Ahh. I haven't updated in forever. Sorry. School is a jerk. But summer is coming up in a month for me! Though i still probably won't update much because I'm moving in the summer.
But anways, I hope you enjoy this chapter. It's not the last C;
Oh and sorry for all my mistakes and stuff. It's unintentional. I'm just a bad writer.
Disclaimer: I do not own Gakuen Alice.
"Mikan," A voice said," I don't need you. I have Luna." Mikan looked frantically at the person who had the voice. It was Natsume. He was walking away from her, his arm looped around Luna's shoulder.
"Natsume!" she cried pitifully," Don't leave me. Please!" She tried to run after him but he only seemed to be getting farther until he completely disappeared.
She jerked awake with tears in her eyes as she had just awoken from a nightmare. She looked around to see where she was and her eyes landed by the figure beside her. It was Natsume. Their bodies were entangled in a large blanket on her living room couch and she recollected the night before.
Do you really love Luna?
Yeah, I do.
She held her hands to her heart and smiled a small smile. She knew he would say that. And here she was, still loving him. Still crying for him. She looked at Natsume again. She had to give up on him. She knew it. He wasn't ever going to love her like he loved Luna so it was best for her to save her tears. She's been crying for too long. And time was soon going to be up.
She held a silent cry as she jerked forward clutching her chest. Her breathing was shallow and new tears were forming in her eyes. The pain was excruciating.
"One kiss and I'll give up." She whispered to herself. She moved her hands to softly cup his face, ignoring the pain that seemed to be growing in her chest. Slowly, she brought her lips to his, savoring his soft lips and crying the tears she couldn't seem to hold back.
Feeling something wet on his face, Natsume's eyes fluttered open. His eyes widened in shock as he felt Mikan's lips on his. With lighting reflex, he shoved her away and she her back made contact with the coffee table.
"What the hell Mikan?" he yelled angrily at her," What was that?" He took his sleeve and wiped his lips, trying to get her lingering taste off of him.
In a soft voice, she mumbled," I love you Natsume." She had to tell him, before it was too late. She watched as a mix of emotions cross his face. Surprise, pity, anger, and lastly…disgust.
"Are you crazy? Love me? You can't love me Mikan. We're best friends. We can't be in love," his chest rose and fell in anger. She stood up and felt an ache in her back, but chose to ignore it. "I love Luna and you know it. God damn it Mikan. Why the hell would you do that? It makes it seem like I cheated on her now. And with someone like you!"
"I'm sorry Natsume, but I really do love you," she looked at him with teary eyes. His face contorted in disgust.
"You are a failure as a friend," and with that, he stormed out. And he failed to notice a brunette haired women walk past him.
She held her knees close to her body.
And with someone like you!
She repeated those words in her head repeatedly. Someone like her? Was she really that bad of a person?
Failure as a friend.
She was wasn't she? Natsume must have hated her now. She laughed a heartless laugh at the thought. It wouldn't matter, she'd be gone soon anyways. The throbbing in her chest came back once again. The pain seemed to be engulfing her as she screamed a horrid, high-pitched scream. She arched her back and clutched her chest harder, somehow hoping it would ease the pain that was taking over her body.
"Mikan!" a voice yelled. It was a familiar voice. One she had missed dearly.
"Mom?" she muttered, before she met with the darkness.
He ran his fingers through his hair in frustration. What was that? Why did Mikan kiss him? And why did he feel warm inside thinking about it?
"This is wrong," he yelled at himself," you're dating Luna. You can't be cheating on her with your best friend! You cute, little, nerdy best friend of all people. Gosh, dang it." He face-palmed and sighed with confusion.
"Since when did she start feeling this way?" he began to wonder. Then he realized that the commotion last night, she was crying over him.
Ring. Ring. Ring.
He felt his phone vibrate in his pocket and looked to see who it was. Luna.
"Hey babe," he said, though he felt guilty and comfortable talking her at the moment.
"Hey Natsume, we're taking a week trip to Hokkaido tomorrow and I was wondering it you'd want to join me?" A one week trip? That sounded nice to him. He wanted to get away from all this confusion and most of all, he wanted to get away from Mikan. But being with the girl he loved on the trip was a plus.
Hokkaido here he comes.
Beep. Beep. Beep.
Mikan forced her eyes open to look at the machine that was making the irritating beeping noise she knew too well. Her vision came in focus only to see herself in a white room and her beloved mom at her side.
"Mikan baby?" her soothing voice sounded like it came from heaven.
"Hmm. Hi mommy." She felt her heart throbbing with the same pain as before, but not as painful.
"Are you an idiot?" she heard her mom suddenly yell with tears in her eyes," You almost died, you know that? Why did you stop taking your medicine?" Mikan chuckled softly. She's only been with her mom for a little while and she was already getting scolded. "Mikan," she started again," your cancer is at a dangerous stage now. You have to come and live with me and your dad in Houston. They have a good medical center. They can help you. Please baby, I don't want to have to worry about this anymore. You've put off your treatment for 3 years. Doctors say it's a miracle you're still alive."
"I know," she said breathlessly. It was her time to go. She put off her treatment too long and she was going to die soon. She's been battling with heart cancer for 4 years and refused to get treatment because it was too far. Too far away from Natsume. She begged her parents to let her live by herself in order to be by him. Because it was thousands of miles away and she just couldn't bear the thought of being so far away from him, but now she didn't have a choice. And it's not like he cared for her anymore anyways. She was a failure as a friend. "When should we leave?"
She watched as a smile spread across her mom's face. "How about tonight baby?" Tonight. That was so sudden. She had to say goodbye first. One last goodbye to Natsume and she had to get it through to him whether she liked it or not.
"Mom, can I leave for an hour?" she glanced at the clock which read 5 o'clock," to say goodbye?" Her mom nodded, knowing Mikan would want to say bye to the one she loved.
"The plane leaves at 7:45. I'll pack some of your necessities. It's going to be a long flight."
He was ready to go. He was packed for the trip and was more than ready to get away. Suddenly, he heard a knock on his front door and his mom yelling him to come get it. He rushed down the stairs and flung the door open hoping it would be Luna or Ruka. Instead, he came face to face with Mikan.
He could feel his face twist with confusion and slight disgust. He looked at her. She was wearing a dress with a large overcoat and a scarf that covered her nose. Her cheeks were flushed red and that's when he suddenly noticed how cute she was just then.
"Natsume,' she cried out softly," can I talk to you for a second?" Pause. Should he? Would he be able to face his failure of a friend. He stepped out and closed his door behind him. He looked down uncomfortably and murmured," Hurry up."
She coughed and started," I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being a failure as a friend. I'm sorry for kissing you. I'm sorry for making you feel like you probably cheated on Luna. And I'm sorry for loving you." He was silent still, not making any eye contact with her and she smiled.
"I promise I won't ever do something like that again. I know how uncomfortable that must have felt: being kissed by your best friend," a hoarse laugh escaped her pale, chapped lips. "I promise I'll stay away. Just do one thing for me…" he rose his head to finally look at her.
"Please hold me just this once." It was a plea. He could hear it in his voice and in all of the years knowing her, his heart never stirred like this for her. He looked at her watery eyes and her guilty, sad smile. And unconsciously, he opened his arms. She stepped into them and they held onto each other tightly. He felt a warm sensation travel through his chest. Different the one he felt when Luna confessed to him. Different from the one he had when he held Luna. It was warm, inviting, and he felt like he never wanted to let go.
They stood in that position for what seemed like eternity until she finally stepped back. She smiled a cheerful smile at him but he watched with sorrow as tears slid down her face.
"Thank you for doing that for me," she suddenly winced in pain but quickly smiled again. "Goodbye, Natsume."
And this time, he didn't fail to notice that she said "Goodbye" instead of "Goodnight". For some reason, he felt like he would never see her again. He brushed it off though. What a strange feeling he couldn't help but think.
Of course he wouldn't know that it was the last time he was ever going to see her again. He was now focused on his trip again. The trip and Luna.
He hugged her. Even though she was a failure as a friend, he still hugged her.
"Time to go Mikan," her mom called after her. They boarded on a special airplane that was similar to a mini hospital. Just in case.
"Goodbye Natsume. I love you." She turned toward the plane and walked forward, knowing she would never come back again.
Goodbye Natsume.
Holy crap. I love sad stories. I think that's why I end up writing them. But did you expect that? I hope not. Ahaha. This chapter is quite long for someone like me so I'm kind of proud. Not really. I plan to start writing longer chapters if it's possible. :3
Oh! If you're reading my other stories, such as Shouldn't Have, please leave reviews so I can update that one too. Shouldn't Have is updated from the reviews remember!
I just felt like writing this chapter because I was reading sad mangas and just was loving it. My fingers were itching to write something mildly sad. I hope you enjoyed this chapter!
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