonna do now?" Lilith couldn't help but ask. "Simple; They're planning to force me into a comatose state sleep until they have some use of me" Sol snorted. Lilith widen her eyes with disbelieve.
What the hell! How could they! Sol sense Lilith's anger and couldn't help but smile the tiniest. "Don't feel sorry for me Lilith. There are others who deserve your compassion" Sol said. "But they are your family! How dare they do that! Just because we fought Eve? Is it really such an unforgivable act!" Lilith growl hatefully. Sol shook her head. "That's not the problem Lilith. It's because how I acted last time. You have no idea what kind of demon I am; What I did and what I am capable of... None of them can forget it" Sol explains slowly. Her hands were claps on her laps, as if she was in regret. "That is who I am and nothing is going to change it I'm afraid" Lilith wasn't sure how to respond to that. She barely knows Sol. So she didn't know how to console her "Like I said earlier this morning, I promise to try my best to explain things in a way I can. So I will answer your question about today's unexpected... Event" Sol reminds her. Lilith admires how Sol composes herself. She could still feel her rage but at the same time, she tries to be civil and professional when talking to her. "So fire away then little macaroon~" Another about her voice.
Even when she's furious, Lilith notice that her voice never loses the lyrical tone in it. "What is the Grimoire Regalia?" She asks bluntly. Sol places a finger on her chin tilting her head slightly. "That's the name of our family and the symbol is the ring that we gave you. Try as you may, there is very little information about us because we keep to ourselves very closely" "Can't you just speak directly for once!" Lilith clicks her tongue in annoyance. "But where's the fun in that? If you're truly curious then I suggest you bring the Sin and the Vongola XI to Vindicare prison!" She explains cheerfully. Lilith's jaw drop uncharacteristically. "Are you insane! The Vindicare? What the fuck have they got to do with this!" She yells. "Simple; It's because the Grimoire Regalia and the Vindicare agree to sign a peace treaty. They also hold a vast amount of information about us; Well, what aren't secrets anyway since we allow them. But they are not our ally. If you really want to know, just light my ring using my flame and a Vindicare would come and collect you guys!"
Lilith stares absurdly at the woman infront of her. They way how she tells it was as if she told her to give herself up to the Vindicare! But wait. Sol never kid about anything; A dawn information grasp her. Just how strong is her family if the Vindicare themselves sign a peace treaty with them? The curiosity is gnawing her terribly. She's a homicidal not suicidal. "I am bind by a lot of things Lilith. But just this once I'm gonna bend the rules a little~" She sang. "I'll think about it. Now tell me who or what is Eve?" Lilith asks. Sol didn't answer straight away. She could feel Sol's anger boiling in her heart again. Sol controls her anger before she was certain that she wouldn't lash out on her own herald. "Eve is a resident of the Dungeon. She is... Similar to my situation. She is my burden that I have discarded a long, long time ago" Sol explains in a low growl. "Burden?" Lilith prompts. "Yup... I explain further as time moves on. It wouldn't do any good with your brain anyway if I tell you everything now" Sol's tone turn playfully now. Lilith face palm. So much for making sense. "If we went to Vindice will we understand about the Grimoire Regalia better?" Lilith got up and turns to away from the woman. "Who knows? Isn't it better to learn something rather than stay in ignorance?" Sol asks the young girl. Lilith didn't reply because she had left from the throne hall to bring the Sin and Vongola XI for a short field trip.
Ever on and on I continue circling
With nothing but my hate in a carousel of agony
Till slowly I forget and my heart starts vanishing
And suddenly I see that I can't break free-I'm
Slipping through the cracks of a dark eternity
With nothing but my pain and the paralyzing agony
To tell me who I am, who I was
Uncertainty enveloping my mind
Till I can't break free, and
Maybe it's a dream; maybe nothing else is real
But it wouldn't mean a thing if I told you how I feel
So I'm tired of all the pain, of the misery inside
And I wish that I could live feeling nothing but the night
You can tell me what to say; you can tell me where to go
But I doubt that I would care, and my heart would never know
If I make another move there'll be no more turning back
Because everything will change, and it all will fade to black
If I make another move, if I take another step
Then it all would fall apart. There'd be nothing of me left
If I'm crying in the wind, if I'm crying in the night
Will there ever be a way? Will my heart return to white?
Can you tell me who you are? Can you tell me where I am?I've forgotten how to see; I've forgotten if I can
If I opened up my eyes there'd be no more going back
'Cause I'd throw it all away, and it all would fade to black
A/N - Was the intense or what? XD Looks like Sol is a black sheep in her family. So how was it? I use the song Bad Apple from Touhou. An-all-girls-anime game. It's really cool and I thought that I suited for Lilith and Sol lives.
The Vindicare is known as a penitentiary that has a reputation for being inescapable; They also protects the laws of the Mafia World. They are never hesitate to capture anyone who go against that law. An infamous organization that no one dare to wage war against. But what made they become neutral with the Grimoire Regalia? That isn't important right. What's more important is how the hell is Lilith suppose to go to Vindicare with the rest of her friends without their parents finding out?