CHAPTER 11

"Lily?"

"Lily open the door"

"Open it yourself." Lily called back. I ask for either one so he sends both... Great

They slowly opened the door, Eliza came in first, closely followed by James. "What's up Lils? Sirius said we had to come up here because you didn't show up for dinner..." Eliza trailed off as she saw Lily sitting in front of her bed, head on her arms.

"Did she reply?" James asked in a kind voice as he made his way to sit next to Lily. In response just got a slight nod. Eliza looked at James questioningly, he looked up and saw confusion in her eyes and mouthed "Her sister".

That seemed to register for Eliza and she kneeled next to Lily wrapping an arm around her shoulder in a light embrace. "I'll go, let you two talk, but Lily don't believe a thing she calls you." With that she got up, leaving and closing the door behind her.

"Lily?" James asked looking at her, she looked so small, so fragile like that.

Slowly Lily looked up, she could see easily how concerned James was, sighing she handed over a piece of paper that had been sitting on the floor next to her foot.

Cautiously James took the paper and read:

Freak.

MY parents funeral was last week.

They were buried next to MY grandparents if you must know.

Don't contact me again.

I will not talk to the one responsible for the death of MY parents.

Mrs Dursley.

James was speechless and furious, how can someone be so cruel to someone like Lily? Looking up at Lily he saw she was watching him for his reaction. "Lily please tell me you don't blame yourself."

"I-But it is my fault, if I wasn't a witch, they wouldn't have been targeted." Lily was looking down, eyes on her trunk.

"Lily Evans, don't you dare blame yourself! Your parents weren't targeted, they were just in the wrong place at the wrong time, and you are an amazing witch, the world would turn to chaos if you were muggle." James could see the hint of a small smile on her face and knew that was enough for him. "Now, do you want to visit them? I can come with you or Eliza if you would prefer her."

Slowly Lily nodded. "Could we go tomorrow? I just, I need to say goodbye."

"Of course, so does that mean I'm going?"

"Only if you want to." She said still looking towards her trunk.

"Whatever you need." James said, a small smile on his face. "Come on, lets go get you some food." Then after pausing for a second added as an afterthought "Have you eaten anything today?"

Lily thought for a moment and shook her head, "No, I guess I haven't felt like eating."

"Right well you're going to eat now whether you feel like it or not." James stood and held out his hands, hesitantly Lily reached up and grabbed them, helping her up James then pulled her into a hug. After a few seconds they pulled away and James still holding one of Lily's hands pulled her through the halls towards the kitchen.

"Good Evening Master Jamie, Miss Lily, what can Mae gets you?" The small house elf said bounding up to the pair.

"Hello Mae, could we get some food for Lily she hasn't eaten today?"

The little elf's eyes went huge as though the mere thought of not eating was horrific. "Yes Sir!" She ran off to prepare the food.

"Come and sit down over here." James said pulling Lily with him to the small table and chairs mentioned.

Looking around Lily saw the kitchen was huge but all the benches were small enough for the house elves, giving the room a dollhouse kind of look.

"So..." Lily started awkwardly, "What have you been up to today?

"Uh, nothing really, sat in my room mostly, what about you? What kept you so busy you didn't eat?"

"Thoughts mostly, every hour it seemed new ones were being thrust upon me."

"Ah, I know the feeling." James sat quiet for a minute, "Ok, tomorrow morning we will go see your parents, we can take some flowers from the garden, then I am going to take you out, get your mind off things after all it would only be the 3rd day of holidays."

Lily smiled, "I would like that, where are you thinking?"

"Hmm... maybe we could go to Diagon Ally, you like Florish and Blotts don't you?, then I think we should definately get some icecream and I'm curious about the muggle cinemas, we could go there. How's that sound?"

"Perfect."

Mae came bustling forward then carrying a jug of butterbeer, closely followed by three other elves all balancing huge trays above their heads. "Heres you go Miss" The house elf said putting the jug on the table then frowning added "Mae hopes its enough."

Lily look shocked when she replied "Mae this is plenty thank you." The elf just nodded not believing but left anyway. Still shock she turned to James, "You better be helping me with this."

James grinned "Of course, my wish is you command."

Please don't kill me I know its way to long since I last updated :/ SORRY!