So it seems as though I thought wrong. Apparently I didn't get as much accomplished at camp as I thought. I wrote most of this while sitting in a car on the way to Chicago. I'm currently sitting in my hotel room in Lafayette, Indiana, waiting on my dinner. We'll be in Chicago tomorrow, and I'm so excited!
This chapter was one of the hardest to write content wise. I couldn't decide how I wanted things to happen, but when I started writing, the thoughts just kept coming and so here it is lol
As always I have to thank my wonderful friend Tricia, for always inspiring me and always being there. Even while I was at camp she was there. She sent me emails everyday, and some were so long that my counselors got a good laugh out of it :) and of course my Twitter family, who will always be there no matter what 3
I appreciate each and every one of you that reads this, you'll never understand how much it means. I get chills every time I get a review or a favorite. It's really surreal, like, someone actually reads what I'm writing and enjoys it, even though there may only be five or six of you.
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(I do NOT own Glee! If I did, trust me, you wouldn't want to watch it lol) ;)
Well , I wrote the beginning of this authors note a few days ago, and I'm currently sitting in my hotel room in Chicago. I've had a great past two days here. Tricia keeps making fun of me because I keep getting excited about things :) I live in a small town, this is the farthest north I've been and the biggest city I've been to, and I'm in heaven! I rode the L train and went to the top of the Sears tower and today we drove around close to Downtown, and I was so happy from all of the acceptance that I saw. This is such an amazing place! Tomorrow we're leaving for the Badlands and Mount Rushmore, and I'm even more excited about that :D Anyway, I'm done telling you about my life, so please enjoy this new chapter, and once again, thanks for reading!
Together We Are
Chapter 12
Fear
"Blaine! Wake up!" Jeff yelled.
Blaine rolled over to look at Jeff with one eye. "Why?"
"Because Kurt's being weird again," Jeff answered.
"Oh, then, I'll just go back to sleep for a little while," Blaine said, rolling over again.
"Blaine! What the hell is wrong with you?" Jeff yelled again. "You've been avoiding him for three days, what happened?"
Blaine sighed and sat up to look at Jeff. Then he flopped back on to the bed and slammed his face into the pillow.
"Blaine? Talk to me," Jeff said softly.
"I kissed him," Blaine said into the pillow.
Jeff smiled to himself. "And?"
"I don't know. I mean, when I said I wasn't ready, I meant it. But now I kissed him and I might want to be with him, but I don't know, I just-" He stopped his rambling as Jeff placed a hand on the top of his back.
"You got caught up in a moment, and now you're confused," Jeff said quietly.
Blaine turned around. "Yeah."
"You should talk to him about it."
Blaine thought for a moment. "Nah, I'm good. I think I'll just stay here and die or something," he said, flopping back down on the bed.
"Blaine! First of all, you'll have to see him and talk to him at some point. And it's Friday. You have to go to class," Jeff said.
"I talked to him yesterday," Blaine stated. "And no I don't, I'm sick."
"Okay, thanking him for breakfast, doesn't count as talking to him. And you're not sick, and I will not vouch for you. Get your ass up."
"It does count. And Nick will vouch for me, it's okay," Blaine said.
"No, he won't. Get up!" Jeff stood up and took his arm, trying to pull him up.
"What is going on here?" Nick asked, standing in the doorway laughing.
"I'm sick and Jeff won't let me sleep," Blaine said, sitting up to look at Nick with a sick look on his face.
"Jeff, that's awful!" Nick said.
"He's not sick!" Jeff yelled. "He's just avoiding Kurt."
"I'm not avoiding anything, except getting more sick. And I talked to him yesterday," Blaine repeated.
"Blaine, thanking him for breakfast doesn't really count," Nick said.
Blaine's mouth dropped open and he stared at the two boys. "What is wrong with you people?"
Nick looked at him confused and Jeff just smirked at him.
"What's he talking about?" Nick asked.
"I have no idea, he's completely delusional," Jeff said, smiling. "Blaine, just please, get up."
Blaine sighed and sat up. "Fine. What's he doing that's so weird?"
"He's vacuuming the downstairs closet," Nick answered.
"Wait, he's vacuuming? We have a vacuum?" Blaine asked.
"Yeah. It was in the closet that he's vacuuming," Nick said slowly.
"Oh dear god," Blaine said quietly. He threw his legs off the bed and got up.
He walked down stairs and looked up at the clock, which told him that it was four in the morning. He saw Kurt sitting on one of the couches with the vacuum sitting a few feet away.
"Kurt? What are you doing?" he asked softly, sitting down next to him.
"I'm sorry, did I wake you up?" Kurt asked.
"No, Jeff took care of that. But what are you doing? It's four in the morning."
"I don't know, I just wanted to feel more at home," Kurt answered.
"So you started cleaning?" Blaine asked.
"Yeah," Kurt said softly.
Blaine took his hand and squeezed it.
"Can we talk?" Kurt asked, looking down at their hands.
"We're talking right now," Blaine said.
Kurt sighed. "You know that's not what I meant."
Blaine shifted and scooted away from Kurt a little, letting go of his hand. "I know."
"You haven't talked or looked at me in like two days Blaine," Kurt said quietly.
Blaine looked down.
"Talk to me Blaine, please," Kurt begged.
When Blaine looked up he had tears in his eyes. "I'm scared."
"Why are you scared?"
"I'm scared of falling for you," he answered quietly.
Kurt moved toward him to take his hand, but Blaine immediately flinched back, making Kurt stop.
"Was it something I did?" Kurt asked sadly.
"No, of course not, you're amazing. But I- I just can't. I'm sorry," Blaine said, looking away.
"It's alright. But when you're ready," Kurt started.
"You'll be the first person to know," Blaine answered.
Kurt smiled a little, but then he turned serious. "Can I ask you something?"
"You just did," Blaine said lightly. "I'm sorry. Of course."
"Wh- when the guy almost killed you, how long were you scared for?" Kurt asked quietly.
Blaine moved toward him, completely forgetting everything he had just told him. "Did someone try to kill you?"
"No, it's just what he said to me, Karofsky, I mean."
Blaine reached down and took his hand. "It's perfectly alright to be scared Kurt."
Kurt looked away, but Blaine could still see the tears that fell. He wiped them away with his thumb and then turned Kurt's face gently, so he was looking at him again.
"You're safe here. He can't hurt you here. I won't ever let him get that close to you, okay?" Blaine whispered.
Kurt nodded and squeezed Blaine's hand.
Blaine moved closer to him and hugged him. When he pulled back, he pressed a kiss to his forehead.
Kurt stared at him.
Blaine stared back for a moment and then looked away, closing his eyes.
"I'm, uh, gonna go upstairs," Blaine said quietly, standing up.
Kurt nodded and watched him walk back up the stairs, leaving him alone again.
"Kurt?" someone asked from the top of the stairs.
It was the boy that had been with Blaine that first day he had come to Dalton. He didn't remember his name.
"Yeah?" Kurt said quietly.
"What are you doing?" he asked quietly.
"Just sitting here," Kurt answered.
The boy walked over to him and sat down. "Do you remember me?"
Kurt nodded. "Yeah. But not your name."
He smiled. "I'm David. Are you okay? You look kinda sad."
"Yeah, just a little disappointed."
"Why? Does it have something to do with Blaine?" David asked. "I saw him walking back to his room and he looked like he was crying."
"He was crying?" Kurt asked.
"Yeah, it looked like it. Why?"
Kurt sighed and shook his head. "It's nothing."
"You can trust me Kurt," David said quietly.
Kurt hesitated. "It's just that I like him, and he liked me too, but he keeps saying he's scared."
"Well I don't blame him," David said.
"What do you mean? I mean, I know that Blue hurt him, but he knows that I wouldn't," Kurt said.
"That's not why he's scared," David said quietly. "Well it might be part of it, but not the main reason."
"Well then what is it?"
"He told you about what happened in Miami, right?" David asked.
"Yeah," Kurt said slowly. "What about it?"
David watched his expression. "He didn't tell you everything. I can tell, because you wouldn't be confused if he did."
"What are you talking about?" Kurt asked.
"You should ask him about it," David answered. "He should be the one to tell you."
Kurt nodded.
David sighed. "I came down here to get some coffee. Do you want some?"
"Sure," Kurt said, getting up and walking to the kitchen with David, still wondering what Blaine was so scared of.
When they got home from class that day, Kurt followed Blaine into his room, closing the door behind him.
Blaine jumped, not realizing that Kurt was following him. "Oh, hi Kurt."
"Can I ask you something?" Kurt asked, getting right to the point.
Blaine looked at him a little confused. "Um, sure," he said, sitting down on the bed and patting the spot in front of him.
Kurt took off his bag and set it on the floor and then sat down on the bed. "Will you be completely honest with what I'm about to ask you?"
Blaine nodded and watched him carefully, a little nervous about what he wanted to talk about now.
"You know how you told me about what happened in Miami?" Kurt asked.
Blaine nodded slowly, moving his hand over his blazer where the scars were.
"You didn't tell me everything though, right?" he asked slowly.
Blaine took a deep breath to compose himself. "No, I didn't," he answered quietly.
"It has something to do with why you're scared?"
Blaine closed his eyes, nodding.
"Will you tell me?" Kurt asked softly.
Blaine bit his lip and then opened his eyes.
"I mean, you don't have to if you don't want to."
Blaine shook his head, trying to get Kurt to stop talking. "I told you that I was just walking the beach that night when I saw the house. And then went in and Sebastian kicked everyone out and then tried to kill me, right?"
Kurt nodded. "Because you were drunk."
"That's not true," Blaine said quietly. "Well, I was drunk. Not just drunk, but drugged, because of Louis."
Kurt furrowed his eyebrows. "Louis?"
Blaine nodded. "I met him that afternoon on the beach, and he invited me to the party. I went out after everyone was asleep and I found him on the deck at the house. I didn't even notice that he said my name, though I had never told him what it was. He took me inside and gave me a drink. I only had three and I felt like I was about to die. So, he took me upstairs to an empty room. He started kissing me, and I couldn't get him off of me at first. He pulled my shirt off and he-" Blaine stopped, biting his lip to keep from crying just from the memory of that night.
He took a deep breath and finished his sentence. "He tried to rape me. But I got away from him and I tripped and fell down the stairs, right in to Sebastian. And you know the rest."
Kurt had tears in his eyes. He hadn't expected that at all. Now he knew why David told him to ask Blaine himself.
"Blaine, I- I'm sorry," Kurt whispered.
Blaine just shook his head. "It's alright, you didn't know," he answered quietly.
Kurt just stared at him. "Are you alright?"
Blaine nodded. "Yeah, can I just, be alone?"
"Yeah, of course," Kurt said, getting up and walking to the door.
The second the door closed, he let the tears fall. He laid down and curled up on his bed.
"Nick?" Jeff asked softly.
"Mhmm?"
"I was gonna go downstairs and get a drink and some popcorn to go with this movie, do you want something?"
"Umm, no, I'm good. But thank you," Nick said, smiling at his boyfriend.
Jeff leaned down so their lips were barely touching. "Of course," he said, kissing him.
"Are you sure you want to lea-" Nick was interrupted by a loud crash that came from the next room.
Jeff was up the second he heard it and was running into Blaine's room.
He found Blaine sitting on his bed, staring down at his bleeding hand with tears streaming down his face.
"Blaine? What the hell?" Jeff asked, sitting down next to him.
"It was broken," Blaine stated, pointing to a pile of broken glass on the floor that used to be his lamp.
"So you threw it?" Jeff asked as though questioning his sanity.
Blaine leaned into Jeff and started sobbing.
"Hey, what's wrong?" Jeff asked, wrapping his arm around him.
"I hate what he's done to me," Blaine said between the sobs. "I can't even look at Kurt without remembering that night. Every time he reaches for my hand, I have to remind myself that he's not Louis."
Jeff pulled him closer. "What brought this on?"
"He asked if I had told him everything about that night and so I told him everything," Blaine whispered, starting to calm down.
Jeff sighed. "Do you wanna come watch a movie with me Nick?"
"I'd rather be alone," Blaine said.
"Nope, sorry, get up, you're coming with me," Jeff said, pulling him up.
"Why did you even ask then?" Blaine mumbled.
Jeff smirked at him and then pulled him back to his room where Nick was laying on the bed, watching the movie.
"Hey, what- oh, hey Blaine," Nick said, sitting up. He patted the spot on the bed next to him.
Blaine sat on the end of the bed and Jeff sat on the other side, taking one of Nick's hands and wrapping his arm around him.
When the movie was over, Jeff looked over at Blaine and he was sound asleep.
"What happened?" Nick asked quietly.
"He told Kurt what Louis did and he just freaked out," Jeff answered. "He said that's why he's scared to be with Kurt."
Nick looked down at his sleeping friend and frowned. "That's so sad. Should I wake him up?"
"No, we can sleep in your room," Jeff said.
Nick nodded, starting to get off the bed slowly.
They walked hand in hand to Nick's room and laid down together.
"He'll be okay, right?" Nick asked softly.
Jeff pulled Nick onto his chest. "We'll make sure he'll be okay. I promise."
Nick nodded and leaned up to kiss him. He felt a tear fall down Jeff's face and hit their lips. He slid off of Jeff's chest and turned on his side so they were facing each other.
"You just promised me he would be okay. Why are you crying?" Nick asked, gently wiping the tears from his face.
"I hate what Sebastian's done to us. After everything we did for him," Jeff answered.
Nick ran his hand down Jeff's face and kissed him. "But just think about everything we've been through, and how much stronger we are."
Jeff was quiet for a moment. "Yeah, I guess you're right."
"I know I am," Nick said, smiling.
Jeff rolled his eyes. "Go to sleep you goof ball."
Nick laughed. "I love you."
Jeff kissed him softly. "I love you too," he whispered against his lips. "You have my heart."
Nick smiled and curled up against Jeff. "And you have mine."
"What do you think about that Blaine?"
Blaine jumped at the sound of his name. "Huh?"
Jeff rolled his eyes. "The song Blaine, we were talking about regionals."
"Oh, right, um whatever you guys wanna do," Blaine said dully.
It was Monday afternoon at Warbler practice and Blaine had asked for their ideas for songs for regionals.
When practice ended, they hadn't gotten anywhere. Kimmy had decided that they would work on it tomorrow when everyone wasn't half asleep.
"Hey Blaine," Kurt said, walking up behind him.
"Oh hey Kurt," Blaine said. "Wait, where did you just come from, it's like four."
"I was helping Cam with his theatre project," Kurt answered. "Where have you been?"
"Warbler practice."
Kurt nodded.
"Hey, you should join," Blaine said.
Kurt looked at him like he was crazy. "Are you serious? I could never keep up with you guys."
"Yes you could Kurt, I've heard you sing before," Blaine said, rolling his eyes.
Kurt was quiet for a moment. "Will you help me with a song for my audition?"
Blaine let out a small laugh. "I don't really think you need to audition, Kimmy's heard you sing, but if you want I can."
Kurt smiled to himself. "Yeah."
Blaine nodded and they walked the rest of the way home in silence.
They got back and Blaine went straight up to his room. He sat down on his bed and laid his head in his hands.
"Are you alright?" Nick asked, walking in through his open door.
Blaine didn't look up, he just shook his head.
Nick kneeled down in front of him. "Do you want to talk?"
Blaine didn't respond, he just stood up and walked over to his desk, picking up his keys. "I'll be back," he said quietly.
"O- okay," Nick replied. He watched as Blaine walked down the hall and then heard the door slam.
"Hey," Jeff said, walking in and sitting down on the floor next to Nick. "What happened?"
"I don't know, I asked him if he wanted to talk and then he left," Nick answered quietly.
Jeff took his hand and kissed his cheek. "He'll come around eventually."
Nick sighed. "I know," he said, squeezing his hand.
"Nick, look at me," Jeff whispered.
Nick turned his head slowly and looked at his boyfriend.
"It'll be okay, I promise," Jeff said.
Nick smiled and leaned towards him to kiss him slowly.
Blaine sat in his car, staring up at the house with tears streaming down his face. He finally got out of the car and walked up to the door and knocked quietly.
Coop opened the door, laughing but his expression turned serious when he saw Blaine.
"Hey, Blaine, what's wrong?" Coop asked, moving towards him.
Blaine looked up at him and let more of the tears fall.
Coop wrapped his arms around him and held him as he started sobbing.
When he finally calmed down, Coop pulled him inside and into the living room.
"What's wrong?" Coop asked as they sat down on the couch.
Blaine closed his eyes. "It's Kurt."
"What did he do?"
"No." Blaine shook his head. "He didn't do anything. I just-" he stopped as he started crying again.
"Shh," Coop whispered, pulling Blaine towards him.
"I'm scared of, him. Sort of, but not really," Blaine said quietly when he calmed down.
"What do you mean?" Coop asked.
Blaine took a deep breath. "Last summer, this guy tried to rape me and, I don't know, I'm just scared."
"Blaine, I don't know Kurt, but I heard the song that he sang to you at the tribute for Dan, and I can tell that he would never ever hurt you," Coop said, trying to pretend he didn't hear the first part of what he said.
"I know h- wait, you were there?" Blaine asked.
Coop smiled. "Yeah, I was."
Blaine smiled back. "Anyway, I know he wouldn't hurt me, that's not what I'm scared of. I just, I remember that night every time I'm with him."
"I can understand that," Coop said.
Blaine nodded and looked away.
"Is there something else bothering you?" Coop asked.
Blaine looked back up at him. "I kissed him," he said softly.
"Oh god Blaine," Coop said quietly.
"What's wrong?" Jasper asked, walking into the living room. "Hey Blaine."
Blaine didn't even look up at Jasper as he walked in.
"Is everything alright?" Jasper asked, sitting down beside Coop and taking his hand.
Coop turned to look at Jasper and shook his head ever so slightly.
Blaine stared forward at the blank tv screen. "How can I say that I just want to be friends after that. I mean I want to be with him, but then again I don't and I don't want to confuse him or make him feel like I don't care, but then again I'm confused and scared and I just don't know what to do." He stopped when he looked up to see Jasper smiling and trying not to laugh.
"Is this funny?" Blaine asked Jasper.
"No, I'm sorry Blaine. It's just that you and Coop act a lot alike," Jasper said, moving impossibly closer to Coop.
Blaine smiled at the two of them. That was what he wanted with Kurt, he just didn't know if he was ready.
"So how long have you known Kurt?" Jasper asked.
"Um, well the first time we officially met was a couple months ago I think," Blaine said, smiling as he remembered that day.
"What do you mean 'officially'?" Coop asked.
"We had seen each other before then. The first time I saw him was when I was going to see Emma at Mckinley and me and Jeff stopped at this coffee shop and he was leaving there, and then Jeff stopped this kid from throwing him in a dumpster at the school when we got there," Blaine answered quietly. "And the other time was at the airport right before we left for Miami last summer," he said, smiling again.
He looked up and saw Coop and Jasper both staring at him with their eyebrows raised. They're so perfect for each other, he thought.
"What?" Blaine asked. "What's up with the looks?"
"You should've seen your face just now," Jasper said.
Blaine looked at him in confusion.
Jasper rolled his eyes. "You're in love with this boy. I can tell. So whatever it is that you're scared of, let it go."
Blaine looked away from him.
Coop turned to him and shook his head. "Don't," he mouthed.
Jasper furrowed his eyebrows. "What?" he mouthed back.
"Someone tried to rape him," Coop whispered in Jasper's ear.
"Oh god," Jasper said. "I'm sorry Blaine, I shouldn't have-"
Blaine shook his head. "It's okay. I don't even know why I'm scared anymore, I mean it's not him that I should be scared of."
"What does that mean?" Jasper asked, staring at him.
Blaine sighed. "Nothing," he said quietly.
Coop opened his mouth to say something, but Jasper gave him a look that told him not to say anything.
"Just don't push everyone away," Jasper said quietly. "Trust me, it doesn't do anyone any good."
Coop squeezed his hand and turned to look at him.
"I should really go," Blaine said, standing up.
Coop stood up too, and started walking to the door with Blaine.
"I know that I've never been a very good brother to you, I was always too caught up in bringing home girls to protect myself from dad. And look how well that worked out," Coop laughed softly. "But I want you to know that if there's ever anything wrong, don't hesitate to come over here or call me or whatever."
Blaine stared up at him. "Coop. You were always the perfect brother. You've always been there for me. I remember the times when dad would get drunk and we'd sit up in your room and listen to music and talk."
Coop smiled. He stepped towards Blaine and wrapped his arms around him, squeezing him tight.
"I'll see you later," Blaine said when they pulled back.
Coop nodded.
"Bye Jasper," Blaine said, waving to him. "Thank you."
Jasper smiled and waved back.
Blaine smiled at Coop one last time and walked out of the house and towards his car.
Coop watched him from the window and then felt a pair of strong arms wrap around his waist.
"Are you alright?" Jasper whispered in his ear.
"What do you think he meant when he said that the guy that tried to rape him isn't the one he should be scared of?" Coop asked, ignoring Jasper's question.
"I don't know," Jasper said. "But I'm sure if it starts to really bother him, he'll come to you about it."
"Yeah," Coop said quietly.
"Hey," Jasper whispered. "Look at me."
Coop turned around and looked into Jasper's eyes.
"I love you," Jasper said softly.
Coop wrapped his arms around his neck and kissed him. "I love you too. Are you okay?"
"Yeah, I'm fine. I just-"
"Oh god, keep the pda to a minimum," Kimmy said walking through the door and seeing the way they were standing.
Jasper and Coop laughed.
"Okay, I'd like to point out that this isn't a public place," Jasper said, not moving his arms from around Coop's waist.
Kimmy rolled her eyes. "Was that Blaine I passed on the road out there?"
"Yeah, he just came to talk to me," Coop said.
"Well lord knows he needs that," Kimmy mumbled.
"What do you mean by that?"
"Nothing, he's just been going through a lot lately," Kimmy said. "Anyway, you two carry on," she said smiling and walking up the stairs.
"Goodnight," they both called after her.
Jasper smiled at Coop and them leaned in to kiss him.
"It's alright Jazz," Coop whispered. "You don't ever have to think about that again."
Jasper took a shaky breath, moving closer to Coop.
"I'll keep you safe. No one will ever hurt you like that again Jasper. I swear."
Blaine was greeted by the smell of cookies as he walked back into Simul.
"No, you're supposed to spray the cookie sheet first Wes," Nick said urgently.
"You know what, maybe cooking isn't for me," Wes said.
"Wes! It's Toll House cookies. You take them out of the package and put them on the tray, it's not hard," Nick said.
"But the package doesn't say anything about spraying this on it," Wes replied, pointing to the wrapper.
Nick's eyes got wide and he took a deep breath. "Hi Blaine!" he said when he looked up.
Blaine was smiling as he watched the two of them. "Hi," he replied.
"I'm gonna go upstairs, please help him," Nick said, gesturing to Wes.
"I don't need help anymore. I think I can do it," Wes called after him.
Nick rolled his eyes and kept walking.
"Wes, just, please don't burn down the building," Blaine said to him.
Wes nodded and watched him walk up the stairs behind Nick.
"Hey Nick!" Blaine called, running to catch up with him.
"Hey," Nick said cautiously, stopping in the middle of the hall to wait for him.
"Look, I'm sorry about earlier, I was just-" Blaine started.
"Don't apologize. I understand," Nick said quietly.
Blaine nodded and they started walking to their room again.
When they walked in, they saw Kurt sitting on the couch and Nick felt Blaine get tense beside him.
"I'm gonna go upstairs," Blaine said to Nick quietly.
Nick nodded and waited until he heard the door close to move. He walked towards the couch and sat down next to Kurt.
"You should go talk to him," Nick said.
"Why? What good would that do?" Kurt asked.
"I just mean talk to him. About anything. Make him realize that he doesn't need to be afraid of you."
"But how do I do that?"
"Talk about the weather, I mean it really doesn't matter," Nick said, smiling.
Kurt rolled his eyes. "Fine." He stood up and started walking to the stairs.
"I was kidding about the weather," Nick called after him.
"Oh shucks, really? That's what I was gonna talk about," Kurt said sarcastically, smiling at Nick.
Nick just shook his head.
Kurt walked up to Blaine's room and knocked on his door softly.
"Come in," Blaine said.
Kurt walked in slowly and saw Blaine sitting on the bed, smiling at him.
"Hey," Blaine said, patting the spot on the bed next to him.
Kurt walked to him and sat down on the bed.
"What are you doing?" Kurt asked, looking down at the books on his bed.
"I was just about to read through a section of this science chapter, but you've saved me from that," Blaine answered, smiling and sitting back against the headboard.
Kurt laughed lightly, and leaned back next to Blaine. "I'm glad I could help."
Blaine laughed too.
They sat in silence and after a few minutes, Blaine reached over and took Kurt's hand, intertwining their fingers gently.
Kurt looked up and met Blaine's eyes. He felt his heart speed up, but he didn't look away.
Blaine looked down at their hands and then back up at Kurt.
"So you said you wanted help with a song for your audition," Blaine said quietly.
"Yeah," Kurt replied just as quietly.
Blaine smiled at him and pulled him off the bed, not letting go of his hand. He walked over to a keyboard that he had brought up from downstairs, and sat down.
"Do you have a song in mind?" Blaine asked.
"Yeah, hold on a second. Let me go get it," Kurt said, standing up and reluctantly letting go of Blaine's hand.
Blaine smiled and watched him leave.
In less than a minute he was back.
"Don't laugh," Kurt said, handing him the music.
Blaine took the music from him and smiled when he read the title. "Why would I laugh at this?"
Kurt shrugged. "I don't know," he said barely audible.
Blaine reached down and took his hand again, looking into his eyes.
"I'd never laugh at you for wanting to sing a song like this Kurt," Blaine said, scooting to the end of his chair and laying a hand on Kurt's knee.
Kurt stared back at Blaine for a long moment until Blaine moved away abruptly.
"Okay, um, let's practice," Blaine said, turning back to the keyboard.
"I'm sorry," Kurt whispered.
Blaine shook his head. "Don't apologize."
"But you-"
"I'm fine Kurt. I promise," Blaine said, turning around again.
"It didn't scare you that time?" Kurt asked quietly.
Blaine smiled and took both of Kurt's hands in his own. "No," he whispered.
Every night for the rest of the week, Kurt went to Blaine's room and they talked and practiced.
On Friday after school, Kurt went with Blaine to Warblers practice.
"Hey Kimmy," Blaine said as they walked in the Music Hall.
"Hey Blaine," Kimmy said, turning around and waiting for him.
"You remember Kurt, right?"
Kimmy smiled. "Of course, how could I forget?"
Blaine laughed. "He wanted to audition for you today."
"Oh, well, I don't really think that's necessary, but sure," she said.
Blaine looked at Kurt. "I told you," he whispered.
Kurt kept his eyes on Kimmy and smiled, acting like he didn't hear Blaine.
"I need to talk with you about something Blaine," Kimmy said, looking back and forth between him and Kurt.
"It's alright Kimmy, whatever you need to say you can say in front of him," Blaine said.
Kimmy smiled. "You were with Coop and Jasper Monday night, right?"
Blaine hesitated. "Um, Kurt, could you go inside? I'll be there in a second."
Kurt nodded. "Sure," he said, walking into the Warbler's room.
Blaine waited until he was inside. "I was, why?"
"What did you guys talk about?" Kimmy asked. "I'm only asking because Jasper seemed upset after you left."
Blaine thought for a moment. "I don't remember talking about anything that would make him upset."
"That's alright. I was just curious. Are you alright?"
"Yeah, I just needed someone to talk to," Blaine said.
Kimmy nodded. "I understand. Let's go inside. We don't want to keep them waiting," she said, smiling.
Blaine smiled too and they walked inside together. When he walked in, he sat down at the piano bench.
"Okay guys," Kimmy said, getting everyone's attention. "Kurt is going to perform an audition for us, though I think we can all agree that it's not necessary."
Kurt rolled his eyes and stood up, walking over to the piano and leaning on it.
Blaine turned around and started playing.
Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes... and leap!
It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye I am defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!
I'm through accepting limits
'cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love It comes at much too high a cost!
All the boys in the room were staring wide eyed at Kurt. They didn't remember him sounding this amazing.
I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!
I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try Defying gravity
And you won't bring me down!
bring me down!
ohh ohhh ohhhh!
At the end of the song, all the boys were on their feet and clapping.
Blaine looked up at Kurt and smiled.
"Okay boys," Kimmy yelled, standing up and walking to the front. "I think, by that noise, we have a unanimous decision."
Everyone cheered and clapped again.
"Kurt," Kimmy shouted over everyone. "Welcome to the Warblers," she said, smiling.
Kurt smiled and looked at Blaine again, ignoring the cheering boys.
Blaine looked up again to see Kurt staring at him, and he smiled back.
"Okay guys, we need to start figuring out what we're gonna do for Regionals, but it's Friday, so go in home, I'll see you all Monday," Kimmy said.
"That was incredible," Blaine said quietly to Kurt.
Kurt's face turned pink and he smiled. "Thanks."
Blaine smiled and stood up. He walked to Kurt and reached up to kiss his cheek which made him blush even more. Which satisfied Blaine.
Kurt glared at him, but he soon couldn't help but smile.
"Let's go," Blaine said, walking out of the room, with Kurt following behind.
"Can I ask you something?" Kurt asked after a few minutes of silence.
"Of course," Blaine said, smiling at him.
"So, my dad's wedding is tomorrow and I was wondering if you would want to come with me," Kurt said softly.
Blaine's smile got bigger. "I'd love to Kurt."
Kurt smiled. "I'm staying in Lima tonight with Rachel, so I'll give you directions to the church when we get back."
Blaine nodded and reached down to take Kurt's hand as they walked, only half way listening to what he was saying.
The next morning, Blaine was walking down the stairs and almost ran straight into Jeff on the stairs.
"Well don't we look nice this morning," Jeff said, laughing. "Where are you going?"
Blaine rolled his eyes. "Kurt's dad's wedding. I'll be back later tonight."
"Kay, have fun," Jeff said, rubbing his eyes and walking up the rest of the stairs.
Right as Blaine got in his car, his phone rang. he didn't recognize the number.
"Hello?"
"Hey Blaine, it's Kurt. Can you come pick us up at Rachel's house? Her car won't start," Kurt said.
"Yeah, sure. I think I remember how to get there. By the way, whose phone are you talking on?" Blaine asked.
"It's Rachel's. I left mine in my car. And if you need directions let me know."
"Alright, I'll be there soon," Blaine said, hanging up the phone.
Blaine got to Rachel's house an hour later, though he barely remembered how to get there.
He walked up the sidewalk and knocked on the door.
"No! You can't wear that! What's wrong with you?" Rachel shouted to someone. "Oh, hi Blaine, come on in. Kurt's upstairs, second door on the left."
"Thanks Rachel," Blaine said, smiling at her and then walking to the stairs. "Kurt?" he asked quietly as he walked to the door Rachel had told him to go to.
"Hi," Kurt said, sticking his head out of the door.
Blaine smiled when he saw him. He walked into the room that he assumed was Rachel's and he went to stand next to Kurt by her dresser.
Kurt turned to him and wrapped his arms around him.
Blaine tensed up for a moment and then relaxed.
Kurt pulled back. "Are you okay?"
Blaine smiled again. "Yeah, I'm fine. We should get going though."
Kurt nodded. "Let's go get the girls."
They walked downstairs and found them all arguing over who was getting shotgun.
"No. I get it, I called it first!" Rachel shouted.
"Well, Brittany gets it in my car!" Santana shouted back.
"Ladies!" Kurt shouted to get their attention.
All eyes turned to him.
"Chill out. Let's go," Kurt said calmly.
Kurt and Blaine walked outside and Kurt got in the front seat of Blaine's car and Brittany in the front seat of Santana's. The rest of the girls stood on the sidewalk, staring at them.
"Well, what are you waiting for?" Kurt said, rolling down his window.
They all walked slowly to the two cars and soon they were pulling into the church parking lot.
Burt was waiting outside for them when they got there.
"Hey girls, Kurt, Blaine," Burt said. "What took you guys so long?"
"Rachel's awesome car wouldn't start so we had to wait for Blaine," Mercedes said.
Burt laughed. "I can fix that for you Rachel."
Rachel smiled. "Thanks Burt."
"Well lets get inside," Burt said, motioning for them all to go. "The guys are all waiting for you."
Kurt turned to Blaine. "Go sit in the first row on the right side one seat from the end on the isle side."
"Well that's specific," Blaine said, smiling.
"I know," Kurt replied, laughing. "I have to go, I'll see you inside."
Blaine nodded and started walking towards the church. He sat down inside where Kurt told him to and waited. He only had to wait five minutes. All of a sudden music started and the doors opened.
It's a beautiful night,
We're looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.
Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.
Well I know this little chapel on the boulevard we can go,
No one will know,
Come on girl.
Who cares if we're trashed got a pocket full of cash we can blow,
Shots of patron,
And it's on girl.
Don't say no, no, no, no-no;
Just say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah-yeah;
And we'll go, go, go, go-go.
If you're ready, like I'm ready.
Cause it's a beautiful night,
We're looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.
It was all of the New Directions, including Kurt. They were all dancing up an down the isle.
Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.
Oh I'll go get a ring let the choir bells sing like oooh,
So whatcha wanna do?
Let's just run girl.
If we wake up and we wanna break up that's cool.
No, I won't blame you;
It was fun girl.
Don't say no, no, no, no-no;
Just say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah-yeah;
And we'll go, go, go, go-go.
If you're ready, like I'm ready.
Cause it's a beautiful night,
We're looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.
Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.
Just say I do,
Tell me right now baby,
Tell me right now baby, baby
Just say I do,
Tell me right now baby,
Tell me right now baby, baby
Oh Cause it's a beautiful night,
We're looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.
Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.
At the end of the song, Burt and Carole came in. They were dancing too.
Kurt came to sit next to Blaine in the front row.
When everyone sat down, Blaine took Kurt's hand and held onto it.
Sometime during the vows, Kurt got up to stand with Burt and Carole.
Blaine wasn't paying attention, his eyes and mind were focused on Kurt the whole time.
Kurt came to sit next to him again, and soon the ceremony was over.
The New Directions led the way out and Blaine went with them, not letting go of Kurt's hand.
Blaine didn't pay much attention at the reception either. He kept Kurt's hand and only let go when he got up to meet Finn on the dance floor.
Her eyes, her eyes
make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
falls perfectly without her trying
She's so beautiful And I tell her everyday (yeahh)
I know, I know
When I compliment her she won't believe me
And it's so, it's so
Sad to think that she don't see what I see
But everytime she asks me "Do I look okay?" I say
When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
'Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile
The whole world stops and stares for a while
'Cause girl you're amazing Just the way you are
Blaine finally woke up from his daze when Kurt danced over to him and pulled him out of his chair and on to the dance floor.
Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she let me
Her laugh, her laugh
she hates but I think it's so sexy
She's so beautiful And I tell her everyday
Oh you know, you know, you know
I'd never ask you to change
If perfects what you're searching for
Then just stay the same
So don't even bother asking if you look okay
'Cause you know I'll say
When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
'Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile
The whole world stops and stares for a while
'Cause girl you're amazing Just the way you are
The way you are The way you are
Blaine hugged Kurt when the song ended and then walked around with him to talk to people.
"Hey Kurt," Blaine said to him about an hour later.
"Yeah?" Kurt said, turning all his attention to Blaine.
"I need to get back home," Blaine said.
"Alright, I'll walk you out." Kurt took his hand and pulled him to the parking lot.
Blaine wrapped his arms around Kurt when they got to his car.
Kurt sighed into Blaine's hair. "I'll see you when I get home," he said quietly.
"Yeah," Blaine said, getting in the car. He waved and smiled one last time before pulling out of the parking lot.
An hour later he was walking up to Simul.
He walked in and went straight up to his room an laid down on his bed.
"Hey," Jeff said, leaning against his doorway.
Blaine sat up. "Hey."
"How was it?"
"It was really sweet," Blaine said, smiling.
Jeff smiled too. "Good."
"I'm gonna get some sleep," Blaine said, standing up.
"Alright. Goodnight," Jeff said.
"Night," Blaine said, watching Jeff close the door and then flopping back down on his bed, still smiling, thinking of Kurt.
A few hours later, Kurt pulled into the Dalton parking lot and turned off his car.
It had been a good day in his opinion. His dad was happy and married, he had gotten to spend a whole day with his friends, and he got to spend time with Blaine too.
He got out of his car and started walking towards Simul.
"Excuse me?" someone asked from behind him.
"Um, hi," Kurt said slowly.
"You're Kurt, right?" the boy asked.
"Yeah. Can I help you?" Kurt asked.
He smiled. "I think you can." He pulled his jacket back to show the knife that he was carrying. "Please don't scream. I'll have to hurt your little boy toy if you do. Now, walk towards me quietly."
Kurt did as he said and walked towards him. How could his perfect day end like this? And who was this boy and what did he want?
Then a thought crossed his mind.
"You're Sebastian, aren't you?" Kurt asked quietly.
Song List:
Defying Gravity - Wicked
Marry You - Bruno Mars
Just the Way You Are - Bruno Mars