A/N: Man, I thought this would be the last chap, (less than 600 words,) but I can't manage to finish it and it's over 2000 words. Well, I hope this is not too cliché and it's kind of similar with one of my other stories about the dream idea. But oh well. Next chap. will be short. Review please.

rinshy, sotamthank you so much for the reviews. I'm glad that you guys like it.

OyaYansa9: Thanks for the review. Sorry about the grammar. I tried my best, but my best doesn't seem to be enough, ^_^. English is not an easy language. About the story, I wanted to do something different. We all know that Rin loves Sesshomaru, so I thought, "What if she did not loves him at first?" that's how I came up with this one. I hope this chap is not disappointing you guys.

Thanks for the read.

Both hands covered her small face as she let the painful tears stream down her pale cheeks.

The ceremony was going on right now inside the castle.

She wanted to stop it.

Destroy it!

Whatever it took to stop Sesshomaru from getting married.

But she couldn't. She could not humiliate Sesshomaru in public because of her own selfishness. He had done more than enough for her. It was her fault for letting him go in the past. The tormenting truth she had to live with for the rest of her regretful life.

That was not the only reason. He had already made it clear he didn't want her. Why else would he be marrying another woman and not looking at her at all?

She didn't want to go there and saw just how perfectly they looked together. To clarify to her agonized heart that they were now belonging to each other.

Rin hastily put on her kimono, and didn't bother to pull her hair up.

She had to get away from here. She couldn't stand seeing the sight of Sesshomaru and his mate together. Just the idea of it was already too much for her fragile heart to handle. She would break right in front of them if she saw them.

She was storming out of her room, wandering randomly, hoping to find a way out of the castle. She didn't know who passed her by or who did not, all she knew was that she needed to get out of here. Her path passed by in a blur as she ran.

To be honest, she was hoping to run into some kind of demon that would put her out of her misery. She didn't have anything left. Not anymore.

Nothing was important when she could not be with the man she loved. She gasped for breath and sobbing sounds escaped her quivering lips. She stopped running. Her legs had carried her to an area that looked like a forest, but was still inside the castle wall.

She wanted to get out of here.

She wanted to stay here.

She wanted to stay as long as she could see Sesshomaru.

She couldn't stand to stay. She would die of a broken heart to see him with his lovely mate.

But she still wanted to see him. Be with him.

As she was crying an old friend had dropped by unnoticed by her. A head gently nuzzled her neck, warm breathe tickled her skin. She turned around, eyes widened in surprise before throwing herself at the creature. "Ah-Un," she whispered and cried some more.

"Take me out of here. I can't stand being here anymore. Please." She pleaded.

The green two headed dragon slowly lowered its body to a sitting position to allow her to climb up onto its back.

Rin hugged their necks and rested her head in between theirs, too exhausted to even sit.

She felt them lift off the ground into the air, the cool breeze touching her teary face.

She had cried more tears in the past three days than in her entire life combined. Tears kept flowing just thinking that this would be the last time she would see her lord.

"Good bye lord Sesshomaru," she murmured.

Rin heard a guard screaming something and making a fuss on the ground, but she paid him no mind. She would go far, far away from here.

But going away was as painful as staying. Sesshomaru was no longer hers no matter what.

She was finally out of the castle. Ah-Un was traveling at a high speed, but slowed enough for her to feel comfortable. She smiled softly. At least her friend was here to comfort her. Traveling with her.

But she could not keep Ah-Un. Once Ah-Un took her far enough away, she would send the dragon back. Sesshomaru wouldn't be happy for her to take his property. Just then, the dragon suddenly came to a halt!

She slowly looked up wondering what the cause of their stopping was. Her eyes almost popped out, they filled her face, her jaw dropped when she saw whom it was standing in midair in front of the dragon.

Rin was confused. Why was he here when it was his wedding ceremony? Could this be real?

"Lord Sesshomaru?" she half stated, half questioned.

Was he here because she was taking Ah-Un? She almost laughed. If she knew that to get his attention was to steal Ah-Un, she would have done that long ago.

"Ah-Un. Take her down," he ordered. Sesshomaru was extremely angry; his usually emotionless face wasn't hiding his anger at all. He could use something to kill.

Great. She hoped he would take her out of her miserly.

Minutes later, they were standing inside a forest, surrounded by trees; Ah-Un was told to leave them alone. The dragon glanced a worried look Rin's way but could not disobey their master and left.

Rin felt like she was dreaming.

In front of her was an angry demon lord, but she was happy. Happy that he was looking at her for the first time since she had been here.

"You're running away," his low silky voice pulled her back from her thoughts.

She slowly nodded her head.

Why do you care? You have been ignoring me all this time!

"You don't want to be here that much?"

Of course not.

No one would want to stay and see the person they love marrying another person.

Was this his punishment for her?

Her silence gave him his answer.

"Then why did you come back?" He took a step closer to her. Rin's eyes were on her feet. "Why did your eyes look at me, pleading me, like you wanted to come back?"

His sentence made her gaze immediately shoot up to meet his furious frustrated eyes. His handsome face was dreamy even at his boiling point of anger like this moment. It almost made her smile.

So he did notice her. She wasn't ignored.

"Who do you think you are? To come and go as you please? To toy with this Sesshomaru as you like?"

Rin stared at him blankly, confused because she didn't understand where his conversation was going.

"I have let you have your way long enough! From now on, we are going to do things my way." His voice never rose, but the anger was obviously there.

Besides anger, there was something else. Hurt?

Rin found herself backed up against a tree.

"You will stay here, whether you like it or not! I have given you the chance to get away but you came right back to me. I will never let you go again. Even if I have to break your legs or chain you down, you will stay with me. No matter how far you go to try to escape, I will flip the earth and drag you back here."

Both his arms locked to either side of the tree behind her. She was trapped.

"Y- You will?" She questioned in a dry whisper, she couldn't believe her own ears. He wanted her to be here. With him.

More tears were spilling down her cheeks because of the happiness of the length he was willing to go to keep her.

"I do not lie, Rin." He confirmed.

A chuckle escaped her lips, "Really?" Instead of being afraid of the threat, she was happy. Not only was he not not ignoring her, but he wanted to have her around.

"Don't make me repeat myself, Rin. As long as I am alive, you will not be anywhere, but with me. Your tears will not waiver my decision." He said in a final tone.

"What about the wedding?" she wanted to know. He looked confused.

"Yes, Sesshomaru. What about my wedding?" Interrupted the beautiful demoness. "How could you leave in the middle of the ceremony? It cannot be continuing without you, you know that as well as anyone. Do not ruin my wedding day." Her eyes then drew to Rin, as if she just noticed her for the first time. The demoness's lips slowly formed into a smirk as if the scene before her was most amusing.

"Oh, how interesting! So she's the reason why you left." She chuckled slyly, "I thought you had no interest in women. And a human no less. Hmm…" she hummed as if she had just found out the most precious secret.

"It's none of your business." Sesshomaru spat coldly, releasing his hands from the tree.

"Sure, sure," her voice was bored, "just finish it quickly and come back. I can't have my day ruined because of you." And with that she left in her demonic ball of energy, disappearing into the sky.

Sesshomaru growled annoyingly.

That had answered Rin's question. They would still be going through with the wedding ceremony.

What was Rin to him, she wondered. For him to leave the ceremony to come after her showed that she was something to him. But what? He was still going to marry another woman. A beautiful demoness at that.

Would the demoness be okay with her being here?

Rin was a woman too; she would never want to share her man with anyone. She didn't want to share Sesshomaru with anyone.

She loved him soooo much. Would she be able to stand sharing him with the demoness?

She couldn't answer herself.

And what would the deomoness think about Rin staying with Sesshomaru?

"Would she be okay with me staying here?" she voiced.

"What does she have to do with you staying here?"

Rin couldn't believe her ears. Men were so selfish. Even Sesshomaru.

In the next few minutes, silence filled the forest. Until Sesshomaru choose to speak,

"Come," giving her a hand motioning for her to go to him so they could go back.

She hesitated.

She loved him so much she would die without him. But her love and jealousy would have killed her seeing him with another woman.

"Why?" asked Sesshomaru. What was her reason for wanting to leave him, he meant.

And there she saw something she had seen three years ago on his perfect god-like face.

Pain.

The same look as that morning she returned to the village and left him forever.

Here, he did it again. At the sight of him, all reason was lost. It didn't matter. She couldn't stand seeing him in pain. She would stay, even if it killed her.

She flung herself into his arms, holing him tight. He went stiff, confused at her action but didn't pull away.

"Because I can't stand seeing you with another woman." She decided to be honest and let everything out. Pro or con, she had to let him know what she felt before going through the decision that she would have to live with for the rest of her life.

"I love you soo much that the thought of sharing you with her is killing me," her face was showered in tears once more.

Sesshomaru's brows knitted together, but listened to what she had to say. "I know I am just a human and should be happy enough that you want me with you. But I can't help wanting you all to myself.

"After that night three years ago, every day I waited for you. Even though I knew you wouldn't come back, but still, I waited. I know it was my fault for leaving you like that. I was confused. I was scared of what would become of us. Afraid of the sudden change. I know I was wrong and it's unforgivable what I have done to you.

"Those emotions overwhelmed me, guilt, fear, confusion, but once you were gone from my life, everything became crystal clear.

"So I waited. I was in denial at first to protect myself from the fact that I had lost you because of my stupidity. But I have come to accept it. I was hoping for some kind of miracle that you would want me back. How many times I dreamt of begging for your forgiveness. Telling you how deeply I have fallen in love with you. But I couldn't. I didn't know where you were. And you wouldn't want me back.

"I thought I was okay. But once I heard about your wedding invitation, I fainted from the pain." She squeezed him tighter. His arms wrapped protectively around her as if to shoo the pain away.

"That's when I knew how much you mean to me. How much I cannot live without you. You're my life. But you didn't even look at me." She buried her face deeper into his chest. Her pitch was higher and her breath was quickening at the painful memory.

Sesshomaru had finally worked everything out. Hm… but to make sure he asked, "You did not run away because you don't want to be with me?" his anger subsided.

"Of course not. I don't know how I have survived three years without you. My life was empty. I can't do it anymore, not having you in my life."

"You are not rejecting me?"

"Why would you think that?"

"Because you ran away after sharing bed with me, again. I heard you wail." His voice was barely a whisper, "I thought you were regretting what happened between us."

"Wait!" she broke herself out of his strong arms to look at his face, "Are you saying that last night was real? That I did not dream the whole thing up?"

"Can't you tell the difference between reality and a dream?" he growled.

She laughed sheepishly, "I wasn't in the best state of mind." She hugged him once more, "How could I tell when I have been dreaming of you for the past three years only to wake up and find myself alone." She ended her sentence with a sigh.

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(Nov, 4, 12)