Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter because I am not the lovely JKR.

I've been working on this since I finished Chapter 16, but Homework and school has suddenly kept me busy. :P Anyway, here is the next chapter. I'm finally done, Yay! I should probably go do my homework now, but I'm thinking about reading or writing something else. I'm such a procrastinator. ~May

Chapter 17

"Don't you think we should talk to your mom about having filming equipment in it possibly and the fact that we'll be off making muggle videos?" Lily asked suddenly as they approached the front door.

"That might be helpful." James grinned at her and Lily giggled lightly.

"I can't believe you didn't even think of telling your mum." Lily grinned up at him.

"It wasn't exactly the thought I was thinking at the time." James shrugged, trying to make it seem off hand, but Lily knew exactly what he was referring to.

"Do you think she'll be alright with it?" Lily asked, skimming over James' hints.

"Most likely. It'll make the Christmas break more eventful than normal. I'm sure my mum won't mind at all." James stuck his hands in his pockets, staring at the sidewalk slightly dejected.

"Hey look," Lily started, trying to figure out how to phrase her sentence, "I know we have to pretend to be in a relationship and all, but I'm just not ready for that kind of thing. You know, a permanent relationship, you can understand that right?"

James stopped and looked at Lily's large pleading eyes. He bit the inside of his cheek, she really was pretty and as he'd learned, she had an even more beautiful personality to go with it.

"Yeah, I get it." He finally replied and Lily visibly relaxed.

"Thank you." She whispered giving him a small kiss on the cheek before continuing up the street.

"So who's going to talk to my mum about it?" James asked catching up to her a big grin on his face.

"You, I'm going to go owl my friends." Lily smiled back a small chuckle escaping her chest.

"What if I fail?"

"That's not an option then right?"

"What if I do fail then?"

"Simple, don't fail."

"Oh yeah?"

"Yeah!"

They had turned to face each other during the argument, standing right outside the Potter's front door. James cupped Lily's face gently, he began to lean forward and Lily's eyes fluttered close forgetting their earlier agreement. He was a centimeter away when Evanescence whipped open the front door to yell at her son, but was caught off guard. The two teens quickly jumped apart, and Lily coughed nervously.

"Sorry, I'll just let you-" Evanescence began to reclose the door.

"Mum I need to talk to you." James told her pushing the door back open and she waved them inside. Lily hurried off toward the room she was borrowing. Evanescence and James headed towards the kitchen, where all serious discussions took place.

When Lily reached her room she threw herself on the bed, squelching a scream into a pillow. Now what was she supposed to do? She was trying to play off her growing feelings for James Potter and nothing was working. She finally dragged herself up off the bed, pushing the thoughts of kissing James out of her mind, and walking almost robotically over to the desk where she could write her letter.

A few minutes after she'd wrote the letters, unable to find an owl; Lily sat back down on her bed. Remus walked past the door, and then backtracked, staring at the subdued Lily.

"Hey, are you alright?" He asked her standing nervously in the doorway.

"No." Lily told him honestly, Remus had no idea what to do.

"Want to talk about it?"

"Yeah, come in. Close the door." Lily told him and Remus obliged, wondering why it was important to have the door closed.

"What is this topic of upmost secrecy?" Remus cracked a smile and even the corners of Lily's mouth twitched in recognition.

"James." Was all Lily said before delving into the explanation of why he was the topic of interest.

"Thanks for understanding Mum." James smiled at Evanescence before turning away and heading toward the kitchen door.

"You know; if you just keep being yourself, one of these days you're finally going to get to kiss Lily Evans." Evanescence told her son, making him stop dead in the doorway.

"Is that the only thing you think- I love her." James finished, unable to safely phrase the beginning sentence. "I want her to love me too, not just go out and find out that I'm not really all the school thinks I am. If I lose her, I might just die."

"I never said that that wasn't true, but have you ever stopped to think, that after all these years, she may be in love with you too?" Then Evanescence pushed open the door that led to the basement and disappeared leaving James standing there, slightly dumbstruck.

After a minute or so he headed up stairs to tell Lily the good news, he was slightly surprised to find the door closed. He raised his hand to rap on the door and was shocked when a voice floated through the wood. A voice he knew very well, he'd been living with him for 6 ½ years.

"What exactly are you trying to say though?" Remus asked.

"I think- I think I may be in love with him." Lily choked out; it was obvious that she'd been crying a bit.

"Then where is the problem? All you have to do is tell him." Remus sounded immensely confused.

"I'm scared." Lily whispered, James now had his ear pressed against the door, he barely caught it.

"Scared about what?"

"That once I tell him, that if he has finally won that he finally gets to have me- I'm scared that he'll leave me, broken and shattered. That once the battle is won, he'll find no need for me to be around and then I'll have no one." Lily burst into tears again.

"Shh, Lily, don't cry. He'd never do that to you, he loves you Lily. It's not a matter of winning some great battle to him; it's the matter of having you love him for who he truly is." Remus told her, James could picture him with his arm around Lily, which made jealousy course through his veins. "He's just as scared as you, he thinks that if you know the real him that you'll never want to be around him again. Your fears are so similar. You just need to tell him Lily, you're meant to be together."

"Thanks Remus. I might tell him, but for now, I'm going to wait." Lily replied and James could hear the smile on her face.

"He'll wait for you, don't worry." Remus, James could tell, was smiling too. James decided that this moment would be a good one to knock on the door, so he did just that. He tried to control his emotions so that his face would not reveal that he'd been listening to their supposed to be private conversation.

Ooh! He was listening! He's such a Peeping Tom, well not really Peeping... More like Spying Sammy or something like that. That's beside the point though. Did you like it?

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