Chapter 5
'I forgot how bright it is here.' I thought to myself, as I squinted into the bright sky of Azarath. I wasn't actually in Azarath, it was my soul self, my physical form was in still the Titans Tower. Continuing down the path of the road, I noticed how empty and abandoned it felt, I don't blame the people of Azarath for leaving. With a demon ruler like Trigon, I'd leave in a heartbeat.
"What are you doing here, young one?" a soft voice behind me said. My heart raced as I whirled around and sighed at the sight of my mother.
"Arella." I sighed in relief. My mother stood there in her white cloak with a dove perched on her hand, she had the same violet hair, but more realistic skin. Not a deadly grey like mine, but I am half demon. "I need your help." I said, taking a unsteady step towards her.
"You lost control didn't you." she stated, dully. My eyes dropped to my feet and I gave a small nod. "I assume it was this boy I heard about? Malchior." My insides cringed at the sound of his name, the way my mother spat out his name.
"Yes." I answered, with a heavy tone.
"They're gone." she said, and I looked up at her puzzled. "Your emotions- your powers- they're gone." That made my blood run cold and dry, I was aware that my powers might be gone but hearing it confirmed, hurts.
"How do I get them back?" I asked.
"You must earn them." she answered, while petting the white bird. "You gave into your feelings- you gave into fear- letting them be released along with your powers. You need to accept your emotions, become one with them, before you can get your powers back."
"Accept my emotions?" I repeated. "You mean take them on?" I asked, in surprise, "That can be extremely dangerous."
"Yes, but one by one you must become an emotion, to feel and be that emotion before they can be a piece of you." she explained, her eyes moved up to connect with mine, in a dull sad way.
"I can't do that!" I cried, and stepped towards her. "My emotions are too wild and out of hand for me to be them. Rage can tear down the whole city! There has to be another way!" I cried.
"The monks taught you how to control yourself, Raven, and you let some silly boy destroy it all." she snapped, causing me to shrink back. "You knew very well that boy was up to no good, and you let him in." she paused, and I felt her eyes boring into me. "I thought we had taught you better than this."
"You?" I whispered, and looked up at her. "You gave me away, mother." I whispered, and ignored the tug at my heart. "You gave me to the monks of Azarath so they can handle the half demon girl, you wanted nothing to do with me and yet you insist on talking about love love to me?" Tears poured into my eyes, but I kept a steady ground and looked at my mother in pain. "I let him in because I thought maybe someone liked me for me. For once, someone wasn't afraid of me." My words hung in the air, and the bird flew away as my mother stepped towards me.
"Raven." she whispered, but I shook my head and took a step back.
"Send me back." I demanded. The silence rang on and I looked up at my mother with sadness. "Send me back." With one last look of guilt I felt my my heart begin to race and the familiar heat returned to the base of my neck till I was engulfed in a bright light.
I gasped as I returned into my physical form, sitting straight up in the bed, sweat building up on my forehead as my heart continued to race.
"Raven!" Robin called, jumping to his feet from a chair he was seated in. "Beast Boy get Cyborg."
"On it!" the green changeling called, as he ran out the door. Little gasps made their way out of my mouth as tears continued to collect in my eyes, and my fingers clutched the bed sheets.
"Rae?" Robin asked, gently, sitting in front of me on my bed. He grabbed my shoulders, directing my gaze to him. "It's me, can you tell me what happened?" My wet eyes shifted over to our worried leader, and the small gasps began to turn into the beginnings of a sob. "Hey, hey, hey." he cooed, and pulled me into his arms, where the tears unleashed.
"They're gone, Robin," I cried, clutching to his shirt that I was soaking with my tears. "Everything, my emotions, my powers." I clenched my eyes shut, praying that it was just an awful nightmare and I would soon wake up.
"How can you get them back?" he asked. "There has to be a way." he said, while rubbing patterns into my back.
"To become each of my emotions." I croaked, numbly as the tears subsided. "One by one, embrace every one of my emotions and get them back to Nevermore, restore the balance, and I'll get my powers back."
"Like the time you needed to accept your fear?" he questioned. I gave a small worthless nod. Pulling me back, Robin's gloved hand pulled my chin up, where our eyes connected. "We'll do it."
"How?" I whispered, "Between the crimes in Jump and Slade on our backs it'll take months." I pointed out. "I can't even protect the city anymore, I'm not even a Titan." I said, almost on the brink of a break down. Me, Raven, about to have a meltdown.
"Don't say that." Robin snapped, for the second time today. "You will always be a Titan, powers or not." I suppressed the urge to argue any further and placed my forehead on his shoulder, feeling his arms wrap around me, protectively. "We'll get through this." he said, strongly.
I sure hope so.
Heyyy everyone I hoped you enjoyed the chapter! I have a question which I would like you guys to answer if you can! So as you know I don't really plan out my story it just kind of happens but I've been comments about Red X and Robin, can I get your guys opinion on what you want? Robin and Raven or Raven and Red X? Also what do you guys want out of this? i want you guys to be happy and comfortable so tell me! i'm not sure which way you guys want me to go but I want you guys happy and I'm fine with anything :) so please respond and I'll se you next time!
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