Author's Note: LEMON WARNING and final chapter… I've striven to keep the characters as in character as possible, which has resulted in probably one of the most awkward Kaname – Sousuke moments yet. You have been warned.
Sword and Shield
Chapter 22: It's Always Awkward
Love 1. n. (uncountable) An intense feeling of affection and care towards another person. 2. n. (uncountable) A deep or abiding liking for something. 3. n. (uncountable) A profound and caring attraction towards someone. 4. n. (countable) The object of one's romantic feelings; a darling or sweetheart. 5. n. (colloquial) A term of friendly address, regardless of feelings. 6. v. (transitive) To have a strong affection for. 7. v. (transitive) To need, thrive on. 8. v. (transitive, colloquial) To be strongly inclined towards something; an emphatic form of like. 10. v. (transitive) To care deeply about, to be dedicated to. 11. v. (transitive) To derive delight from a fact or situation. 12. v. (transitive) To lust for. 13. v. (transitive, euphemistic) To have sex with, (perhaps from make love.)
29 March 2000, 19:36 hrs
Chofu, Suburbs of Tokyo, Japan
Hotel Restaurant, Kawasaki Green Plaza Hotel
Kaname sighed as she glanced down at the remains of her meal. Across from her Mao smirked. "You okay Kaname? Sousuke will be fine, it's not like he hasn't taken a hit or two for you before."
"I know damn it!" Kaname slumped forward and sighed. "That's why I feel like crap. Even with me fighting I couldn't stop him from getting hurt." She closed her eyes. "If he died…"
"Sousuke just got nicked. He's not going to die that easy." Kurz said quickly. "The hospital just wanted to sew up the wound… and he went along with it just to ease your mind babe."
"I know, I mean if it'd been worse than that." Kaname sighed. "He's been hurt worse coming back from a mission then that and I had to bandage him up. It's the 'what if' that's haunting me Kurz. You understand? What if it was Melissa that took a round?"
Kurz turned white and slowly nodded. "Okay, okay… I understand. He'll be back here in a few hours anyway."
Melissa sighed. "So Kaname… Sousuke's been back for a while and he's been staying at the apartment… have you two?"
Kurz arched an eyebrow and grinned.
Kaname felt her face heat up with a sudden blush. "Uhh… no, we didn't do anything like that… not that I'd mind…"
"Well Tessa said something about you not being able to sleep without him." Melissa grinned wickedly. "So let me guess, you sleep together but haven't slept together?" She laughed as Kaname looked back down at her plate and fumed.
"That sounds backwards to me!" Kurz joked. "I mean, I slept with Mao before we hooked up, but that was only in survival situations."
Mao giggled. "So what's the problem Kaname? Can't work up the courage to offer up the goods, or even mention it?"
"I… would he even know how to react? He's so clueless most of the time." Kaname said deflecting the question as best she could.
"If having sex required an education I'm sure human beings would be extinct." Mao said briskly. "Are you afraid he'd reject you?"
"No! Of course not!" Kaname said quickly nearly snapping the chopsticks in her hands in two as her grip tightened.
"I know, she's scared." Kurz said.
"Of what? Being embarrassed?" Melissa rolled her eyes. "Listen, it's not like I'm encouraging you to bang my friend…"
"But you are." Kurz said quietly before a slap hit him in the side of his head from Mao.
"But, if you really want to… I'd suggest being as upfront as possible. Sousuke isn't the most knowledgeable sort in things like this but even he can't be so stupid not to know what his girlfriend showing her body off to him means." Mao said plainly. "And since we stuck you two alone in a hotel room…" She smirked. "What else would two people your age do in a hotel room?"
Kaname's cheeks were as scarlet as they came and she glanced down at the table. Show off my body? Does she mean… but I've seen how he reacts to me in a swimsuit and I don't have any lingerie… She shuddered as she realized the ultimate implication. "Melissa! Are you saying I should strut about naked till he gets a clue?"
Kurz nearly fell out of the chair and began laughing as the other people in the restaurant glanced over at them confused and Kaname was immediately grateful she'd said that in English, hopefully there weren't that many that remembered their own classes in the language listening in. Her cheeks got even redder as she stared down at her plate.
"I can provide some liquid courage if you need it." Melissa joked.
"Damn, Sousuke is such a lucky bastard…" Kurz wheezed as he tried to pull himself upright.
This is a terrible idea! Kaname swallowed down a lump in her throat and stared at the two friends. "Seriously, don't you have any better advice?"
Mao sighed. "Not really, Sousuke may have gotten a lot better in social situations and understanding emotions and all that but he's still really, really sheltered. Plus I think he's got some baggage about that from his upbringing, I can't imagine Ahmad Shah Massoud ever discussing sex with him besides saying: don't do it till you're married."
"He is a bit of prude that way, he did ask me 'when's the marriage?' when he found out me and Mao had an… encounter." Kurz sighed. "As if Melissa would ever want to be married to anybody."
"Look in the mirror Kurz." Melissa said and shrugged. "I'm sorry Kaname but getting Sousuke into bed for that… well, it'll require a bit more than most guys."
"More like almost infinitely more." Kurz agreed.
Kaname sighed and looked down at the table again. They're right, it's not like he's like most guys. Though sometimes I wonder if he's just better at suppressing it then they are… that first time I wore the white bikini he shot the wrong watermelon, it's not like him to make a mistake like that. She set her jaw and sighed. "Damn… You're probably right Melissa, and I can't see him bringing it up on his own."
"It's alright." Melissa grinned. "Though I do know he carries condoms."
"What?" Kaname asked in surprise.
"They make a decent emergency water bottle, I'm still not sure he knows what they're designed for." Melissa said.
"Oh come on, he went to High School for a year, I'm sure one of the boys informed him… or shot their mouths off." Kurz sighed. "Plus, I might have suggested something about it once or twice."
"Okay, that's enough!" Kaname said as she raised her hands. "I'm sure Tessa and Sarah would love to hear us discussing this when they come back."
"Discussing what?" Tessa asked as she stepped up beside the table and giggled as Kaname's head thumped against the table.
"Just Sousuke's continued virginity." Kurz said with a snicker.
Tessa's face blushed scarlet as Sarah sat down besides Kaname giggling. Kaname groaned, her embarrassment now reaching new heights. "Can we just drop it? Surely there are more important things for you to talk about."
"Not really, the Admiral has got it all figured out I bet." Melissa said with a grin. "Plus, your reactions are just too entertaining to pass up."
Tessa's grey eyes narrowed as she glanced at Kaname. "Really, I can't believe how juvenile these two are."
Melissa and Kurz froze in surprise. "Eh?"
"Not starting this topic while I was here…" Tessa said as she suddenly grinned and watched Kaname groan.
"Why?" Kaname muttered. "Why do I have to be so harassed about this all the time? Next Kyoko is going to show up and start bugging me about it…" She sighed. "Fine, if you all so knowledgeable experts have advice I'm all ears."
Sarah rolled her eyes. "Considering I've been designing Arm Slaves in Alaska since my head got cleared out of all the drugs I got injected with in Russia… I haven't had a chance to socialize."
"And Tessa is running a submarine which once again leaves us with Kurz and Melissa as our experts." Kaname sighed.
Tessa sighed. "Fine, so what did they say?"
"Let them repeat it…" Kaname groaned before her phone rumbled in her pocket. Sighing she pulled it out and flipped it open. "Mushi mushi?"
Her mood brightened as she heard Sousuke's voice. "Kaname, I just got out of the hospital and am on my way over to the hotel. Farzen managed to get a room there as well, so he's giving me a ride."
"How does Farzen have a ride?" Kaname asked.
"I'm not sure, he may have borrowed it." Sousuke said.
Kaname grinned. "Just be careful then, the last thing we need is you running across officer Wakana again!"
"Affirmative, I'll see you in thirty minutes or so." Sousuke answered. "Love you."
"I love you too." Kaname answered as the phone connection broke and she closed the cell phone. Seeing the stares from her cohorts she frowned. "What?"
"Must have been Sousuke…" Melissa said. "She looks so much happier."
"Clearly." Tessa said. "Now what did Weber suggest? I bet it was really…"
"Uh, I didn't suggest anything." Kurz said.
"Melissa!" Tessa glanced at the older woman who was grinning like a Cheshire cat.
Melissa leaned back. "That's between me and Kaname."
29 March 2000, 18:43 hrs
Fayzabad, Badakhshan Province, Afghanistan
The Home of the General Majhid
Sabine Refiola stared down at the meal she'd been given and let out a slow sigh, across from her General Majhid was studying a topographical map of the region strewn with hand drawn markers for units and defenses.
"Sabine... You seem to be in far better shape then you arrived." Bdakstan's Tiger said quietly and she nodded. "Good... I think you should be able to start repaying the debt you owe for your care."
She nodded once, sipped her cup of broth then took a deep breath. "I have heard rumors that you sent a courier to Japan."
The General nodded. "It is no rumor."
"He is dead." She stated flatly. "If only she had died as well." Sabine stood and pulled the hajib around her face. "You don't believe me?"
"I believe you tried... but I would not believe it for certain until I see a body." The leader of the Northern Alliance said.
Sabine scowled before turning away. She had to admit, the man had a point... very few people could escape death as reliably as Sagara Sousuke.
29 March 2000, 23:21 hrs
Chofu, Suburbs of Tokyo, Japan
Room 334, Kawasaki Green Plaza Hotel
Kaname closed the door to the bathroom and took a deep breath. She could hear Sousuke in the other room working on something or another and she closed her eyes.
Should I do this? She thought as she pulled off her shirt and dropped it into the pile of dirtied clothes. She glanced back into the mirror as she fidgeted nervously with her bra.
This is a bad idea. She thought. Only Melissa would be brazen enough to walk out naked, no... I can't go that far. I won't... it's a bad idea.
But she took a calming breath and tried to push away those thoughts. Okay, maybe doing this naked is too much... maybe, maybe I should just wear my unmentionables?
She smiled faintly and flushed at the thought of Sousuke stammering on seeing her. The image of him so stunned by her appearance sent her heart fluttering and she hurriedly slipped out of her clothes.
Sousuke muttered under his breath as he loaded one of the magazines for the Glock 17. In the fight with Delta Force he'd nearly expended both magazines and Kaname had managed to empty the Glock 26.
With a practiced thumb he pushed the last of the 9x19mm Parabellum rounds into the magazine then slapped it against his hand ensuring the rounds were secure. Sighing he picked up the Glock 17 and slammed the magazine home and chambered a round before ensuring the weapon's safety was on the safe position.
Weapon safety training would have been ashamed of him having a round chambered in the gun, but after the events of the last few days he figured that he needed every advantage if there was another attempt. Kaname and his lives depended on it, and these weren't poorly trained rent-a-mercs or terrorist thugs that were a threat to her. These were government trained special forces they'd been pitted against.
"Sousuke, you know what it means when two people our age share a hotel room…" Kaname's voice echoed from the hotel room's bathroom and he felt sweat begin to bead on his forehead.
She… she doesn't mean 'that' does she? Sousuke swallowed down a lump that quickly rose in his throat. "Uhh…"
A snicker echoed out of the bathroom. "Sousuke?" He blinked realizing the voice was no longer deadened by the barrier of the door then looked over to the bathroom.
The Glock 17 dropped to the carpeted floor with a dull thump.
Sousuke felt his mouth go dry at the sight before him. Kaname was leaning against the doorway of the bathroom. She wore an impish little smile on her face. Her long black hair glistened with moisture and he felt his face redden as he noticed that all she wore were a bra and panties. A jolt of concern shot through his body as he noticed that he could see each of her ribs… She really did lose weight under Amalgam's care. He swallowed thickly and directed his eyes back to her face trying to force away the surge of unease.
Kaname? Why… oh she's so beautiful but… did she forget her pajamas or wasn't there a bathrobe or… He felt sweat began to roll off his brow as he glanced at her again, focusing on her face trying to ignore the rest of her body.
"Uhh…" Sousuke gaped unable to get out a word let alone a complete sentence. Her giggle broke the trance he was held in and she saw that her face was flushed in embarrassment, but… she wasn't moving either.
Maybe this was a bad idea… no, a terrible idea. Kaname thought to herself as she watched Sousuke sweat buckets. She herself could feel her cheeks burning with embarrassment and she consciously suppressed an instinct to cover herself with her hands or grab the nearest towel. Damn Melissa and her suggestions, I can't believe I'm actually doing this… and Sousuke, he looks like he's about to have a seizure. Maybe this is too fast, too early…
"Uhh…" She almost lashed out at Sousuke for his inability to speak until she realized that this time the sound came from her lips not his.
"Kaname?" Sousuke could only get out the singular word as he choked and tried to look away but found his eyes locked on the woman he loved. He sounded flustered and worried, totally unsure of himself.
This is why Kyoko said nothing would happen when we started living together. Kaname thought ruefully. He has no idea how to respond, no idea how to…
Her thoughts stopped as she saw Sousuke take a deep breath and stand. Her breath caught in her throat as he slowly walked over to her, his face now a bright red and sweat running down his brow at a record setting pace.
"Kaname?" He asked quietly. "Are… are you sure about this?" He glanced down at the floor careful to keep his gaze from what lay hidden beneath her lacy undergarments.
"Baka, you always ask that…" She closed her eyes and sighed. Yeah, this was a terrible idea. Damn it Melissa, just what were you hoping would happen it's not like he'd…
She froze as she suddenly felt his warm lips press against hers and her eyes snapped open in surprise as she kissed him back, her arms running up his sides to wrap around his neck. She felt his hesitant arms wrap around her and stroke her bare back.
As their lips separated her eyes widened in surprise. "Sousuke?"
He sighed. "Kaname… I'm not sure… I don't know if… if we are ready for this."
Kaname bit her lip and nodded slowly her cheeks flushing brightly. Sousuke was about as honorable and chivalrous as they came. Perhaps it was a product of his upbringing in Afghanistan or just his nature, "I…" She felt terrible forcing the issue with this underhanded trick. Am I even ready for this? Realizing she was still being held by him she swallowed a sudden lump in her throat. "I'm sorry…"
She felt tears well up in her eyes and glanced down at the floor. I'm an idiot. I never should have listened to Mao. She's sleeping with Weber! Of course he'd be all over her if she pulled this stunt. Sousuke isn't that way.
"Kaname, please don't cry." Sousuke asked quietly as he reached up and rubbed away a tear.
Damn it. She thought. Stupid Melissa and her suggestions… She squeezed her eyes shut and swallowed down a lump in her throat. "I'm so sorry, I didn't mean… I didn't want to force you to…"
"It's not a problem… if you really want to." Sousuke swallowed nervously.
She froze, his words bouncing around in her mind. Do I really want to? That thought bounced around her head as well while she looked up into his eyes, her own uncertainty rising up in her belly. I love him, I know that and I know he loves me… if he didn't well… neither of us would be here. She sighed again and felt herself shiver, growing colder standing their unclothed. "I…" The truth dropped over her shoulders like a load of bricks. "I don't know, I want to… but I'm so nervous and scared now that I'm thinking about it…"
Sousuke nodded. "I am too."
Kaname froze again in shock and locked her gaze with Sousuke's, the cold suddenly forgotten. He's scared too? But… this is Sousuke, nothing scares him! She felt a nervous smile slip across her face. I guess being scared isn't so bad if he is too… His sweating slowed as she watched and somehow she knew that the same thought had occurred to him. Slowly he leaned forward and kissed her again, his love pouring through her and she felt her heart hammer in her chest. She gasped as his hands wrapped around her back and held her closer deepening the kiss. All the fears and nervous worries each held seemed to whither under the barrage of pleasurable sensations they felt. Their lips separated and each gasped for breath.
"Sousuke…" She said almost as a whimper as her hands reached down and tugged at his shirt, pulling it off. A single bandage was wrapped around his shoulder where a bullet had grazed him. She winced inwardly as she saw the scars on his body, she'd seen many before but a new one lanced across his chest just over his heart. Now she'd have one too from where the bullet had struck her arm.
He got that one saving me? She felt tears well up in her eyes as she looked up at him. He never said anything… what caused it? Was it Karuma or Sabine? She felt his rough hands caress her back tenderly and closed her eyes. Every touch ignited flames of heat as he leaned down and kissed her again. His lips pressed eagerly against hers and she moaned as his tongue tangled with her own. Kaname arched against him, pressing her body against his and feeling a heat build within her belly only matched by what she felt on her face.
As they broke the kiss Sousuke leaned back and looked into her eyes. "I love you Kaname…"
"I love you too." She answered as she felt his arms tighten around her.
29 March 2000, 23:35 hrs
Chofu, Suburbs of Tokyo, Japan
Room 333, Kawasaki Green Plaza Hotel
Melissa smirked as she lowered the glass from the wall. "Finally… God what I have to do to set those two up…"
"So are they…?" Weber asked as he stared up at the ceiling with his hands behind his head lying on the bed.
"If they were, would I tell you?" Mao asked as she set the glass on the table and glanced at the cooler filled with beer.
Kurz Weber chuckled. "I still have a fiber optic scope somewhere…" There was the thwack of an aluminum can filled with beer impacting his forehead and Mao snickered.
"You aren't peeking on them, that's an order!" Mao said sternly, careful not to raise her voice and alert the couple on the other side of the wall.
Kurz rubbed his head and glared at the dented beer can. "We're not military anymore babe, so I don't necessarily have to listen to you all the time."
Melissa rolled her eyes. "Lech."
"It's the mask I wear." Kurz said flatly. "Nah, I'll leave them alone. It's always awkward the first time anyway, and it's both of theirs so that'd be just damn uncomfortable." He sat upright and grinned. "Although, it would have been great to get a picture if Angel pulled what you suggested…"
"Keep thinking like that and I'm kicking your ass out." Melissa said but smiled. "Plus, if you want tail…"
Kurz sat bolt upright suddenly. "Melissa, are you suggesting what I think you're…"
"Only if you behave." She answered with a grin.
29 March 2000, 23:39 hrs
Chofu, Suburbs of Tokyo, Japan
Room 334, Kawasaki Green Plaza Hotel
Sousuke smiled as his arms wrapped around her, holding her close. I always forget she's shorter than me… she has such presence. Kaname moaned in his arms, her hot breath on his neck. Her arms were wrapped around his neck as the two of them backed slowly toward the bed.
"Sousuke…" She murmured quietly as he stroked her back affectionately. Her deep brown eyes focused on him, a content smile on her lips.
He'd come a long way in understanding Chidori Kaname, and seeing her smile like this made him realize how much more he had to learn. Maybe it's what we have to learn… Loving her and being loved by her… We've never had much time for ourselves or each other since we got back… Slowly he smiled back at her and leaned forward to press his lips against hers.
She tasted sweet and salty, a taste that made his heart thunder in his chest each time he experienced it. The soft texture of her lips on his was an ecstatic pleasure as she kissed him back and leaned forward against him pushing him toward the bed.
The lip of the mattress touched the back of his knees and he fell back, dragging her with him onto the soft comforter. She giggled as they broke the kiss and ran her hands along his chest. "Sousuke, when did you get this scar?" Her hands stopped over his heart.
He swallowed. "My last fight with Kurama…"
"Oh." Kaname sighed and leaned over him. "It seems you were lucky."
Sousuke closed his eyes and leaned back on the bed. "I suppose I was… not many people have gone through what I have and lived, let alone remained sane. Plus, I have you. How can I not be lucky?"
Kaname grinned and her hair tickled his chest. "Sergeant, I do believe you've learned how to make a joke."
He chuckled lightly and set up before pulling her into his lap. "I was being honest Kaname. I am immensely lucky to have you."
"And I am, to have you…" She ran a hand through his hair.
As Al might say, it does not compute… Kaname is being affectionate. A smirk slipped across his lips and he hugged her tightly enjoying the feel of her hair tickling his nose. The instinctive impulse to hold her at times was something he wrestled with but now… alone and on the bed, he gave it free reign.
He felt himself begin to sweat nervously as Kaname murmured and nuzzled his chest with her nose. Okay, now I'm nervous again… but she looks so adorable cradled in my arms like this, and well her softer parts are… His train of thought squealed to a sudden stop as Kaname arched her back to look up at him and smile, and in the process pressed her chest into his.
Her face fell slightly at his nervous expression. "Sousuke if you want to stop…"
"Negative." He smiled softly and she grinned then leaned back reaching behind her back. After a moment the bra slid forward off her chest and she tossed it aside now wearing an impish smile.
The sight of her bare breasts couple by the blush on her face nearly tripped a circuit breaker in his mind. She always looked beautiful to him, be it when she dressed in her mother's kimono or when she wore her school uniform, the clothing didn't matter.
If anything, it hides her beauty. He thought to himself as she wrapped her arms around his neck and leaned up to catch his lips with her own. Closing his eyes Sousuke breathed through his nose catching the fresh smell of her shampoo, the hotel's soap, and her own scent as he kissed her back and blinked in surprise as she deepened the kiss further and pressed her chest against him.
"Kaname…" He breathed as she broke the kiss and smiled at him, running her fingers across his chest and then down to the belt of his cargo pants. He jumped in surprise as she undid the buckle and removed the belt with a flourish, tossing it onto the floor behind her.
Kaname grinned at the surprised look on Sousuke's face as she ran her hands up his chest again. Still Sousuke… She giggled to herself as she leaned forward and brushed her lips against his, teasing him. This is fun… kissing Sousuke, hugging Sousuke, and teasing Sousuke… She smirked as Sousuke blinked in confusion as she leaned back, her hands slowly sliding down his chest to his pants.
A little part of her mind was screaming at her to stop, to hold back… that she was going too fast. She ignored it. Why? He's been saving me since we met… and though I might have started out as just a mission... She snickered, thinking back to North Korea. Maybe I never was, he violated orders then and saved me.
Her hands worked the button and zipper of the cargo pants and she slowly pulled them down his body, her gaze focusing on his nervous expression. As she pulled the pants off and watched them drop to the floor she laughed as a pair of smoke grenades rolled out of one pocket along with a length of piano wire. Still my military otaku, my Sousuke.
She crawled back up to him and grinned sheepishly as his gaze locked with hers. One of his calloused hands reached up and ran along her cheek, an unreadable expression on his face. The nervous sweating was gone for the moment.
"So beautiful…" His voice was barely a whisper and Kaname felt her heart thunder in her chest.
This is it, point of no return… Oh I love him, the idiot, moron, otaku, big stupid head… The train of normally offensive adjectives that ran through her brain were filled with affection for the man that had garnered them. Murmuring she leaned into his touch and closed her eyes enjoying the feel of his calloused hand on her cheek. Slowly she lifted her hand and drew his away from her cheek then leaned forward those last few centimeters between them and kissed him.
Sousuke closed his eyes as her lips met his and wrapped his arms around her, hugging her to his chest as he kissed back. Kaname's eyes fluttered as their kiss broke and she looked up into his eyes. "Sousuke…"
Her chocolate colored eyes focused on his, gazing deep into the depths and he felt his nerves tingling with excitement. His skin felt hot, like in the midst of a sudden fever and wherever she touched felt as if it was being burnt. His senses were fully alive. A state of awareness that even exceeded his normal hyper-sensitivity. The tickle of her long hair on his chest, the velvety softness of her skin, everything was rendered more intensely than normal. He never felt more alive than he did in that moment as Kaname's hands rand down his chest. A little impish smile slipped across Kaname's face.
"Sousuke?" The grin widened. "Condom?"
Sousuke shivered as though Kaname had poured ice water down his back and blinked. Condom? We have no need of an emergency water bot… Oh… He blushed deeply and glanced down at where his pants lay. "Just a moment…"
"Let me guess, in your wallet…" Kaname giggled as he nodded. Still giggling to herself, she slipped out of his grasp and picked up his pants and searched for his wallet. After a few seconds she pulled it out and extracted a condom from its innards. She paid no attention to the pair of flash bangs that had come out along with the bill fold.
Sousuke swallowed thickly as Kaname bent over him, her hands slowly running along his waist before sliding timidly underneath the waistband of his boxers. The cool feel of her hands made him shiver as Kaname slowly pulled his boxers down then backed them past his legs. Now nude and feeling extremely vulnerable, Sousuke looked up at Kaname as she ripped open the small plastic wrapper.
Kaname bit her lip as she pulled the disk of latex from the wrapper and scowled at it. How do these things work anyway? Sousuke knows how to make it into a water bottle somehow but… She scowled. Stupid plastic… Then she nodded to herself and glanced down at him feeling herself blushing furiously. The room seemed to have suddenly developed a heat wave. She took a deep breath to calm down and slowly reached out.
Sousuke jumped at her touch, his own cheeks reddened and he was sweating nervously as Kaname slowly slid the latex sheath down his length. He gulped audibly as Kaname's hands moved up his chest and she leaned down to catch his lips once again. As she did, she caught a whiff of musk and sweat, cordite, and a hint of antiseptic since he hadn't yet gotten a chance to shower since the fight. She closed her eyes as their lips met. His tasted salty and spicy, maybe it was the cordite and explosives he was always around or maybe it was just the way he was. Gunpowder in the blood… She snickered as she leaned back and looked down at him. "Sousuke…"
She jumped in his arms as she felt his hands slip down to her panties. Her heart hammered in her chest as the thin cotton fabric was slowly tugged down her waist and then her legs. She shuddered as his calloused hands stroked the side of her body. She felt damp and hot between her legs and swallowed, fighting back the embarrassment. Considering what we're about to do…
"I'm ready…" She whispered as he sat upright and wrapped his arms around her. He kissed the corner of her lips and held her tight to his body. She could feel his member throbbing against her. A fire raged in her gut. Every touch felt like a blast from a furnace as Sousuke slowly rolled her over onto her back.
"Sousuke…" She murmured as she felt his hands slowly caress her thighs and she looked up at him, seeing his nervous expression. It's okay Sousuke… I won't bite. At least I don't think I will. Her hands ran up his arms to his shoulders and pulled him down toward her. As she did, her legs rubbed softly against his thighs.
Sousuke kissed her and she closed her eyes as she felt his bare body against her. He was sweating nervously and as she felt his length brush up against her she moaned and arched her back eager to feel more of him.
"Kaname… I need to know… to know that you really want this." He said quietly, his forehead against hers and gazed locked with her eyes.
An amused smile slid across her face. Sousuke… of course I do, you idiot! She nodded slowly. "Yes." Then kissed his lips and ran a hand through his hair.
Kaname gasped as she felt him at her entrance, slowly pressing inside. She arched her back and closed her eyes feeling a wave of pleasure run through her body. All too soon she felt him at her maidenhead and she braced herself. Kaname felt tears rise in her eyes as she winced against the sudden pain, she'd known it was coming and had tried to brace herself against it, but still it hurt. She bit her lip as Sousuke moved against her, pressing his hips to hers and then gasped as the tears ran down her cheeks. Before she could catch herself a pair of words spilled from her lips. "It hurts."
Sousuke felt his heart freeze in his chest at the cry of pain and glanced down at her. Then he froze suddenly noticing the slight trickle of blood from her core and the way she winced against him, her body shuddering. I… shit! I hurt her?
He pushed himself away feeling tears well up in his eyes but as he began to move he felt her wrap her legs around him to hold him in place. "Kaname?"
"Don't stop…" She murmured as her eyes opened and locked on his.
Don't stop? But… "Kaname… I'm sorry… I… I didn't want to hurt you. Am I doing it wrong or…?"
"No… it's just. A girl's first time." Kaname looked up at him confused. "You… you don't know?"
"Know what Kaname?" Sousuke asked feeling terrified and angry at himself. I hurt her out of ignorance… I hate it when I do that! Usually it's just her feelings but she's… bleeding.
"This… this happens when…" She flushed fiercely and looked up at him. Then spoke in barely a whisper. "When a girl loses her virginity."
Sousuke stared at her, his mouth opening and closing in shock for a long moment. "You mean this is normal?" He blinked in surprise as she nodded slowly. Sousuke swallowed and felt his knees quake as he looked down at her unsure what to do. Her flushed continence and rosy cheeks ate at his uncertainty as he brushed away her tears with his thumb. "I… I never meant to hurt you…"
"Idiot!" She stated.
Sousuke flinched and tried to pull away. "Kaname, I'm sorry… I…"
"Sousuke, don't you dare run away and hide now!" Kaname stammered and he felt her legs tighten around his hips like a vice. "Besides… it, it doesn't hurt anymore."
"Kaname…" Sousuke breathed, trying to will his heart to stop hammering with nervous tension.
"Damn it Sousuke!" Kaname yelled, grabbed his head by the hair, and pulled him into a kiss. Sousuke felt his heart stop as her hands tightened their grip and her tongue pushed between his lips. The desperate hunger in the kiss reignited the passion in his heart. He pushed into her. His lips still locked on hers and heard her moan into him. She rotated her hips against him and a gasp slipped out of his lips.
Kaname arched her back beneath him, pushing her body against him. Her breasts pressed flush against his chest as her arms wrapped tightly around his back. He felt her hot breath on his neck as she clung to him. As he thrust into her, the grip tightened and he felt her nails scratch into his back. The bit of pain was easily drowned out by the pleasure he felt. The murmurs of pleasure that slipped from her lips as she buried her head in the crook of his neck egged him on.
A shudder went through her body and he could feel her muscles tighten around his throbbing member. A gasp slipped from her lips and he felt her teeth on her shoulder blade as ragged breaths blew across his skin further exciting him.
"Sousuke." Kaname gasped as he plunged into her core with a frantic intensity. She tightened her grip around him, keeping him close. "Harder." She whimpered grabbing hold of the back of his head and pulling it toward her.
Everything felt hot, like a fever and Sousuke worried that he was becoming ill as he pressed himself into her, harder, faster. Her grasp tightened around him and she moaned and fisted his hair. He could feel her tightening around him like a vise and the pulse of her muscles drawing him deeper. A growing tension ran through his whole body as Kaname arched her back and looked up at him with half-lidded eyes. Then her lips were upon his and the world ceased to exist around him. He was aware of only two things, himself and the woman that he'd come to value more than anything. Nothing else mattered.
Kaname found that she couldn't think, and could barely even move as the waves of pleasure and pain from Sousuke's movements washed over her. She drew ragged breaths through her nose, unwilling to remove her lips from his. The blood raging in her veins felt like magma and a scorching heat burned through every muscle starting at her core. Understandable thoughts had long since fled leaving her with simple instinct and a burning need for the man she was intertwined with.
She needed Sousuke… when her affections had grown to that point she couldn't place, maybe it was this very moment, but it was true. Feeling him inside her, feeling his hair between her fingers, feeling his hard muscled and scarred chest against hers was like a dream that she was afraid would disappear. He would disappear. She would wake up in the hospital… The nurses would repeat that he died on Merida Island. That would break her. So she clung to him, kissed him fiercely burning every moment into her brain.
Her body buzzed with adrenaline and endorphins, the pleasure of his movements and the unbelievable sense of belonging that filled her heart compelled her into motion and she lifted her hips from the bed to meet his throbbing member. She gasped as she felt him inside her, his heartbeat thundering through the thin barrier that separated them. His breathing had turned to ragged gasps as Kaname felt her whole body shudder and tingle.
"Sousuke…" She breathed deep as he plunged into her, filling her with each thrust and she rolled her hips to meet him, gasping for breath every time. She shut her eyes and tightened her grip on him trying to feel more of him. Her hips rolled against his and her nerves were abuzz from his ministrations.
Kaname whimpered as she reached up to his hair and pulled him down into a burning kiss. The feel of everything was overwhelming. He was part of her, holding her, and kissing her with all the passion and love he could muster. She couldn't help but whimper at the onslaught of his affection and gripped him tighter as she answered his passion with her own. As their lips separated, sweat ran down her body and coated her back as Sousuke kept up the pressure, cupped her rear and lifted it from the bed. She cried out in surprise at the new position and gasped at the sudden increase in intensity as he buried himself in her.
"Kaname…" He muttered as her grip around his neck tightened and they kissed again.
If she wasn't so flexible it would have hurt. Breathing hard through her nose she bit at his lip as he got rougher and she curled around him. As their lips separated she gasped and arched her back feeling the throbbing pleasure in her core intensify a thousand fold and her eyes fluttered. "Sousuke!"
A wave of pleasure washed over her emanating from her core, overriding all of her senses to the point she couldn't feel anything else. Her muscles seem to melt to a puddle of nothingness. Sousuke collapsed as his own orgasm overrode his body. She gasped as his body dropped atop hers and she felt his head lay upon her chest.
They laid there, exhausted both physically and emotionally and held each other. A content and comfortable silence passed between them and they relaxed in the other's presence.
Nothing she'd experienced had prepared her for the overwhelming feelings that had coursed through her body. Whispered and blushing confessions by those that had done the deed in the locker room had only hinted at the experience.
Maybe it was different for them. Kaname thought as she lay beneath Sousuke, her body still humming with her last climax. Slowly her hand ran through Sousuke's messy mop of hair and she sighed as a content smile slipped across her lips. Sousuke slowly stirred in her arms then relaxed.
Good boy, don't move… don't do anything that can ruin the moment. She thought then bit her lip irritated at her own thoughts. Sighing again she leaned toward him and kissed his chin next to the scar. "I love you."
"I love you too Kaname." Sousuke whispered back.
They laid in each other arms quietly holding each other. Kaname relaxed against him and shut her eyes. The world could take care of itself for the moment.
30 March 2000, 00:23 hrs
Haneda Airport, Tokyo, Japan
Tarmac near the General Aviation Terminal
Albus Doran stood beside Lydia as the huge cargo bay doors of the C-17 began to slide open. Around him other members of the Mithril defenders from Alaska stood up and looked out into the dark.
A light blazed on and he lifted a hand to block the beam, squinting against the sudden light. He caught sight of a woman standing atop the hood of a car, backlit from the light and there was a squeak from a megaphone.
Then a high pitch, almost childish voice echoed over the group. It was a voice he had only heard in reports and official briefing recordings, never in person.
"Former Mithril personnel, welcome to Haneda International. There are buses waiting for you if you follow the redheaded girl with the flare." A light cough came from the girl behind the megaphone. "Welcome to Japan... Let's get to work."
A cheer rang out from the mercenaries as the light dimmed and they caught sight of Teletha Tesstarossa standing before them.
To Be Continued in… Sword and Shield: Volume #2: A Family Visit