I've started to realize that my excuse to you guys as to why I take so long to update is because I've had a crazy week, and it always seems to be true too. This time it's partly the reason, but early last week, I was almost finished with the chapter and my wonderful iPod decided to delete the whole thing. Fortunately, I rewrote it all in record time, and I actually like this better than the first time. I have two days of school left, and then it's my summer, however, it's totally packed. I leave on Sunday for camp, but I'll write at night and during rest time, so I'll hopefully have one finished for you soon. I always appreciate your patience with me, and I thank you all for reading :)
As always, I have to thank my inspiration. My twitter family is first on that list, I meet new people everyday, and each and every one of you fascinate me. I've met so many inspiring people, such as againstbullying skylarsavedme colfertweets and againstsuicide You all have such inspiring stories and you all inspire so many people. And of course I couldn't ever forget my twitter best friend, Tricia. She's always there when I need her and she's my biggest fan. I love you Trish :)
I apologize in advance for any grammar errors and/or spelling errors. I wrote the majority of this while I was half asleep, on a bus to Panama City, laying on top of my friend Stephen. I'm also half asleep writing this now, but I was ready to finish it.
Thank you all for taking the time to read this, I love you all! :)
(I do not own Glee! If I did, it'd be all about the Warblers 3)
Together We Are
Chapter 10
We Say Goodbye
"Blaine?" Jeff asked, opening the half-opened door a little. He walked in to find him putting books in his bag.
"Hey," Jeff said, trying to get his attention.
Blaine looked up. "Hey," he answered quietly.
Jeff watched him for a moment longer. "You alright?"
Blaine just nodded, not taking his eyes off the papers he was sorting through.
Jeff knew that he was lying, but he also knew that arguing with him about it wasn't worth it. He had his answer.
Nick, Jeff, and Blaine walked to class together as they usually did, but none of them said anything this time, they walked in silence, just like they had all week.
Blaine hadn't paid attention in any of his classes that week. He just sat quietly, staring down at a random page in a book. And no one had said anything to him about it because no one had expected him to go to class that first day.
"You should go home Blaine," Jeff said quietly at lunch that day.
Blaine just shook his head. "What about class and Warbler practice."
"Don't worry about that, just go home and get some rest, you need it," Jeff said.
Blaine nodded and got up. He walked back to Simul slowly, not in any hurry to get there.
When he got back, he changed into some sweatpants and a sweatshirt and went back down to the main living room. He laid down on the couch and turned on a movie, though he didn't really pay much attention to it.
A few hours later, Nick and Brian came through the door, helping a half asleep Cameron with Jeff behind them, carrying Lexi.
"Hey," Jeff said, walking up to Blaine. "I'm gonna put Lexi in the extra room, will you keep an eye out for her? Nick and I are going to see John in Lima and Cam's in his actual room."
"Yeah, where's the baby monitor?" Blaine asked.
Jeff looked around and picked it up off the table and handed it to him.
"Thank you so much," Jeff said.
Blaine nodded and watched Jeff hurry upstairs.
A few minutes later Nick and Jeff left and after that, Brian left too, though he didn't stop to tell Blaine where he was going.
Blaine laid down on the couch and closed his eyes. That didn't last long though, because his phone rang.
"Hello?" he asked.
"Hey Blaine," Kurt said.
"Oh, hey Kurt. What's up?"
"I was just wondering if you, um, wanted to go get coffee. I haven't seen you all week, and I want to," Kurt said slowly.
"I'd love to, but I'm on baby duty," Blaine said sadly.
"That's okay, can I come over there?" Kurt asked.
"Yeah, sure, that'd be awesome," Blaine said, becoming happy.
"Alright, I'll be there in a little while."
"Okay," Blaine said.
He hung up his phone and closed his eyes again, smiling. He fell asleep a few minutes later and was woken up by a knock at the door.
The second he opened the door, a familiar pair of arms wrapped around him.
"Hi," Blaine whispered, a little shocked.
"Hi," Kurt whispered back.
"Come in," Blaine said, pulling out of Kurt's embrace.
Kurt smiled and walked through the door. "Wow, this is cool."
"I'm glad you like it," Blaine said, smiling back.
They sat down together on the couch an watched a few minutes of the movie that Blaine had on.
Blaine groaned when he heard Lexi crying through the baby monitor. He turned it off and picked it up.
"You wanna come?" Blaine asked.
Kurt smiled. "Sure. I love babies."
Blaine laughed and led him upstairs.
"Is this your room?" Kurt asked when they walked into their living room.
"Yep," Blaine said, leading him up the stairs and into their extra room. He leaned over the side of the crib and picked her up.
"Aww, she's so cute," Kurt said, grabbing her fist with his fingers.
Blaine smiled at him. "Yeah she is."
Kurt looked around the room. "Whose room is this?"
"Well, no ones, but Cameron sleeps here with her because it's the farthest room from the head of our dorm. And my room is over there along with Nick and Jeff's," he said, gesturing towards the hallway.
Kurt nodded. "So do all the dorms have kitchens and living rooms in them like yours?"
"Yeah, they have to use our tuition for something," Blaine said, laughing.
Kurt laughed at that. He was happy to see Blaine this happy.
"Let's go back downstairs," Blaine said.
Kurt followed behind Blaine as they walked back down to the main living room.
Right when they sat down on the couch, Wes, Trent, and David came barreling down the steps.
"Shhh," Blaine said, pointing to Lexi.
"Oh, sorry," David said. "We were just wondering if you had seen the other guitar to the Rock Band set. We haven't seen it in ages."
Blaine sighed. "No, I haven't. Why don't you go to Dustin with these things?"
The three boys laughed. "Because Dustin's not fun, he doesn't play Rock Band," Trent said.
Blaine shook his head and turned back to Kurt.
"Wait!" Blaine said. "I think it might be in, um, Dan's room," he said quietly.
"Well, we can just go to Mitchell's, he has the game," Wes said after a moment of silence.
The three boys left and Blaine looked around sadly.
Kurt took his hand, intertwining their fingers.
"I think you deserve an explanation," Blaine said.
"What are you talking about?" Kurt asked.
"Last week, you asked what happened to me and I didn't tell you. And now I'm telling you that a friend is dead because of it, but you don't know what 'it' is. You deserve to have your questions answered," Blaine said.
"Oh," Kurt said quietly. "I don't want to make you feel like you have to tell me though."
"I want to tell you," Blaine said.
Kurt nodded and sat quietly for a moment.
"Can I ask you something first?" Blaine asked.
Kurt nodded. "Yeah."
"Well, you know how I told you I'm a junior?"
Kurt smiled, figuring where this would go. "Mhm."
"What grade are you in?" Blaine asked.
"I'm a junior too."
"I just don't get it," Nick said.
"Get what?" Jeff said, though he was barely understandable because he had a mouth full of cookie.
"Your obsession with those things. They're way over priced and so not healthy."
"But it's for a good cause!" Jeff said.
"How the hell are the Girl Scouts a good cause?" Nick questioned.
"But I thought you liked the Thin Mints,"Jeff said, changing the subject.
Nick looked out the window as they pulled into Dalton.
"Ha! I win," Jeff said, unbuckling his seatbelt and leaning over the seat.
Nick smiled. "Says who?" he asked.
"Says me," Jeff whispered in his ear. He wrapped his arms around Nick's waist and pulled him close, kissing him.
"Mmm, you're right, you do win," Nick said, a little out of breath.
Jeff smiled and kissed him again. "I'm sorry, what was that?"
Nick rolled his eyes. "Come on, let's go," he said, getting out of the car.
Jeff got out too and got the bags of groceries out of the back. He took Nick's hand and they walked back to Simul together.
They walked in and found Blaine and Kurt playing with Lexi on the floor.
"Hi guys," Jeff said.
Blaine looked up. "Oh, hey."
Jeff set the stuff down in the kitchen and walked back to the living room.
"Having fun?" Jeff asked.
Blaine looked up and nodded.
Jeff looked down and noticed that Blaine and Kurt were holding hands. "Well I'm glad you two had-" he stopped and turned around to find Nick opening a box of the cookies quietly. "Hey!" he yelled, running to the kitchen.
Nick laughed and tried to shove them back in the box, but Jeff caught his wrists and pushed him back.
"I thought we agreed that I won," Jeff sad quietly.
"Did we?" Nick asked.
"Mhmm," Jeff said. He leaned down to kiss Nick slowly. "But maybe you can have one," he whispered against his lips.
Nick smiled and put the cookie between them for a second, and then took a bite of it.
Kurt and Blaine watched them and smiled.
"They're so sweet," Kurt said quietly.
Blaine nodded. "Yeah."
Just then, Brian came in. He slammed the door shut and leaned back against the wall, sliding down and letting a tear slide down his cheek.
"Brian? What's wrong?" Blaine asked, getting up and walking to his friend.
Brian was trying hard not to start sobbing and Blaine could tell. He took some deep breaths before he answered. "Poison. That's how he died."
Blaine looked up at Nick and Jeff. He didn't need to say what they were all thinking. He got up and walked back over to Kurt.
Kurt took his hand again and realized he was shaking. He pulled him closer and wrapped his arms around him.
"No," Blaine whispered, shaking his head.
"I didn't think he would actually do this," Jeff said. "I mean, I guess a part of me knew he did, but-" he stopped, he wasn't sure where he was going with it.
Kurt sat holding Blaine, confused as to what they were talking about. He understood that it was Dan, but he didn't understand who they thought did it.
Blaine leaned into Kurt as he started crying.
"Blaine, what happened?" Kurt asked softly.
"Sebastian. H-he killed Dan," Blaine whispered. "He could've killed me too, what if he had? What if, what of he-"
"Shhh," Kurt whispered, kissing the top of his head. "Don't think like that."
"Why? He could have, he had the chance. He had two chances, but he killed Dan instead. Just because he was there. Just because he got away. He didn't do-"
"Stop Blaine," Kurt said, close to tears.
"Come on, let's go," Kurt heard Jeff whisper to Nick, he then helped Brian off the floor and walked up the stairs.
"Blaine-" Kurt started, not sure what to say to him.
"I'm sorry I- I just, I hate that he did this to him, to me," Blaine said into Kurt's chest.
"I know. I know," Kurt whispered.
They sat together on the floor until Jeff came downstairs in his pajamas to get some dinner. He smiled at them and walked back to the kitchen.
"Blaine?" Kurt asked quietly.
"Hmm?" Blaine replied.
"Are you aright?"
Blaine nodded. "I am now," he whispered, squeezing Kurt's hand.
Kurt smiled. He looked down as his phone started vibrating and he picked it up.
"Hey Finn, what's up?"
"Dude, where the hell are you?" Finn asked quickly.
"I told you where I was going," Kurt answered.
"Well, Burt's looking for you, what do you want me to tell him?"
"Tell him I'm at the mall or something, just please don't tell him I drove all the way to Dalton," Kurt begged.
"Fine, but get home soon," Finn said, hanging up.
"Am I gonna get you in trouble?" Blaine asked quietly.
Kurt put his phone back in his pocket. "No, I'm the one that came here. It's my fault, not yours."
"I'm sorry," Blaine whispered.
"Don't apologize, I wanted to spend time with you," Kurt said slowly.
Blaine looked up and smiled. "Really?"
Kurt nodded, blushing a little. "Yeah."
Blaine sat up but kept Kurt's hand. "You're sweet," he said quietly.
They sat together quietly, just enjoying each others company.
"I need to go home," Kurt whispered after a few minutes.
"I know," Blaine said, leaning over and hugging him tight.
Kurt relaxed into his arms and then pulled back, standing up.
"I'll see you later," Kurt said.
"Yeah," Blaine said, walking to the door with him.
Kurt took his hand and squeezed it, smiling. Then he walked out of the door, leaving Blaine standing there speechless.
"You alright?" Jeff asked, walking out of the kitchen and becoming concerned at the look on Blaine's face.
Blaine nodded slowly.
"What happened?" Jeff asked, putting a hand on his shoulder.
"I think I'm falling for him," Blaine answered quietly.
"That's a good thing though, right?"
Blaine just stared at him. "I'm scared."
Jeff smiled. "That's okay," he whispered. "But, he's not Blue, and you need to remember that."
Blaine sighed and relaxed a little. "I know."
"It's gonna be okay," Jeff said, hugging him.
Blaine nodded.
"You should get some sleep, you look really tired."
"Yeah, I am," Blaine said. "Goodnight," he said, walking towards the stairs.
Nick smiled at Blaine as he passed him on the stairs.
"Hey," Jeff said, walking towards the bottom of the stairs.
"Hi," Nick said wrapping his arms around his boyfriend. Then he leaned up and kissed him slowly.
"Mmm," Jeff moaned. "Don't start something you can't finish," he whispered.
"Who says we can't?" Nick asked, kissing him again.
Jeff smiled, taking a shaky breath. "Are you sure?"
"Shh," Nick whispered. "Come on," he said, pulling him towards the stairs.
They walked into Nick's room, locking the door behind them.
"Blaine? Wake up," Jeff said, shaking his shoulder lightly.
"Nooo," Blaine groaned. "Why? It's Saturday."
"Come on," Jeff said. "Kimmy's here and she wants to talk to you."
Blaine opened his eyes to find Jeff staring back at him, smiling.
"Why are so happy this early in the morning?" Blaine asked hoarsely.
"Okay, well first of all, it's almost noon. And I just had a really good night," Jeff said, still smiling.
Blaine smiled back. "Did you now?" he asked sarcastically. Then he remembered the first thing he said. "Wait! It's almost noon?" he yelled, practically jumping out of the bed.
Jeff nodded. "Yeah, why is this a bad thing?"
"I slept through Lexi's crying?" he asked.
"I guess, she woke up more than usual last night," Jeff said tiredly.
Blaine smiled. "Yes!" he shouted.
Jeff laughed. "Come on, she's waiting for you."
"And I'm sure Nick is waiting for you," Blaine said, smiling evilly.
"Shut up!" Jeff said, punching his arm.
Blaine laughed and ran out of the room. "Hey Kimmy," he said, slowing down when he got to the stairs.
"Hi Blaine," Kimmy said, smiling.
"What's up?" Blaine asked, walking to her.
"Let's go outside and talk," she said, gesturing to the door.
"Okay," Blaine said curiously.
They walked outside and got about halfway across campus before she turned and walked into a butterfly garden.
"So I was thinking that we could do a little tribute for Dan, and as captain, I thought that I would talk to you about it," Kimmy said.
"Oh, well, yeah. That sounds like a good idea," Blaine said sadly.
"I'm not really sure what you want to do, but I think you should talk to the rest of the guys about it."
"I will," he said, distracted.
"Are you okay?" Kimmy asked, putting a hand on his shoulder.
"Huh?" Blaine asked, jumping at the touch. "Oh, yeah. I'm fine."
Kimmy looked at him in concern. "You miss him, don't you?"
Blaine nodded. "Yeah. I mean he was Blue's best friend and we almost died together. He understood me the way Blue did and even though I only knew him a few months, he was a good friend."
"It's normal that you miss him," Kimmy said. "That's what this tribute is going to be about. Saying goodbye and letting go. It's about closure, and I think you, and quite a few other people could use that."
Blaine pulled her into a hug. "You're the best."
"Well thank you," Kimmy said smiling. "You should go back home and get some more sleep, you still look really tired."
"Well, I am," he said quietly.
"I'll see you at rehearsal on Monday then," she said.
"Yeah," Blaine said, walking towards the exit of the garden.
He walked home slowly, enjoying the fall air. When he got back, Nick was curled up on top of Jeff, asleep. Jeff was stroking Nick's back and flipping channels on the tv.
"Hey," Jeff whispered, smiling.
Blaine waved and smiled back, walking upstairs.
"Nick?" Jeff asked quietly.
"Mmm, Jeff?" Nick said, not opening his eyes.
"Yeah sweetie, it's me," Jeff said, running his fingers through his hair. "Do you wanna go upstairs and sleep?"
"No," Nick groaned.
Jeff laughed. "Then go back to sleep," he whispered, kissing his forehead.
"M'kay," Nick said.
"I love you," Jeff whispered.
"I love you too, Nick mumbled.
"Guys! Quiet down!" Blaine shouted, walking into the Warbler room Monday afternoon.
Everyone sat down and stopped talking.
"So Kimmy was thinking about having a tribute for Dan, and I think it's a good idea. But it's totally up to you," Blaine said. "What do you guys think?"
All the boys started talking at the same time. From what Blaine could hear, all of the boys liked the idea.
"Okay, well we need to figure out what we're gonna do," Kimmy said, walking in front of Blaine.
Blaine sat down on the piano bench, not really listening to what Kimmy was talking about. He was thinking about the night that Sebastian had tried to kill him and Dan. He remembered the way Dan looked at him, as though it was his fault that it had happened.
"Blaine?" Kimmy asked quietly, interrupting his thoughts.
Blaine looked up. "Huh? Oh, sorry," he apologized.
"It's alright, we're just gonna rehearse some songs," she said, pulling him off the bench.
Blaine nodded and walked over to the group, still not really paying attention.
After they finished rehearsing, Blaine walked back to Simul slowly. He didn't feel like talking to anyone so he didn't want to be back home. He decided to call Kurt, but he didn't get an answer so he left a voicemail.
"Hey Kurt, it's Blaine. I was-, I just, wanted to hear your voice. I shouldn't have called, I'm sorry. Y-you don't have to call me back if you don't want to. I'm sorry." He hung up the phone and kept walking.
"Why did I do that?" he whispered to himself.
"Why'd you do what?" Jeff asked, walking up behind him.
Blaine jumped. "Oh, um, nothing."
Jeff rolled his eyes but kept walking.
Blaine went straight up to his room and shut his door. He put on his pajamas and laid down, picking up a book.
A few minutes later, his phone buzzed. He looked down and saw Kurt's number. He took a deep breath before answering.
"Hello?" he asked in a small voice.
"Hi," Kurt said. "Are you okay?"
"Yeah. But look, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have called you earlier," Blaine apologized.
"No, it's alright. Don't apologize. Are you sure you're okay? You sounded really upset. You still do."
"I'm fine Kurt. I shouldn't be bothering you with this."
"Blaine, you're not bothering me," Kurt said quietly.
"Are you sure?"
"Yes. Now please tell me what's wrong," Kurt begged.
Blaine hesitated. "During Warbler practice, we were talking about doing a tribute for Dan that we're having Friday. It just made me upset. But I'm fine," Blaine answered.
"Blaine," Kurt started, and then paused, not sure what to say. "You understand that you can always call me, no matter what's wrong."
"I know," Blaine whispered, letting a tear fall.
"Now I can really tell you're upset," Kurt said quietly. "If it'll help, I can come with you Friday if you want."
"Really?" Blaine asked, fighting back the tears.
"Yeah, it's career day at my school, and I really don't want to spend my day looking at college brochures anyway."
Blaine let out a little laugh. "You're so awesome," he said quietly.
Kurt smiled to himself, and was glad that Blaine wasn't there to see how happy that made him. "What time do you want me to be there?"
"Um, it starts at eleven," Blaine answered.
"I'll be there," Kurt said. "Are you gonna be okay?"
Blaine sighed. "Yeah, I'll be fine."
"I'll see you Friday then."
"Wait, Kurt, I-" Blaine started, and then caught himself.
"What?" Kurt asked softly.
"N- never mind," he answered.
"Blaine, you know you can tell me," Kurt whispered.
"I know," Blaine said, but didn't finish what he was going to say.
"If you change your mind, call me, okay," Kurt said.
"Alright, I'll see you," Blaine said, starting to shake.
"Bye Blaine," Kurt said.
"Bye," Blaine answered, barely audible.
He hung up the phone, and when he looked up, Jeff was standing in the doorway.
"How long have you been there?" Blaine asked.
"Not very long," Jeff said, walking over to the bed and sitting down next to him. "What were you gonna say to him?"
"So you heard that?"
Jeff nodded.
Blaine looked down and took a slow, shaky breath. "I was going to tell him that I love him," he whispered.
Jeff smiled. "That's sweet."
"No. It's not. I came so close to saying it," Blaine said.
Jeff put an arm around him. "Do you think he would've cared if you had said it?"
"I don't know. But I don't know if I really feel that way for him."
"That's okay, you haven't known him that long. I wouldn't expect you to know for sure."
Blaine sighed. "He's coming with me Friday."
"That's good," Jeff said, smiling. "By the way, I came up here to tell you there's some food downstairs if you're hungry."
Blaine sat up. "No, I'm good. I'm really tired."
Jeff nodded. "Alright, well you get some rest." He stood up and walked to the door.
"Goodnight Jeff," Blaine said.
"Night," Jeff said, closing the door behind him.
Blaine laid down with his book and fell asleep a few minutes later.
"This is amazing," Jeff said.
Nick smiled. "Thanks."
Jeff reached across the table and took his boyfriend's hand, picking his taco up with the other.
Nick laughed at him and squeezed his hand.
Both boys' heads snapped towards the stairs when they heard the all too familiar scream.
"I'll be back," Jeff said, standing up and walking to the stairs.
He got to Blaine's room and sat down next to him, shaking his shoulder lightly.
"Blaine?"
Blaine sat straight up and jumped back towards the wall.
"It's alright Blaine," Jeff whispered.
Blaine reached over and hugged Jeff. He started crying and he was shaking like crazy.
"Shh, you're safe. It's alright," he whispered in his ear again, trying to calm him down.
Blaine nodded and hugged him tighter. "I c-can't do it," he whispered.
"Do what?" Jeff asked.
"The tribute," he said.
"Why not?"
"Because it means that he's really gone," Blaine answered through the tears.
"Blaine," Jeff whispered. "I know how much you want someone to tell you that he's not, but he is really gone."
Blaine didn't say anything. When he finally calmed down, he was half asleep.
Jeff gently laid him down and pulled the covers over him. "It's gonna be okay."
"I know," Blaine said.
"Then go to sleep and don't worry about it tonight, you need rest," Jeff said, standing up and walking to the door.
Blaine rolled over and fell asleep.
Jeff sighed and walked back downstairs to Nick, who was sitting at the bottom of the stairs.
"Is he okay?" Nick asked.
"Yeah, he's alright."
Nick stood up, taking Jeff's hands. "Are you?"
Jeff nodded.
Nick stared up at his boyfriend. "No you're not."
Jeff swallowed. "I hate seeing him like this."
"I know, I do too," Nick said, wrapping his arms around Jeff.
Jeff leaned in to him, relaxing. "I'm tired, let's go to bed."
Nick nodded. He walked upstairs behind Jeff and they parted ways to go to their own rooms.
Jeff laid down and a few minutes later, his phone buzzed. He looked at it and didn't recognize the number, but answered it anyway.
"Hello?"
"Jeff? This is Kurt."
"Oh, hey Kurt, what's up?" Jeff asked, a little confused as to how he got his number and why he was calling him so late.
"Um, I wanted to talk to you about that tribute for Dan on Friday," Kurt said slowly.
"Okay. What about it?" Jeff asked.
"I want to do something for Blaine, so he knows that we're here for him."
"You guys ready?" Jeff asked, walking downstairs.
"Jeff," Blaine started. "We've been ready for about an hour, we were waiting on you."
Nick and Blaine glared at Jeff as he walked to them.
"Geez, I'm sorry," Jeff said, smiling and taking Nick's hand.
Blaine rolled his eyes. "Come on."
They walked outside together towards the music hall. It was Friday morning and they were performing for the tribute in two hours.
"So when will he be here for the thing?" Nick whispered to Jeff.
"He said an hour before," Jeff whispered back.
"You guys both understand that I can hear you, right?" Blaine asked loudly, making the two boys jump.
"I don't know what you mean," Nick said, sounding confused.
Blaine glared at him and then laughed, shaking his head.
They walked into the music hall and found Kimmy with a concerned look on her face, talking on the phone. They waved and walked past her into the Warbler room.
"Morning guys," Blaine greeted.
"Good morning," he got in return.
"Let's start heading out to set up," Blaine said, throwing a set of keys to Jeff that went to the storage area where everything was.
All the boys walked out of the room with Jeff to get things ready.
Blaine walked into the hallway and found Kimmy hanging up her phone.
"Is everything alright?" Blaine asked.
Kimmy smiled. "Everything's great."
Blaine raised his eyebrows, but decided to let it go. "I just sent the guys to go start setting up."
"Well then we should go help them," Kimmy said, walking to the door
The next hour was spent setting up the stage. Around ten-thirty they finished and were sitting in the tent that they always had.
"You alright?" Jeff asked, sitting down and taking a drink from a water bottle.
"Yeah, I'm just ready for-" he stopped as he looked up. "Kurt!" He ran towards him and threw his arms around him.
"Hi," Kurt said, a little shocked. "You almost spilled my coffee."
"I'm so sorry," Blaine said, hugging him again.
Kurt laughed and followed him back to where he had been sitting.
"Hey Kurt," Jeff said.
"Hey," Kurt replied, smiling.
Blaine didn't notice the way they were looking at each other, having their silent conversation. He was focused on a random piece of grass on the ground.
Kurt looked down and noticed the way he was staring.
"Blaine, are you alright?" Kurt asked.
Blaine jumped at his name. "Huh? Yeah, I'm fine."
Just then, Kimmy came running in. "Five minutes guys. Blaine, let's go," she said, gesturing for him to follow.
Blaine leaned over and hugged Kurt before getting up and following Kimmy.
"You ready?" she asked as he walked up the stairs behind her.
"As ready as I'll ever be," he answered quietly.
"You can do this Blaine," she said, placing a hand on his shoulder, and then pushing him up the rest of the stairs and to the stage entrance. "Go on," she instructed.
Blaine nodded, took a deep breath, and walked out on stage.
"Excuse me? Could I have your attention please?" Blaine asked.
The audience stopped talking and turned to face him.
"We're all here to remember and celebrate the life of our friend Dan. I know he was a good friend to a lot of you and he's greatly missed. Not many of you know why he's gone, and I'm not allowed to share with you what happened, but that doesn't matter. What matters is that we're all here, celebrating the life of a wonderful person, a friend, a brother. He was a part of the Warblers, and he was always the positive one, the one that made everyone smile and happy, there was no way you could bring him down. I'm sorry to say that I only knew him for a short time, but I knew him long enough to make friends with him, and he became a very important part of my life. There was one night, that I'm sure, had he not been there, I would have died, but he encouraged me in a sense. Unfortunately that was one of his last nights, and possibly the reason he isn't here today." He paused, taking a deep breath. "This week at practice we decided that we would sing songs in honor of Dan since singing was what he loved to do. Some of them are songs that he liked, and some are songs that we thought fit him. I'm going first, and this is a song that I think fits him."
He walked to the piano and sat down, he took another deep breath and started playing.
I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
Blaine had tears in his eyes, but his voice never faltered.
Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
Blaine stood up and walked off stage with tears streaming down his face. He walked straight to Kurt who wrapped his arms around him tightly.
They sat together the rest of the time. Blaine could hear the other songs but he wasn't paying attention. He found the comfort he was looking for in Kurt's arms, and he almost fell asleep at one point.
"Blaine? You need to get up so you can sing," Jeff whispered, pulling him from Kurt's arms.
Blaine got up and walked to the stairs behind Jeff.
All the boys walked out on stage and someone handed Blaine a microphone.
"This next one was one of Dan's favorite songs and also one to pay him tribute. I hope you've all enjoyed yourselves and thank you for coming out to show your love."
All our times have come
Here but now they're gone
Seasons don't fear the reaper
Nor do the wind, the sun or the rain
We can be like they are
Come on baby... Don't fear the Reaper
Baby take my hand... Don't fear the Reaper
We'll be able to fly... Don't fear the Reaper
Baby I'm your man...
Valentine is done
Here but now they're gone
Romeo and Juliet
Are together in eternity...
Romeo and Juliet
Blaine was enjoying himself for the first time all day. He was starting to realize that he would be alright.
Love of two is one
Here but now they're gone
Came the last night of sadness
And it was clear we couldn't go on
The door was open and the wind appeared
The candles blew and then disappeared
The curtains flew and then he appeared
Saying don't be afraid
Come on baby... And we had no fear
And she ran to him... Then they started to fly
We looked backward and said goodbye
We had become like they are
She had taken his hand
We had become like they are
Come on baby...don't fear the reaper
The moment Blaine stopped singing, Kurt walked out on stage.
"What are you doing?" Blaine whispered.
Kurt shook his head. "Just go." He pointed to the crowd and Nick and Jeff pulled him of the stage.
"Okay, hi guys," Kurt started. "My name is Kurt, and I know that Blaine just said that that was the last song, but it's not true."
Blaine raised his eyebrows and looked to Nick and Jeff who just shook their heads and pointed to Kurt.
"Look Blaine, I know you think that you're alone and that you're gonna feel like this forever, and trust me, I know what that feels like. But you're not alone, and I want you to know that."
Blaine stared up at him. He didn't know what to do or say.
Have you lost your way?
Livin' in the shadow of the messes that you made,
And so it goes,
Everything inside your circle starts to overflow.
Take a step before you leap,
Into the colors that you seek,
You'll get back what you give away,
So don't look back on yesterday!
Wanna scream out,
No more hiding,
Don't be afraid of what's inside!
Gonna tell ya, you'll be alright,
In the Aftermath!
Anytime anybody pulls you down,
Anytime anybody says you're not allowed,
Just remember you are not alone,
In the Aftermath!
Kurt watched Blaine carefully and smiled encouragingly.
Before you break you have to shed your armour!
Take a trip and fall into the glitter!
Tell a stranger that they're beautiful!
So all you feel is love, love!
All you feel is love, love!
Wanna scream out,
No more hiding,
Don't be afraid of what's inside.
Wanna tell ya, you'll be alright,
In the Aftermath!
Wanna scream out,
No more hiding,
Don't be afraid of what's inside!
Gonna tell ya, you'll be alright,
In the Aftermath!
Anytime anybody pulls you down,
Anytime anybody says you're not allowed,
Just remember you are not alone,
In the Aftermath!
Gonna tell ya you'll be alright!
In the Aftermath!
Just remember you are not alone!
In the Aftermath!
Blaine stood up and jumped back on stage, throwing his arms around Kurt.
"Thank you," Blaine whispered.
Kurt could tell that he was crying and he held him tighter.
"Of course," he replied.
Blaine pulled back and kissed him on the cheek.
Kurt smiled and took his hand, pulling him off stage.
Nick and Blaine ran back stage too.
"You knew, didn't you?" Blaine asked.
Nick and Jeff looked at Kurt and laughed, nodding.
"Come here," Blaine said, pulling them into a hug and laughing too. "You guys are awesome."
"Aww, well we try," Jeff said.
Blaine laughed again and took Kurt's hand again.
"Hey, Nick! Jeff! Come here!" Cameron yelled.
Jeff rolled his eyes and pulled Nick away.
Blaine turned to Kurt and took his other hand, pulling them both close to his chest and standing as close as he could.
Kurt could hear Blaine start breathing hard and he kissed his forehead.
"Relax," Kurt whispered against his forehead.
Blaine looked up and leaned towards Kurt, staring into his eyes, their lips were centimeters apart.
"Hey Blaine," Wes shouted.
Blaine jumped and moved away from Kurt.
"I- I'm sorry," he said, backing away slowly. He turned and ran towards Wes and the rest of his friends.
Kurt watched him run and then pulled out his phone and dialed a number.
"Rachel?" he asked. "We need to have a girls night."
"Blaine?" Jeff asked quietly.
"It's open," Blaine answered quietly.
Jeff opened the door and found Blaine curled up in his bed.
"Hey, what's wrong?" Jeff asked. "Today was supposed to make you feel better."
"I know, and it did," Blaine said.
"Well then what's wrong?" Jeff asked again.
Blaine sighed. "I almost kissed Kurt," he whispered.
Jeff smiled. "Why didn't you?"
"Because Wes yelled at me to go talk to you guys," Blaine answered.
Jeff sighed. "Sorry."
"It's alright. I'm kinda glad actually. I don't really think I'm ready yet," he said quietly.
"I understand that," Jeff said, nodding.
"I'm just scared," Blaine said.
"Why?" Jeff asked.
"What if he doesn't like me?"
"Blaine," Jeff said, laughing a little and shaking his head. "You should see the way he looks at you. The way he smiles when you hold hands. And the way he holds you when you hug him. It's crazy Blaine. But trust me, he likes you too."
Blaine closed his eyes. "You're such an awesome best friend."
Jeff smiled and they sat together quietly for a few minutes.
"You seem to be a lot better than you were before," Jeff said.
Blaine opened his eyes and nodded. "I am. I feel like I can say goodbye now."
"That's good. That was the point. I know you miss him and I know it's hard to move on, but like Kurt said, you're not alone, we're all here for you."
Blaine sat up and hugged Jeff. "Like I just said, you're awesome."
Jeff pulled back to look at him. "You know how you said you can say goodbye now?"
Blaine nodded. "Yeah."
"We can all say goodbye now."
Blaine smiled at him.
Jeff smiled back and then pulled his phone out as it started vibrating. He read the text and smiled, turning to Blaine.
"Come downstairs, Kimmy has a surprise for you."
"Okay," Blaine said slowly, getting up and following Jeff downstairs.
They walked outside and found Kimmy standing in the middle of the sidewalk.
"I thought today would be the perfect day to give this to you," Kimmy said, walking towards him. "Though I'm not really 'giving' you anything."
Blaine looked at her in confusion. "What are you talking about?"
"Come on out," Kimmy yelled.
A tall man walked out. He had dark curls like Blaine's and he had the same smile. Jeff was surprised at how much they actually looked alike.
Blaine gasped. "No," he whispered.
The man held out his arms as if trying to prove it was him.
"Coop?" Blaine asked.
"The one and only," he replied.
Song List:
Untitled - Simple Plan
Don't Fear the Reaper - Blue Oyster Cult
Aftermath - Adam Lambert