Before I begin rambling about what I feel you should know, I want to thank each and every one of you that reads this. So, from the bottom of my heart, thank you!
I'd like to especially thank my inspiration, my friend Aaliyah, who through ups and downs, has always been there for me. Also two wonderful people I met on Twitter a few weeks ago, Trisha and Taylor. They are the owners of an amazing Klaine role play (kurtiehummel15 and blainey_baby)
It's recently become more real to me of how many people there are out there everyday who actually think of committing suicide (you'd be surprised by some of the things that you find out from owning an army on twitter lol) I just want to tell anyone that reads this who does think about it, that you are not alone and that there is still hope in this godforsaken world. And that no matter how bad things get, there will always be someone there for you, weather it's on twitter or a friend near you. You'd be truly surprised at how many people there are out there somewhere on twitter or wherever that will talk to you and help you through whatever it is you're going through. This is a huge world, never feel that you're alone, because you're not... You'll never be alone...
That's just something I felt I needed to say after writing this chapter, which was a lot harder to write than the last one.
Thanks again for reading, and please please please hit the review button and tell me what you think! Enjoy!
(I do NOT own Glee, if I did, it would not have the ratings that it does) :)
Together We Are
Chapter 6
Letters to Blaine
"What do we do about this?" Nick asked quietly.
"I don't know." Jeff answered.
"He hasn't gotten up in two days. He hasn't said anything in a week. And I don't even know the last time he ate."
The two boys found themselves, once again, outside of Blaine's door. He was curled up on his bed, just like he had been when they checked on him a few hours ago, and the day before.
"Its almost summer, maybe the beach house will help him." Nick said.
"I don't think anything will help him right now." Jeff answered quietly.
They stood in silence for a long minute, until Jeff decided to go talk to him.
He opened the door a little more and stepped in. He walked over to the bed and sat down.
"Blaine?" He whispered. He placed his hand on his arm. He could hear him crying quietly and started rubbing circles on his back.
Jeff could feel Blaine slowly relaxing under his touch.
"Jeff?" Blaine whispered.
"I'm here Blaine." Jeff replied.
"Tell me this isn't happening. Tell me this is all a dream." Blaine said.
Jeff sighed. "I can't Blaine, I wish I could though."
Blaine leaned into Jeff's hand more as he said this.
"Come downstairs with me Blaine. Please?" Jeff asked.
Blaine ignored him. He didn't want to get up. He didn't want to do anything but lay there in his bed.
"Blaine, you haven't come downstairs all weekend." Jeff said.
Blaine thought about it for a moment. And then he slowly sat up.
"Come on." Jeff said quietly. He gently pulled Blaine off the bed and they walked downstairs to their living room.
Nick smiled at Blaine as they walked in.
Blaine looked back at Nick, he wasn't smiling at him, but he wasn't crying anymore either. Jeff saw that as an improvement.
"Let's go downstairs and find some food for you." Jeff said, pulling Blaine to the door.
Blaine let Jeff pull him along. They got downstairs and Jeff made him sit down at the table in the kitchen while he went to get him some food.
Nick sat down across from him.
"How do you feel?" Nick asked Blaine.
"Fantastic." Blaine answered dully, glaring at his friend.
Nick looked at him sympathetically. He opened his mouth to say something, when Jeff started yelling at Wes.
"Wes! Stop! No, don't put that in-" He was cut off by an explosion.
Nick quickly turned around to see that it was the microwave that exploded. It was on fire and he ran to get the fire extinguisher.
After the fire was gone, Nick turned to Wes.
He took a deep breath before saying, "Wes, how many times have we told you not to put popcorn in this microwave?"
Wes looked down at the floor. "I-I don't know. A lot." He answered slowly.
"Well then don't! Not that it's a problem anymore seeing as it blew up this time!" Nick shouted.
"Chill out Nick." Jeff said. "Lay off of him."
Nick took another deep breath. "You're right, sorry Wes."
"What the hell just happened?" Said David, running in followed by half of the rest of the boys.
"The microwave blew up. It was actually kind of entertaining." Blaine answered.
"Oh, well if thats all..." David said sarcastically. And then turned around and left.
Jeff sighed. "Alright, well Blaine, what do you want to eat?" He asked.
"I don't really care." Blaine answered quietly.
"I think Cam is grilling burgers out back." Wes said.
"Well, I'll go check." Jeff said, walking out of the room, with Wes following behind, trying to escape Nick's wrath he knew would come down on him if he stayed.
"Who's Cam?" Blaine asked.
"He lives right above you, he's a junior. His dad is a chef, so he loves to cook."
"Why have I never seen him before?" Blaine asked.
"I'm sure you have. But he spends a lot of his time in his kitchen upstairs, I don't think he likes us too much." Nick said.
Blaine didn't respond this time. They just sat in silence until a tall brown haired boy came in, carrying a plate of burgers, with Jeff and Wes trailing behind him.
Nick got up and walked over to them. "That looks and smells delicious." He said, breathing in.
"Well thank you." Cam answered. Then he looked in Blaine's direction. "Hi Blaine, I'm Cameron." He said, walking up to him. "We haven't officially met yet."
"Well now we have." Blaine said, with a slight smile on his face that fooled no one.
Cam nodded to him before walking back to the food.
Blaine got up and got his food, and they all sat down at the table just seconds before the rest of the boys came in to get some.
A few minutes later, all the boys had finished their food and Blaine got up to go back to his room.
"Hey Blaine, wait up." Cam called.
Blaine turned around, waiting for the boy following him.
"Why don't you come to campfire tonight. Just like your first night." Cam suggested.
"You were there?" Blaine asked.
"Yeah, I wouldn't expect you to remember that. I know what it's like. It was your first day, all the faces were mixing together. It's a lot to take in." Cam said.
Blaine nodded. "I guess I'll come."
Cam smiled. "Good."
Blaine turned and walked up the stairs, just as Jeff walked up behind Cam.
"Is he coming?" Jeff asked.
"Yep." Cam answered.
"Thanks."
Cam just nodded. "It doesn't change anything though."
"Cam, please." Jeff said quietly.
"No Jeff! You didn't believe me. I tried to tell you this would happen. I know him Jeff. I've known him for a long time. I know how he works. And it hurts that you didn't do the one thing I asked you to." Cam said harshly.
Jeff stared at him for a moment. "I'm sorry Cam. Just, please, let's end this."
Cam let out a laugh and shook his head. "No Jeff, I-I can't."
Jeff was still staring at him, and he could tell that when he said he was hurt, he meant it. He watched as Cam walked up the stairs and around the corner.
"He's still mad isn't he?" Nick asked, walking up behind his boyfriend.
"Yeah, he is." Jeff said quietly.
Nick took his hand. "Hey." He said, trying to get his attention again.
Jeff looked down at him.
"It's okay." Nick said.
Jeff nodded and smiled at him.
Nick pulled him into a tight hug. "Come on." He said. "Let's go help clean up."
"Alright." Jeff said, letting Nick pull him back to the kitchen.
Cameron was standing at the top of the stairs, watching the two of them from around the corner.
"Why is it that you're still angry at them?" Asked a voice behind him.
"Because they didn't listen." Cameron hissed. "I warned them! He told me that the only person that he would ever love is Michael. He said nothing would change that. He may have loved Blaine, but not the way he loved Michael, and certainly not the way Blaine loved him. Blue used him. He used him to try to let go of Michael, which obviously didn't work." Cameron explained.
"But I still don't understand why you're mad."
"Because they let it go on Brian. They didn't care what I had to say. I told them over and over again that he wasn't acting right, that something was off, but they didn't listen. They said that I was just making things up. Just like they said I was making up things about Sebastian." Cam finished quietly.
"And now he's killed one person and put another in a comma." Brian whispered.
"And they still didn't listen." Cam said.
"Just let it go Cam."
"I'm trying to. It's not working. They were my best friends. I can't just forget that."
"I'm not telling you to let go of them. I'm telling you to let go of Blue. He's gone, he's not coming back. Forgive them Cam." Brian said slowly.
Cameron stared down at the kitchen and watched as Nick and Jeff started throwing soap at each other and giggling.
"Maybe you're right." Cam finally said.
Brian nodded. "Come on, let's get ready for campfire."
The two boys then turned, and walked upstairs.
An hour later Blaine heard a soft knock on his door.
"Come in." He said hoarsely.
Nick peeked his head in. "You ready?"
"Yeah."
"Let's go." Nick said, smiling at him.
Blaine didn't even try to smile back at him, he just followed behind quietly.
When they got downstairs Blaine noticed that there weren't as many boys as there usually were.
"Hi Blaine." Said Cam, walking up to them, completely ignoring Nick.
"It's Cameron right?" Blaine asked.
"Yeah, you can call me Cam though."
Blaine halfway smiled at him.
Cam was a little surprised at this, but smiled back. "Come sit with us Blaine."
"Alright, Nick come on." Blaine said, trying to pull Nick with him.
Nick wouldn't move. "Blaine, I don't think that's a good-"
"No, it's okay Nick, you and Jeff should come too." Cam said, smiling softly at Nick.
Nick was a little nervous, but Cameron wasn't like Sebastian, and he had to remember that.
"Okay." He said to Cameron, and then to Jeff, "Let's sit over here."
Jeff looked a little confused, but didn't question him. They trusted each other, and if Nick thought it was okay, then he didn't care.
They all sat down together, right across from where they sat with Blue Blaine's first night and every other night they came.
"Blaine, this is Brian." He said gesturing to a short blonde haired boy.
"Hi." Brian said, smiling.
Blaine smiled back a halfway convincing smile.
He watched as a tall boy with black hair sat down in the place where Blue would have usually sat.
"Who's that?" Blaine whispered to Jeff, who was now sitting next to him.
"Douglas. He, uh, took over Blue's spot as head of Simul." Jeff said slowly.
Blaine looked away from Jeff trying to hold back tears.
Jeff, seeing the look on him face, put a hand on his shoulder. "Hey." He whispered. "It's alright."
Blaine smiled up at him, but then looked away again.
"Alright guys." Douglas said. "Does somebody want to start?"
No one said anything.
Blaine couldn't tell if it was just because they didn't have anything to say, or because they didn't want to say it to Douglas.
"I will." Blaine said after a few quiet moments.
Douglas looked over at him and smiled "It's Blaine right?" He asked.
Blaine nodded at him.
"Go ahead Blaine."
He looked down for a moment, and then said, "I'm really worried about Dan."
Everyone looked around at each other.
"We all are Blaine." Douglas said.
"Oh come on Douglas. We don't need your bullshit!" Jeff yelled at him, making Blaine jump a little.
All eyes turned to Jeff.
"I don't know what you're talking about." Douglas said calmly.
"You sure as hell know what I'm talking about! You were his friend! You were his friend through every piece of shit he put us through! You helped him every step of the way! And now you have the nerve to say that you're worried about Dan! He caused this Douglas! And I wouldn't be surprised if you had something to do with it too!" Jeff was on his feet now, and he was screaming.
The rest of the room was staring open mouthed at the two of them.
"Jeff, what are you talking about?" Blaine asked quietly.
"Sebastian." Jeff answered simply. "He was his friend. I'm sure he still is too. He helped him torture all of us for the past two years. And now he's telling us that he's worried about one of his victims." He was trying to calm himself down now.
"Jeff, stop." Said Nick, walking up behind his boyfriend.
"Why? This is his fault! I can't sit here and listen to this!" Jeff shouted.
"Shh. Come on." Said Nick, pulling Jeff towards the stairs.
Blaine got up and walked to Nick, then he turned to look at Cameron and then back to Nick and Jeff.
Cameron's eyes were wide and his mouth opened. But he got up and walked to where Nick was trying to get Jeff away from Douglas. He placed a hand on Jeff's shoulder.
"Stop Jeff."
Jeff immediately stopped trying to get away from Nick and he turned to look at Cam.
"Let's go upstairs." He whispered.
Jeff followed Cam to the stairs, with Nick and Blaine following behind them.
Blaine stopped right before he got to the stairs. He turned around and walked back to Douglas.
"You bastard." He whispered, and then slapped him.
Blaine simply turned around and walked back to Nick, who put his arm around his shoulders and led him upstairs with the other two boys.
Douglas just sat there, staring after them.
"Is that true?" David whispered to Douglas, scaring him.
When he didn't answer David got up and walked upstairs, followed by Trent and then Brian. After a few moments all the boys had gone upstairs and Douglas was left alone.
"What was that?" Nick asked Blaine as they walked around the corner.
"I don't know. But it felt good." He replied.
Nick laughed a little. "I would imagine so." Then he turned to Jeff. "Hey, are you alright?"
He had tears streaming down his face. He didn't answer Nick, he just kept walking.
They got back to the room and Jeff walked straight up the stairs, with Nick following behind him.
Blaine looked at Cam, who was still standing in the doorway.
"You can come in." Blaine said, and then cringed when he heard a door slam upstairs.
They stood in silence for a moment.
"How are you?" Cam asked.
"Fantastic." Blaine answered.
"Seriously Blaine. Please don't say that. I know what it's like to have someone just walk out of your life. His sister did the same thing to me." Cam said slowly.
"I didn't know he had a sister." Blaine said. "In fact, I don't know much about him at all."
"Yeah, he never really told anyone about himself. The only reason I know a lot about him is because of Paige."
"That's his sister I take it." Blaine said.
"Yeah. She was the best thing that happened to me. Until she left. She didn't even have a very good reason. She just said she needed to get out of there, to be free of all the drama." He looked up at the ceiling.
"Where is 'there'?" Blaine asked.
"New York. That's where I lived before I moved here. And Blue just happened to move here at the same time."
"Why did he move here?" Blaine questioned.
"He, well they, have been on 'the run' if you will, from their parents for a while. They move to different states and enroll in different schools. He was here longer than anywhere else." Cameron finished the sentence quietly.
"And why is that?"
Cameron looked at him for a moment before answering. "For Michael. He fell in love with him. I could tell by the way he looked at him. By the way they both looked at each other. He told me he would never love anyone else. Ever."
"So he lied to me?" Blaine asked, sounding a little hurt.
"I think he did love you Blaine. But no where close to how much he loved Michael. I hate to tell you that, but its true. Someone should have told you that a long time ago." Cam said.
A tear slid down Blaine's face. And he looked away from his new friend.
"You should um, probly go." Blaine said.
"Right." Cam said, turning to the door. "I'm truly sorry Blaine."
Blaine nodded. The second the door closed, Blaine collapsed on the couch and started crying. He cried until he finally fell asleep.
"Blaine?" Nick whispered.
Blaine turned over to face the voice that he heard, though he didn't open his eyes.
"Nick?" He asked.
"Yeah, it's me. Did you sleep here all night?"
"Mhm." Blaine said quietly.
"Do you want to go to class today?" Nick asked.
"I guess."
"Then you should get up. You're gonna be late."
"Okay." Blaine said, groaning.
Nick laughed softly, while Blaine just laid there.
"Come on." Nick said, trying to pull Blaine off the couch.
Blaine finally got up and started walking towards the stairs.
"Oh, hey Blaine." Nick called after him.
Blaine turned around with a questioning look on his face.
"This came for you." Nick said, holding out an envelope.
Blaine looked a little confused, but took it anyway.
When he looked at it, he recognized the handwriting. No, he thought, it couldn't be. Then he turned and sprinted up the stairs, leaving Nick staring after him.
He closed his door and sat down on the bed, ripping open the letter, and read what was inside.
"Blaine,
I'm sorry I didn't write sooner, your father has been watching me to make sure I don't.
I'm so sorry this happened sweetie. If I had had any say in it, it wouldn't have. I'm just glad I got you out of there. I'm glad that I saved one son. I think about you both everyday. About how much I regret not trying harder to save Cooper. He didn't deserve what your father did, neither did you. I pray everyday that Cooper is still alive somewhere, and that one day you two will find each other.
I miss you so much. I miss my little boy. I miss the smile on your face, it used to brighten my day. You could light up a whole room with it. I hope you're enjoying where you are now. And I hope you know that I love you so much. I love you so much more than you'll ever understand.
But all it takes it courage. All you need is a touch of courage, and the world is yours. Never forget that...
Love mom."
Tears were streaming down Blaine's face. He folded the paper back up and put it in the envelope. Then he curled up on his bed, cradling the letter against his chest.
A few minutes later, Nick came into his room.
"Hey." Nick said. He then saw that he was crying and walked over to him and sat down on the bed. "You don't have to go to class if you don't want to."
Blaine nodded.
"Jeff's not going to class either. He'll be in his room if you need him."
Blaine just nodded again, and watched as Nick got up and walked out the door.
He laid in his bed, holding the letter, for hours. He finally decided to get up and go find something to eat.
When he got downstairs he saw Jeff sitting on the couch. He was eating chips and watching some stupid cartoon on tv.
"Hey." Blaine said, walking up to him.
Jeff turned around, a little startled. "Hey." He replied quietly.
"Can I join you?" Blaine asked.
Jeff gestured for him to sit.
Blaine sat down next to him, watching him intently.
"What's wrong Jeff?" Blaine asked after a few moments of silence.
Jeff sat there, staring at the floor for a few minutes. "I just hate that people in this school don't see the bad in people. They only see the good. Like, oh hey, Douglas is a great student, he's never gotten a referral, or a bad grade, and he's a senior. Let's just ignore the fact that he's a psychopath's best friend."
"I'm sure they don't look at it that way." Blaine said quietly.
"I know, I just came so close to beating the shit out of him last night, that if I saw him today, I still might." Jeff said.
Blaine nodded.
"So what's wrong with you?" Jeff asked softly.
"I got this letter from my mom this morning." He said pulling it out of his pocket.
Jeff smiled. "What did she say."
Blaine paused for a moment. "She said that she missed me, and she was sorry about what happened, and that she hoped I was enjoying myself here." He was barely speaking when he finished.
Jeff looked at him sympathetically. "You'll be enjoying yourself soon. I promise."
"What are you talking about?" Blaine asked.
"It's almost summer." Jeff said, a small hint of enthusiasm in his voice.
"How will I be enjoying myself? I don't even know where I'm going for the summer." Blaine said sadly.
"You're coming with us to Florida. But only if you want to of course."
Blaine's eye lit up a little. "Of course I want to."
Jeff smiled. "Good."
"Where do we stay?" Blaine questioned, getting excited.
"Well, my parents bought a house on Miami Beach, so that's where we go. And we always take a surprise trip somewhere." Jeff was trying not to seem too happy.
"Wait. Your parents just gave you a house on a beach?" Blaine asked slowly.
The smile vanished from Jeff's face. "Yeah. It-its so I don't come home for the summer." He said quietly.
"Oh." Blaine said. "So how many people do you take?" He asked, trying to cheer Jeff up again.
"Well, the house holds twenty, but we never take that many."
"Wow. Who all goes?"
"Whoever we decide to invite." Jeff said, the happiness coming back to him.
They talked about summer for the rest of the day.
When Nick got home, he found them sitting on the couch laughing, and he couldn't help but smile. Both boys were happy, not thinking about anything but the summer, and that made him happy too.
The next day both Jeff and Blaine went to class, and then to Warblers practice.
"So boys." Kimmy said. "We will be putting on a little show for the school, as usual, in celebration of the end of the school year. So, I need three or four people who want to sing solos and a group number. Any suggestions?"
Everyone started talking at once, but by the end of rehearsal, they had their group number, but only one person had stepped forward to sing a solo.
"So our only soloist is Nick? Come on boys there has to be someone else that wants to do it." Kimmy said.
Blaine looked around before raising his hand and saying, "I'd like to I guess."
Kimmy smiled at him. "Good. So now we have two. Anybody else?"
The room was silent.
"You are all qualified to sing solo. otherwise you wouldn't be here." Kimmy offered.
Jeff raised his hand slowly.
"Do you want to?" Kimmy asked hopefully.
Jeff nodded and smiled a little.
"I will too." Said David softly.
"Great! We have our show. You four will need to pick solos and approve them with me. We'll start rehearsing the group number tomorrow. Now, go home and study boys. Your finals are next week and I expect you all to pass them with flying colors." Kimmy said, waving them towards the door.
Once all the boys were gone a closet door opened on the other side of the room, and a tall dark haired man stepped out.
"Is that him?" Kimmy asked.
"Yes, thats definitely Blaine." He said.
Kimmy smiled. "Good. Are you going to tell him."
The man stood there for a moment. "Not yet. But I will."
Kimmy smiled up at the man that would one day, hopefully be her brother in law.
"I can't believe this! We've never had four soloists before." David said on the way back to Simul.
"Do you not want to do it or something?" Blaine questioned.
"No, of course I want to. I'm just really nervous. I've never sang a solo in front of a crowd, I've never even had a solo line in a song before." David said.
"You'll do fine." Blaine said encouragingly.
"I'm really excited for mine." Jeff said.
"Please tell me what song you're doing Jeff." Nick pleaded.
"I can't Nick." Jeff said, smiling. "But Blaine, I need your help with it."
Blaine smiled. "Sure thing. What do you need?
"Just for you to play guitar and maybe some backup vocals." Jeff said hopefully.
"Yeah, we'll talk about it when we get home." Blaine said.
"Come on Jeff." Nick was begging now.
Jeff and Blaine both giggled a little.
"You'll tell me Blaine, won't you?" Nick asked.
"I don't know, you not knowing is sorta funny." Blaine said, amused.
Nick punched both boys in the arm lightly, which made them both laugh even harder. Then he darted off towards Simul to get out of their reach.
The next few days passed quickly. With all the studying and rehearsing the boys had to do, their schedules were full. And they were all exhausted at the end of the day.
Friday afternoon, they got out of class early, so they all finally had time to themselves.
Blaine decided he would ask Jeff to take him to go see Dan, since he hadn't been to see him in a while.
"Hey Jeff." Blaine called, running after him in the way back home.
"Hey Blaine, what's up?" Jeff asked happily.
"I was just wondering if you could take me to see Dan." Blaine said.
Jeff bit his lip, trying to hide a smile, and Blaine looked at him like he was crazy.
Once Jeff had gotten control of his smile, he said, "I can't Blaine, sorry. But maybe tomorrow."
Blaine just nodded. They walked the rest of the way in silence, until Jeff's phone rang.
"Hey." He said into the phone.
There was a brief pause, and then, "Yeah, he is, and that'll work."
Then he hung up, and put the phone in his pocket.
"So, we're taking a little detour." Jeff said, smiling.
Blaine furrowed his eyebrows, confused. "Why?" He asked.
"Oh you'll see." Jeff answered.
They walked past Simul and headed for the parking lot. When they got there, Jeff stopped and looked around for a moment and then headed for the left side of the lot.
"Jeff what are we-" Blaine started to ask, but he was interrupted.
"Surprise!" Shouted a group of boys, jumping up from behind a small Toyota, with a flag sticking out that said 'Blaine's new car!' on it.
"Oh my god! What is this you guys?" Blaine asked excitedly.
"It's a gift!" Said Nick.
"You guys didn't have to." Blaine said.
"Well, technically, we didn't. We just bought the flag." Jeff replied slowly.
"Where did it come from then?" Blaine questioned.
"Your mom sent it, and Mr. Mike told us to surprise you with it." Nick said quietly.
"My mom?" Blaine asked slowly.
Jeff nodded.
A smile slowly crossed Blaine's face and then he looked to his friends.
"Thanks guys." He said, running to them and hugging them all.
Then he turned to Jeff. "So that's why you said no." A look of realization coming to him.
Jeff laughed and nodded. And then held out a set of keys to him.
Blaine smiled even bigger and took them.
"Alright guys, let's let Blaine try out his new car." Jeff said, still laughing a little.
Blaine watched as all the boys slowly started walking back to Simul.
"You going to the hospital?" Jeff asked.
Blaine nodded.
"Alright, see you when you get back." Jeff said, and then followed the rest of the boys.
Blaine looked at his car again and smiled. "Thanks mom." He said quietly.
When he got to the hospital, he found that Dan had been moved to another room, but he didn't know where.
When he walked up to one of the nurses stations, one of the ladies looked at him and immediately said, "You're one of Dan's friends aren't you?"
"Yeah, how'd you know?" Blaine asked a little surprised.
"The blazer sorta gave it away." She said.
He smiled, and then asked, "Has someone else been to see him?"
"Yeah, I think his name was like Blue or something. He was real cute, tall, darkish hair. You know him?"
Blaine stopped breathing. "Yeah, I know him." He said quietly.
The nurse looked at him funny. "You okay?"
Blaine nodded "Can you just show me where his room is?"
"Sure." She said, though she was still looking at him a little weird. "And what's your name?"
"Blaine." He stated simply.
He had been moved to one of the upper floors where it was quieter. When Blaine walked in, he found flowers and balloons all over the room.
He casually started looking at them, seeing who they were from. He stopped when he found a folded paper with his name on it.
He picked it up and read it.
"Blaine, you should know that I'm sorry. And that I do love you, but as they've all probably told you, I never truly let go of Michael. I always thought that he was the one for me. You know when you just look at someone and think, oh there you are, you're the one, the only one that I'll ever need? That's how I felt about him. And then he was taken from me, the same way my best friend was taken from me.
I am truly sorry. I shouldn't have used you to try to get over him. It was wrong of me and I should have told you from the beginning. That's why I had to leave, to get away from hurting you and everyone else. I'm sorry I let it go on the way I did.
Like I said, I do love you, and there will always be a special place for you in my heart. I believe that one day you'll find the right person for you, and then you can move on too.
I'm really hoping that you'll find this, and understand how much I mean everything I've said. Please forgive me...
Blue"
Blaine sat down in the chair next to Dan's bed. He laid his head down on the bed and let the tears spill over. He had no idea how long he had been sitting there, or when it was that he had fallen asleep.
"Blaine?" Whispered a voice next to his ear.
He sat up a little and found the nurse kneeling on the floor next to him.
She saw his red eyes and tear stained face. "Are you alright?" She asked.
"Yeah." He whispered.
"I was jut going to tell you that visiting hours are over, but if you need to, you can stay." She said quietly.
"No, it's okay." He said, standing up. He realized he was still holding the piece of paper and quickly shoved it into his pocket. He looked at Dan one last time and then followed the nurse out of the room.
When he got back to Dalton, he sat in his car, trying to calm himself down.
A few minutes later, he finally gathered up the courage and walked up to Simul.
When he walked in, they were having campfire. The room got quiet, and all eyes turned to him. He saw that instead of Douglas sitting at the head of the circle, it was a boy that he remembered seeing in Warblers practice, but he didn't remember his name.
Blaine looked back at them all for a moment, and then walked up the stairs. He heard footsteps behind him, but he didn't stop to see who it was.
When he got back to their living room, he realized that it was Nick and Jeff behind him.
He pulled off his blazer and sat down on the couch.
Nick and Jeff just stood at the door quietly.
"Are you alright?" Jeff asked.
Blaine shook his head.
"Do you want to be alone?" He asked.
Blaine once again shook his head.
Jeff slowly walked to the couch, put his arm around Blaine and watched as the tears he was trying so hard to hold in, finally spilled over.
"Hey, what happened?" Jeff asked.
Blaine reached into his pocket and pulled out the letter, then handed it to Jeff.
Jeff took a deep breath and squeezed Blaine's shoulder when he finished reading.
"It's gonna be okay." Jeff whispered after a moment of silence.
Blaine just closed his eyes. After a few minutes he got up.
"I'm going to bed." He said quietly, picking the letter up off the table.
Jeff nodded. "Okay."
Nick and Jeff both watched as Blaine walked up the stairs.
Jeff just sat on the couch, staring into space.
Nick walked over to him and wrapped his arms around Jeff's waist.
"He'll be okay Jeff. He just needs some time." Nick said softly.
"I know."
Nick took Jeff's hand and started rubbing circles on it with his thumb, trying to comfort him.
"Are you alright?" Nick asked.
"I just don't want him to do the same thing Michael did." Jeff replied softly.
Nick gasped a little. "Jeff, why would you even say that?"
"Because he's acting the same way Michael did, right before he-" Jeff couldn't finish his sentence.
"Jeff." Nick whispered softly. "Sebastian pushed him to do it. Theres no one trying to force Blaine to."
"But still. What if he does." Jeff asked, a tear finally spilling over.
Nick squeezed Jeff's hand gently. "We won't let that happen. I promise."
Jeff half way smiled at his boyfriend. Then he leaned down and kissed him softly.
"What brought this on?" Nick asked, now rubbing circles on Jeff's back.
"The letter. It was from Blue. He told him how he never stopped loving Michael. And that everything Blaine thought they had was just Blue trying to get over Michael." Jeff said quietly.
"Didn't he already know that?" Nick asked.
"Yeah, but it's a lot different hearing it from him." Jeff paused. "I know it would be for me."
Nick looked at him for a moment. "I would never do that to you Jeff."
Jeff smiled and kissed him again. "I know." He whispered.
They sat in silence for a moment.
"And next Friday starts summer vacation. So this time next week, we'll be on our way to Florida. And we will do everything we can to make Blaine as happy as possible." Nick said.
"Good." Jeff said, smiling again.
"It's late, we should go to bed." Nick said.
"In a minute." Jeff said.
Nick looked at him a little confused, he tried to ask him what he was talking about, but was interrupted when Jeff leaned down and kissed him with much more emotion than he ever had before.
The next week passed slow. Exam days always ended early, so the boys had lots of spare time on their hands, which was never a good thing.
Blaine went to see Dan every afternoon, since he wouldn't be there for two months. He left his phone number with the nurses and told them to call him immediately if there was any change in his condition.
On Friday, right after he had taken his last exam and he was on his way back to Simul, he almost ran into Jeff, who was running to him.
"Woah. Hey, what's up Jeff?" Blaine asked.
"You need to get to go see Mr. Mike now." Jeff said, panting.
"What? Why?" Blaine asked.
"No time. Let's go." Jeff said. He then grabbed Blaine's hand and ran towards the infirmary.
When they got there Mr. Mike was on the phone, laughing.
When he saw the two of them come in his tone was serious. "He's here." There was a short pause, and then, "Yes, hold on a second."
"What's happening?"Blaine asked, confused.
"There's someone that I think you'll want to talk to Blaine." Mr. Mike said with a smile on his face.
"Okay." Blaine said slowly, as Mr. Mike handed him the phone.
"Hello?" Blaine said nervously.
"Hi Blaine." Said a familiar voice.
Blaine's eyes got wide, and he turned to Jeff and Mr. Mike, with the biggest smile that either of them had ever seen on his face before.
"Mom? Is that really you?" Blaine asked.
"Yes Blaine, it is. How are you?"
"Amazing now." Blaine said, trying not to jump up and down.
He heard her laugh a little. "Did you get my present?"
"Yeah, I did. Thank you so much. It's amazing. I love it."
"I thought you would." He could tell that she was smiling. "Mr. Mike tells me that you're in the Warblers."
"Yeah, I am, we're singing in about an hour. And I'm singing a solo too."
"Really? Gosh, I'm so proud of you sweetie."
Blaine smiled to himself. "Not to be a buzz kill or anything, but how are you talking to me right now? Where's dad?"
"He's with a client. It's the first one he's had in a long time. So I'm home alone."
"Oh, well I'm glad you called. I miss you mom." Blaine said.
"I miss you too. I still can't believe this happened." She said softly.
"I can't either. But the people here are really nice. I've made a lot of friends."
"Anyone whose been more than a friend?" She asked, laughing.
"Yeah actually, but, it didn't turn out too well." Blaine said slowly.
"What happened sweetie."
"He was in love with his last boyfriend, that died a few months ago, and it turns out he just used me." He said quietly.
"I'm sorry honey. Are you alright?"
"Yeah, it's getting better, I guess." He said.
"That's good." She said. "So what are you doing for summer break?"
"I'm going down to Florida with some of the boys in my dorms." He said, the smile coming back to his face.
"I love Florida, you guys will have so much fun. Just don't get into too much trouble."
"Don't worry mom. We won't."
"By the way, I put some money on the debit card I gave you, so you'll have some money when you get down there."
"Thanks, you're awesome." He paused for a moment. "Do you think I'll ever see you again mom?"
She didn't answer right away. "I know you will sweetie. Maybe not soon, but I know that one day we will see each other again."
A tear slid down Blaine's cheek. "Well, I can't wait for that day." He said quietly."
"I can't either."
Neither of them said anything for a moment.
"You probably need to go. You have to get ready for your show later"
"Yeah, I do. Thanks for calling." He said.
"I'll try to call you sometime in the next few months."
"Alright." Blaine said quietly.
"I love you Blaine. Don't ever forget that."
"I love you too."
He heard the phone click on the other end, and he let all the tears spill over and then closed his eyes.
Jeff, who had been standing by the door the whole time, walked up to Blaine and put his arm around him.
"Are you alright?"
Blaine nodded. Then he looked at Mr. Mike. "Thank you. Thank you so much."
Mr. Mike smiled. "No problem."
"Blaine, we have to go. The show starts in forty five minutes." Jeff said.
Blaine nodded, smiled at Mr. Mike one last time and let Jeff pull him out of the building towards the courtyard.
Nick caught up to them on the way there. "Hey. Where have you been? Everybody's been looking for you two."
"Sorry, his mom called." Jeff answered with a smile on his face.
"Oh, well don't be sorry for that." Nick said.
Blaine smiled at them both.
When they got to the courtyard outside of the music hall, the stage was decorated with lights, and there were two guitars, a piano, and microphones.
There were already students setting up blankets and getting food from the food tent.
The three boys walked to the backstage area, where there were tables set up with water and soda and miscellaneous snacks.
"There you are." Said Kimmy, sounding relieved. "I thought we had lost you two."
"Where's David? He's up first." She asked, walking away calling, "David?"
The boys sat backstage and talked and listened to each other rehearse. Blaine and Jeff went off to another tent to practice so Nick wouldn't hear them.
A half hour later, Kimmy was telling Wes to go announce them, and that David was up next.
Wes walked out on stage and everyone started clapping.
"Okay, settle down guys. So it's been quite a crazy year for everyone, we've all suffered two great losses. But I think it's made us all stronger, and our friendships stronger as well. This is my last year as captain of the Warblers, I'm handing it over to one of my classmates so I can make my senior year as stress free as possible, but it's been a fun ride. These past three years have been amazing and I'm looking forward to spending my senior year here as well. So, without further ado, as captain of the Warblers, it's my pleasure to introduce to you our first soloist, David."
As he walked of the stage, he gave David a high five and said "You got this bro."
David smiled and walked onstage.
As the music started, the boys went crazy as they recognized the song.
I throw my hands up in the air sometimes,
Saying AYO! gotta let go!
I wanna celebrate and live my life,
Saying AYO! baby, let's go!
I came to dance, dance, dance, dance
I hit the floor 'cause that's my plans, plans, plans, plans
I'm wearing all my favorite brands, brands, brands, brands
Give me some space for both my hands, hands, hands, hands
David was having fun with it now. He was dancing around the stage and getting excited.
'Cause we gon' rock this club,
We gon' go all night,
We gon' light it up,
Like it's dynamite!
'Cause I told you once,
Now I told you twice,
We gon' light it up,
Like it's dynamite!
The song ended and David ran off the stage and Wes came back on.
"Give it up for David!" He shouted, waiting for the cheering to stop. "Now, for our next soloist, give it up, once again, for Nick!"
Nick walked out on stage and the music started.
My friends say I'm a fool to think
That you're the one for me
I guess I'm just a sucker for love
'Cuz honestly the truth is that
You know I'm never leavin'
'Cuz you're my angel sent from above
He was enjoying himself just as much as David did.
Love me, Love me
Say that you love me
Fool me, Fool me
Oh how you do me
Kiss me, Kiss me
Say that you miss me
Tell me what I wanna hear
Tell me you
Love me, Love me
Say that you love me
Fool me, Fool me
Oh how you do me
Kiss me, Kiss me
Say that you miss me
Tell me what I wanna hear
Tell me u love me
Nick bowed at the end of the song and then, just like David, he ran off stage.
"I just love that song!" Said Wes, running back on stage. "Our next performers got a little help from each other, so please welcome Jeff and Blaine to the stage!"
The two boys came out on stage, Blaine walked to the piano, and Jeff picked up a guitar.
"Hey guys." Blaine said. "We're doing my song first, it's an original song called 'To Have a Home'. Enjoy."
The crowd started cheering again as Blaine started playing.
Home.
I've heard the word before,
but it never meant much more
than just a thing I've never had,
A place,
They say, "Hey, know your place!"
But I've never had a place to even know,
or a face that I could go to if I
needed someone there
Jeff looked at Blaine and frowned when he heard the emotion in his voice.
I used to dream about it
but never schemed or counted
on fantasies or wishes
it breaks a man to see what he misses
So many nights I'd pray
for a better life, a better day
but I never thought that it'd come true
it's finally here and I don't know what to do
and I'm trying not to cry,
This must be how it feels
to have a home
The song came to a close, and the crowd was screaming. Then Jeff, smiling to himself, picked up his microphone.
"Okay, so, I've been torturing a certain someone all week with what song I'm going to sing. It's an original song too that was inspired by this certain someone. I hope you all enjoy it." Jeff said, sounding amused.
Jeff turned around as he started playing and caught Nick's eye.
It's summertime,
And you are all that's on my mind,
Everyday.
It seems like we,
Could stay up and talk through the night,
Oh what do you say?
Nick was smiling as he watched his boyfriend singing to him.
Just say you'll stay,
Hey,
I just keep on wishing everyday,
Hey,
No more running around, running around,
When I'm around,
Just say you'll stay.
The crowd was cheering louder than they had all afternoon.
"And now, please welcome the Dalton Academy Warblers!" Shouted Blaine, as the two boys moved the microphones and set down the guitars.
They took their places in the always flawless block that the boys formed, and Blaine stepped out and started singing.
We've got these days of summer
to remind us of each other...
The time we have to spend apart
will keep us in each other's heart...
The crowd was laughing and cheering as Wes stepped forward and took the lead next.
I'm hoping that the good ole' days are
something I will dream about at night...
Don't matter if it's soon or later,
I know that it's gonna be alright!
The four boys that sang solos then stepped forward to harmonize the last part of the song.
I don't wanna see you go,
but it's not forever, not forever!
Even it was,
you now that I would never let it get me down.
You're the part of me that makes me better,
wherever I go!
So I will try
not to cry-
but no one needs to say goodbye...
The four boys had their arms around each other as the song ended. The whole crowd stood up and started cheering.
Wes then stepped up. "Thank you all for coming out today! It means so much to us! Have a great summer everyone! And we'll see you all next year!"
The boys filed off stage and were all talking excitedly as they did.
Nick ran to Jeff and pulled him close to kiss him. "I love you."
"I love you too." Jeff replied and leaned down to kiss him again.
"Okay boys!" Kimmy yelled. "Wes has something to tell you all."
"Okay guys, as you all know, I'm stepping down as captain, and I'm turning it over to a person o my choice. And that person is Blaine Anderson. I've seen what he's gone through this year and he's come out of it stronger than when he got here. So, Blaine, if you'll accept, you will be next years Warblers captain." Wes said, smiling at Blaine.
Blaine was a little shocked. "Um, yeah." He a had a huge smile on his face.
"Alright, well that's settled, now I hope you all have a great summer and I'll see you all next year!" Wes said.
"Congrats Blaine!" Jeff said.
"Thanks." Blaine said, still a little shocked, but happy.
"Hey, let's get everybody together and get to the airport." Nick said to Jeff.
"Yeah, let's go."
Blaine trailed behind the two boys back to Simul. He couldn't believe what just happened. He couldn't believe that he got to talk to his mom, or that in a few hours he would be enjoying the Florida sun.
They got back to Simul and quickly started packing their things.
Blaine didn't have that much, so he was finished in thirty minutes, and then he headed downstairs.
He sat down on the couch and waited for everyone else. A few minutes later, about ten boys came down the stairs with Nick and Jeff in front.
"Everybody ready?" Jeff asked.
All the boys nodded.
"Let's go."
They all packed up their cars and headed to the airport.
Just before they got to the terminal, Blaine thought he saw a familiar face, and he stopped to look again.
"Carroll!" He heard the boy yell excitedly.
Sure enough, it was the boy that he had seen at Mckinley and in the Lima Bean that first day he went to see Emma.
"Hey Kurt!" She said, throwing her arms around him.
When the the boy turned around, he saw Blaine staring at him, and smiled at him.
Blaine kept staring and smiled back softly.
"Blaine?" Jeff asked, walking up to him and looking to where he was staring. "You alright?"
"Huh?" Blaine asked, smiling at the boy one last time, before turning to Jeff.
Jeff smiled as he saw what he was staring at. "Are you alright?" He asked again.
Blaine watched the boy walk away. "Yeah, I am."
"Hey?" Jeff asked.
Blaine turned to his friend again, a questioning, but happy look on his face.
"Thats the boy from Mckinley isn't it?" Jeff asked.
Blaine nodded.
"You'll see him again Blaine." Jeff said encouragingly.
Blaine glared at him.
"I can see the way you're looking at him." Jeff said, laughing softly.
Blaine smiled too. "Yeah." He whispered.
"Let's go to Florida." Jeff said, trying to get his attention again.
Blaine looked one last time at the boy, who turned around at the same time, and stared for a moment longer.
Then, still staring at the boy said, "Yeah, let's go."
Jeff smiled to himself and grabbed Blaine's wrist, pulling him towards the terminal.